Chapter 85: Juanjuan is immersed in her own art...

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Recalling your wonderful first encounter, and looking at Juanjuan now dressed up in gorgeous clothes, with even the stitches on her forehead painted with exceptionally delicate artistry, the dead memories begin to attack you crazily again.

You finally remember what you forgot again.

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The argument you and Wu-chan had at Mount Feitu not long ago is still fresh in my mind.

The crisis that almost turned you two into enemies has never been resolved.

Although you have forgotten what you were arguing about at the time, you argued very fiercely anyway.

Such disputes will sow serious hidden dangers for the sincere feelings between you, and sooner or later it will become another fuse for a split between you.

Because true heartbreak never comes from a single moment, but is the result of long-term accumulation, the accumulation of seemingly insignificant little things.

Cotton can also crush people to death - Juanjuan has a deep understanding of this.

Who could feel this truth more deeply than he did?

He once loved you that way, and you once loved him that way too.

You are his only one, his mind yearns for you, his soul affirms you. And he is your only one, your body recognizes him, your heart is attached to him.

Juanjuan often dreams of the scene when you two depended on each other in the Zen temple home. That was the most earthly memory in his life. It was those beautiful memories that supported him to endure the sadness and come to this day.

The relationship between you was once so good and so true, as if it would never change.

You once lay on his lap to bask in the sun. In the warm sunshine, he lowered his head slightly, and stroked your hair with a smile on his face, as if he was stroking rare silk.

He also held you in his arms and read poetry together. In the study of Zenyuan’s house, you fell asleep in his arms, dreaming of a smile on your lips.

You all savored the snacks he made for you, the persimmons he brought you, and the birds he hunted for you...

You used your fingers to poke each word on the small waka note he wrote for you, carefully identifying each kanji on it, trying to decipher their meaning...

Days like this were supposed to continue like this.

Juanjuan often wakes up from her dreams, but the you in the dream and the you in reality, two completely different situations, often make Juanjuan's eyes filled with tears.

Because, from that day on - the day you met Sugawara Satoru, Juanjuan's world has changed drastically.

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In Juanjuan's eyes, Sugawara Satoru is a bad man who destroyed your happy family.

Although he is just a little boy, being a bad man has nothing to do with age!

Juanjuan finally persuaded herself to accept Tianyuan to join you, because in Juanjuan's opinion, Tianyuan could not pose any threat to him at all.

Tianyuan, who has a very career-oriented filter for you, has no possibility of monopolizing you at all. In her eyes, you are not a woman who will give her all her love.

Tianyuan-chan wanted less, while Juanjuan-chan wanted more. Comparing the two, Juanjuan-chan, who received more love from you, reluctantly accepted the situation.

But is this really what he wants? Not really.

Juanjuan is just temporarily suppressing that reluctance, and this is also the initial hidden danger of the sincere relationship between you.

The arrival of Sugawara Satoru completely lifted the surface of this "not unique" love, revealing the cruel inside.

From your straightforward and passionate love for Wu-chan, Juanjuan-chan, as a bystander, suddenly saw the reality that he had always been unwilling to admit.

Actually, you don't care about him that much.

Maybe you don't love him as much as he thinks.

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At that time, Juanjuan was also standing in the crowd, silently staring at the scene of you and the little boy hugging each other tightly.

He wanted to scream, but no sound came out of his throat because he clearly felt your love for the little boy, which was as dazzling as an unquenchable flame.

He was fantasizing that you could still think of him, that you could still remember him, that you could still remember him, your old love, even though you had a new lover...

He fantasized that maybe you felt the same way about Sugawara Satoru as you did about Tengen, and you actually... didn't love Sugawara Satoru that much.

But the truth made Juanjuan fall into an icy cave completely.

Your heart and eyes are filled with the little boy, and there is no one else in your mind. You look at Sugawara Satoru and just look at him.

You didn't even remember that Juanjuan-chan and Tianyuan-chan were also attending the Sugawara family's banquet with you.

You never looked back for them for even a moment, as if they had never left any trace in your heart.

This clearly made Juanjuan understand——

Your love for Sugawara Satoru is not a spur-of-the-moment thing like your love for Tengen. You really love that little boy with a round face and round eyes.

The little boy's round face showed a winner's smile, as if he was showing off to everyone that he had all your love...

But what about our Juanjuan? He can only hide in the dark corner like a mouse in the field, peeking at the happiness that does not belong to him.

If you never have it, you won't feel pain.

If you have never experienced it, you will not have any extravagant expectations.

Ari, Ari...

Juanjuan couldn't contain the waves of heartache that surged up in her.

He said, "I hate you."

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You don't know that Juanjuan has already acted out a series of experiences from shock, astonishment, disappointment, hoping that you will change your mind, disheartened, and turning love into hate.

You just finally remembered that you went back to Heian-kyo because you had a fight with Wu-chan.

The source of the evil that led to your quarrel and the key person who allowed you and your group to return to Heian-kyō - Juanjuan-chan, is now sitting in the golden palace as beautifully as a thin flower branch, holding a pipa in her arms.

It's like a gift from God.

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You actually forgot about your dear Juanjuan!

You actually forgot your once best friend Juanjuan! !

Arisa, you have committed the serious crime of loving every friend unequally!

You obviously came back to Kyoto for Juanjuan-chan, but look at what you did after coming back:

He brought back a new friend, but left him (Sukuna-chan) in Kyoto, a place where he was unfamiliar with, and left him alone, causing Sukuna-chan to become depressed and mentally distorted.

He easily seized the throne, but quickly lost his way due to his stupidity and incompetence, and was subsequently attacked by your heroic friend (Ibusuki Nuo), the embodiment of justice.

He only cared about his new love and ignored his old love. More than a month after he came back, he had two new loves (referring to Nitro and Jie), replacing his old love (referring to Tianyuan and Juanjuan).

All these are crimes!

This is evidence that you have committed the serious crime of not loving every friend equally!

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"Ari."

In the hall, Juanjuan called you softly. He lowered his eyes slightly and sighed sadly, as if he was making some kind of decision. He slowly raised his white eyelids and stared at you deeply, so focused as if he was looking at you for the last time, reluctant to leave.

He asks you: "Do you remember what you said to me?"

Faced with Juanjuan's serious soul-searching, you fell into deep thought.

What did you say to Juanjuan?

You actually really hope that you can remember, but you have said too much!

At this moment, the memory of your youth with Juanjuan, which lasted for who knows how long, also emerged in your mind!

At this moment, you suddenly realize another key issue.

That is, you don’t even remember how long you have known Juanjuan, or how long you have been friends with her.

Fortunately, Juanjuan was completely immersed in her own art of tragedy and didn't think of questioning you from this perspective - Juanjuan also didn't expect that you would be so heartless that you didn't even remember how long you had known each other!

Fortunately, he still has a filter for you and overestimates you.

Otherwise, you can only cry and say sorry to him, you just made a mistake that every minor would make.

Juanjuan will fall into an even more painful abyss of sadness and will be unable to extricate herself.

You're immediately sweating profusely!

But after thinking for a long time, you realized that the situation is not much different now.

“…”

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry, Juanjuan-chan!!"

You are quick-witted and quickly use your traditional skills: Sorry!

No matter what happens, no matter what kind of condemnation or criticism you face, sorry is omnipotent!

But you have to argue that this kind of thing is not your fault. After all, so many things happen every day, you have had so many happy times with your loved ones, and you have so many loved ones.

As we all know, happiness is something so precious that just a little bit can fill up the whole chest.

After being filled with love, you have already expanded immensely, like a big balloon that is about to float away at any time.

But the love of a close friend is the string that holds you together.

It's just that your balloon is tied to many strings, and when they appear at the same time, it looks like a bunch of tangled balls of thread.

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Juanjuan wants to be the only one, which is obviously a luxury.

Because you are too precious, a single string cannot hold you back!

Juanjuan, who is unable to understand the truth of "strength in numbers" like Nitro, Jie and Wu, naturally cannot grasp the essence of establishing a healthy and harmonious relationship with you.

So Juanjuan is destined to suffer and be sad because of love.

What's worse is that Juanjuan still thinks that he was the one who came first, because in his opinion, the time when he appeared in your life was obviously earlier than Wu-chan, earlier than Xiaozi-chan, and even earlier than Jie-chan.

As the first one who appeared in your life, as your "first love", Juanjuan stubbornly believes that you should treat him differently.

However, you expect Wujiang and his friends to be as close as lovers in their previous life.

Because Juanjuan doesn’t understand that you and Nitro have actually discussed topics like “What if there really is a previous life” a long time ago.

If there is a previous life, you must have been very good friends.

If there is a previous life, you must have been inseparable lovers.

If there was a previous life...

Juanjuan doesn't know that you once snuggled in Nitro's arms, and you lay in the same quilt in the dark, telling the story of your endless love.

He didn't know that you once snuggled in the arms of your angel, listening to her tell you her heart's thoughts.

Nitro-chan said: "Arisa, actually, I also want to have a child with you..."

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The author has something to say: I have something personal to say. Sukuna has a cursed tool called "Flying Heaven", and there is a pipa in Onmyoji that is also called "Flying Heaven". I think Juanjuan must be a musician who can play the pipa.

It's the beginning of the month, and I have jjb in my account again. Let's have a lottery! Random amount, the lowest is one coin, the highest is hundreds, let's see who has this luck hehe [shy]