This is what I deserve

For someone who is well versed in eating, drinking and having fun, finding a private chef that combines style and safety is not a difficult task. Meng Jingxuan directly sent the location to the two agents, and then left with Bing Jie and Qi Jixin.

Leaving the two of them sitting together in the back seat, Meng Jingxuan sat in the passenger seat. During the half-hour drive, the two of them naturally had something to talk about.

But apart from the insignificant greetings, Qi Jixin was almost always tapping on his cell phone, and Bing Jie glanced sideways from time to time to take in the situation.

Meng Jingxuan saw clearly through the rearview mirror that Bing Jie was a ninja, but he was not.

"Gentlemen, what do you think of the response to the drama I invested heavily in?" Meng Jingxuan tilted his head and asked the two people in the back row, gently throwing out the fatal question.

Qi Jixin looked up at him in a daze, with her cell phone clasped upside down on her lap, and seemed to not know what to say. Seeing her stunned, Bing Jie wanted to speak up and untie her skirt.

"Mr. Meng, we can only do our best and leave the rest to fate. It's hard to predict what will happen after the show starts." After saying that, he looked at Qi Jixin, who looked hesitant, and said to her, "You think the same as I do, right?"

Qi Jixin finally came to his senses, nodded belatedly, and continued slowly: "Mr. Meng, have we met somewhere before? I always feel that you look very familiar..."

These words suddenly made the atmosphere in the car tense. Bing Jie's leaning body stiffened, and a hint of panic appeared in his eyes. He turned his eyes to stare at Meng Jingxuan, afraid that Meng Jingxuan would reveal any flaws.

Meng Jingxuan's eyes widened in surprise. His surprise lasted only a moment before he raised his eyebrows playfully, turning into confusion. "I'm a recluse, you must have mistaken me for someone else."

Using the term "recluse" to describe Meng Jingxuan is completely irrelevant. Meng Jingxuan was not trying to elevate himself. He was actually talking about Bing Jie.

Qi Jixin immediately nodded apologetically and did not mention the matter again. The atmosphere in the car almost dropped to freezing point. No one spoke anymore. Qi Jixin no longer picked up his phone, but looked at the scenery passing by quickly outside the window.

Every time she looked out the window like this, Qi Jixin would feel sad, but in the past, when Sister Zhuo was by her side, she would always hide these negative emotions. Today, no one reminded her, so she let herself indulge in them.

It's said that before death, people relive their past experiences. Qi Jixin thought the scene back then would be similar to the one before her eyes. She had only one wish: to recover her lost memories.

Recalling that blank time, Qi Jixin didn't know whether to feel sad or happy. Her heart felt like a hole had been pierced through it, with a cold wind whistling through it. Did it hurt? She really didn't know.

It was just that dazed feeling, like light feathers brushing against her. It should have been painless, but the feathers kept piling up, now practically suffocating her. Perhaps soon, she would suffocate to death.

What on earth had she forgotten? Her intuition told her that it was something very important to her. But every time she asked Sister Zhuo about it indirectly, her expression was filled with indescribable pain. Over time, she stopped asking.

A whistle sounded outside the window, and Qi Jixin was startled. Then he took a few deep breaths and brought his wandering thoughts back to reality.

"Let's go, we're here." Bing Jie's voice came in a neither loud nor soft voice.

Qi Jixin couldn't explain why, but she felt inexplicably at ease. She nodded, got out of the car and followed them into the store.

As soon as we entered the shop, we could tell the owner had a very special style. The shop's decoration and furnishings were modeled after the Suzhou gardens, and even the changing scenery was vividly displayed. The guide led us through the front hall and through the spacious backyard corridor.

The backyard not only has extremely elegant landscape design, but is also decorated with various lush trees, providing the entire yard with an excellent sense of seclusion.

The sun was scorching after noon, but under such dazzling sunlight, several elegant houses were surrounded by shadows of trees, and the shadows were hazy and difficult to see clearly.

When the group approached the most secluded elegant residence, Meng Jingxuan signaled the guide to leave. He pushed open the antique hollow wooden door and entered the house first.

Bing Jie extended his hand to Qi Jixin, and she didn't hesitate to give it to him. Bing Jie put her hand in his arm and led her into the house.

Before Qi Jixin had time to think about why his movements were so natural, Bing Jie spoke up to dispel the non-existent doubts.

"This building is paved with blue bricks, some of which are uneven. If you wear high heels, be careful not to sprain your ankle."

His tone was extremely gentle, and Qi Jixin's heart was moved slightly.

The first step she took over the threshold was not very steady. Fortunately, Bing Jie beside her gave her support and she did not fall down.

She smiled and joked, "It seems you've brought others here before and seen others sprain their ankles?"

Bing Jie just smiled and said nothing. He had only brought one person here.

The first time he brought Qi Jixin here was the proposal he had been planning for a long time. At that time, he didn't even let her feet touch the ground, but carried her sideways into the house. At that time, she looked around the decorations in the building and couldn't help sighing repeatedly -

“What a nice and elegant place.”

The memory and reality overlapped exactly. Bing Jie watched her profile as she turned her head to look around, feeling mixed emotions in his heart. He lowered his eyes and blinked several times before he suppressed his true feelings.

Helping her sit at a small round table, Qi Jixin tactfully withdrew his hand. Bing Jie looked at his empty arm and felt a little annoyed.

It was rare for Meng Jingxuan to take the main seat in Bing Jie's presence, so he naturally put on airs. He cleared his throat before speaking, "No one has eaten lunch yet, so let's talk while we eat."

The remaining two people nodded in tacit understanding and stopped talking.

Qi Jixin really liked this place. She looked between Bing Jie and Meng Jingxuan and saw a large gauze screen, behind which lay a guqin. The wind rustled outside the window, stirring the gauze curtains slightly. For some reason, Qi Jixin felt a sense of loneliness.

Perhaps, the guqin is too lonely.

"Shouldn't there be a zither player here?" As soon as she started to speak, Meng Jingxuan followed her gaze and looked back. Bing Jie didn't look back. He just took a sip from the teacup in front of him. Qi Jixin continued, "Or is that zither just for decoration?"

Meng Jingxuan was not familiar with this room. After all, Bing Jie didn't allow him to come. Now he couldn't figure out what was going on, so he could only muddle through.

"Ha, it's probably due to the heightened level, just ignore it."

Qi Jixin nodded with amusement, but then she looked up from time to time, as if she was very interested in the zither. Bing Jie's eyes sparked with hope, hoping that she would remember something, such as the song he played for her there...

Unfortunately, Qi Jixin didn't show any abnormality until the meal was almost over. Meng Jingxuan noticed Bing Jie's gaze and spoke in a nonchalant manner.

"There are no outsiders here, Miss Qi, can I hear your opinion on this script?"

Qi Jixin is very casual in her interactions with others. Between the two modes of feigning compliance and being straightforward, no one knows which one she will choose. Everything depends on her heart.

Bing Jie thought that she was in a good mood today and should be able to ask something. Sure enough, his judgment was quite correct.

"I've watched the new version of the plot, and it's definitely more dramatic. I think it fits the style of the whole show very well."

"What style?"

"What is that?"

Bing Jie and Meng Jingxuan spoke one after another, and Qi Jixin did not keep anyone in suspense and spoke frankly.

"Entanglement. I think this is the only theme of this drama. The whole thing can be compared to a tornado. The male and female protagonists involved, whether they are together or apart, cannot escape these two words."

Meng Jingxuan restrained himself from looking at Bing Jie immediately. He asked, "After reading the entire script, do you think the ending makes sense?"

Bing Jie also listened attentively, as this was what he wanted to know most.

In the play, the two people are completely alienated, and the male protagonist ends up leaving the female protagonist alone, and the ending ends here.

Although Qi Jixin felt that the script was cliché, since she had accepted the role, her professional ethics allowed her to carefully study the characters, and she could answer Mr. Meng's questions perfectly.

"I'm actually a little dissatisfied. According to the character's experience, I'm really too much of a bastard." Seeing Meng Jingxuan frowning slightly, Qi Jixin thought he didn't understand, so he explained in more detail.

"I promised to protect my lover, but I failed to do so, and in the end, our relationship was almost irreparable. I don't think it's my lover's fault for being submissive and silent, nor can I blame him for not telling me about the hardship he suffered earlier."

"For me, he gave up the career that made him proud and retired completely. It can be said that the once proud and unruly him shattered his pride inch by inch. For the love of me, he gave up everything he once had."

Qi Jixin tilted her head in confusion, bit her lip, and then continued, "That's where the ending is imperfect. He left me, which was his relief, but it wasn't relief for me, who was filled with guilt."

Meng Jingxuan didn't care about being cautious. He looked at Bing Jie without daring to breathe. He knew almost everything about the love-hate relationship between the two. Qi Jixin's words today were heartbreaking to him as an outsider, not to mention how cruel it would be to Bing Jie, the person involved.

After Qi Jixin disappeared, Bing Jie once told Meng Jingxuan that he wanted to understand her predicament and feel her pain. It had nothing to do with atonement, but simply to understand her pain.

At that time, Meng Jingxuan had advised him that it was impossible for him to truly understand Qi Jixin's struggle... Now Meng Jingxuan had to admit that he had done it.

Bing Jie found the best teacher in the world, who unraveled the pain bit by bit and taught him everything.

Later, Xuan Jiazhuo received a notice and took Qi Jixin away. Bing Jie and Meng Jingxuan sat quietly in Yaju for a long time.

It was unknown how long the two of them were silent before Meng Jingxuan spoke with great reluctance, "Should I congratulate you? You have achieved your goal." Seeing him embarking on an almost self-abuse journey of atonement, Meng Jingxuan didn't know how to persuade him, or perhaps he knew that persuasion was useless, so he could only say this palely.

Only then did Bing Jie turn his head to look at the guqin and chuckle softly. There was no mockery in his laughter, but it was quite serious.

"This is the retribution I deserve. You should congratulate me."