Chapter Forty-Five

On the first day of recording, Xu Weiwei kept looking for opportunities to talk to Lin Xiangshen, at least to introduce herself or something, but unfortunately, this little wish was not fulfilled.

Lin Xiangshen was clearly not in good condition and was performing poorly, so Xu Weiwei didn't want to disturb him. That night, while resting in bed, she vowed that she must take the initiative the next day.

As a result, she failed again. She failed on the second day, the third day, and the fourth day. The recording of the show was a solo operation, with each person working independently without forming a team. She and Lin Xiangshen were practically strangers, and they didn't exchange a single word.

On the fourth night, she could no longer control her suppressed emotions and went straight to Li Nan's room. Sitting on the large bed in the middle, she said sadly, "I'm so heartbroken. Before I came here, I made a decision and made a vow in my heart that I would have at least one conversation with Lin Xiangshen."

It's been four days and there's been no progress. On the first day, I considered his mood and that he wasn't in a good state, so I deliberately didn't talk to him.

The next day, I noticed that he seemed to be in a better mood, but I felt that he was still very quiet. I felt that I shouldn't go up and bother him; I could just be patient.

On the third day, I actually noticed that he was in good condition, but I realized that I might have been worrying too much. I didn't dare to go up and talk to him, and only dared to secretly watch him from behind.

On the fourth day, which is today, I still failed to keep the vow I made. I understand that the root cause is my cowardice. I am not so kind or understanding.

I'm just afraid of being rejected. The fact that I haven't taken that step means there's hope for the future, that I can still have something to look forward to.

Once you've done it, there's no going back. What if I get rejected and he doesn't want to talk to me? I can't accept that outcome, so I keep backing away.

You know what? I actually hate those so-called heroic plots in TV dramas where the male lead saves the female lead. I think they're too melodramatic. If the female lead falls in love with the male lead because of this life-saving grace, then that love is too worthless.

But it really happened to me. When I first met him, he was like a savior, rescuing me and helping me crawl out of a muddy place.

He changed the course of my life. If it weren't for him, I don't think I would be alive now, nor would I have achieved so much.

My career is doing quite well; I'm much luckier than most streamers. I have a lot of viewers, unlike many streamers who stream 24/7 and no one watches them.

The top performers in every industry naturally make a fortune, and they have the fewest employees. Meanwhile, those at the bottom are often the most miserable, and they have the largest number of employees who will continue to work even if they lose money.

Just like many interns who don't get paid and have to pay for their own food and lodging, that's paying to work. Also, I know some of you actors go to make movies for free, even knowing that the movie will actually lose money, but you still do it out of a pursuit of art.

Filmmakers, directors, and screenwriters, if they weren't purely in it for the money, would be willing to produce content that contributes positively to society, rather than simply making bad films for profit.

Li Nan shook her head and said, "I thought you were going to get too caught up in love, but I didn't expect you to change the subject and start talking to me about the entertainment industry."

Indeed, some people in our circle have a strong artistic pursuit. I know a director who sold his house and car to finish a film, but the result was still unsatisfactory.

There aren't that many smooth-sailing stories in this world. In the end, to make a living and earn money, this director ended up making TV dramas for popular actors.

To be honest, I thought you were a brave person, but I didn't expect you to be so timid. What are you afraid of? Lin Xiangshen isn't a monster; he won't eat people.

Besides, why are you so insecure, thinking you'll be rejected? You're such a nice person, that's why he can't bear to ignore you. He'll definitely talk to you, don't worry.

"Hey, stop thinking about these things. Don't you love shipping couples? Why aren't you talking about yours today? Tell me already, I'm not used to it if you don't."

Xu Weiwei smiled sweetly and said, "Yes, I love shipping couples. I shipped a couple before, and they both cheated on each other in the end, which I didn't really understand. They chose to be together in the first place, so it must have been out of love."

If it were me, I would only choose to be in a relationship if I really loved someone. If I didn't love someone that much, or if my love wasn't that deep, I wouldn't be in a relationship.

So why cheat later? Cheating is bad for both yourself and your partner. First, it betrays your past self, and second, it betrays your current lover.

As a person, if you no longer love someone, be open about it and make it clear. What's the point of cheating then? Who are you letting down? Besides, does the person you're cheating with even know you have a husband or wife?

If you knew the truth, then you're all bad people. But if you didn't know the truth, then you're the bad guy. How can you have the nerve to harm two people in a row?

I've actually been thinking about this too, I mean, what if—and you can't call me daydreaming. What if I'm lucky and Lin Xiangshen really loves me and we end up together, but then he cheats on me?

You wouldn't believe it, he's incredibly popular. We've known each other for a while, but it's the one-sided thing—I know him, he doesn't know me, he doesn't even know my name.

We went to the same high school, but unfortunately we weren't in the same class. He was a popular figure in our high school; almost every girl in the school knew him.

Of course, the boys know about him too. After all, some boys would be particularly jealous of a male classmate who is so popular with girls, so it's not surprising that they know about him.

Back then, the number of girls confessing their love to him every day was in the hundreds. You can imagine how frightening that number was. The key point is that there were hundreds of high schools in the vicinity of our high school, which were all connected together in one high school campus.

Our high schools all had a boarding system, and students rarely commuted. Of course, there were exceptions, such as Lin Xiangshen, who was allowed to commute.

It's just that they might ask for half a class period during morning and evening self-study sessions. Anyway, if students can keep up with their studies, the school will allow them to commute to school and won't force them to live on campus. They are quite reasonable.

Back then, he wouldn't coldly reject girls; instead, he would be very gentle. I actually knew that he enjoyed the girls' adoration and was very successful in his relationships.

Unlike me, the thought of men I don't even know confessing their love to me makes me feel disgusted and want to vomit. I don't like them at all. If they pursue me, I will only feel extremely annoyed and will never say that they have good taste in choosing me.

I think the best situation is when no one is pursuing you. But if I really love someone, I'll pursue them myself. I don't agree with the idea that girls can't pursue boys.

Many women were initially pursued and won over by men, but what happened in the end? The relationship still ended badly. Since it's almost inevitable that things will end badly, why can't women take the initiative to pursue others?

Some people might say that when a woman pursues a man, it's easy to get close; maybe the man won't even like her that much, but he'll still accept her advances. Wouldn't that be great? The best way to demystify someone is to actually get them.

If you can't get something and keep longing for it, you'll have a lot of unrealistic fantasies. Once you get it, you won't have such strong illusions.

You will actually become clear-headed and realize that you were like a demon in the past, which was very stupid. If you don't get what you want, you will remain under the demon's spell and never wake up. Wouldn't that be terrible?

Besides, haven't you noticed? Handsome guys always end up with girls who aren't particularly attractive, while beautiful girls always end up with idiots. If you're brave enough to pursue them, the person you'll end up with will definitely be better than you.

If you passively wait, what you'll get is a boring, ordinary, and mediocre partner. Being with him will never bring romance or sweetness; it'll just be about settling for the mundane and getting by. Marriage, after all, is all about compatibility.

Why be like this? Girls should choose wisely, not just for short-term gains. If you see someone you like, go for it bravely. Don't let the opportunity slip by.

Being proactive is always better than being passive. Those who advise you that girls should be reserved and wait passively, you'll see that their marriages are definitely unhappy.

His love life is so rotten, isn't it foolish to still believe his views on love? Especially after I saw a woman whose husband cheated on her, and for the sake of saving face, she cheated on him too.

Then she shamelessly talked to young women about her views on love, teaching young girls how to date properly. I really think this kind of old woman is a scourge; she's unhappy in her own marriage and wants to drag more people down with her.

Many so-called relationship coaches are, as you can tell by observing their own relationship status, terribly bad at it themselves. So how can these people be qualified to teach others how to date? It's true, there's absolutely no skill required.

Li Nan stared in disbelief, mouth agape, and exclaimed, "To be honest, you surprised me. What you said makes perfect sense. You said you need to be brave, and it really makes sense."

But when it comes to actually doing it, I'm still very timid and don't dare to. Didn't you say that girls should bravely pursue their true love? You're a girl too, so why don't you try it yourself?

The principle is good, but in my opinion, its feasibility is so-so, not very reliable. If you want your words to be more credible, then do it, don't just talk, okay? Actions speak louder than words.