Chapter Thirty-Six

How did Xu Weiwei feel knowing that Lin Xiangshen wasn't as good as she had imagined? She felt happy, content, and pleased. She felt closer to Lin Xiangshen.

Her love was inherently dark and shameful; being jealous of someone without a proper relationship was like a thief playing with someone else's toy—she was the one taking advantage.

She genuinely wanted to kill any girl who got close to Lin Xiangshen, at worst to kill her, at least to harass her. In any case, she wouldn't blame Lin Xiangshen, but would blame the girl.

Just like an extremely brainless fangirl, even if the brother kisses the girl, she thinks it's the girl's fault and the brother is not at fault.

The only good thing is that she knew it was wrong and never actually did those things; it was just that love turned her into an extremely evil person.

She's just like those brainless mothers who spoil their children. If a child gets hurt in a toy store, she'll definitely cause a scene. How dare she let her precious son get hurt? What an unreasonable shrew.

When she encounters Lin Xiangshen, she really becomes extremely irrational. Just like when she saw news related to Lin Xiangshen before, even if she only looked at it for a short while, she completely lost control and had to take a break and adjust. Anyway, she couldn't do the live broadcast. Her mind was filled with nothing but Lin Xiangshen.

She recalled her terrible high school life, when she lived a pathetic life, and she learned then that those who seem easy to bully will be bullied endlessly.

Human nature is also extremely ugly, dirty and chaotic. She was bullied from top to bottom in the class. All her classmates and teachers bullied her. Even if she sat in her seat and listened attentively in class, the teacher on the podium would still deliberately make trouble for her and make her stand at the back of the class.

There wasn't a single good person among them; they were all bad, men and women, old and young, ugly and beautiful, handsome and plain—they were all the same, with gaping, bloodthirsty mouths, subjecting her to all sorts of bullying for a year.

She later couldn't understand why those teachers had no professional ethics and treated her so badly. Two years after becoming a broadcaster, she figured out the answer.

It's all because of self-interest. Teachers' basic salary is fixed, but their bonuses are linked to the students' grades in the classes they teach. Good grades mean more bonuses, and bad grades mean less bonuses.

Her grades were very poor, ranking last in the grade. The teacher deliberately made things difficult for her and suppressed her, hoping that she would be unable to bear the blow and drop out of school, so that it would not affect the class's grades.

Besides, those teachers didn't become teachers to teach every student well; they just wanted to make money, it was just a job. She became a thorn in the side because she was affecting how much money the teachers made, so it's normal for her to be targeted.

Just like how middle-aged employees are laid off by companies, if they can no longer generate value for the company, then paying them money would be a loss for the company, and of course the company doesn't want to do that.

In fact, teachers don't necessarily have such a high sense of responsibility. It's not that being a teacher means you have to educate and nurture people. Even if you just treat it as an ordinary job, just to make money, that's fine too.

Xu Weiwei supports it, but why would she deliberately harm her own student for money? As an adult, it's incredibly easy for her to bully a child.

Educational qualifications may not always be that important. Even if you fail the college entrance exam, as long as you're alive, there's hope. But deliberately trying to force your student to drop out of school, leaving them without even a high school diploma, is undeniably malicious.

Many jobs still have educational requirements. Even some factories require a high school diploma for their workers. So, to some extent, if she were to drop out of school, she would only have a junior high school diploma, making it very difficult for her to find a job in the future. Her life would be ruined.

We can't use the fact that she later became a live streamer and made a lot of money to explain her success. That was just because she was lucky to find this path. In reality, if she were an ordinary person with only a junior high school education, it would be very difficult for her to find a job. She might only be able to wash dishes in a restaurant.

It was in her second year of high school that her fortunes changed. She was rescued by Lin Xiangshen, who then learned the details of the incident. Lin Xiangshen directly sent the teacher who had bullied her to prison. Although the teacher was only imprisoned for a few days, he left a record of serving time in jail and also had his teaching certificate revoked.

The classmates who bullied her were all expelled from school, and a large group of them were sent to juvenile detention centers. They all paid the price. Xu Weiwei fell completely in love with Lin Xiangshen, who was like a god.

However, Lin Xiangshen did not have any close contact with her. Even on the day he saved her, he did not say a word, but simply chased away the girl who was bullying her and left.

However, she was very proactive. The next day, those who had bullied her paid the price at lightning speed. The school also replaced a large number of excellent teachers and reassigned classes. She was placed in a pretty good class where no one bullied her.

Logically speaking, those who bullied her have already paid the price, and she should forgive them, but she hasn't. As time goes by, she still harbors resentment towards these people, wishing they were all dead, and cursing them to live unhappy lives.

Has time made her forget the hurt she suffered? No, she hasn't forgotten it at all. Even if someone only said one sentence to her from beginning to end, she remembers it clearly.

After all, this person was just watching the show with a smile when she was being bullied. Even though he didn't do anything, his indifferent observation still bothered her.

She thinks that people who can let go are great, but she can't. Every time she thinks about the people she has hurt, she feels like killing them with her own hands. That's how much she hates them.

Anyone who has ever hurt her leaves a thorn in her heart. This thorn will always remain, cannot be pulled out, and will still cause her pain from time to time.

She actually knew that the best approach was to remove the thorns, but the best approach didn't necessarily mean the right one for her. She wasn't afraid of the pain and could endure it.

If she chooses to forgive or forget, then these people are just passersby in her life and cannot have any impact on her, which is very beneficial for her.

Unlike now, even though those people were indeed punished, she still felt uneasy and uncomfortable. Whenever she recalled those terrible things, she would still feel pain.

Is she a pain fetishist? No, of course not. She's just reminding herself never to forget that she doesn't want to make decisions she'll regret for the sake of profit.

Some sacrifices, in her view, were meaningless, just like how her teacher chose to bully her for money—seemingly reasonable, but actually disgusting.

Why should someone who hurts others receive forgiveness from the victim after being punished? What kind of logic is "admit your mistake and correct it"? Wrong is wrong.

The damage caused is a fait accompli and cannot be undone; even a lifetime of atonement cannot atone for it.

She hates those who have hurt her; this hatred will last a lifetime, and she will forever remember them. The saying that love precedes hate is utterly ridiculous.

Perhaps only someone who has never been truly harmed can say such nonchalant things, deliberately glorifying the perpetrator and whitewashing them.

Just like domestic violence, because it involves a married couple, outsiders will try to reconcile them, advising the victim to be patient and not to escalate the situation to divorce for the sake of the children.

But if you see a stranger being beaten on the street, your first reaction will definitely be to blame the person who beat them and want to step forward to stop them. Kind people would all be like that.

The person who initially said this may not have meant it that way, but this is the final result. Yes, even if you are bullied, insulted, or beaten, hating someone is because of love. There is no hate without love. This kind of statement is utterly ridiculous and laughable.

Hate is hate, and love is love. How can they be mixed together? If someone kills your parents, your children, your teachers, and your friends who love you, and you hate that person, is there love in that? No, that's pure hate, naked and utter hatred.

Li Nan remained calm. Incidents of celebrities hitting their assistants while filming on set were all too common, and she was used to it. This was also her first time working with Lin Xiangshen, and she didn't know Xu Jia's status or position, so she assumed Xu Jia was Lin Xiangshen's assistant. However, her perception was correct, but Xu Jia was not just an assistant; this was his main job, and he also had many side jobs.

His side business was known only to a few people. Even someone like Li Nan, who didn't have a high status in the industry, wasn't qualified to know who Xu Jia was.

Jiang Su and Jin Jin exchanged a glance, finding it amusing. This guy was quite a character, which suited their tastes. They were the same way; when they were in a bad mood, they liked to deliberately make things difficult for the staff.

Being an assistant in the entertainment industry is the hardest job if you work for the wrong person. It's like having a personal servant serving a young master in ancient times. When things are going well, everything is peaceful.

When things go wrong, if the young master causes trouble, the master will break the servant's legs, believing the servant has corrupted the young master. But how can a servant possibly discipline his master? The idea of ​​managing upwards is a false premise. Besides, the young master himself will use the servant as a punching bag, not treating the servant as a human being at all.

Sometimes, when you enter the entertainment industry, you see a huge gap between reality and reality. Assistants receive the lowest wages but do the most work. They have to follow celebrities around all the time, and they don't eat well, sleep well, or dress well.

Why would anyone be willing to do something that involves both mental and physical torment? Because they always feel that if they do it long enough, they can succeed.

Just like those famous agents in the entertainment industry, they were all promoted from assistants. When they were assistants, they built connections, but many assistants often failed at the step before success and couldn't persevere to that point.