Chapter 75 The Mysterious Hua Yingxiong

"Mommy, Mommy... Mommy..." A tiny baby with bright black eyes and long eyelashes, very beautiful, ran towards me, his little hands outstretched.

He was crying, his eyes were full of tears, and he was crying at me, saying, "Mommy, why don't you want me?"

My heart ached terribly, and I kept murmuring, "Don't blame me, don't blame me, I couldn't let you come into this world to suffer... Don't blame me..."

I woke up with a start; it was just a dream.

My forehead was covered in cold sweat. I lifted the car curtain and got out of the car.

It was quiet all around, except for the soldiers on night patrol.

Because of concerns about my health, the march was very slow, and we missed the post station, so we had to camp out in the open.

"Madam." When the soldiers saw me, they all bowed their heads in salute.

I was so agitated that I ignored it and sat down by the fire like a lost soul.

In my dream just now, was my subconscious mind actually trying to prevent this child from being born? I instinctively clutched my stomach, my mind in turmoil.

Looking down at the bracelet on my wrist, neither jade nor silver, a "heartstring clasp," it had locked me in this era, never to return. My dog ​​must still be waiting for me in Xiapi, but I…

"What are you thinking about?" a voice suddenly rang out from behind.

I turned around, and there was Hua Yingxiong.

He sat down beside me, poked at the fire, and took some firewood from the side to add to it, making the fire burn brighter.

“I thought you would be surprised to learn I was pregnant, but I didn’t expect you to have such a strong reaction,” he said softly.

"Oh, I thought you would stay away from me to avoid suspicion," I grinned.

He looked at me, his expression different from usual.

"If... I don't want this child, do you have any ideas?" Staring blankly at the bright red fire, I remembered that fiery sunset that day, that disdainful expression, and that forced apology.

Hua Yingxiong frowned slightly, his expression unusually serious. "I cannot take a life."

I clutched my stomach and bit my lip.

“The cause sown in the past life will bear fruit in the next. I once had a dream in which Buddha said that I had committed too many killings in my past life and was punished to suffer in the cycle of reincarnation,” Hua Yingxiong said softly. “I am destined to face a tribulation, which is why I have traveled through time. If I can save three hundred lives, I can attain enlightenment.”

I grinned, wanting to laugh, "So you're actually connected to Buddhism. Want to become a monk?"

"think."

The answer I received was a single, unexpected word. I stared at him dumbfounded, then burst out laughing, punching him in the face. "Don't be ridiculous, you playboy, you think you can become a Buddha?"

"I have saved two hundred and ninety-nine people." He looked at me, without a trace of jest, and said it seriously.

I suppressed my smile and stared intently at the centrifugal buckle on my wrist.

I can't go back.

“When Avalokiteshvara Bodhisattva was practicing the profound Prajnaparamita, he perceived that the five aggregates are empty, and thus transcended all suffering and distress… His mind was without hindrance, and because he was without hindrance, he had no fear, and was far removed from distorted dreams…” He slightly parted his lips, and began to chant.

"What are you chanting?" I rolled my eyes at him, laughing at his pretentious act.

"The Heart Sutra," he replied with an air of seriousness.

I stared at him, dumbfounded, then chuckled awkwardly, "I never knew you were such a master."

“I am destined to face a calamity, and I can only escape it by renouncing the world. Otherwise, I will be condemned to hell forever and never be able to return,” he said, looking at me. “If I can save just one more person, I can attain enlightenment, provided that my hands are not stained with blood.”

Through the firelight, I stared at Hua Yingxiong, somewhat stunned. Who exactly was he? He carried too many mysteries.

"I really envy you, knowing what you want to do," I chuckled softly, but my voice sounded like a sob.

“I’m not helping you with an abortion, not just to avoid bloodshed,” a warm, large hand patted my shoulder.

I looked up at him.

“You have a knot in your heart.” He looked at me, his eyes filled with pity.

I chuckled. Hua Yingxiong, who was always joking and cursing and never serious, actually had pity in his eyes? Good heavens, the sun has risen in the west.

Just as I was about to make a joke, Hua Yingxiong looked at me and said, "Don't try to brush me off with that rascally laughing tone anymore. You know how upset I am inside."

I froze, forced a smile, but found I had no strength left to laugh.

"I don't want him to end up like me." I said dejectedly, clutching my stomach and hanging my head.

"Um?"

“I am an abandoned child.” I looked up at him and wanted to laugh, but it was an ugly laugh. “Do you understand what an abandoned child is? I’m not an orphan, I’m not without parents, it’s just that they don’t want me.”

"So?" He looked at me, his eyes as clear and warm as water.

"So you really have the potential to be a monk!" I laughed and pointed at his eyes. "Wow, I never would have guessed that you, a playboy, could have such eyes."

"Are you worried that you're not confident you can take good care of him? Are you worried that he'll suffer as much as you have since childhood?" He looked into my eyes, without smiling.

My smile froze on my face. I then kicked the dirt with my foot and casually smoothed my hair. "You're becoming more and more like a monk."

"Actually, with this child, you have a new family, don't you?"

"Family?" I was stunned, and a warm feeling quietly rose from the bottom of my heart.

“Yes, family. From now on, you are no longer alone. You have a new family, and he will call you ‘Mom’ and will never abandon you.” Hua Yingxiong spoke softly, his voice incredibly gentle.

"Family." I gently placed my hand on my abdomen, and my lips unconsciously curved into a smile, as if everything had suddenly become wonderful.

The word "family" sounds so warm and comforting.