Chapter 40 “It seems like I should go back to being Shen Yanyan.”

Wang Shu didn't go home for several days.

In fact, Shen Qingqing did listen to what Wang Shu said. The day after they quarreled, Shen Qiwen called again and asked a lot of random questions as expected; he talked about Shen Qingqing's childhood, such as how she became vain after entering junior high school and learned to tie shoelaces only after she thought Velcro canvas shoes were ugly, and how she transferred from a good school halfway up the mountain to an ordinary school at the foot of the mountain because she didn't want to go uphill.

At the end of the chat, Shen Qiwen began a very pretentious "gratitude", guiding Shen Qingqing to be grateful to Wang Shu for taking care of her, giving her a warm home, and asking her to cherish this "good weather and good harvest" life.

She used to think this kind of talk was just casual talk from Shen Qiwen, but after Wang Shu gave her a hint yesterday, she felt like vomiting when she heard Shen Qiwen's words again. She thought sadly that the reason she hadn't grown up all these years was because her father treated Wang Shu as a "nursery" and entrusted her to him with heavy responsibilities, and would criticize the couple with words from time to time.

She began to feel a little resistant to Shen Xue, always feeling that she was her father's eyes on her. She bought two high-speed rail tickets for Shen Xue and asked her to go home and rest for a while before coming back.

You need to rest until Chen Qingqing figures it out before coming back.

Of course, the bigger reason for Chen Qingqing herself was that after getting married, she rarely had time to be alone, so Wang Shu would take her with him when he was on a business trip for more than a week.

She bought a bunch of fast food and instant noodles at the supermarket downstairs, planning to watch variety shows as soon as she opened her eyes every day, just like she did in college.

It was fine for the first few days, but on the fifth day, when Chen Qingqing was doing a hand mask and took off her diamond ring, her wedding ring fell down the drain. Chen Qingqing foolishly took chopsticks to pick it up, but the chopsticks were too thick, and the diamond ring, which was originally visible, fell deeper and deeper after she used the chopsticks to pick it up, and finally it could not be seen.

She threw away her chopsticks in frustration and sat on the toilet. For the first time, she felt that Wang Shu was right and that she was just a housewife who knew nothing.

She also posted a sad circle of friends, blocking all relatives, with the caption: "If I was still holding the camera, I would at least have some experience doing the hard work of cleaning the sewer now, right?"

She did it in a funny way.

The plumber from 58 arrived 20 minutes later. He quickly cut open the drain, took out the diamond ring, and replaced the drainpipe. The ring was covered in dirt and even had hair tangled in it. After the plumber left, the bathroom looked as filthy as if it had just been renovated, with spots of mud all over the marble countertops and mirror.

Before Shen Xue came, the cleaning of Shen Qingqing's house was done by hourly workers. Every time the hourly workers would bring their own tools and clean everything when they left. She didn't even know if there was a rag at home.

Shen Qingqing now began to recall where Shen Xue would put the rag after she came.

Balcony? She ran to the balcony and saw several rags hanging up. She took them all to the bathroom and started mopping the floor. After mopping, the original color of each rag disappeared. She tried to wring it out, but the dirty water ran down her fingers. She couldn't stand it anymore. Finally, she threw all the rags away and used two rolls of washcloths to clean the grimy floor.

Chen Qingqing went to the flowerpot on the balcony and took out a cigarette to smoke. Then she sat on the toilet lid, stepped on a bucket of dirty face towels, smoked and panted, and found that there were still a lot of mud spots on the mirror.

She had no choice but to hold the cigarette in her mouth and continue to wipe it. The mirror reflected her own appearance. Her two hands were drawing in front of the mirror like a painting soul. She held the cigarette in her mouth without holding it with her hands.

The way he held the cigarette without using his hands was very Jianghu-like, like a second-rate person. As Shen Qingqing wiped her cigarette, she burst into tears. When she finished crying and lay back on the sofa, the phone rang. The other party was Qi Yu, her university tutor.

"Chen Yanyan, how have you been lately?" Teacher Qi sent a message.

She and Qi Yu met at a cafe outside the Communication University.

Shen Qingqing stretched out her hand, smoothed her bangs, then clenched the coffee cup and said, "It's fine. My husband treats me very well too."

It's no wonder that Shen Qingqing is trying to whitewash the situation. When she was determined to go home and be a housewife, her mentor tried to persuade her to stay, so even if she had any difficulties, she didn't have the face to say them in front of her mentor.

The teacher said in confusion: I asked whether you are good or not, I didn’t ask whether your husband is good to you or not.

Qi Yu always speaks in a very unpleasant way. Shen Qingqing stuck out her tongue and said, "I'm pretty good too. Isn't being raised as a waste the ultimate goal of a person?"

Chen Qingqing thought Qi Yu would laugh, but Qi Yu didn't laugh. He continued chatting seriously. "I would show your films to your junior brothers and sisters every time we had professional classes. Once after class, one of your junior sisters came to me and asked what the senior sister who filmed the film was doing now."

Chen Qingqing said with a smile that she might disappoint her junior sister, as she is now a housewife.

Qi Yu said that as long as he didn't regret it, it was a good choice.

Shen Qingqing thought, no one would not regret something like marriage.

Shen Qingqing really wanted to change the subject, so she asked politely, which school girl is it?

Qi Yu flipped through his circle of friends and showed Shen Qingqing a photo of the other person standing at the exhibition stand at the film festival.

Qi Yu flipped through her circle of friends and showed it to Shen Qingqing, saying, "It's Lu Fei. Don't you remember her? She was just starting college when you were a senior. Once you needed an assistant for a commercial, and she went to shoot for you. It was the one that was shot in Hangzhou at the time. She said you also treated everyone to milk tea and Hunan cuisine."

Shen Qingqing racked her brains to think, but couldn't come up with this face, so she could only say awkwardly that she really didn't remember it.

Qi Yu smiled, put the phone away and said, "Lu Fei will probably be a movie star in the future. The idea he submitted to the first magazine when he was in his second year of graduate school was noticed, and he is now shooting a movie in the northwest."

“That’s great.” This was the first sentence that came from the heart after Shen Qingqing came.

No matter what they talked about later, she was in a trance. Finally, Qi Yu asked her that after Lu Fei left, he had a documentary to shoot, but lacked an executive director, so he asked Shen Qingqing if she wanted to participate.

After Qi Yu finished speaking, he added, "Before asking you, I was also very conflicted. After all, in everyone's eyes, you are in your comfort zone. I think it is a very sinful thing to pull people out of their comfort zone."

Shen Qingqing had a thousand emotions in her heart. Before she could say anything, Qi Yu said in a hurry: "Don't be so hasty to reject me. You can go back and think about it carefully. It's you who should think about it, not discuss it with your husband."

At night, the three of them video chatted again.

Shen Qingqing said that Qi Yu was 45 years old and still not married, but when she took her with her, she often told them about her dates. When she was young, Qi Yu lived in Northern Europe for a few years and had many adventures.

So Qi Yu is her stage name.

Sasa exclaimed, feeling like she had found the older version of herself. She asked Shen Qingqing to talk more about Teacher Qi. She wanted to hear about Teacher Qi's story of getting rich, so she could find a reference point and work hard.

Shen Qingqing said, it must be to make money, the price for the mentors to do projects outside must be not low, but I am not doing it for money, I just feel like a waste now.

Sun Ziyi shouted that opportunities were hard to come by, and if he didn't cherish them, he would wake up in the middle of the night and slap himself in regret.

Shen Qingqing thought to herself, now when I think about being a waste after getting married, I want to slap myself.

Sasa said, can Wang Shu let her participate?

Shen Qingqing said, to be honest, I feel that Wang Shu and I can't get along anymore.

The two pretended not to hear. After all, they always quarreled and made up. Sasa and Sun Ziyi's later state was just to listen to the fun.

Seeing that the two people ignored her, Chen Qingqing said again, "There is no one at my house now, Sasa, do you want to come?"

Sasa immediately sent a Didi order and said, "It's calling."

Shen Qingqing asked again, "Factory girl, when will you return to Beijing?"

Sun Ziyi said, I will go back next week and I have to rent a new house. This time I plan to live in Daxing, because I have been preparing to write my human observation diary recently - the factory from the perspective of a screenwriter, so I have prepared myself to have no income for half a year.

Sasa was silent for three seconds, then said, Indeed, it sounds like a project that won’t make money.

Shen Qingqing was a little confused. Why didn’t you earn any income? You could just write and sell it.

Sun Ziyi said, you wish. In the current film and television industry, you can't make money unless you write "The Wandering Earth". How can I make money by writing "Human Observation"? I originally planned to win an award.

Sasa asked, what prize?

Sun Ziyi said excitedly, the one Liang Xiaosheng got.

Sasa paused and said, "Are you talking about the Mao Dun Literature Prize..."

Shen Qingqing said awkwardly, I envy you so much, you can always find something to do for yourself.

Sasa said, I envy you so much, you can always find new hardships for yourself.

Shen Qingqing thought about it for a long time, but still didn't say anything about Wang Shu's mother. After all, if she brought it up over and over again, she would seem like a nagging woman.

Half a minute later, Shen Qiwen called again. Shen Qiwen said, since dad called you this morning and you have such an attitude, then dad will say it straight. You and Wang Shu are married, so you should cherish the good life you have now. It is normal for couples to have some frictions. As a son-in-law, Wang Shu is willing to accompany you back to Dalian for the New Year. This requires sacrifice. As a husband, he never lacks food or clothes for you, which makes your marriage very decent. In the future, as a father, Xiaoshu will definitely do a good job.

Shen Qingqing hated the way her father lectured her the most. She wanted to press withdraw, but accidentally pressed quote. When she wanted to press delete, she accidentally hit a period and sent it out.

Seeing this, his father became even more excited: Qingqing, now dad can't say anything to you. During your growth, dad has always done everything by himself. When you were a child, it was dad who changed your diapers one by one.

Shen Qingqing wanted to yell, "I'm already thirty, why are you still talking to me about diapers and Velcro canvas shoes?" She felt a fire inexplicably burst out from the back of her head.

But she had never talked back to her father, so Shen Qingqing had no choice but to send a voice message and said, Dad, don't be angry, I just pressed the wrong button.

The voice was interrupted by Sasa's phone call. She said she was downstairs. Shen Qingqing gave her the password to the house and let Sasa come in by herself.

She lay on the sofa, not wanting to see the world anymore.

When she heard the door open, her cell phone also rang. Sasa came in happily holding two bottles of wine and was just shaking it towards her, but her father sent another message. Shen Qingqing no longer treated Sasa as an outsider and spoke directly.

Sasa was holding two bottles of wine, swaying awkwardly in place.

Shen Qingqing set his father’s WeChat to do not disturb, and finally sent a message to Qi Yu.

"Teacher, I've made up my mind. I want to work on a project with you. The pay isn't important, but I also want to find something to do on my own."

Chen Qingqing waved her hand to let Sasa in, and then said sickly: I think I should go back to the days of being Shen Yanyan.