Chapter 76 Chapter 76 "Where does Xia Xia want to run to?" ...

Shen Xingchuan would rather die than believe that he has a cuckold fetish.

Throughout this journey, he was very aware of how strong his possessive desire for Yao Yingxia was, otherwise he would not have taken revenge on He Ming, causing his family to be destroyed, exiled his nephew whom he had watched grow up, and even made Yao Yingxia's brother jealous.

Such a crazy and passionate feeling was almost burning her to ashes. He wished he could hold Yao Yingxia in his palm at all times, forcing her to look at him. How could someone as hopeless as him, who would be jealous even if a male mosquito flew past Yao Yingxia, be a cuckold?

Shen Xingchuan knew that something must be wrong with him, but it definitely wasn't what Dr. Hu said.

He hadn't slept for three days and three nights, and his chest pain symptoms were getting worse. The most relaxing moment of the day was waiting for Yao Yingxia to return to the dormitory and video chat with him for a while.

Recently, Xia Xia is no longer as indifferent as before. She has become very concerned about his health. She talks to him patiently and smiles at him gently.

This brought great comfort to Shen Xingchuan, but it could not offset the impact of the nightmare.

Seeing that Shen Xingchuan's condition was getting worse, even the attending doctor was afraid that he would die suddenly, so he simply prescribed some sleeping pills for him.

Shen Xingchuan fell into a deep sleep due to extreme exhaustion. That night he finally stopped dreaming about Yao Yingxia making love with other men, and he became the protagonist.

Yao Yingxia sat astride his thighs, boneless and soft. Her slender arms, a touch of coolness, clasped around his neck, gently kissing his lips. Shen Xingchuan had never been able to resist her, and the two of them quickly became entangled. Her white fingers slid inch by inch across his taut, heated skin, until Shen Xingchuan could no longer bear it and wedged her into his body.

They hadn't seen each other for so long that his body and mind were in urgent need of relief. Shen Xingchuan felt like he was about to crush her, but Yao Yingxia's face didn't show the familiar look of pain, as if he could use as much force as he wanted.

Halfway through, he wanted to change his posture, and when he picked up Yao Yingxia, he found that they had been sitting on the familiar black leather sofa. This was after the decoration was completed. He fell in love with it at first sight when he was visiting an exhibition in Italy, and paid a deposit to buy it on the spot.

Now, he felt unwell just looking at this sofa. Yao Yingxia had done it with so many men. He saw from Yao Yingxia's terrified eyes that the whites of his own eyes had turned black. He felt like he had become some terrifying monster, wishing he could pierce her with the sharp blade beneath him.

Yao Yingxia actually wanted to escape.

When she turned around in panic, his hand grasped her slender neck with one hand. His broad palm covered the entire neck, and his knuckles tightened little by little until he had used up all his strength.

Shen Xingchuan didn't know why he was so cruel. This was Xia Xia, the only love of his life.

He thought so, but just watched her struggling desperately in his palm with an expressionless face.

Until Yao Yingxia's neck became limp in his hands, like a rose with a broken stem, it was still beautiful when it just died, but its eyes had no spirit.

Shen Xingchuan suddenly woke up in the early morning and found that his pajamas were soaked with cold sweat. The first half was clearly a long-lost sweet dream, so why did he suddenly go crazy?

He bent down in pain and opened his eyes wide as if he had survived a disaster. Fortunately, it was just a dream and he did not really strangle Xia Xia to death.

But from that day on, Shen Xingchuan could only have this horrifying dream of killing Yao Yingxia.

Sometimes in the swimming pool, Yao Yingxia's skin was so smooth that it was almost impossible to grab it. She wrapped herself around him like water. When it was the most intense, he suddenly pressed Yao Yingxia under the water until she was motionless. Her black hair floated around like seaweed, and the water in the entire swimming pool turned black.

Sometimes, in a flower field, endless jasmine buds were about to bloom, crushing them. Yao Yingxia seemed the most delicate of them all, helplessly clinging to his shoulders and swaying. Just as she was about to reach the top, the jasmine beneath her sprouted long, slender thorns, scratching her all over. He then broke off the sharpest one and stabbed it into her throat. It seemed as if blood rained from the sky, turning all the jasmine flowers red.

Waking up in the middle of the night has become the norm.

If the nightmare before had brought him more anger, now it filled him with genuine fear. It was said that dreams were a projection of the subconscious mind, and Shen Xingchuan refused to believe that he would actually want to kill Yao Yingxia.

He must be sick, and very sick. For the past half month, Shen Xingchuan has been thinking about why he has become so strange. Among all the explanations he can make, the most reasonable one is that it is because of excessive drinking that has damaged his brain.

At a certain moment, Shen Xingchuan made up his mind and carried it out thoroughly. He never touched a drop of alcohol again in his life.

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Yao Yingxia hasn't been back to City A for three weeks. According to her original plan, she could fly back once a week and spend the weekends with her mother and talk to her.

But because of the unexpected situation before school started, she was worried that her appearance in a short time would irritate Shen Xingchuan. Even if he just remembered some minor details, she would never have peace.

Even though she missed her mother very much and was unable to sleep or eat because of it, after all, judging from Xu Nian's current condition, she was afraid that they would see her less and less.

Shen Xingchuan missed her too. During their video calls, his eyes seemed to reach into the screen and envelop her. Every Friday, he eagerly waited for her to return.

Yao Yingxia had to find excuses again and again. She happened to have her period on the first weekend and made an excuse of feeling unwell. On the second weekend, she participated in a sand table competition held by the school and did not go home. Yao Yingxia had not thought of an excuse this week.

She was restless every day, but fortunately Xiao An would contact her whenever he had time, and the two of them tacitly resumed close contact.

On Friday night, Yao Yingxia returned to the dormitory and first sent a message to Xiao An: "Are you still in the hospital?"

He quickly made a video call, and when Yao Yingxia picked up the call, she saw Xu Nian lying on the hospital bed.

She took a deep breath, and her eyes began to redden again. Xiao An quickly said, "Don't worry, the nurse is taking good care of Auntie. I will come over when I have time."

Yao Yingxia was about to speak when the dormitory door was suddenly pushed open. Her roommate who lived across from her ran in and said to her excitedly, "Xia Xia, I think I saw your husband at the school gate!"

Hearing this address, she visibly stiffened and quickly hung up the phone: "Did I see it wrong?"

As far as she knew, Shen Xingchuan had not been discharged from the hospital yesterday, and Nie Yuan had not informed her in advance.

The roommate pointed to his eyes and said, "I've seen your husband's photo eight hundred times. How could I be wrong?"

Ever since Xia Xia's registration was reported, the alumni group was bustling with activity for a while. Out of curiosity, she went to social media platforms to search for related news. Since then, big data has been pushing various reports about Shen Xingchuan to her every day.

Although she had never seen him in person, Xia Xia's husband was tall and had excellent looks. He stood out in the crowd, so she was confident that she would not make a mistake.

Seeing her roommate's confident tone, her heart sank, and Shen Xingchuan's crazy and resentful eyes on the day they got the marriage certificate kept flashing through her mind.

The next second, the phone rang. The caller ID showed it was indeed Shen Xingchuan. After answering the call, he said, "Xia Xia, guess where I am?"

This almost confirmed what her roommate said. As she put on her shoes, she asked, "Are you discharged from the hospital?"

Shen Xingchuan finally couldn't hide the joy in his voice and whispered to her, "Come downstairs and meet me."

Even though the doctor said that he was not suitable for long-distance travel in his current physical condition, Shen Xingchuan did not take it seriously. If he could not see Yao Yingxia again, he would be driven crazy by those endless nightmares. Perhaps Xia Xia was the best antidote.

While waiting, Shen Xingchuan noticed that the rate at which people turned their heads to look at him was rising steadily, with some even looking back every few steps. When he came to S University before, he didn't seem to be the center of so much attention.

Until he heard someone say, "Hey, look, isn't that Yao Yingxia's husband?"

When she went downstairs, she saw Shen Xingchuan smiling at a ginkgo tree next to the dormitory building.

This person is becoming more and more abnormal.

But seeing that he seemed to be in a good mood, Yao Yingxia breathed a sigh of relief. She walked over and tugged at his sleeve, then looked up and asked, "Why are you here?"

Shen Xingchuan looked really bad. He was visibly thinner, his face was unhealthily pale, and he looked very tired.

But when those eyes saw her, a faint light still rose.

He opened his arms, hugged Yao Yingxia into his arms, and said sullenly: "Xia Xia, I'm sick."

Nie Yuan would send her Shen Xingchuan's medical records every day, so Yao Yingxia knew very well that his insomnia had reached a very serious level and his heart pain problem had not been resolved.

Yao Yingxia spoke softly and patted his back gently: "Get well soon."

Then the big hands holding her tightened, and Shen Xingchuan whispered in her ear: "Xia Xia, please help me with the treatment."

She closed her eyes and smiled bitterly: "I'm not a doctor."

Shen Xingchuan refused to give in: "I have a heart disease, and only Xia Xia can cure it."

This sentence made her feel guilty. Yao Yingxia didn't say anything for a long time. Then she heard him ask, "Do we want to go to the hotel or your house?" His breathing was already hot.

In fact, both of them don’t like hotels. Even if they are cleaned spotlessly, they always feel dirty.

In the end, she returned to her and Xu Nian's home.

As soon as she entered the door, Shen Xingchuan couldn't wait to bend down and kiss her. They hadn't seen each other for a long time, and Yao Yingxia was a little uncomfortable. But he was like a wolf that had been hungry for the whole winter, and he wanted to pull out her tongue and eat it.

He threw his clothes all over the floor. Yao Yingxia looked like a freshly peeled lychee, her fair and tender skin was as delicate as a baby's, and there was a hint of fruity sweetness.

Shen Xingchuan, however, was fully clothed, having only untied his trousers and rushed in recklessly. Yao Yingxia wasn't completely prepared; in fact, it usually took quite a while for her to even get slightly wet. Usually, Shen Xingchuan was very patient, but this time, he was a bit reckless.

He desperately wanted to shatter the dissolute Yao Yingxia in his nightmare and reshape himself into a person who would not kill her, so much so that he completely forgot to care about Yao Yingxia's feelings.

He had used all his strength almost from the moment he entered. Yao Yingxia felt great pain and reached out to push his chest, pleading softly, "Be gentle."

Shen Xingchuan seemed oblivious to the sound, his own heavy breathing and the muffled thud of his pubic bone pounding in his ears. Yao Yingxia struggled to retreat, but he grabbed her waist and pulled her back. His handsome face gradually turned ferocious, seemingly displeased with her attempt to escape. "Xia Xia, where do you want to run to?"

She closed her eyes in fear, finally just enduring it blindly. Her pitiful and helpless look only made him want to intensify it. He hammered at her like a punishment until the end, and the fear of being chiseled away finally made her let out a fragmented cry.

Shen Xingchuan seemed to be talking to himself: "How come it's been so long, and you're still not used to it?" Then he laughed, "Or maybe Xia Xia doesn't like sleeping with me at all?"

That cold laugh easily caused her to shudder. Shen Xingchuan felt as if he were being tightly wrapped around her, unable to move. The dream seemed to blend with reality, and he remembered Yao Yingxia sitting on the laps of different men, her expression relaxed and carefree.

Rage surged up, and he crushed her resistance with increasing force, wishing he could brand her like this, but his palm uncontrollably touched her neck.

Yao Yingxia's neck was snow-white and slender, like a work of art. He lingered there, feeling the warmth of the skin under his palm, accompanied by an irregular pulse, which was different from the soft touch in his dream, and it was even trembling slightly.

Yao Yingxia recalled the night she'd been gripped by him, the near-death terror she'd felt. Shen Xingchuan had been so strong that the marks on her neck had lasted for two days. When Nie Yuan saw her in the hospital, he couldn't help but feel sympathy for her, thinking his boss was too cruel.

Fortunately, he still had a trace of rationality and did not do anything else. In fact, he was very afraid that he would completely lose control. When he was in the hospital, he reminded himself every day not to hurt Xia Xia, not to hurt Xia Xia.

He forced himself to look away and stop staring at her neck. He asked Yao Yingxia to turn over and reached out to spread her long hair to cover her suggestive neck.

At the last moment, he put all his weight on Yao Yingxia, as if he wanted to become one with her.

His affectionate yet warning voice came to my ears: "Xia Xia, I love you."

"do not leave Me."

"Don't betray me."