Chapter 222 Tell her in person

Fu Shenyuan parked the car by the sea, walked around to open Jiang Ranxing's car door, and leaned down to look at her.

"Come out and take a look?" Fu Shenyuan asked her.

Jiang Ranxing nodded, but did not place her hand on Fu Shenyuan's outstretched hand.

"Move aside, I'll get out of the car myself," she said coldly.

Jiang Ranxing did not accept his kindness.

Fu Shenyuan withdrew his hand dejectedly and smiled faintly.

He followed Jiang Ranxing towards the seaside, taking two long strides to catch up with Jiang Ranxing.

Jiang Ranxing saw the man who appeared beside her, but she didn't understand what Fu Shenyuan meant.

"You brought me here just to see the sea?"

As Jiang Ranxing spoke, his brows furrowed slightly as he looked at the sea before him.

Fu Shenyuan nodded and then shook his head.

“This sea is very clean, it hasn’t been overdeveloped, and it has retained its natural state very well,” Fu Shenyuan said, his eyes becoming somewhat complicated.

"There are other stories that happened here. Would you like to hear them?"

Jiang Ranxing had never been interested in Fu Shenyuan's affairs, but for some reason, she found herself feeling a little curious this time.

Seeing that she did not refuse, Fu Shenyuan continued talking.

“When I was a child, I almost drowned on this beach. I don’t remember it very clearly, but I do remember that I was disheartened and had no desire to live anymore. I thought it would be better to sink into this sea.”

When Fu Shenyuan mentioned the past, his eyes clearly lost some of their light.

Jiang Ranxing asked, "So how did you survive?"

After saying that, Jiang Ranxing felt a distinct jolt in his head, as if someone had suddenly rung a clear bell in his ear.

She was momentarily dazed, but quickly regained her composure.

She heard Fu Shenyuan continue speaking.

"Burning Star, do you know why I value Xue Sha so much, and even confuse my feelings for her with love? It's because the person who risked her life to save me in this sea back then was Xue Sha."

"I was once very stubborn and believed that Xue Sha saved my life, that I would owe her something for the rest of my life, that I would love her for the rest of my life, because my life was given to me by Xue Sha, and that I should live for her."

"Because of these obsessive thoughts, I didn't care about anything. I thought I should do everything I could for Xue Sha, but such thoughts were bound to come at a price and bring negative things."

Fu Shenyuan and Jiang Ranxing walked to the beach. He bent his long legs and sat down on the sand. A hazy sadness welled up in his eyes, and his heart ached.

Fu Shenyuan looked up at her and said, "I paid the price for all of this, the price I never wanted to lose in my life."

Fu Shenyuan's gaze at Jiang Ranxing clearly conveyed that the price he least wanted to pay was her.

Jiang Ranxing understood, but did not respond.

Jiang Ranxing retorted, "Fu Shenyuan, I don't think the feelings you speak of for me are love. Don't you think that you might just be feeling resentful because you're not used to my leaving, and that's why you think it's love?"

In her opinion, Fu Shenyuan was merely resentful.

It's hard for anyone to get used to losing something they've always had.

Fu Shenyuan may simply not have adapted to this state of loss yet.

When Fu Shenyuan heard Jiang Ranxing ask that question, his heart felt like it was being twisted in knots.

"Is this how you see my feelings for you all this time?" Fu Shenyuan asked in a low, hoarse voice.

"Burning Star, I'm human too. Your repeated rejections hurt me. My heart is made of flesh and blood; I can't be completely unaffected. Can you please..."

Could we just take pity on him and give him some love?

Fu Shenyuan couldn't continue speaking; he avoided hearing Jiang Ranxing's rejection.

This time, Jiang Ranxing didn't speak harshly or refuse outright; instead, he sighed.

She herself didn't know why, but it seemed that when she was in this place, her mind was held back by something, and she couldn't say anything too harsh.

Jiang Ranxing said calmly, "Since you understand that there is no possibility between us, don't force the relationship. Even if I stay by your side, what's the point if we're just pretending to be together?"

Jiang Ranxing spoke calmly, analyzing the situation of the two of them with composure.

This made Fu Shenyuan feel even worse than an emotionally charged retaliation.

Fu Shenyuan looked at her beside him and said, "We could have been happy together."

Jiang Ranxing smiled and said, "You said it yourself, it should have been, but the reality is, we've reached the end."

Fu Shenyuan's eyes suddenly reddened, his nose stung, and he almost burst into tears.

What he couldn't tell Jiang Ranxing was that the two of them had truly loved each other, but their love had never overlapped. Before, it was Jiang Ranxing who loved him, and he never reciprocated. Now, however, all his love could only be given to an empty shell.

They had both loved, but they had never been in love with each other.

This realization caused Fu Shenyuan so much pain that he was almost numb.

But he still didn't want it to end like this. They had just never loved each other before, so why couldn't they fall in love again in the future?

He didn't want to lose his chance at happiness so easily.

He narrowed his eyes slightly as he looked at Jiang Ranxing, his attitude unchanged: "Ranxing, you can't deny the two of us like that. We have many tomorrows ahead of us. Tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and the days to come are all unknowns. I believe there will always be a tomorrow when we can stand together again."

Jiang Ranxing paused slightly as she looked at him, then turned her head toward the sea.

"I have no obligation to wait with you for your so-called tomorrow. For me, when it's over, it's over."

She paused for a few seconds, then continued, "Fu Shenyuan, I have no feelings for you. We're only standing together now because we share a common goal, waiting for everything to end. What's left between us then?"

Jiang Ranxing thought for a moment, then his eyes lit up.

"If you let me go, maybe I'll have a better impression of you."

Fu Shenyuan's breath hitched, and his heart was filled with aching pain.

Jiang Ranxing didn't want him anymore, not at all.

"Is there absolutely no possibility?" Fu Shenyuan asked her, his eyes red.

Jiang Ranxing saw the struggle and questioning in his eyes.

She shook her head again, spoke softly, her tone cold, "No, not at all." Tears suddenly fell from Fu Shenyuan's eyes.

He was out of options.

Whether he spoke forcefully or gently, Jiang Ranxing never once accepted him, never even cracked open his heart for him.

No matter how much he wanted to go in from outside the door, the people inside refused to see him, leaving him almost at his wit's end.

When Fu Shenyuan's eyes darkened, he thought of what the doctor had said: it was possible that Jiang Ranxing would remember the past; it wasn't entirely impossible.

Fu Shenyuan is now thinking in an extreme way that it would be nice if Jiang Ranxing could remember.

If her memory were to return, she would remember that she had loved him, and even if resentment might return along with that love, wouldn't that be far better than her current helpless situation?

He clenched his fist tightly, already wanting to try it out.

Jiang Ranxing was unaware of Fu Shenyuan's inner thoughts. She didn't want to stay there any longer because she found that the longer she stayed, the more she felt a suffocating sensation of being submerged in seawater. That feeling was both peculiar and familiar, making it difficult for her to breathe.

Jiang Ranxing stood up abruptly, and after taking two steps forward, still a little unsteady, he found his wrist being grabbed fiercely.

When she turned around, she found that Fu Shenyuan was holding her tightly.

Jiang Ranxing felt uncomfortable: "Let go, I want to go back."

Fu Shenyuan's gaze was a little off at that moment, and he didn't notice that Jiang Ranxing's micro-expression was somewhat unusual.

Jiang Ranxing tried to pull her wrist away, but found that Fu Shenyuan had used a lot of force and she couldn't move it at all.

"Fu Shenyuan! What exactly do you want..."

"Burning Star, you've lost your memory!"

Fu Shenyuan interrupted her loudly. At this moment, he was no longer afraid of accepting Jiang Ranxing's hatred. He was only afraid that Jiang Ranxing's love would never come back, and that Jiang Ranxing would treat him as a stranger from now on.

Things I didn't dare say before, I can now say out loud.

Jiang Ranxing's pupils suddenly contracted and then dilated. She felt confused: "What are you talking about? I... have amnesia?"

Fu Shenyuan nodded: "That's right, you've forgotten a lot of important things because of that car accident that left you unconscious for so long."

Fu Shenyuan paused, but didn't dare to say that it was also because of him.

Jiang Ranxing blinked rapidly a few times, then smiled doubtfully: "How could that be? I've forgotten everything, yet I remember everything..."

She looked up at Fu Shenyuan, and asked suspiciously, "Is that why you said that, hoping to make me change my mind?"

Fu Shenyuan smiled bitterly: "I wouldn't do something so despicable. The reason I didn't tell you this is so that you can live a simpler and easier life."

Jiang Ranxing asked suspiciously, "Then why are you telling me this now?"

Fu Shenyuan smiled.

Jiang Ranxing didn't really believe Fu Shenyuan's words; she didn't trust him at all.

Jiang Ranxing shook his head, relaxed a little, and said, "I don't know what your reason is for saying this, but I don't believe it. Fu Shenyuan, stop your tricks, it's pointless."

Jiang Ranxing still couldn't free her wrist, so she tried again, but to no avail. Fu Shenyuan refused to let go and wouldn't loosen his grip even a little.

Fu Shenyuan pulled her along and said, "Ranxing, your memory loss and confusion are not simply forgetting, but rather that you have remembered many things incorrectly. Do you remember that you often had headaches, and Wen Qingrang would keep taking you to see doctors? They were checking the recovery of your brain nerves."

Jiang Ranxing realized that this was indeed the case. She needed to go to the hospital for check-ups regularly. At that time, she also had questions. Even though her body was recovering quite well, she still had to keep going to the hospital.

Wen Qingrang's answer to her at that time was very vague, only saying that it was required by the doctor, so she did not ask any further questions.

And even now, headaches still frequently occur to her.

"How could Qingrang hide this from me? It's impossible..." Jiang Ranxing muttered to himself, his mind filled with these thoughts.

Fu Shenyuan continued, "Because he doesn't want you to remember that you married me because you loved me, and that you loved me for a very, very long time."

While Jiang Ranxing was stunned, Fu Shenyuan approached her, gently stroked her cheek, and looked at her with endless tenderness in his eyes.

"Burning Star, we are not the way you remember us. You loved me, more than anyone else."

Jiang Ranxing found Fu Shenyuan's words utterly unbelievable.

These things had never existed in her mind before. Fu Shenyuan's words seemed to come out of nowhere, and she couldn't believe them.

“I know you don’t believe me. Think about it carefully. Don’t you always feel something is off about things other than mine, but not about other people’s things?” Jiang Ranxing didn’t say anything. Fu Shenyuan was right. She had indeed always felt that way.

Fu Shenyuan continued, "Before you fell into a coma, you must have blamed me. I occupied too many colors in your mind, and maybe that's why your brain blocked me out. Love and blame are both colors that are too heavy."

He had ulterior motives; he didn't express resentment, only blame.

He didn't want Jiang Ranxing to recall those grievances.

Jiang Ranxing was completely stunned. She met Fu Shenyuan's gaze, but still couldn't figure it out. However, what Fu Shenyuan said didn't seem like a lie.

Did she...love Fu Shenyuan?

How is that possible?

But if it's true, when she was in love with him, he brought Lin Xuesha back. What would the former "she" have felt?

Jiang Ranxing tried to put himself in that shoes and imagine how unbearable it would be.

Jiang Ranxing felt her mind was in turmoil. She angrily broke free from Fu Shenyuan's grasp and staggered along the beach. She wanted to calm down and think about how credible Fu Shenyuan's words really were.

When Fu Shenyuan saw her leave, he thought she was having trouble handling things and was about to do something bad, so he quickly got up and followed her.

Fu Shenyuan caught up with Jiang Ranxing, pressed down on her shoulder, and stared at her intently.

At this moment, Jiang Ranxing had no desire to have any further entanglement with Fu Shenyuan, and immediately pushed him away forcefully.

The two began to struggle on the somewhat desolate beach, one wanting to leave and the other unwilling to let go, with only the sound of the waves accompanying their constant pulling.

Jiang Ranxing was getting annoyed by Fu Shenyuan's tugging. She was already feeling unwell, and now she was in an even worse mood. Without caring about the force, she raised her hand and delivered a loud slap.

Fu Shenyuan was instantly stunned by the slap. Jiang Ranxing's slap was quite forceful, and his cheek was still burning with pain.

Taking advantage of his momentary lapse in concentration, Jiang Ranxing pushed him again, this time with considerable force.

Just as the tide was rising, the two were already standing in the seawater. Jiang Ranxing's push sent Fu Shenyuan directly into the waves.

The waves surged and rolled over, instantly sweeping Fu Shenyuan into the sea.

As Jiang Ranxing looked at the scene before him, everything suddenly went black.

A voice was speaking in the darkness.

"Brother Xiaochuan, don't be afraid, I'm here with you."

As if receiving some kind of guidance, Jiang Ranxing repeated the same sentence.

As an adult, and a strong adult male at that, Fu Shenyuan would not be easily swept away by such waves. Although he was soaked to the bone, he still managed to emerge from the seawater face up.

Fu Shenyuan, who had just sat up, vaguely heard Jiang Ranxing's words.

Fu Shenyuan stared at Jiang Ranxing, his body stiff and filled with disbelief.