Chapter 48 Falling into Self-Blame

In fact, Qi Chenyan knew that Yu Li had been working overtime at the TV station for the past two days. As the initiator of the interview program, she had to be present.

He was also worried that she would get tired, so he would call her every day.

Yu Li sounded energetic throughout the phone call, and said that although she was working overtime, she was eating and sleeping on time and was not too tired.

Qi Chenyan believed it, but she never expected that Yu Li didn't eat on time and was busy until the early hours of the morning every day before dragging her tired body home.

But Qi Chenyan doesn't blame Yu Li for not taking her health seriously. He only blames himself for not being attentive enough and caring enough for her, which led to today's consequences.

If he had made a video call to Yu Li in the last couple of days to check on her, he would have noticed that she didn't look well, probably because she was overworked.

She even fainted from low blood sugar in the bathroom, and only managed to call him with her last bit of consciousness.

By then, everyone at the TV station had left, and Xu Hui, assuming Yu Li had left first, was about to lock up and leave as well.

Then Yu Li would be left in the bathroom all night, at which point not only would the baby be lost, but she herself would also be in danger.

Even though Tan Mo said that mother and child were safe, Qi Chenyan's anxiety and indescribable self-blame remained intense.

This was the first time Tan Mo had ever seen self-blame and regret on the face of his usually omnipotent and invincible good brother.

If this had happened before, and someone had told him that Qi Chenyan would one day regret it, he would have thought that person must have had their brains slammed in a door to make such an impossible joke.

But at this moment, looking at his wife sitting on the edge of the bed, holding her hand, repeatedly saying that he was not good enough, he slowly lowered his proud head, which he had never lowered before.

At this moment, Tan Mo realized that she saw the emotional fluctuations that a normal person should have in Qi Chenyan.

Qi Chenyan was invincible. He had a smooth life for almost thirty years, never suffered a defeat, and was never questioned by anyone.

Because he is excellent enough and has enough confidence.

But at this moment, he was filled with deep self-blame. Even though Yu Li was safe and sound, he still couldn't forgive himself.

Tan Mo sighed and stepped forward to pat him on the shoulder.

“Chen Yan, this is not your fault. You have been trying your best to balance family and work. It’s just that life is never smooth sailing. There will be all sorts of unexpected events.”

"Nobody wanted this accident to happen, but since it has already happened, as long as it can be avoided, the outcome will be good, and we can consider it a lesson learned."

"Besides, your sister-in-law is safe and sound, so don't blame yourself anymore. Otherwise, she will feel guilty when she wakes up."

Qi Chenyan kept his head down, his voice low and deep: "I thought I had fulfilled my duties as a husband, but today, when she called me for the last time before she fell into a coma."

“No matter how I called her, there was no response. As her husband, I was away on a business trip thousands of miles away. Even though I knew very well that something had happened to her, I couldn’t come to her side immediately.”

“She is safe and sound now, but what if she hadn’t made that call by willpower, or what if I had missed it because of work?”

At this point, Qi Chenyan's eyes surged with suppressed emotions, "She would be forgotten in the bathroom, all alone, her life hanging by a thread."

"And I know nothing about it."

He was even engrossed in socializing, oblivious to the fact that his wife was on the verge of death.

Qi Chenyan had even considered this hypothesis the whole way.

Throughout the hour and a half journey, these hypothetical scenarios kept flashing through his mind, tormenting his nerves.

At this moment, Qi Chenyan, who was always strong and confident, fell into deep self-doubt.

“But there’s no such assumption now. Your sister-in-law and the child are both fine, so don’t blame yourself anymore. This is your first time being a husband and a father.”

“There will always be things you do wrong in this process. I’ve seen many new fathers in the hospital, and they are much more flustered than you.”

"It's inherently difficult to balance work and family, especially given the unique nature of your job. I think your sister-in-law knew this when she chose to marry you and was prepared for it, so don't overthink it."

Qi Chenyan remained silent. Tan Mo knew that although today's accident was a close call, given Qi Chenyan's personality, he probably wouldn't be able to forgive himself for a while.

As his brother, he could try to persuade him, but Qi Chenyan wouldn't listen, and no matter how much he said, it was useless.

It seems that only when Yu Li wakes up and his wife speaks up herself can he let go of his guilt.

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The first thing Yu Li did after waking up was to reach out and touch her lower abdomen.

Although she had never thought about becoming a mother before, after feeling the presence of her child through an ultrasound, she felt as if she could feel the child's heartbeat every day.

So the first thing she did after regaining consciousness was to make sure the child was safe and sound.

"The child is fine, don't worry."

It wasn't until she heard a man's deep, slightly husky voice that Yu Li realized with surprise that Qi Chenyan, who was supposed to be away on a business trip, was actually by her side.

For a fleeting moment, upon seeing Qi Chenyan, her heart skipped a few seconds, yet she also felt a strange sense of calm as her anxious heart slowly settled down.

Why are you back?

Clearly, Yu Li had no recollection of who she had last called before she lost consciousness last night.

Qi Chenyan sighed and said, "Did you forget who you called last night? You really scared me."

The word "terrified" sounded somewhat unsettling coming from Qi Chenyan's calm face.

Yu Li blinked slowly. "Did I call you?"

Seeing Yu Li's obvious surprise, Qi Chenyan was both annoyed and amused.

"If you're not calling me, who else would you be calling? Mrs. Qi, have you forgotten whose wife you are again?"

Yu Li couldn't help feeling a little guilty, because she had been working too hard and had fainted due to low blood sugar.

However, during the past two days when she was working overtime, Qi Chenyan called her, and she said that everything was fine and that she wasn't very busy because her colleagues were helping her.

But right now, she fainted due to low blood sugar and, in a moment of near-death, called Qi Chenyan.

Put yourself in her shoes. If she received a message from Qi Chenyan saying he wasn't feeling well and then fainted, she would be terrified too.

Yu Li pursed her pale, dry lips. "I'm sorry I scared you. I didn't know I was so weak. I worked overtime for two days and fainted because of low blood sugar. This has never happened before..."

She used to be stronger than an ox, and could easily take on ten people at once.

Would you like some water?

While asking the question, Qi Chenyan turned around and poured a glass of water. After making sure it wasn't too hot, he held it to Yu Li's lips.

Yu Li blinked somewhat slowly.

Aren't you going to criticize me?