☆、Extra 5: When water is full, it will overflow; when things reach their extremes, they will turn against each other (Tan Yueli)

Water overflows when the vessel is full; things reach their extremes and then reverse. — Tan Yueli

Do I like Fu Chenyan? I asked myself.

It seems to be just like that.

He was such a cold, ruthless person who lacked empathy.

So when I was a child, I abandoned him without hesitation.

Isn't that normal? Everyone yearns for a better life.

If given the chance to climb out of the mire, no one would hesitate.

So am I too.

He and I are both people in the gutter; we are so alike.

I thought I had escaped one quagmire, but I never expected to step into another.

It's a cruel and funny truth: when I was taken back to the Tan family, I was just a tool, a sacrifice that could be made at any time.

I thought that if I worked very, very hard, I could get everything I wanted, including material things, spiritual things, and love.

But what I thought was just what I thought.

No matter how hard I try or how ambitious I am in the Tan family, they seem to never see me; I am invisible.

The family property belongs to my younger brother; I am the result of an arranged marriage.

Is it funny?

That's true to some extent.

I don't understand why they brought me back to the Tan family. Are they neglecting me and using me?

Oh, it's all to help out my useless younger brother, to be his sacrifice.

I have resented this world countless times. I wish this world would be destroyed sooner and that everyone would die.

Why am I the only one living in such misery in this world?

Returning to China was partly for Fu Chenyan, but not entirely for him.

Anyway, anyone can do it as long as they have power and money.

I have always obeyed Mr. Tan's orders, haven't I?

Fu Chenyan shares a similar fate with me, a similar personality with me, and also has similar childhood experiences.

Undoubtedly, he was the easiest to succeed with.

Even if it's mutual exploitation.

But he had someone by his side, a very beautiful and noble woman, who was an actress.

The unloved eldest daughter of the Li family.

To be honest, I was jealous, insanely jealous, jealous of him, jealous of her, jealous of them.

Fu Chenyan is in darkness, so he should stay stuck in the mud like me, forever trapped in darkness.

Why should I be the only one in the darkness? I refuse to accept it.

Li Muli, why is she so carefully cherished, held in the palm of a man's hand, and treated with tenderness by such a man?

Why are they so loving, so happy, and so affectionate?

So am I the only one in this world who has been abandoned? How can I accept this?

I desperately tried to stand between them, desperately trying to sow discord between them. Face, self-esteem, nothing mattered.

As long as there is someone in this world who will fall into hell with me.

Nothing matters.

But it was all in vain. I watched with my own eyes as Li Muli pulled him into the light, and watched with my own eyes as they basked in the sunlight together.

She watched with her own eyes as that indifferent and arrogant man bowed down to her.

How enviable!

I don't know when this feeling changed, but I started to crave his attention, his tenderness, and his love.

His burning love scorched me, making me fall deeper and deeper into his trap.

I need that kind of passionate and sincere love, the kind of love that's like a floating weed that I desperately want to hold onto, even if it doesn't belong to me.

Why would I trust someone who would do anything? I guess I was gambling, a gambler's mentality.

Winning or losing depends on fate.

The result was, naturally, a complete loss.

Adults should pay the price for their choices. This is my choice, so I don't regret it.

The journey has been full of ups and downs; what should have been gained was not gained, and what should have been lost has already been lost.

In the end, I was still the only one in the darkness.

Hate, and resentment.

Wen Ciyi came to see me. His handsome, devilish face was still full of disdain. He looked down at me and said, "Fool."

Yes, I am, but isn't he?

In order to get close to Li Muli, he went so far as to get intimate with me and kiss me, all so that she would think he liked me.

What a good trick.

I looked up and stared directly into his eyes, speaking slowly and deliberately, "Didn't you also fail to get her?"

He chuckled incredulously, "Ha, how stupid of me, why would I want her?"

I was taken aback. "Don't you like her?"

"Oh, who knows?" He raised an eyebrow, a playful smile on his face.

I still can't figure him out.

Oh well, it's none of my business anymore.

As I watched him walk away, tears involuntarily streamed down my face.

I feel somewhat unwilling and regretful.

I still want to see Fu Chenyan. I want to know why he is so ruthless. Is he really just taking revenge for the mistakes I made in the past?

But I know there's no chance anymore.

He won't come; he's such a heartless and ungrateful man.

He reserved all his tenderness for another girl, another girl basking in the sunlight.

To my surprise, he came, and his girlfriend was with him.

He held her hand, their loving demeanor making others envious.

I stared at him, my eyes filled with resentment. "Why? Why did you do this?"

He seemed a little impatient and took a step back. "It's just retribution."

He's absolutely wicked.

I will never, ever, ever have any expectations of him again.

So you're all here to laugh at me?

Li Muli chuckled lightly, her voice sounding even more jarring in the quiet space. "Yeah, look at how pathetic you look."

Well, fine, I accept it now that things have come to this.

"Get out of here after you've finished watching. You're not welcome here," I said, closing my eyes to shoo them away.

After they left, I curled up in a corner, as if I could already see my future.

Fu Chenyan definitely won't let me go.

Although I still don't understand why I am so utterly wicked.

Oh well, as long as they're happy.

I've accepted my fate.

Then I wish you all the best...