Chapter 204 "Don't die, don't die, you must not die" (ask for monthly ticket)

It was already dark, and the number of people in the amusement park had decreased significantly.

Xia Pingzhou stood in the bustling crowd, raised his head, and silently looked up at the Ferris wheel in the night sky.

In the brightly lit carriage, a girl in an ochre-red kimono sat alone by the window, gazing at the city with empty eyes.

He couldn't help but sigh that Ayase Origami was really easy to find. After all, she was the only one in the entire amusement park who would sit alone on the Ferris wheel and stare blankly.

From a distance, most of the people in other carriages were in pairs, so she could be found at a glance.

Who would come to an amusement park alone? Everyone is with family and friends, so they won’t look so embarrassed.

But she didn't understand this. Growing up in that kind of family, no one should have taken her to an amusement park since she was a child, not even once...

Therefore, she didn't care and didn't understand how others would look at her, and she thought it wasn't strange even if she rode the Ferris wheel alone.

Xia Pingzhou thought back and suddenly realized that he should be the first person to take her on the Ferris wheel. She came here alone when she was unhappy and sat alone in the Ferris wheel. Was her mind full of thoughts about him?

He was lost in thought. Amid the clear clanging sounds, the huge Ferris wheel slowly turned. The car with the kimono girl in it had reached the dome.

From Xia Pingzhou's perspective, he could no longer see her figure.

Tourists walked past, talking and laughing, drawing Xia Pingzhou's attention back.

He withdrew his gaze from the Ferris wheel, looked around, and walked towards the Ferris wheel's manager.

Xia Pingzhou thought for a while, then looked up and asked him in English: "That kimono girl, how long has she been here?"

The administrator had a typical British appearance, with flaxen hair combed into a meticulous 3:7 split, and a starched, crisp white shirt visible from the collar of his tweed uniform.

He turned his head and looked at Xia Pingzhou curiously, then whispered, "That girl in kimono, she has been riding the Ferris wheel here for a whole day."

Xia Pingzhou was stunned.

"Sitting there all day?" he asked suspiciously.

"Yes, she didn't even eat all day. She got off after each ride and queued up again. She stood in the crowd with her head down, in a daze. I don't know what she was thinking."

At this point, the administrator shook his head and sighed: "Maybe she's heartbroken. I occasionally see heartbroken girls do this."

Xia Pingzhou was silent for a moment.

He could imagine how quiet she was when she was sitting in the Ferris wheel. She might not say a word the whole day, just staring out the window in a daze.

She got on the Ferris wheel stupidly, got off it stupidly, and then stood in the crowd queuing stupidly. There were pairs of people all around her, but she was alone the whole time, from day to sunset, until the scenery in her eyes gradually darkened and the sunset took away all the light.

The administrator stared at Xia Pingzhou's expression and seemed to see something, so he said with great excitement and exaggeration:

"Hey foreign guy, you're not her ex-boyfriend, are you?"

"No, we're just friends."

"In the UK, we value gentlemanliness. You can't let a girl cry alone."

Xia Pingzhou ignored him and thought to himself, it's not like I don't understand the nature of you British people, so don't try to fool me with your gentlemanly spirit.

He found a public bench nearby and sat down, leaning against the back of the chair and raising his head, looking at the swaying carriage, waiting for the Ferris wheel to land.

Not long after, the Ferris wheel returned to the ground, the manager opened the door of the carriage, and the girl in white walked down.

She raised her head, looked around, thought for a moment, and then walked back into the queue.

Most people in the queue were walking in a line, but she was standing alone in the queue, wearing exotic clothes, which naturally attracted the attention of others. A child pointed at her and told her mother that she was so beautiful, just like a doll.

The kimono girl didn't say anything. Amid the voices of people talking and laughing around her, she was indeed as quiet as a white doll. She looked up at the boy who was pointing his index finger at her and yelling. When she came to her senses, she suddenly found someone standing next to her.

She turned her head and looked at the person standing next to her expressionlessly, and suddenly froze in place.

Although Xia Pingzhou cut in line, no one blamed him. This was not a single-person ride, and the guests all thought that the two of them were together, and the kimono girl just saved a seat for them in advance.

Ayase Origami tilted her head and met Xia Pingzhou's gaze blankly. She raised her eyes and then lowered them, and the world seemed clear and bright.

Neither of them spoke, but just moved forward step by step. After a while, they finally lined up and got on the Ferris wheel car.

The administrator trotted over, closed the door of the carriage, poked his head out of the window, and gave Xia Pingzhou a thumbs-up with a beaming expression.

Xia Pingzhou turned his head away and pretended not to see it.

The Ferris wheel started slowly, the carriages made a clanging sound, and swayed up into the night sky of London.

After a moment of silence, the kimono girl sitting opposite suddenly spoke up and broke the silence:

"You said you were looking for a white-haired girl."

"right."

"She's your family."

"right."

"She is important, more important than anyone else."

"That's right."

"There was a kid in the speakeasy yesterday who looked a lot like you."

Xia Pingzhou was slightly stunned: "Looks like me?"

The girl in kimono nodded: "Yeah, I thought he was you at the time."

She paused: "It's as if... you are looking at me with disgust, saying: Let me stay away from you."

"What are you thinking about? But it's true that there's a white-haired girl next to him."

Xia Pingzhou lowered his eyes and continued, "But...that girl is not the one I'm looking for."

Seeing that the kimono girl sitting opposite him was silent, he shifted his gaze and looked out the window.

Ji Minghuan said, "I can't say that's me, right? At that moment, I really hated you. It would be better to say that I hated everyone who might hurt Kong Youling."

Even though I knew that you were worried about "Xia Pingzhou" at that time, and were confused, helpless, and anxious, that's why you wanted to ask me where Xia Pingzhou was.

But actually I don’t care about Xia Pingzhou at all.

To me, he is just a shabby game character. In my eyes, there is nothing cheaper than him. Everything about him is fake and made up out of thin air...

So, what’s the point of being nice to him?

I am not Xia Pingzhou, I am Ji Minghuan. I am just Ji Minghuan and can only be Ji Minghuan.

There is only Kong Youling by Ji Minghuan's side. Whoever gets her hurt is my enemy.

So I really hated you then...

Really... I hate you so much that I want to kill you all.

If only you were a simple bad guy, I could use you unscrupulously and throw you away like a rag after use without any guilt.

But you're not... you're just a complete idiot who knows nothing.

But what can I do? I am just an ordinary person. Why do I have to take care of everyone's feelings?

If I kill the Ripper, you will be sad... but what can I do? Who will teach me how to do it?

Xia Pingzhou lowered his eyes, a faint light flickering in his dark pupils.

"Am I weird?" the girl in kimono suddenly asked.

"People are weird sometimes." Xia Pingzhou said softly, "I am the same. I often don't understand what I am thinking."

"I don't understand..." She shook her head, "Why do you think he is you? I always feel heavy in my heart, I can't breathe, and everything I think is so confusing... Is this what 'sadness' means?"

Xia Pingzhou was silent for a long time.

He thought so too. This idiot didn't even know what sadness was. After all, growing up in that kind of environment, he had to shut off his emotions. In the end, he couldn't even figure out his own feelings, right?

He said, "Ask others if you don't understand something. You're so stupid. You can't figure it out even if you sit on the Ferris wheel for another month if you think about it for a long time."

"So... do you hate me?" she asked softly.

"Are you afraid that I hate you?"

Ayase Origami lowered her eyes, was silent for a while, then nodded.

"I don't hate you." Xia Pingzhou shook his head. "Don't worry. Why didn't I realize you were so stupid before... You can think so much just by being looked at by a strange child. If I really say that I hate you, what will you do?"

The girl in kimono shook her head, "I don't know."

Xia Pingzhou thought for a while, then changed his seat and sat next to her.

He said, “So, you’re an idiot.”

The girl in kimono opened her mouth, still wanting to scold him, but she couldn't find the words to say.

It's like a robot that suddenly discovers that the file is missing when loading the corresponding program, and then short-circuits on the spot.

"Kitten... panted."

In the end, she could only utter these familiar words.

"If you feel unhappy in the future, just find someone to talk to. You are too stupid, so you can't figure anything out... If you don't even understand your own feelings, how can you understand others?"

"But you fainted."

"Don't you have anyone else?"

"No."

"When Yan Molin heard this, he might want to kill you."

"How do you know her name?"

"She just told me."

The kimono girl was stunned for a moment, then raised her head and puffed up her pale cheeks slightly. This seemed to be the first time she made an expression similar to coquettishness.

Xia Pingzhou was stunned for a moment, as if he didn't expect to see such an expression on Ayase Origami. At this moment, she looked like a normal sixteen-year-old girl, not like a doll with empty eyes.

He raised his hand unconsciously and grabbed her round cheek.

"Who did you learn that expression from?" he asked curiously.

"A kid on the street."

"really."

"Rebellion." Ayase Origami lowered her eyes to look at his hands, then looked up to meet his gaze, allowing him to pinch her face.

"Even a cat would find it hard not to rebel after knowing that its owner is an idiot."

"Hate me?"

“Not annoying.”

"Don't hate me."

"I won't hate you."

"Well... that's good."

Ayase Origami seemed to finally feel relieved, she lowered her eyes, leaned on his shoulder and closed her eyes. The Ferris wheel swayed and rose to the top under the night sky.

After getting off the Ferris wheel, the two strolled in the dimly lit amusement park.

"I want that." Ayase Origami pointed at the cotton candy merchant in the distance and said suddenly.

In order to avoid being found by hackers, she did not bring her mobile phone when she went out, and the only stack of banknotes she had was spent on buying the ticket.

"Do you like marshmallows?" Xia Pingzhou asked.

"I don't really like it...it's too sweet," she said.

"Then why should I buy it for you?"

The girl in kimono shook her head, put her hands behind her back and said nothing.

"Money," she said.

Xia Pingzhou took out a stack of banknotes from his pocket and gave it to her. This was the first time he saw a young lady asking him for money.

Ayase Origami put the money in the sleeve of her kimono, walked over silently, and bought two bunches of marshmallows.

She handed one of the bunches of marshmallows to Xia Pingzhou, and the two of them sat on the public wooden chairs and ate quietly, looking up at the people coming and going.

The carousel not far away swayed to the joyful music, emitting a swaying halo that enveloped the cheeks of the two.

"Ayase Origami."

Suddenly she heard someone reading her name in Japanese. She was slightly startled, raised her eyes from the marshmallow, turned her head, and stared at Xia Pingzhou with her dark eyes motionlessly.

"Ayase Origami, don't die." Xia Pingzhou paused, "This is what you said to me, I will return your words."

"Kitten, imitate your owner's speech," she said.

"Oh, then I'll change it." Xia Pingzhou thought for a moment and said, "Ayase Origami, you must not die. You are not allowed to die. You cannot die."

The girl in kimono stared at him for a long moment, then nodded.

"Then let's go back, it's already late."

"good."

"Don't hang out outside alone next time."

"Then you're not allowed to drink alone either."

"Um."

(End of this chapter)