Chapter 198: I'm not willing to accept that you'll only be a junior high school student no matter how much you study. It's better to...

When Chu Lingze returned home from get off work, he was confused when he saw Chu Lingyi looking pale and haggard.

What happened? He was fine this morning, so I couldn't help but ask curiously, "Are you sick?"

Chu Lingyi didn't want this child in the first place.

She originally went to be T Shan's daughter-in-law just to get some betrothal money to pay for her mother's medical treatment, and also to find a backer to protect the family in that situation.

There was no need for that now! Back in the city, she was constantly comparing herself with others.

She saw Qi Changxiao having a happy wife and children, saw Mao Ling having four children after her second marriage and still being able to find a surveyor, and saw those who were once not as good as her, one by one, all married better than her.

She couldn't stand it. Her fragile self-esteem wouldn't allow her to have any more involvement with the Shan family.

But she knew that the Shan family would not give up, but she also believed that money can make the world go round.

So she needs to work, work! She needs to be like other women, respectable, beautiful, and have a man to show off.

Even if you are just a factory worker, you are better off than the farmers in northern Shaanxi.

God knows that there were people pursuing her in school, but because she loved Qi Changxiao, she rejected the love of one suitor after another.

Of course, she couldn't blame anyone for the changes in her family. It was her father's fault for not paying attention to his words and actions and falling into someone else's trap.

However, now that she has been rehabilitated, she doesn't want to make matters worse. She needs to be her original self and return to her former circle.

But she knew that this idea would be seen as ungrateful. She didn't want to take the responsibility of taking the initiative to have an abortion, so she lied: "I saw blood, and the doctor said it's an ectopic pregnancy. I need surgery quickly, otherwise I might die."

Chu Lingze certainly understood what an ectopic pregnancy was. His mother had an ectopic pregnancy and could no longer have children after her third miscarriage.

But... he couldn't help but worry: "How are you going to explain this to the Shan family? Your mother-in-law is not an easy person to deal with."

Chu Lingyi didn't dare let her brother know her true thoughts, so she made an excuse and said, "It's okay. Didn't I promise them that I would reunite with the man and the child once a year? I can get pregnant again when the time comes."

Chu Lingze didn't know what to say, after all, ectopic pregnancy was indeed dangerous.

I turned around and quickly told his parents to pay attention to his diet these days and give his sister more nutrition.

During the meal, President Chu chatted, "I heard from Xiao Yao that your manuscript is finally taking shape. Good boy, work hard and show your former fighting spirit!"

Chu Lingze looked calm. To him, who was once covered with awards, such praise was nothing.

But he knew that this was a good start. At least, he was trying to spread his wings, fly out of the canyon he had fallen into, and embrace the blue sky that belonged to him again.

He immediately said modestly, "It's still far from the level it should be. It's far inferior to Editor-in-Chief Yao's manuscript. I need to continue working hard."

President Chu agreed. "I've read Xiao Yao's essay. It's indeed much better than yours. She's incredibly talented. I can't believe she only went to high school. If she could go to university, I can't imagine how much more outstanding she would be."

"Is it that exaggerated? How great can a junior high school student be? Just keep bragging." Chu Lingyi couldn't stand hearing others praising Yao Zhizhi, especially her family members.

This would make her feel like a humble ant, small and insignificant.

She felt very uncomfortable and couldn't help but make sarcastic remarks.

Chu Lingze said sternly, "Lingyi, watch your attitude. She was just born in the countryside and her conditions are limited, not because she's not good enough. You always speak so condescendingly of others. Show me your own ability."

Chu Lingyi rolled her eyes and said nothing.

Chu Ling sneered, "Don't think I don't know what you're thinking. Let me advise you, they have happy families, and you also have a man and children. Don't think about those impossible things, they will never be possible!"

"You're so annoying, brother. How could I think about those things? Don't wrongly accuse me!" Chu Lingyi pinched her nose, looked away, and lowered her head to eat.

Chu Ling refused to let her go and continued to lash out at her. "You know whether I have wronged you or not. Editor-in-Chief Yao stayed by his side when he was seriously ill. Someone else might not have had the courage and patience. They are a couple who live together through thick and thin. Their relationship is truly wonderful. You'd better give up on this idea as soon as possible."

"I said, I didn't!" Chu Lingyi was annoyed. She slammed her chopsticks, stopped eating, turned around and ran back to her room, and started crying.

President Chu sighed and said, "Speak more gently. Your sister is a lesbian after all, and she's thin-skinned."

Chu Lingze finished eating and wiped his mouth: "Am I not gentle enough? I can still guess what she is thinking. Don't spoil her. If she really does something immoral, I will be the first to not forgive her!"

President Chu smiled and said, "No, she's your own sister, don't you know? This kid has the will but not the guts to do it. She wouldn't dare to do it."

"She is the best." Chu Lingze took away the dishes and went to the well to wash them.

Mother Chu's brows were furrowed, her wrinkles and nasolabial folds reflecting deep sorrow. After wiping the table, she went to the room to check on her daughter and advised, "Don't blame your brother for being cruel. Think about it, our family has finally returned home, and we can't let anything else happen. What's more, your father is the president, and Director Yuan wants to set an example. So, even if you accept the position as president out of turn, it doesn't mean you can keep it. We must not cause trouble for him at this time, understand?"

Chu Lingyi lay on the bed, refusing to speak. Mother Chu sighed silently and continued to persuade her, "I know you're not convinced, but there's nothing you can do. They have a pair of children, and your father-in-law is of such status. Even if Xiao Qi is a fool, he won't give up the one over there, right? Besides, he didn't agree when you pursued him. Don't even think about it."

"I didn't think about it! Mom, don't listen to my brother's nonsense. I'm just a little bit unconvinced. I won't do anything dirty, don't worry." Chu Lingyi hadn't cried enough. She cried for her lost youth, for the past that she could never go back to, and for the wishful thinking in her life that was ultimately dashed.

Chu's mother patted her shoulder and said, "Get up. There's blood on the mat. You should go change your sanitary belt. It's such a big deal, and you didn't even discuss it with me. I'll go get some Chinese medicine to help clear the blood this afternoon."

"I don't believe in Chinese medicine, and I don't want to drink it. If you want to drink it, just drink it yourself." Chu Lingyi was annoyed. One by one, they all liked to point fingers at her, even though she hadn't done anything wrong.

Mother Chu had a good temper and stood up with a smile: "Be obedient and stop being angry. Come, mom will help you wash the dirty things and wipe the mat too."

Chu Lingyi quickly softened. Who could get angry with such a gentle mother?

Hurry up and change the mat to a clean one. Clean it in the hot summer to avoid attracting flies.

In the afternoon, when her mother persuaded her to go to the hospital, she happened to see Qi Changxiao carrying Yao Zhizhi out and going to work together.

Qi Changxiao greeted the elders politely and did not speak to Chu Lingyi.

Yao Zhizhi had both of them done, and Chu Lingyi had to force a fake smile: "Go to work."

"Yeah." Yao Zhizhi smiled.

After Yao Zhizhi left, Chu Lingyi couldn't help but murmur to her mother, "It's strange. Aunt Tang and Uncle Ning both have to go to work, and they've left their two children to be taken care of by the elders of the Yao family. Can they handle it?"

Chu's mother knew a little bit and explained, "Her sister hired a helper named Gao, and she also hired one for herself, but that woman doesn't like to come out and see people. She usually stays in the backyard."

"Who is it? I haven't seen him before." Chu Lingyi was quite curious.

Mother Chu shook her head: "I don't know him. He looks okay, but he has wrinkles on his eyebrows."

While speaking, he subconsciously touched his own. We all went through hard times, and we all have this thing, which can never be erased.

After returning from the hospital, Chu Lingyi went to the backyard to check and found that the door was locked.

Had to return empty-handed.

After dinner in the evening, I found an excuse to hang around here again, and this time I finally saw him.

She was a woman wearing a white shirt, with short hair cut to her ears. She looked very gentle. She was holding a book in her hand and discussing a geometry problem with Yao Zhizhi.

Seeing her coming, the woman went straight to the inner room and refused to greet her.

The more this happened, the more curious she became. Looking at the questions in Yao Zhizhi's hand, she asked, "Are you studying your high school textbook on your own?"

Yao Zhizhi did not deny it.

Chu Lingyi didn't understand: "Aren't you the editor-in-chief? Can't you just focus on Chinese? Why do you need to focus on geometry? Are you trying to prove that you're not at the level of a high school student?"

"Do you have any objections?" Yao Zhizhi thought she was very rude. It was none of her business what books others read.

Chu Lingyi thought Yao Zhizhi would be easier to talk to, after all, she was always smiling when entering and leaving the alley. She didn't expect to be retorted by him and felt a little unhappy.

I couldn't help but pour cold water on you: "Why bother with all this effort? The college entrance examination has been stopped a long time ago. You can only get into junior high school if you continue studying. You'd better focus on raising your children."

Yao Zhizhi didn't want to pay attention to her anymore, so she stood up and went into the house, shouting, "Changxiao, your friend is looking for you."

Qi Changxiao was playing with building blocks with his two children. He hurried out when he heard the noise and rudely ordered them to leave: "Are you busy? If not, please don't disturb my wife's studies."

Chu Lingyi was too embarrassed to turn around and leave.

When she got home, she felt increasingly resentful. She glanced at her brother, who was flipping through old magazines, and asked, "Do you still have your high school textbooks? I want to study too!"

Chu Lingze's books are gone. When the accident happened, he only had time to take away some clothes and bedding.

I had to tell the truth: "Didn't you see it when I came back to clean the house this time? It was all rotten and thrown away."

Of course Chu Lingyi didn't see it. She had been in a trance these days, thinking about things she shouldn't have been thinking about.

Hearing the textbooks were gone, he couldn't help but get angry and asked, "Then why don't you ask your classmates? Yao is taking it, and I want to learn too. I don't believe I can't learn better than her!"

Chu Lingze ignored her and even felt that her mentality was a little twisted.

As a result, the next day, Chu Lingyi went directly to the university to borrow books from Xu Wei.

Zhou Juan instinctively felt a little disgusted when she saw this woman. She asked, "Who are you? Why should I lend you my lover's book?"