我不怕那帮流氓，因为只要我在这里常住，就一定会有揍回他们的那一天；我怕的只是没有一个可以相爱的人陪着，就像此时此刻，一个渺小的自己，却面对着最壮阔的风景……而身边同样在这里逗留的，有人与自己的女朋友拍照留念，也有人抱在一起，一副恨不能在这里天荒地老的样子，似乎所有的深情就该留在这个观景台上。

I gradually felt out of place, so before leaving, I took another picture of the scenery with my phone and posted it as a status update with only the photo.

I don't want to tell anyone anything through this; I just want to remind myself to remember this feeling of frustration in the future, and then turn it into motivation to live on tenaciously.

...

A moment later, Yang Sisi first gave me a like, and then sent me a WeChat message: "What, are you planning to head home?"

"Um."

"Any results?"

Is being rejected a valid outcome?

"Of course it counts. Let me guess how you're feeling right now."

"Do as you please... I know you like to kick someone when they're down!"

Haha...you must be feeling really down right now, right?

"I'm not just feeling down, I'm also in pain!"

After sending the message, I subconsciously touched my chin, which was almost split open from the beating, but Yang Sisi certainly wouldn't associate the pain with physical pain.

After a moment, she replied: "Don't bother describing it anymore. You've always been a complete mess in my mind. I can imagine how miserable you are right now!"

I turned my back to the scenery beyond the observation deck, and unconsciously grinned at the message. Instantly, a sharp pain shot through the corner of my mouth...

I finally replied, "It's not as bad as you think. Believe me, I'm actually in the mood to tell you a joke right now."

"What joke?"

"Back in junior high, I really admired those gangsters, so I formed a gang called the Green Dragon Gang with a few other guys in my class whose grades were about as bad as mine. We worshipped Guan Yu together and even became sworn brothers, all so we could unite and become a force to be reckoned with at school... Later, somehow it got back to the principal..."

"Then what?"

"Then our Azure Dragon Gang became the Azure Dragon Study Group."

"Hahahaha...I was eating and almost choked on my food...Can you please stop being so funny?!"

"I'm not joking, it's true... From childhood to now, I've never been at a disadvantage in a fight."

"I believe that."

"Hmm... don't laugh at me, I'm in a good mood."

"Then I'm relieved."

I was stunned for a moment before I realized that she wasn't really trying to kick me when I was down; she was just testing my feelings with this teasing way because she was worried about me. And I didn't fare badly either; I dealt with her every move, showing her a fake optimism, but my mood had already deteriorated to the extreme.

I stubbed out my cigarette on the trash can, then looked up at the endless highway. I knew it was impossible to drive back to Dali today, but I didn't know which unfamiliar city would take me in, a heartbroken person. And how should I get through this night when I'm all alone?