I don't know what Yang Sisi was feeling when she came. Compared to me, her approach seemed radical, even angry... Unlike me, she didn't just keep telling Zhou San that there is hope in this world. Instead, she seemed to have stabbed Zhou San in his sore spot again.

I was very nervous because I couldn't figure out what Zhou San was thinking, so every word Yang Sisi and I said to him felt like a gamble...

Yang Sisi was still breathing heavily when Zhou San turned to look at her, and the two were locked in a standoff.

I didn't dare to interrupt, so I just held my breath and watched the two of them.

Finally, Yang Sisi spoke to Zhou San, who was looking at her, and said, "You don't really need to be curious about who I am. The people who are standing here and earnestly advising you at this time are the ones who truly care about you... So the world isn't as unfair to you as you think... All your despair comes from the demons within your own heart... I probably feel this even more deeply than you do... Because when life is not going well, I have also let myself despair... I thought about death, and even took action; I jumped into the sea... Do you know how I felt at that time?"

"I don't want to hear it... None of what you're saying makes any sense!"

"It's not that what I'm saying is meaningless, it's that you're afraid to face your own heart... Let's make an assumption: if you had everything you wanted now, would you still want to die?... You definitely wouldn't, you'd just be afraid you wouldn't have time to enjoy it... right?"

"I have everything I want... Haha, do I look like such a lucky person?... What I want is what most people have, so why is it so hard for me?"

Yang Sisi smiled with a hint of disdain: "If you died right now, wouldn't you feel regret?... As someone who's been there, I can tell you with certainty that the moment you jump off this rooftop, you'll regret it... because what you wanted, you never had. You killed yourself, and there'll be no chance of getting it again... I'm not lying to you, I'm luckier than you. I jumped into the sea, so when I regretted it, I could still struggle and call for help... But you, if you really jumped from this height, you'd be smashed into a pile of minced meat. You wouldn't even have a chance to regret it... You'd never feel the kindness of this world again... You really don't understand this world. Maybe somewhere in this world, there's a girl who truly loves you... You two just haven't met yet... She's been waiting for you in the dark... But you refused to give her that chance. You chose to use death to escape your most wretched life. Is there anyone more foolish than you in this world...?"

Zhou San seemed to waver for a moment, which was a good sign. I admire Yang Sisi; she grasped the key points of her persuasion very well, unlike me, who only makes empty promises. She knew exactly where Zhou San was dissatisfied... I couldn't help but wonder: Is she really such a carefree girl?

When I first met her, she was indeed... not only carefree, but also rebellious... but over the years, she has changed, becoming like me, good at thinking and good at discovering.

Actually, I am also a very sensitive person. I was just too concerned about Zhou San's life or death, so in my anxiety I failed to grasp the key point. She was different. It was her first time meeting Zhou San, and she was emotionally unfamiliar with her, so naturally she was more relaxed than me.

After a while, Zhou Sanmu said to Yang Sisi in an extreme way: "What hasn't come true is all an illusion. Don't lie to me... There aren't that many lucky people in this world!"

"Why are your thoughts so extreme?... I'm the best example. Look at me now, am I doing great?"

At this point, Yang Sisi glanced at me, then turned to Zhou Sansan and said, "Have you ever truly loved someone?... Do you know what it feels like to love someone you can't have?... I know, and that's where my pain lies... I loved someone for three years, and I did everything I should and shouldn't have done... But what about him?... I'm not saying he's bad; he must be good, which is why I fell in love with him... But he never gave me any hope... The reason I couldn't let go that time was because he got a girlfriend and blocked me on WeChat... This feeling is worse than death for me, because I'm a very proud person. You can have a girlfriend, but why are you in such a hurry to..." "Put me on your blacklist? ...Am I a burden to you, or something you hate? ...That's what I was thinking then. I couldn't contact him at all, and then I broke down...I thought about ending it all. After I'm dead, you'll at least look at me properly, right? ...But, the moment I jumped into the sea, I suddenly felt incredibly childish...I tried to see things from his perspective: since he'd already made his choice in love, what else could he do? ...His cutting off contact with me was actually the best respect for all three of us...What I need to do isn't foolishly die, but wait. If a month isn't enough, I'll wait a year. If a year isn't enough, I'll wait a lifetime. Is that alright?"

After a brief pause, Yang Sisi continued, "Later, his girlfriend had an accident... her fate was unknown... I was waiting for him, and he was waiting for his girlfriend... Waiting and waiting like that, doesn't it sound incredibly hopeless?... Of course it was hopeless. He was hopeless for over a year, and I was hopeless along with him for over a year... But things are slowly getting better now. His girlfriend came back, although they didn't rekindle their relationship, at least she's back... As for me, I can go to Dali to see him from time to time. Although it's still the same as before, without any official status, I feel it's good enough to be able to see him... We just treat each other as friends... Anyway, I've come to terms with it, and I can still accompany him..." When I was with him, I would be there for him no matter what he needed me to do… The day he no longer needed me, I would leave… I have no regrets. I tried my best, and I got what I wanted… Loving him made me mature and brave… One shouldn't only think about what they've lost; sometimes you also need to look at what you've gained and possessed in the process… San San, you too, you must keep the thoughts of what you've gained in your heart… You're already excellent enough, really. When Michael talks about you, it's always with admiration, because you have a master's degree, and you know many things he doesn't… All you lack is a stage!

After saying these words, Zhou San really calmed down.

Yang Sisi smiled at him again, encouraging him to come down from the balcony. She continued, "Never let death define your life... Believe me, as long as you're willing to wait... a miracle will definitely happen!"

Zhou San, who usually avoids gossip, surprisingly asked Yang Sisi at this moment, "Can you tell me who that man you're talking about is?" Want to chat with more like-minded people about "My Tenant Miss"? Follow "Youdu Literature" on WeChat to read novels, discuss life, and find kindred spirits!