After ending my conversation with An'an, I was in a daze for a while, as usual... Some of the things I said were just to appease her. I had no idea whether Ye Zhi would come to Thailand again. In my subconscious, the things that happened between us, even if they happened the day before, I would treat as memories. I always felt that after this, there would be no next time.

I'm conflicted right now. On one hand, I hope she gets married, and then I can finally be free of all worries. But if I ever hear the news of her marriage, I feel like I'll break down because I can't forget the feelings I once had for her.

My loneliness and happiness both come from her... What's even more terrifying is that I know she loves me. We didn't lose to each other; we lost to adult thinking. That's the most painful kind of love!

...

After thinking about all sorts of random things for a while, I fell asleep. I had another dream, still related to what happened during the day… I dreamt that my leg wasn't healed, and I really became disabled; my life subsequently plunged into an endless abyss. At first, I was in great pain, but gradually I accepted this life. I became more and more ordinary, and then I married a woman who also had a physical disability. There was no love between us, but we never argued, and we lived our lives respecting each other…

I felt relieved in my dream, but when I woke up, I was filled with melancholy.

I've become sensitive again. I hate the smell of medicine in the hospital, and I hate the bottles and jars of medicine even more, as well as the patients talking loudly in the corridors. I don't want to stay here for even a second, but in this unfamiliar country, I have no idea where I can escape temporarily. The only place I can move around in is the hospital.

I even regretted coming to Thailand for treatment. If I had chosen a city like Beijing or Shanghai, at least I could have found someone to talk to, even if it was just a fellow patient... It wasn't until I received Ye Zhi's call that I was able to pull myself out of this negative mood.

She asked me on the phone, "Have you decided when the surgery will be?"

"The day after tomorrow."

"It's a bit faster than you expected."

"Um."

Are you nervous?

I let out a heavy sigh, then smiled and said, "Last night, I had a dream that the surgery was unsuccessful, and I became a person sitting in a wheelchair... Even in the dream, the feeling was incredibly real. I felt like my world had collapsed, and I even thought about 'suicide' to escape myself... It wasn't until later, when I married a woman with the same physical disability, that I gradually calmed down... We lived a simple and ordinary life, and we didn't even have children... Tell me, if this dream happened in reality, would it be a good outcome or a bad outcome?"

"No... In my eyes, you are not a man who is content with mediocrity."

"So, I'm really nervous right now! ... But what's the use of being nervous?"

My fate has long been in the doctors' hands. If I really become disabled, I'll just consider it retribution from fate. I haven't done everything upright in my life; I've done bad things and had bad thoughts... That's the only way I can think of it; it makes it easier for me to accept.

These words sounded long-winded, but they were precisely a sign of nervousness. Ye Zhi, being such a perceptive woman, could certainly sense it, so she fell silent. And I remained silent in her silence, not saying another word.

After a long silence, Ye Zhi finally spoke. She whispered to me, "Michael, if your leg really doesn't heal... marry me... let's find a place where no one knows us and live a simple, ordinary life."

I sat motionless on the hospital bed, and everything I heard at that moment felt more like a dream than a dream itself!

No, this is a dream. The dream I thought was a dream is actually reality!

But the sound of her panting on the phone felt so real; for me, whether it was a dream or reality, I had to reply to her…

I could feel my Adam's apple bobbing rapidly. I finally spoke to her, "Don't you regret it?... I'll become a cripple, unable to take care of myself, and I'll be a burden to you!"

No regrets!

With a gentle close of my eyes, two streams of tears fell from them… During our courtship, I had imagined countless times proposing to her, but I never expected that the first time we discussed marriage, she would be the one to speak first… I’m not sure if she was being rational at that moment, but I was even more moved, and I felt that I deserved it!

I sniffed, then smiled and said to her, "You know what?... At that observation deck where we first met, I seriously wondered if there was any woman willing to live with me forever in that beautiful county town with its mountains and rivers... At the time, I felt it was the best ending of my life, because I could afford to buy a house in such a town. My biggest desire back then was to buy a house... But I also clearly understood that it was just a county town that would never have luxury brands like Guilin, Chanel, or Hermes. I was particularly disappointed... because men and women always seem to have different faces, and we'll never truly understand what the other wants... But right now, you've given me a feeling of a dream come true, even though you have conditions, even though you might be irrational... but my heart is about to jump out of my chest... That's how I feel right now!" For the latest chapters, please follow the author's WeChat official account, Tank's Bookstall, to view the complete song list for this book and participate in more activities to interact with the author.

Ye Zhi's voice was choked with emotion as she asked me, "The county you mentioned is Luxi, right?"

"Um."

Ye Zhi remained silent for a long time, then mustered up her courage and said to me, "It was in that place that I completely fell in love with you."

Why that?

"Where?"

"Because in that place, I saw your truest character... I've asked myself more than once, does such selfless love really exist in this world?... I was fortunate enough to see it in you, and even more fortunate, I am the woman you would give your all for... And so, I fell for you... I secretly told myself that I must be with you for the rest of my life, and that when you are down on your luck, I will be as selfless as you are for me... Time really flies. In the blink of an eye, it's been three years since we met. Many people and things around us have changed, but this thought has never changed in my heart, so I am rational..."

"Michael, if there's no hope for you to soar in life anymore, then take me with you... Let me be your wings, anywhere is fine with me!"

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