Chapter 103 Confirmation of Feelings

This place is more like a small town than a base. It has everything you need, including a cafeteria for eating, but you need points to redeem it.

Everything here is not traded with money, but bartered. Money here has completely turned into a pile of waste paper.

Qin Muxue looked at the dazzling array of items in the exchange. It was like a market and it seemed as if anything could be exchanged here.

Not only can you exchange your own things, but the base will also release some extremely low-priced supplies for auction and exchange every day. This can also meet everyone's basic living needs. It can be said that everything is covered.

They walked in the bazaar of the exchange, as if they were shopping in the past.

Clothes, daily necessities, food, oil, salt, and even books, as well as electrical appliances such as televisions, are second-hand. There are only some basic supplies in the apartment, and there are no electrical appliances. The heating is unified at night.

The temperature inside the base is many times better than outside, so Qin Muxue didn't feel very cold here.

A sneaky man saw that they were new and were curiously looking around. Seeing that they were in pairs, he approached Qu Yanbai cautiously and said, "Young man, do you want this?"

A box of human barrier devices appeared in his pocket. Qu Yanbai blushed and waved his hand, "No, no."

He pulled Manman and wanted to leave, but the man caught up with him and said, "It's cheap. You only need one pound of rice to exchange for a box. You are young and energetic. Don't you know how troublesome it is to get pregnant now?"

When Manman heard what that person said, her cheeks immediately turned red. They were usually quite capable, but when faced with something like this, they were like blushing young wives.

Qu Yanbai, usually a rough man, blushed with innocence, and for a moment he didn't know how to refuse him.

God knows, he has never kissed a girl since he was a child, except for giving Manman artificial respiration.

Qin Muxue stood in the middle, looking suspiciously at the sharp-nosed and monkey-faced man in front of her. The man asked, "Little girl, do you want to change something too?"

The human barrier is not something that is prohibited from being traded. There must be something fishy going on for this man to exchange it furtively, otherwise why can't he exchange it openly?

"What brand?"

Seeing her asking seriously, the man felt a little guilty, "It's genuine lace brand."

Qin Muxue saw that he looked panicked and snatched the thing from his pocket. After a closer look, she found that it had expired for a year. He actually used this thing here to cheat people. A pound of rice can be exchanged for many things in the market now, so why use it to exchange for this expired thing?

"It's expired, why are you still using it to exchange?" Qin Muxue threw the item at him unhappily, "Who are you trying to fool? Do you think we are new here and easy to bully?"

She clearly looked smiling, but the man had a creepy vibe to him.

"Auntie, please, don't shout so loudly." The man stretched out his hand but was caught by Shi Yan.

"Don't touch him." The man felt a chill down his spine.

Qu Yanbai on the side quickly called the staff here to deal with it. If this man fell into Shi Yan's hands, he would be in an even worse situation.

After watching the man being taken away by the administrator, Qin Muxue instructed: "If you need this kind of thing, just tell me. I have everything here. You don't have to exchange it with those swindlers."

Qu Yanbai felt goosebumps all over his body. How dare he ask Qin Muxue for such a thing? He always felt that her eyes would stab him. Although he and Manman had confirmed their relationship as a couple, they were still very innocent and holding hands was a very rare thing.

The triple apartment was some distance away from the single room. Qin Muxue had gone to see it and found that the space there was quite large. Qu Yanbai checked the place cautiously and didn't find anything suspicious, so he decided to stay there for the time being.

She asked Manman to take good care of herself and come to her in time if she had any problems.

Manman reassured her, "Xiaoxue, do you still treat me as a child?"

Looking at the three rooms, Manman began to feel worried. There were two children living with them, which meant that the two children would have one room and Grandma Qu would have one room. Wouldn't that mean she would have to live in the same room with Qu Yanbai?

Qin Muxue seemed to see her embarrassment and handed her a bag. "Inside are some things I prepared for you. Anyway, you must protect yourself." She pretended to cough a few times. "If there is anything you need, tell me and I will send it to you when the time comes."

There were no bedding here, so Qin Muxue took out a few beddings they had used before, as well as clothes, daily necessities and other necessities, so that this little home seemed to have some life.

Grandma Qu loves to cook, so she bought some pots and pans, firewood, rice, oil, salt and other daily necessities to meet her basic needs. There are also restrictions on electricity use here. Each household is limited to a certain number of kilowatt-hours. If they want to use electricity again, they must pay for it, which means they have to exchange it for supplies. This is reasonable and is for the purpose of saving electricity.

After settling Manman and the children, Qin Muxue came to her own single apartment. The apartment they were allocated was about 25 square meters. Although it was small, it had the basic necessities.

The note on the door states the water supply time every day. Water is not supplied at other times, so water must be collected at the specified time every day. Each person's apartment can only be entered by entering a fingerprint, so Qin Muxue can only watch Manman and Qu Yanbai live together. Although she feels a little reluctant, they are in love with each other after all.

There was a small bed of 1.2 meters, which was enough for her. Qin Muxue made the bed and put a new mattress under it. She prepared gray sheets as she felt that gray was more resistant to stains.

After cleaning the entire room, it took two hours for her to finish. Qin Muxue took off her coat and found a red file bag fell out of it. She must have folded it and stuffed it into her pocket before. It was the file about the experimental subject No. X. She only had time to sit down and take a good look at the file bag now.

Qin Muxue tore open the seal and took out the information inside. When she saw the photo of Subject X, she was stunned. Although he was different from the current Shi Yan, the one in the photo was still the young Shi Yan. His long bangs covered his right eye, and the exposed left eye was shrouded in a layer of haze. For some reason, when she saw this photo, she felt goose bumps all over her body, and an inexplicable sense of fear came over her heart.

She tried to calm herself down and looked through the information. She found out that X was one of the earliest experimental subjects and the strongest one among them. He passed layers of experiments in foreign laboratories and suffered many inhuman tortures, which eventually made him cold-blooded and ruthless. He has been trained to be a killing machine. Many well-known assassinations were handled by him, and almost all of them failed.

The more Qin Muxue read, the more creepy she felt. It turned out that those murders in Xuanwu City were also committed by Shi Yan. Qin Muxue's hands began to tremble slightly as she read those pages filled with dense information. How could this be? Shi Yan was a killer. Was this the secret he had been hiding all along?

He is very powerful, but behind his power are countless experiments and blood and tears, so his body became sick. The last page of the information says that subject X can live to thirty years old at most, which is already a conservative estimate. In other words, he won't even live to be thirty years old.

For a moment, Qin Muxue didn't know whether she felt sad, distressed or scared.

There was a knock on the door outside, and Qin Muxue came back to her senses, "Who is it?"

"Xiaoxue, it's me. How can I help you?" Qin Muxue leaned against the door. She didn't know how to face Shi Yan. She couldn't see that Shi Yan was such a cruel person. But according to the information, he killed only bad people or people who were harmful to them.

She was wavering and hesitated so much that she didn't open the door in time.

"Xiaoxue, what's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell?" Shi Yan's voice became anxious.

Qin Muxue took a deep breath and finally opened the door. She looked at Shi Yan with complicated eyes. She was originally thinking about how to face him, but when she really looked at him, she felt more heartache in her heart.

Her heart was not made of stone. She knew how much this man had done for her, and she also knew that he had a good heart...

"Shi Yan..." She raised her eyes and looked at him.

Shi Yan breathed a sigh of relief, "I thought something happened to you, it seems you are fine, and you have cleaned up the place very well." Shi Yan looked around the room, and suddenly his eyes looked at the red file bag on the table. He walked straight to the table, looked at the file bag, and his fear suddenly tightened.

"You...you know everything?" His voice suddenly dropped. He had already decided to tell Qin Muxue everything about himself, but he didn't expect that she had already seen his file. After all, it was too late. Maybe Xiaoxue would hate him for this, and he was already prepared.

"Shi Yan, is this what you said you wanted to tell me?" For some reason, she felt her eyes moisten.

"It doesn't matter how much you hate me. Even if you want to kill me, I will accept it calmly." Shi Yan turned his head calmly, but did not dare to look directly into her eyes, for fear of seeing her disappointment and sadness.

"We are teammates. Why would I want to kill you? I'm just sad."

"Why are you sad? Wouldn't you feel disgusted if the person you spend every day with is a killer?"

"No, Shi Yan, those people you killed all deserved to die, and it was not your fault. You suffered so much, and you were obviously going to die, why didn't you tell me about this earlier?" Qin Muxue couldn't control herself for a moment, and tears flowed down her face unconsciously. Even she herself found it strange that she didn't feel scared, but instead felt sad for him. Shi Yan didn't have many years left to live.

"Yes, I'm dying soon, but for a murderer like me who lives in a dark corner, wouldn't it be best for me to die sooner rather than later?" He took a few steps back in self-mockery. He originally wanted to wipe the tears from her cheeks, but he felt that his hands stained with the blood of countless people were no longer worthy of her. The moon in his heart was his unattainable dream.

"Don't belittle yourself." Qin Muxue clenched her hands. She really didn't like the man in front of her to say such words again.

"Xiaoxue, don't you think I'm disgusting? I'm a person who has been injected with countless drugs, my hands are stained with countless blood, and I'm a monster who kills people without blinking an eye in the eyes of others." Shi Yan suddenly became emotional and was about to lose control, but Qin Muxue stepped forward and hugged him.

"Not disgusting, I don't find you disgusting at all, on the contrary, I like you." Qin Muxue's heart started pounding as she spoke out her thoughts in one breath.

The atmosphere between the two of them became ambiguous for a moment. Shi Yan never thought that Qin Muxue would say that she liked him. After she knew the truth, she should have hated him even more.

The tense heartstrings broke, and the originally excited emotions gradually calmed down, "You said, do you like me?"

"Well, actually, I've felt like I've fallen in love with you for a long time, but I'm not sure. I'm a rather slow person. You know, because of Yan Xu, I was even a little afraid of men before. But your appearance made me feel different. It made me know that there are still men in the world who are as good as you, who help and protect me selflessly. I'm not a fool, I know how good you are to me." She raised her head, and there seemed to be bright stars in her eyes.

"There are not only bad men in the world, there are also good men like you. What's disgusting about you? You are so gentle and kind." She reached out and gently stroked his cheek.

To be honest, she has no experience in love. Even for Yan Xu, she had blindly admired him before. That was not love, it was just a silly entanglement. Moreover, those things that happened made her realize that Yan Xu was just a good-for-nothing scumbag. She was blind at the beginning. If she hadn't been reborn, she would still be living in resentment and regret.

"Xiaoxue, maybe you don't like me, you just feel pity for me." The redness at the corners of his eyes made him look even more pitiful.

"Do you think I'm such a person? I like him because I feel sorry for him. I really like you. Even though I know your past, I only feel distressed for you."

Looking at the gentle smile on Qin Muxue's face, Shi Yan finally leaned in his arms with peace of mind. For the first time in all these years, he felt that he was living so truly and had the motivation to go on.

"But Xiaoxue, I can't stay with you for too long. Maybe I shouldn't have appeared in front of you in the first place."

If we hadn't met, none of these things would have happened, Xiaoxue wouldn't have fallen in love with me, and I wouldn't have known that I would die silently.

"Since the time we live is limited, why not enjoy the beauty of the present moment." Gently lifting his chin, Qin Muxue finally understood her own feelings.

"Xiaoxue, thank you." She healed him and warmed him as always.

The same is true for Qin Muxue. Live in the present. Even if they all have superpowers, they don’t know what kind of disaster they will encounter in the next second. In this case, why not cherish the time of being alive.

She doesn't need to hide her feelings. Now that he knows her feelings, she will try her best to convey them to him.

"Xiaoxue, I like you too. I like you so much." Leaning in her arms, Shi Yan felt unprecedented healing.

"I know. I can see that you are really partial to me." She stroked his soft hair. Even though she knew that Shi Yan was a killer, she still felt that he was a gentle person. Perhaps it was because this gentleness belonged only to her.

It was understandable that Shi Yan concealed these things, but the deaths of those people in Xuanwu City still made her feel very strange. "Shi Yan, I have a question. Are you also reborn? The people you killed were all those who bullied you and me in the past."

Shi Yan was silent for a long time, and finally said slowly: "If I say that those things in Xuanwu City were not done by me, would you believe it?"

"If it's not you, then how could it be that these things are recorded so clearly in these materials?"

"To be precise, these things were done by the me in this world. I also know that, Xiaoxue, you were also reborn into this world, right?" Shi Yan asked calmly.

"How do you know?" Qin Muxue asked in surprise. Apart from Manman and Qu Yanbai, she had not told anyone else about this, including Shi Yan.

Shi Yan lowered his eyes, "Because, I am not the Shi Yan of this world. The world we are in is just one of countless parallel time and space. To be precise, I come from the future world of another parallel time and space."

Therefore, he had experienced all the experiments that Shi Yan had experienced in this time and space, and the experience of becoming a killer.

Qin Muxue could understand the concept of parallel universes, but when Shi Yan said that he did not belong to this world, she was a little confused, "Why do you say that? Is there another you in this world?"

"I've told you before that I have schizophrenia. Sometimes I'm not the same person as I was in that time period in my mind, so I do some weird things that make people think I'm mentally ill." After traveling through time for so long, he forgot which parallel world he came from. "In my time and space, a scientist has developed a way to travel to parallel time and space, so I've been to countless parallel time and space."

So, in order to stay here to protect Qin Muxue, he killed himself in this time and space. The Shi Yan in this time and space is different from the one in other worlds. The current Shi Yan loves Xiaoxue, but the original Shi Yan in this time and space hated Qin Muxue, and he had a violent and murderous personality, so Shi Yan killed him. He didn't dare to tell Xiaoxue about this. He killed himself, which is a bit funny to say.

"Why do you want to travel through so many parallel worlds?"

"Maybe it's for you now." In fact, he traveled through countless time and space, and Xiaoxue had died every time. This time he was finally able to save her before Xiaoxue died, and fortunately, she also fell in love with him, which was something he never dreamed of.

He stretched out his hand and looked into her eyes that were like stars. "I never thought that I could lie in your arms and look at you so closely."

Perhaps, he died without regrets.

Qin Muxue felt very bitter, "Have you fallen in love with me a long time ago?"

“Maybe sooner than you think.”

He stood up and sketched her outline. How could he be so worthy of her love? He was so moved that he almost cried.

If it weren't for the dull pain in his body, he would probably have thought it was a beautiful dream in his last moments.

But the warm touch reminded him that all this was real.

I really want to hold Xiaoxue like this forever. Qin Muxue feels him hugging her tightly and can feel her shoulders getting wet.

"Shi Yan, idiot, don't cry, I won't leave you, let's live the rest of our lives together, maybe we can still find a way to cure you, you can still live on?"

"You forgot that Manman can't sense the existence of my organs because I don't belong to this time and space."

For a moment, Qin Muxue didn't know how to comfort her, and her heart was filled with strong sadness. "No, there must be a way. I won't allow you to die. You have to live well by my side. As long as I'm alive, you can't die!"

Looking at the other person's determined eyes, Shi Yan seemed to have the motivation to persevere, "Okay, I will stay by your side forever."

After explaining it clearly, Shi Yan felt much more relaxed. "I was originally thinking about how to explain all this to you, but now I've told you everything." He said jokingly.

What he didn't expect was that Qin Muxue was not afraid of him. Instead, she encouraged and comforted him. Meeting her probably used up all his good luck in his life, but it was all worth it. Xiaoxue was his good luck and his salvation.

Suddenly, Qin Muxue's stomach growled, and the originally ambiguous atmosphere suddenly became a little awkward.

She touched her stomach and said sheepishly, "I feel a little hungry."

Shi Yan chuckled, "I know, you get hungry easily, let me make something for you to eat!"

"No, you're not feeling well, so you don't need to cook today. I have a lot of ready-made food in my space, everything you need." Although it was indeed not as delicious as what Shi Yan cooked himself, he must have put a lot of love and thought into it when he cooked it for her, so the food tasted so delicious.

"What do you want to eat?"

Shi Yan didn't want to eat anything, but considering Qin Muxue's mood, "I want to eat ramen."

"I want to eat it too. Why do you want the same as me? Hehe." Qin Muxue brought out a few bowls of beef ramen, the kind with three extra servings of beef.

Qin Muxue ate five bowls in one breath before she felt a little satisfied. Shi Yan only ate half a bowl. Seeing him eat so little, Qin Muxue felt a little uncomfortable. He always ate very little, probably because of physical reasons. She suddenly felt very distressed.

"You'd better go back and rest early. You don't look well. I'll find some fruit for you to take back." Their rooms were very close, and Qin Muxue wanted to send him back.

Shi Yan nodded slightly, "Okay."

After sending him back to his apartment, Qin Muxue discovered that he had not cleaned the room at all. It was full of dust and was completely uninhabitable.

"How...how do you sleep like this?"

Shi Yan lay on the cold ground, "That's all."

Qin Muxue held her forehead and sighed, "Otherwise, you should stay at my place first!"