Chapter 318 Painful Struggle

Shen Nuo's attitude.

Xiao Hechuan also shut up.

Everything he said was nonsense.

It's just a matter of one willing to fight and the other willing to be beaten.

Xiao Hechuan didn't know why he cared so much.

But during this period, he did find that something was increasingly wrong with him.

At first I just kept thinking about this person.

Wondering what he's doing.

Then I just wanted to see him, all the time.

He tried every possible way and found all kinds of reasons to stay with him.

But it seemed that even so, a certain thought in his heart began to take shape and grow bigger and bigger.

He is no longer satisfied with the status quo.

Xiao Hechuan is a psychologist.

He has treated many abnormal psychological cases.

Naturally, he had encountered this situation before.

Those who fall in love with the same sex but cannot accept that they are gay.

Xiao Hechuan would advise them to seriously understand themselves, explore themselves, and then accept their truest thoughts.

And these days, he seems to be going through such a psychological process.

After some inner struggle and analysis.

Xiao Hechuan had to admit it.

He also fell in love with a person of the same sex, Shen Nuo.

This made him very conflicted and entangled.

When something happens to you, it is difficult to accept it.

He even felt a little strange about himself.

He always felt that he had firm ideas, knew himself very well, and understood his life goals and pursuits.

But after meeting Shen Nuo, everything was overturned.

He certainly doesn't discriminate against homosexuals.

He could also accept that he fell in love with a man.

But what made him suffer was.

Shen Nuo couldn't possibly love him.

Shen Nuo is a straight man. He likes beautiful women and is surrounded by them all day long.

And he also knew clearly that Shen Nuo liked Jiang Ciyou.

That kind of love is too obvious.

He even began to feel a little jealous of Jiang Ciyou.

He once thought of himself as a Buddhist.

Watch the joys and sorrows of men and women in this world with a cold eye.

At any time, you can be a sober observer, help others solve their doubts, enter and exit the world, and come and go freely.

But during this period, his faith collapsed rapidly.

It turns out that he is just an ordinary person.

There are the greed, anger, ignorance and worldly desires and greed of the world.

But this is the thing he cannot ask for or get.

This made him feel very painful.

The car quickly drove on the overpass.

Xiao Hechuan looked at the bustling neon lights passing by, feeling as if a stone was pressing on his heart.

Soon the car arrived at Qingmu Mountain.

They are neighbors and their villas are next to each other.

Now the door in the yard is almost useless.

Shen Nuo has already regarded his home as his own.

I often got drunk from the bar at night and ran to his house by mistake to sleep.

Although he was helpless.

But I have become accustomed to preparing hangover soup every night.

After the car stopped, Xiao Hechuan felt inexplicably irritated.

"Chen Nuo, go down and return to your own home."

After he finished speaking, there was no sound from next door.

Xiao Hechuan turned his head and looked over.

Shen Nuo had actually fallen asleep leaning against the car window.

She looks very pretty when she sleeps.

Even if he is drunk on weekdays.

But when he was asleep, he was very gentle.

She doesn't snore or grind her teeth like those grown men.

Her breathing was even and shallow.

This boy has very long eyelashes, which form a small shadow under his eyelids under the light.

It's really rare to see a man with such long eyelashes.

In fact, he is very different from ordinary men.

Although he smokes, drinks, and likes tattoos.

But she looks clean, fresh and exquisite.

Probably because her skin is very white and delicate.

It's like a peeled soft egg.

I don’t know why.

I was in an extremely irritable mood just now, but after seeing Shen Nuo's peaceful sleeping face, I suddenly calmed down.

He looked sideways for a long time.

Finally I couldn't help but get closer.

When he was close, he could smell her scent.

It's not the scent of any men's perfume.

It's more like a light floral scent with a hint of tobacco.

It doesn't smell bad.

His fingers touched Shen Nuo's cheek.

My fingers were warm, just as I had imagined.

His skin is as smooth and soft as a woman's.

Just like what was described in the book, her skin was as smooth as cream.

How can a man have such delicate skin?

Xiao Hechuan's fingers slowly moved down Shen Nuo's cheek.

Finally it stopped on her rosy lips.

Her lips are really red.

It is not only red but also moist, like crystal jelly or ripe strawberries in midsummer.

Such bright colors reveal a fatal temptation.

It seems as if someone is picking them.

Xiao Hechuan's heart moved.

I don’t know what he was thinking.

My lips couldn't help but move closer.

His heartbeat began to accelerate wildly.

He knew what he was doing.

But I just can’t control it, and I don’t want to control it.

As if driven by a strange desire.

He just felt that the blush was the most tempting thing in the world.

His lips moved closer and closer.

The heartbeat is like the beating of a drum.

Certain desires that are usually restrained and suppressed seem to turn into a ferocious beast and break out of the cage.

It began to devour the world crazily, becoming bigger and bigger.

At this moment, he couldn't control himself or restrain himself.

His lips had already covered Shen Nuo's lips.

Their noses touched, and they could almost smell each other's breath.

Xiao Hechuan almost held his breath.

A soft touch came from the lips.

Xiao Hechuan seemed to be struck by a powerful lightning.

The whole person was roasted until crispy on the outside and tender on the inside.

His body was stiff and he couldn't move at all.

Xiao Hechuan closed his eyes.

The unique taste between the lips spreads throughout the body.

Every cell in the body seemed to have awakened, clamoring and reveling wildly.

I don’t know how long it took.

He suddenly opened his eyes.

He seemed to have just woken up from a dream.

The lips quickly left.

He took a step back and sat up straight.

He happened to see himself in the rearview mirror.

He looked panic-stricken, as if facing a great enemy.

Shen Nuo seemed to realize something in his sleep.

He opened his eyes drowsily, rubbing them as if he hadn't woken up yet: "Lao Xiao, are we home yet?"

Xiao Hechuan looked at him as if he were a monster.

Then he suddenly opened the car door and rushed out.

After entering the house, there was a sudden bang.

Shen Nuo was completely stunned.

The sleepiness was instantly dispelled.

What's wrong with this guy suddenly?

Shen Nuo felt that Xiao Hechuan had become more and more weird recently.

He always looks like this.

If it weren't for the fact that he was her younger brother when they were young, she wouldn't want to take him out to play.

What's the point of giving her the cold shoulder all the time?

Shen Nuo also got out of the car.

Xiaopao wanted to go into the house to find out what was going on.

But he found that Xiao Hechuan had locked the door from the inside.

She couldn't open it even after entering the password.

She tried several times with her fingerprint, but it was the same.

Shen Nuo was also angry.

What's wrong with this person?

But Shen Nuo is not someone who gives up easily.

Between friends, things should be made clear.

What's the point of being so shy?

So she quickly climbed up the jujube tree in the yard.

This jujube tree leads directly to the balcony of Xiao Hechuan's room.

Xiao Hechuan probably didn't expect Chen Nuo to climb up the tree.

After he came up, he wanted to see if Shen Nuo had left.

As soon as the glass door of the balcony was opened, the two of them met face to face...