Chapter 63 Hurting each other, because we want to embrace each other. 2/2...

Kwon Ji-yong has been very busy since his return. An Yeo-bong hadn't seen her parents for a long time, so she came to visit them.

They live in a small town not far from downtown Aswan, living deeply among the locals.

"What's wrong? You don't look well. Did you have a fight with Quan Zhilong?" Seeing that An Rufeng looked unhappy after finishing her phone call with Quan Zhilong, An's father assumed they had argued and asked with concern.

“I have a feeling that I’m about to leave this time and space,” An Rufeng said in a low voice.

Her voice was as soft as a wisp of mist, as if it might be blown away at any moment. Her brows were furrowed, and her expression was pained: "I don't know what to do. Should we break up or continue? Dad, I don't want to make a choice."

"Dad, I'm hesitating. Does this mean..."

Mr. An understood what she was going to say and stopped her from continuing, retorting, "The fact that you're hesitating means that Kwon Ji-yong is just as important to me as your mother."

Father An knew that his daughter would forget people she didn't know before if she changed time and space, so she had two slots to actively remember other people.

By simply writing down the other person's name and address, she can find them in other timelines and get to know them again. After three encounters and the development of deep feelings, they will enter each other's timelines and never forget each other again.

One spot has already been used, and now there is only one spot left.

Father An knew that once the two slots were used up, his daughter would no longer have the ability to travel through time.

Not breaking up means using up the only remaining spot, and it also means that their daughter will never see them again.

They will never see their daughter again.

My daughter is hesitant to choose because she can't bear to give up either side; she doesn't want to accept the outcome of giving up either one.

Mr. An was also reluctant to never see his daughter again, but he hoped she would choose Kwon Ji-yong.

It wasn't because Kwon Ji-yong was a good person, although that was part of the reason, but more so because Father An didn't want his daughter to be trapped in the old timeline and stagnant.

He and his mother both felt that these two spots were given by God for their daughter to find her life partner. Once she used up the spots and found her partner, she wouldn't need to travel through time anymore, because then she wouldn't only feel at ease when she saw them.

When the first spot was used up, An's father thought she had found her lover and was quite happy. He never expected that when the truth came out, he would find out that she was a scoundrel who abused cats.

At that time, An's father knew that his daughter did not care about the quota at all; she was determined to live in the old time and with them.

Mr. An thought that the remaining spot would be used for a long time, or even never be used again.

Mr. An was relieved to find that she was now interested in using this spot.

Although he was reluctant to let go, he hoped that his daughter could move forward and live a normal life.

Hearing her father's words, An Rufeng remained silent and went into the art studio, hoping to calm her mind through painting.

But my mind, which can usually immerse itself in painting as soon as I pick up a paintbrush, just can't calm down.

An Rufeng put down her paintbrush and took out her phone to read the message that Quan Zhilong had sent her.

Their group will start their tour next month, and he wants Anru Feng to accompany them so they can travel together in each city they visit.

This plan is indeed good; in the past, she would have gladly accepted it.

But now An Rufeng feels that she will soon be in a different time and space. Usually, when she has this feeling, after taking a certain number of flights, she might be on a flight that takes her to a different time and space.

She will eventually go to another time and space and forget Kwon Ji-yong.

An Rufeng had deliberately ignored this issue before, always thinking that she had plenty of time, that changing time and space was far away from her, and that it was still a long time before she had to make a decision.

But as she walked, she felt as if it was almost time to change time and space. She could no longer run away like before and take things one step at a time. It was her turn to make a choice.

An Rufeng didn't want to forget Quan Zhilong forever, but she also couldn't bear to part with her parents.

She just couldn't make up her mind.

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In March 2012, Big Bang launched their global concert tour. After their first concert in Seoul, Kwon Ji-yong made a brief appearance at the after-party before going home with An Ru-feng.

"We'll be having concerts in Guangzhou and Shanghai this July. China is your territory, so will you take me sightseeing there?"

July? I wonder if she'll still be around then.

An Rufeng didn't know how to respond and remained silent for a moment.

Seeing this, Quan Zhilong pursed his lips. He sensed that Ru Feng had been somewhat depressed and unhappy lately.

She was watching the concert backstage today. When he went offstage to change clothes, he noticed she was lost in thought. Although she often gets lost in thought and daydreams, this was different.

She hasn't said whether she wants to accompany him on tour. Does she have other plans and is this putting her in a difficult position?

But given Ru Feng's personality, she would tell him directly if she had other plans.

Kwon Ji-yong thought for a moment and said carefully, "I don't know if I'm overthinking it, but I feel like you've been preoccupied lately?"

Seeing the concern on Kwon Ji-yong's face, An Rufeng looked at him quietly for a while and asked, "If I said I could travel through different times, would you believe me?"

When Kwon Ji-yong heard An Yeo-feng's words, his first thought was disbelief, but her expression didn't seem like she was joking.

Kwon Ji-yong's eyes widened.

Kwon Ji-yong often has unconventional ideas and likes novel things. His brain went blank for a moment, but he quickly accepted it.

Kwon Ji-yong found it somewhat unbelievable that it was truly possible to travel through time.

After the initial shock, Kwon Ji-yong calmed down. Considering Ru Feng's recent condition, he suddenly had a bad feeling, and his heart sank inexplicably.

He didn't rush to ask An Rufeng; he knew she definitely had more to say.

An Rufeng continued, "I am not from this time and space, and I may be leaving soon."

Kwon Ji-yong's throat was dry. After a long while, he asked, "I'm not in your timeline?"

An Rufeng's voice was muffled: "I'm not sure if you exist in my timeline. After I leave this timeline, I will forget all the people and things I didn't know before."

Kwon Ji-yong spoke with difficulty, stating the truth: "We didn't know each other before."

He suddenly became very angry: "You're not from this time and space, why did you come to provoke me! You forgot me and left without a second thought, what am I supposed to do?! Am I supposed to be left alone to live a painful life clinging to memories?"

"People who didn't know me in this timeline will gradually forget me, and so will you. In a year at most, you will completely forget me, as if you had never known me at all."

An Rufeng's words made Quan Zhilong even angrier and more unable to accept it: "How could I have completely forgotten you? How could I not even have your memories!"

Kwon Ji-yong suffered a double blow: losing An Yeo-feng caused him great pain, and forgetting An Yeo-feng also caused him great pain.

"Forget me, and you'll stop suffering."

"I would rather remember you consciously and painfully than forget you."

Anru Feng's throat tightened: "Just like the changing seasons, memories will always slowly fade away."

Kwon Ji-yong didn't speak, his brown eyes filled with pain and despair.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have gotten to know you." An Rufeng's eyes welled up with tears, her gaze filled with sorrow and a helpless pain.

"No, you must come to know me. Even if it's an eternal cycle, repeating countless times, I will choose to know you."

Anru burst into tears.

Kwon Ji-yong caught her tears as they rolled down her cheeks.

That night, both of them tossed and turned, unable to sleep.

Anru Feng did not mention the number of spots.

She wanted to make the decision on her own.

If she ultimately chooses Kwon Ji-yong over her parents, that's her own decision, her own business, and has nothing to do with Kwon Ji-yong.

If she chose him, she hoped he would never know that she had made a choice between her parents and him.

An Rufeng didn't want Quan Zhilong to feel burdened by her life. She hoped that if one day he stopped loving her and there were no more feelings, they could break up without any burden, and she wouldn't have to continue living in pain because of a sense of responsibility.

She didn't want feelings mixed with guilt; she wanted to love freely and without restraint.

The next day, during his free time at work, Quan Zhilong called all of An Rufeng's friends to ask them if An Rufeng really could travel through time.

Kwon Ji-yong called them hoping it was all a joke, a prank, or a trick, but everyone gave him a positive answer.

Yamada Yusuke was in class and only answered Kwon Ji-yong's call at the very end.

Yamada Yusuke was shocked that An Rufeng would tell Quan Zhilong the secret of time travel. He smiled and said, "Rufeng really loves you. She actually told you this. Rufeng can indeed travel through different time periods. She didn't lie to you."

Before Quan Zhilong could answer, he said happily, "I've never seen Ru Feng introduce her lover to us before. She even told you this secret. I believe that soon, Ru Feng will introduce you to us in her real life! I look forward to seeing you then."

Kwon Ji-yong was taken aback upon hearing this. Judging from his words, it seemed that meeting again wouldn't be so difficult.

Kwon Ji-yong began to subtly probe for information.

Aside from An's parents, Brother Li, Tang Yu, and Ran Lu, none of An Rufeng's other friends knew that there were only two spots available, and that once used, they would no longer be able to travel through time.

So when it came to the part where Quan Zhi was just a background character, Yamada Yusuke easily mentioned that there were available spots.

After all, Watanabe, whom An Rufeng asked him to investigate, was a cat abuser and a piece of trash. Since the quota could be used for such a bastard, he felt that there shouldn't be a shortage of quotas, and it wouldn't matter if he used them.

Kwon Ji-yong hung up the phone without expression.

I suppressed my anger and finished the announcement.

Back home, Anru Feng was sitting on the sofa by the window, looking at the night view outside.

Kwon Ji-yong walked to her side, looked at her, his eyebrows furrowed slightly, then relaxed, as if he was trying to control his inner emotions.

"I heard you have a quota for memorizing other people's information. You can go to another time and space to find him."

"Who told you that?" An Rufeng asked in surprise.

“It seems Yamada was telling the truth,” Kwon Ji-yong’s lips curled slightly. “Why? Why didn’t you say so? You clearly had a way to remember me, why didn’t you let me use it? Do you even love me?”

Anru remained silent.

Seeing this, Kwon Ji-yong pressed on, his words laced with self-mockery: "You could have left quietly, but you deliberately revealed your secret to me, causing me pain, just to make a fool of yourself?"

An Rufeng frowned, paused, and finally revealed half the truth: "I only have one spot."

Kwon Ji-ryong was taken aback.

Does she not believe he will be with her for the long haul? Is she worried that she won't have a spot left if she meets someone better in the future? Is that why she hesitates to give him the only spot? Doesn't he give her a sense of security?

"Let's get married."

An Rufeng understood his thought process: "It's not a question of whether or not to get married."

"Then what do you want me to do?"

"Give me time to think it over, okay?"

"Why do we need to consider it?" Kwon Ji-yong couldn't accept it; he thought they were deeply in love.

“This is my life, and I feel I need to take my time to consider it carefully.”

"I can marry you right now! But you're hesitating, weighing the pros and cons. You don't love me at all!"

"I don't think that my thinking about it means I don't love you. Why can't I think about it? Women can consider marriage proposals too."

Kwon Ji-yong found it hard to accept.

Anru Feng added, "Give me some time to think about it, okay?"

If I love him? Is that really something I need to consider?

A suffocating silence filled the air.

"I wonder how many people I've talked to about considering this?" Kwon Ji-yong stared at An Joo-bong and suddenly said slowly.

"What?" An Rufeng opened her eyes slightly, not quite understanding.

"I'm telling you, I wonder how many people's feelings you've toyed with?" Kwon Ji-yong's tone was somewhat aggressive.

He raised his voice, a hint of sarcasm in it, "In other times and dimensions you've visited, you've said the same things to your so-called lover, haven't you?"

“An Rufeng, perhaps in the next timeline, you will say the same words to me to your new lover, just as you are saying now!”

good.

Anru Feng also became famous. She sneered, stood up and went to the sofa: "What about you? After I leave, or maybe not after I leave, you will write a song to express your hatred for me, and then sing it to your fans at your concert along with the love songs you wrote for other women."

At that moment, were you happy? Because your performance touched your fans. They felt heartache and were moved by your so-called heartbreak and deep affection.

Quan Zhilong tried to look up, but An Rufeng reached out and pressed his head down, preventing him from looking at her, and continued in a calm and indifferent tone.

"When you're on a TV show, do you casually recount your heartbreak to the host, then laugh and say that you were really sad at the time, but now it's all in the past? And I won't even have a name; I'll just be something you talk about on variety shows. Tell me, would you do that, Kwon Ji-yong?"

You know perfectly well how much I love you!

"You chose to be placed on the same level as those I've completely forgotten, or even those who don't exist!"

"Fine, don't make things difficult for yourself, let's break up!"

Kwon Ji-yong turned his head away, broke free from her hand that was holding him, turned around and slammed the door shut as he left!

"Bang!"

The loud slam of the door made An Rufeng tremble involuntarily.

An Rufeng stepped off the sofa and stood still, lost in thought.

I don't know how much time has passed.

A sound came from the other side of the door.

The door opened.

Kwon Ji-yong walked in, suddenly hugged An Joo-feng, and tears silently streamed down his face.

An Rufeng also reached out and hugged his neck.

The two embraced tightly, neither of them saying a word.

They simply held each other, their bodies trembling slightly, tears washing over each other's necks and soaking their thin shirts.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said such hurtful things to you," Kwon Ji-yong's voice was hoarse from crying. "I'm sorry, saying 'break up' was just an angry outburst. I shouldn't have said it. I'm sorry, we won't break up."

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said those hurtful things to you."

"Please, come find me, okay?"

Kwon Ji-yong suddenly raised his head and stared intently at An Yeo-feng.

His words were resolute: "If you don't come to me, I will die."

Kwon Ji-yong stared at her, his tone calm: "I will commit suicide before I forget you."

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Author's note: The chance of an update tomorrow is 50/50.