Chapter 429 I don’t want to know too much about him

Xiyan couldn't help laughing, glanced at her, and turned into the inner tent.

Manluo followed closely behind, holding Chu Yue in her arms. After entering the tent, they placed the two children side by side on the cushioned couch.

Maids Nichang and Dieyu had already brought a lot of small toys, rattles, cloth tigers, small bells...

Yin'er and Chu Yue sat on the couch, grabbing each other's hands and having a lot of fun. Their clear laughter echoed in the tent, diluting the sadness of their separation.

Xiyan and Manluo sat aside and watched, smiling at each other, with a rare sense of ease between their brows.

Manluo looked at Xiyan's elegant features and suddenly said:

"Are you truly not worried about His Highness? In truth, this battle isn't entirely certain. Helian Feng, Xiao Beicheng, and the others are probably determined to fight to the death. Success or failure depends on this one move. Speaking of which, His Highness originally launched the expedition to Southern Zhao for you; otherwise, Helian Feng and the others would never have had the opportunity to take advantage of it."

Xiyan snorted coldly, "I didn't force him to attack my country. If he hadn't come, we would have all lived in peace. Now, we've been caught up in this war, mother and daughter, with no peace. You and Yue'er could have stayed in the Nanzhao Palace. Do you think I should be grateful to him?"

Manluo sighed, "But if that's the case, then he and you are destined to be separated in this life. You can only go your separate ways. Are you really willing to let it go?"

Xiyan's breath was choked, and then she turned her face away:

"There's no such thing as giving up or not giving up. In fact, if I'm not with him, it would be fine for him to be the regent and for me to be Princess Nanzhao and raise Yin'er. No man in this world would wait for a woman forever or stay for anyone. He, Xiao Nanyan, is a dragon among men. In a few years, he will forget me, and other women will naturally appear around him."

She sighed softly, with a hint of melancholy in her tone:

"Perhaps he's so persistent because he's unwilling to give up. He's been used to controlling me for many years, and once I'm out of his control, he wants to conquer me. After all, you've seen how Xiao Nanyan treated me in the past."

Manluo shook her head: "In the past few years, he treated you and us differently. It's just that he was too strong and overbearing, and never saw his own heart clearly."

Xiyan lowered her eyes and looked at Yin'er playing with Yue'er on the couch, and sighed softly:

"I'm very grateful to him for saving me all those years ago. Otherwise, I would have died on the streets of Nanzhao. So, I've risked my life for him for eight years as repayment, and that's enough.

I've tasted the scorching heart pill; I've also done it for him, stealing pearls, killing people, and narrowly escaping death. Over the years, my hands have been stained with the blood of others, and there may not be any good people among those people. My sins are deep, so leaving him is more like leaving my bloody past.

Manluo sighed softly, "I understand. If they weren't forced, who would be willing to be a killer and end someone else's life? But I think we all understand the prince's situation. He had no choice. Besides, he has changed a lot in the past two years. I heard from Mo Ren that he actually..."

In fact, a few days ago, on the way back to Tianqi, Manluo was shocked when she heard Mo Ren say that Xiao Nanyan had given the antidote to the Chi Zhong Gu to all the assassins. She also thought about herself. Fu Yunqing had no relationship with her, so why would he suddenly give her the antidote? It turned out that it was her master's order.

Manluo's heart was filled with gratitude towards Xiao Nanyan. Now, she was no longer forced to work for Xiao Nanyan, but was willing to do so.

"Forget it. I don't want to know too much about his affairs."

Xiyan interrupted her: "I agreed to the marriage because I wanted to save both countries from the suffering of war. Besides, Yin'er seems to like her father too."

Manluo looked at her: "But, you still have a knot in your heart. Back then, the prince gave you to the crown prince Helian Feng, but actually..."

Xi Yan smiled, with a bit of self-mockery:

"In fact, he did it to save my life. Even that day in Feiyun Temple, when he deliberately said such cruel words, was he also trying to save my life?"

Manluo was slightly surprised: "You know everything?"

Xiyan nodded gently:

"Sometimes, love can make you dizzy and lose yourself. I used to care about him too much. Every word he said would go to my heart and make me sad.

In the more than a year I've been in Nanzhao, I've figured out a lot. Perhaps he cares about me, perhaps he doesn't want me to die, so he deliberately said that. But how could he be sure I understood? After all, in the past eight years, I've never heard him say a single word of his love or pity for me. The love I had for him gradually died.

Tears gradually appeared in Xiyan's eyes:

"I want an equal love, one where we understand and connect with each other, not just whatever he says or wants to do. He doesn't say anything, and I can't read his mind, so how can I know what he's thinking?"

She raised her eyes and looked at Manluo quietly, with no sadness or joy in her eyes, as if she was telling someone else's story:

“In fact, those times, I would rather die than listen to those words.

He might never understand the feeling of a heart that once loved him so timidly and cautiously, being shattered in an instant. Once shattered, even if one consciously wanted to repair it, it could never be put back together.

I passively felt his silent and overbearing love. Look, even marrying me was done with such force and force, attacking my country. How can I let go of my grudges and accept it with a smile?

Manluo shook her head slightly:

"Forget it, you two are both trapped in a mystery. If you want to break the deadlock, you still have to solve it yourselves. In fact, you are two people who obviously love each other, so why torture each other..."

Xi Yan smiled with relief and changed the subject:

"Let's not talk about us anymore. Tell me about yourself. Why did Chu Jin bear to bring Yue'er to you?"