Chapter 106

The light of the setting sun shone through the kitchen window and fell on Ye Yan, who was standing in front of the counter.

He was absentmindedly slicing onions with a knife, his mind preoccupied with what Qin Su had just said.

What does it mean when we say "we in this world have become old men and women"?

Does she mean she'll stay in this world for decades?

And...maybe...she'll be with him?

The onions had a pungent and spicy smell, but Ye Yan couldn't help but smile.

The torment and pain after regaining his memories, and the anxiety of these past few days, all seemed to settle down safely in this sentence that was not exactly a love confession.

He thought, "Old man and old woman" is truly the most wonderful term in the world.

***

To make roasted lamb chops, you need to marinate them with cooking wine to remove the gamey smell. Ye Yan couldn't find any cooking wine in the kitchen, so he decided to check the storage room.

Qin Su bought this house after he started working for the convenience of commuting. Although he had been here a few times before, he was not familiar with the storage room.

Ye Yan opened several cabinets but couldn't find any kitchenware. He was about to go out and ask Qin Su when he realized that he hadn't checked a cabinet near the top of the wall.

Without thinking much, he walked over and opened the cabinet door.

A glass storage rack comes into view.

This storage rack was probably specially made to hold these things. Each of the compartments is different in size and height. He recognized a few of the gifts at a glance as gifts from guests on the show "Meet Your Heartbeat".

But these are not the main points.

The key point is that he saw a bunch of dried roses in the top drawer of the storage shelf.

A familiar bunch of dried roses.

Ye Yan stood there for a few seconds, then gently opened the glass drawer with a feeling he didn't know what to make of it, and took out the bouquet of dried flowers. Underneath the dried flowers was a layer of faded wrapping paper.

Yes, it's this bouquet of flowers.

Ye Yan, who personally selected the flowers and watched them being packaged, was certain and accurate. This was the bouquet he gave to Qin Su after the charity gala that year.

"...I'm just asking you to keep it for now, and you can return it to me after the show is finished recording, okay?"

"...Actually, you still owe me a bouquet of roses, do you remember?"

...Qin Su looked surprised, as if she had no recollection of it at all, "Rose?"

This was the final straw that drove Ye Yan to the brink of madness.

Because he thought she would abandon him just as she had abandoned him in the last world, without any mercy or concern.

So his obsessive emotions overwhelmed everything, leading him to make an extreme choice.

but……

But Qin Su clearly didn't throw away the bouquet of flowers; she even dried them and kept them here carefully.

It's impossible for her to have no recollection of it.

In his shock, it was as if a lightning bolt struck Ye Yan's mind, illuminating his thoughts with crystal clarity.

Many things that previously seemed flawless and natural now flashed by like frames from a movie.

When he first confessed his feelings, she said, "If you have anything to say, let's wait until after the recording is over."

Although she was upset when she went on a date with Gu Chiyan, she knew that Gu Chiyan wouldn't be her type. Later, when she went on a date with Jin Xiao, she said, "You are indeed my type."

At that time, he was almost overwhelmed by jealousy and speculation, and even suspected that her playing hard to get was because she was targeting Jin Xiao.

What if her target wasn't Jin Xiao at all?

Who was she talking to?

And what about that absurd "imprisonment" a few days ago? She was drugged and taken home by him. Was she really completely unprepared?

Even if someone has feelings for Qin Su, can they easily let go of the fact that their partner is doing something so dangerous?

So why is that?

Is it because all of this, including his emotions and behavior, is under her influence and control?

This is the result she wanted.

The hidden truth was tightly wrapped up, but it only took one thread to unravel it. With a gentle tug, the truth would be revealed.

Ye Yan is not stupid; on the contrary, he is very smart.

Even though he often loses his head when he's around Qin Su, it doesn't mean he's lost his intelligence and judgment.

If it were any other man, upon discovering such a thing, he might be furious because he felt manipulated, terrified because he felt controlled, or panicked for one reason or another.

But Ye Yan did not.

He stopped thinking about whether these conjectures were true or why Qin Su did this, and simply assumed that all the conjectures were true, and worked backward to deduce the truth.

Assuming he hasn't gone mad, when would he reveal the truth to Qin Su? Would he tell Qin Su that he has memories of his past life?

I doubt it will happen until I die.

Even if the two of them stay together in this life, even if she stays with him until old age, in some unknown corner, he will be tormented by memories forever, forever trapped in the abyss of the past and unable to break free.

He will be constantly filled with unease, distrust, and doubt, tormented by love and hate.

That's how many things in the world are; they never change until they accumulate to a certain point.

If Qin Su's words and actions hadn't amplified Ye Yan's emotions, forcing him to the point of no return, he would never have held onto her with the desperate idea of ​​burning his bridges and being shattered to pieces, to have a clear and straightforward conversation.

She forced him to expose the most unbearable part of his desires in the relationship, and also helped him get rid of the shadow of nightmares that haunted him.

He is closest to her only when he is fully prepared to lose her.

When Ye Yan realized this, he was physically healthy, but he seemed to be suffering from a serious illness.

His heart was pounding, his breathing was heavy, his body was alternating between hot and cold, and a strange shiver swept over his entire body.

His fingers, gripping the glass drawer, trembled slightly. In that instant, a multitude of thoughts arose, yet it was as if he hadn't thought of anything at all.

But Ye Yan did nothing. He quietly tidied things up as they were, put them back in the cabinet, and then went back to the kitchen to order cooking wine as if nothing had happened, and continued cooking.

After dinner and a shower, the two of them fooled around on the sofa. The living room lights were off, and Ye Yan kissed Qin Su slowly by the light coming in from the French windows.

A fine layer of sweat covered his forehead, and his expression was unusually sexy.

"Susu, I love you so much."

Qin Su was used to him like this, and replied weakly, "Yes, I love you too."

Ye Yan appeared more agitated and ferocious than usual, as if he wished he could tear her apart, bones and all, and devour her, merging her into his own blood and bones.

He would repeat the kiss every time he gave it to someone.

I love you so much.

"I love you so much, I love you so much, I really love you so much."

...

Qin Su grew impatient with his nagging, bit his arm, and said fiercely, "If you really love me, be gentle, or you'll kill me."

Ye Yan chuckled, hugged her even tighter, and said, "No, because I'm a shameless bastard too, and I just want to bully you."

As Qin Su looked on in surprise, the night grew even darker.

A warm breeze blew into the house; summer is finally almost here.