"It's inevitable."

"Chen, tell me honestly." Lu Xingzhou's hand on his firm abs was trembling: "Are you...?"

"No, I have no connection with anyone in that bar."

The stern refusal only strengthened Lu Xingzhou's suspicions: "So you're going...you're going to...destroy the hideout?"

Lu Xingzhou wrote the last few words on Shen's body with his fingertips.

He was a clever man, and all the stupid things he did in his life were related to Shen.

"Mm." Shen nodded.

"Then...why didn't you tell me before?"

“Because the organization has a confidentiality agreement,” Shen said. “When we carry out special missions, any problem in any link could lead to mission failure. Therefore, the organization stipulates that I cannot let anyone know my whereabouts, purpose, or mission details. Otherwise, you and I will both die.”

"So why are you talking now?" Lu Xingzhou asked. "Aren't you afraid I'll die?"

"You figured it out yourself when you met me, not that I said it."

Shen was very honest. After saying this, it was as if a flood that had been held back for many years had suddenly burst forth. He tightened his arms around Lu Xingzhou and explained some of the underlying reasons.

"You can guess for yourself that I'm the one who violated the organization's agreement. If anything goes wrong, my death is enough."

"It's okay as long as you don't tell anyone."

"I thought you had long forgotten me, but since that's the case, will telling you the truth make you feel better?"

Lu Xingzhou took a slight breath, thinking that he was about to say something important.

But Shen continued, "Actually, back then, I didn't feel disgusted just because you were a man."

"I don't feel any sense of superiority because of my age."

"I didn't think you were unreliable, no..."

What Shen said was very different from what he thought.

Lu Xingzhou was stunned at first, and after listening for a while, he remembered the scene of their breakup two years ago.

Shen said a few words, but he himself launched into a long speech, reciting all the vicious things he had said.

"Chen! Why did you break up with me? Is it because I'm a man that you find disgusting?"

"Do you have a strange sense of superiority because you're older than me?"

"Because they think I'm unreliable, so they're going to look for another job?"

Lu Xingzhou could no longer remember many of the words he had said.

But he still remembers that it was he who was aggressive.

In the end, it was myself who broke down and cried.

Shen Yiran continued listing: "Just because I don't like music doesn't mean I don't like you."

"I don't hate you just because you're a bad shot."

"I don't think you're unattractive..."

Lu Xingzhou himself didn't even remember many of the angry words he blurted out.

But Shen kept it all in her heart, and sincerely apologized for every suspicion he had made out of his youth and ignorance.

Lu Xingzhou touched it slightly, but did not stop it.

This is what Shen Sishui owes him, and Shen Sishui deserves to remember it for the rest of his life!

After refuting Lu Xingzhou's angry words from back then, Chen continued.

"I'm sorry, Zhouzhou."

“My father was a secret agent, and my mother died at the hands of a drug lord.”

“I grew up at the Secret Service headquarters when I was five years old and have seen too much evil.”

"I have also traveled all over the world, risking my life to save many people from mountains of corpses and seas of blood."

"At that time, the intelligence headquarters was short of personnel and drug lords were rampant."

"My beliefs, my upbringing, and everything I've done in the first half of my life do not allow me to continue living a comfortable life in that little tavern."