Why can you so easily trample on my heart?

Why were you so cruel even when I was dying? You wouldn't even comfort me with a single word.

Why... you don't have me in your heart, yet I'm still so damn reluctant to let go... reluctant to let go of that fake and disgusting feeling?

Even so, I don't want to see you die.

Avoiding you seems to be tormenting me, not you.

Do you know what? Every time I avoid you, I can't help but soften my heart and think that if you just come over and say I was wrong, I will forgive you.

...but you never came.

I waited for so long, you left the valley to save a little snake. I followed you the whole time. I saw that you seemed to have magical powers, and that monsters were appearing in this land. Everything had changed.

I've waited so long, and you still haven't said you were wrong.

That makes sense, because the person you love has never been me, but Qi.

Start... Start... Start...

I really want to meet Qi. What kind of person is he?

The person you can't forget must be a really, really good person, right?

If... there is an afterlife, can you promise me that you will forget that Qi and truly only know me?

It's not the Qi you truly care about, nor the Beicheng Qi who mistook illusion for truth, but the completely new me... Please don't let him experience the pain I went through, okay?

"If there is an afterlife... and we meet again... please don't... mistake me for someone else..."

Xun Anjing held Bei Chengqi in her arms for a long, long time.

It wasn't until a drop of water suddenly landed on the back of his hand that he seemed to snap out of his daze, murmuring, "Qi... Cheng, it's going to rain..."

But the land was completely dry.

Only his face showed a trace of moisture.

Xun raised his hand in confusion, gently touched his cheek, and then put his hand in front of his eyes again.

Wet marks | damp traces.

What's this?

Are these tears?

Why was he crying?

Is this the sorrow that all living beings in the world speak of?

So this is what sadness feels like?

It felt as if my thoughts, my soul, everything was frozen into ice, colder than swallowing poison, colder than being in chaos, as if a large piece of my heart had suddenly been missing, and my body was so heavy that even the slightest movement was met with endless resistance.

Is this what sadness is?

I'm so sad, so very sad.

So this is what sadness is...

Those reckless immortals and demons have destroyed many worlds, including Bei Chengqi's current world. Would Bei Chengqi be saddened if he saw this?

This unpleasant feeling is something Kita no Kai shouldn't be experiencing.

So what about those living beings...?

—Kill them all.

——First Life (The End)——