Chapter 50 During the Rainy Season, he didn't love the abyss; he loved Lin Fei. ...

Yu Wenyan still had his hand raised, and he raised his chin, indicating to Liang Yanzhe whether they should take care of Lin Fei first.

Liang Yanzhe loosened his index finger from the trigger, gave it a gentle twist, and pointed the gun at the ground before retracting it into the magazine behind him.

Once you're proficient, you should handle the gun frequently.

Yu Wenyan flicked his tongue, making a sound, and said in a slick, flippant tone, "Brother Liang, you're an old hand. Let's have a match sometime."

Liang Yanzhe freed his hand and helped Lin Fei steady: "Thank you for saving her. You can play anytime you want."

Lin Fei asked nervously, "Do we really have to chat on the main street?"

"I'll take you there." Yu Wenyan raised his hand and glanced at the current time. "You still have half an hour of rest time."

Liang Yanzhe gestured for Ye Zhan to drive the car back, and then took Lin Fei into Yu Wenyan's car.

“I heard from Chen Shiwei that you stayed here for six years,” Yu Wenyan said, starting the conversation as if they were old friends.

Liang Yanzhe: "Yes, I'm working as a Doctors Without Borders here."

"I admire you." Yu Wenyan glanced at the rearview mirror, his gaze falling on Lin Fei. "Chen Shiwei received your message and couldn't leave, so she called me. I was just trying my luck near the hotel, and I didn't expect to run into her."

"Thank you. I'll thank him later." It wasn't easy for Liang Yanzhe to find someone in such a big city, and given his status, he couldn't move around freely. He could only contact his diplomat friend in Lilletonia.

Yu Wenyan dropped them off at the hospital entrance, but didn't get out of the car. He rolled down the window and said to them, "I have a mission to complete. Let's meet again another day."

"Be careful." Liang Yanzhe nodded, his hand resting on the windowsill.

With no passengers in the car, Yu Wenyan started driving recklessly, reversing at an angle, turning the steering wheel all the way, and flooring the accelerator to speed away.

It looked like they were driving a race car, not a minivan.

"Isn't this too dangerous? He didn't have anything on him." Lin Fei worried, after all, he had been saved by him before.

Liang Yanzhe: "He is a diplomat, and it would be easier for him to get into trouble if he were carrying weapons."

Lin Fei had only ever seen diplomats on television. In her mind, they were all elites in suits, sharp-tongued, and with piercing eyes. She had never seen a diplomat running through the flames and smoke of war.

Liang Yanzhe led Lin Fei away: "Let's go, don't think about it anymore, this is their duty."

Having just experienced turmoil, it's normal for Lin Fei to be sentimental.

Duties...

Lin Fei's gaze fell on Liang Yanzhe.

He left in such a hurry that he hadn't had time to change back into his regular clothes after surgery; he was still wearing a white coat and dark blue scrubs.

Did you spend six years in such a country?

How many times have we experienced turmoil like today?

Can they always escape danger unscathed?

"This is my lounge. You can stay in here." Liang Yanzhe led Lin Fei to the room at the end of the corridor.

There was a desk and a sofa, and behind the bookshelf was a bed for resting; it was very simple.

“It’s assumed that schools and hospitals cannot be destroyed during combat. This place is safe, so there’s no need to worry about anything unexpected happening.” Liang Yanzhe helped Lin Fei to a stool and poured her a glass of warm water.

Lin Fei looked down at the clear water in the glass, but didn't take it. Instead, she got up, hugged Liang Yanzhe tightly, buried her head in his collar, and began to sob softly.

Liang Yanzhe felt somewhat guilty. He should have kept her by his side. This experience was not as simple as a fire. If psychological counseling was not done well, it could leave serious trauma.

"It's alright, you're safe." He gently patted her back with his free hand.

Liang Yanzhe gently coaxed her, "Stay here and wait for me. I need to see the Dean and Senior Brother Jin. I won't be back for a while."

If you're bringing Lin Fei to the hospital, it would be better to let them know first.

Moreover, with war raging outside and wounded constantly being sent to the hospital, he, as a doctor, had to go to the front lines.

Lin Fei let go of her hand, tears welling in her eyes. She obediently sat down, took the glass of water, and drank half of it: "I understand, you can go now."

She told herself that if she couldn't help, she shouldn't cause trouble.

Liang Yanzhe quickly changed into a white coat and put the pistol in the drawer.

He was worried about leaving her alone, so he looked back twice at the door, left only the words "Don't sleep for the next six hours," and then left.

Lin Fei put down his phone, shrunk into the stool, and stared blankly as time passed.

About four hours later, Liang Yanzhe took a break and came back. He had taken off his white coat and put it in the crook of his arm.

Although he tried his best to hide it, Lin Fei still saw a touch of red on the white background.

"Ye Zhan will bring you food, so eat something, don't go on an empty stomach." Liang Yanzhe paused for a moment and said, "I just contacted Yu Wenyan's side. Tomorrow, China will send a plane to evacuate its citizens, and you will go back with them."

"And you?" Lin Fei stood up.

Liang Yanzhe pursed his lips: "It's not good to leave right away, we're short of doctors here."

That means we won't go together.

Lin Fei wanted to refuse, but she couldn't say childish things at a life-or-death moment.

Liang Yanzhe's pager went off. He took it out to check, then picked up another white coat from the hanger and put it on. "I have two surgeries scheduled after me. Remember to eat."

The words fell as the door closed.

The room returned to silence.

Tian Ying took some time to bring Lin Fei some food. As soon as she entered, she asked with concern, "Teacher's wife, are you alright?"

Originally, Ye Zhan was supposed to come, but thinking that the big, clumsy guy wouldn't know how to comfort people, Tian Ying took the initiative to come instead.

Lin Fei was alone in the small room, and the signal hadn't been restored. She hadn't recovered at all, and the aftereffects were greater than any previous accident.

"If I sit for another hour, I might feel much better after a nap." Lin Fei stood by the window, but didn't dare to lift the curtain and look outside.

The dark city was far from quiet; explosions and screams continued unabated.

"I'm also a bit overwhelmed. I didn't expect to encounter something like this on my first trip abroad to attend a conference." Tian Ying opened her lunchbox and muttered to herself, "Fortunately, we have Teacher Liang. Ye Zhan and I don't have much experience, so he didn't assign us to the emergency room. Ye Zhan and I are responsible for assisting with external surgery. Although we are not particularly professional, we are short-handed right now. In critical moments, we can only switch to military medical mode. As long as the person is saved, we don't have to worry about other small details."

"How long will this situation last?" Lin Fei walked to the table, where foreign dishes he couldn't get used to were laid out. There was no room for criticism; as long as he had food to fill his stomach, that was enough.

She sat down and ate her meal properly.

Tian Ying slumped onto another stool, her limbs limp, like a still, stagnant pool of water.

“Casualties keep coming in.” Tian Ying’s eyes were blank. “I can’t say how many days.”

Lin Fei bit her lower lip, didn't ask any more questions, and finished all the food.

After Tian Ying left, she sat on the stool for another half hour, wiped her face, and then lay down to rest.

With constant explosions in her ears, how could she possibly sleep?

A piercing scream suddenly rang out in the quiet hallway, then abruptly stopped.

Lin Fei stopped breathing. She put on her shoes and coat, remembered the pistol in the closet, took a few deep breaths, opened it, and held it in her hand.

Her hands were weak and powerless, but her will to survive overcame all her fear. She gripped the gun handle tightly, opened the door, and quietly went out.

Reaching the top of the stairs, Lin Fei looked down and saw several bearded men in camouflage talking in a language she couldn't understand, opening door after door as if they were looking for someone.

Is the situation getting worse? Is the hospital about to be hijacked too?

Lin Fei was so frightened that she froze on the spot. Seeing that they were about to go upstairs, she forced herself to calm down and ran upstairs.

She didn't recognize any of the words on the road signs, and she didn't know where to go. She was afraid but dared not make a sound.

When she was almost on the top floor, she saw an automatic door that looked like an operating room. Remembering that Ye Zhan and Tian Ying were helping in the operating room, she ran over there.

Suddenly, a large hand reached out and grabbed her arm, pulling her into a small room. The other person seemed to have anticipated this, tightly covering her mouth to prevent any sound from escaping.

Lin Fei struggled desperately.

"Feiwen, it's me." Liang Yanzhe whispered in her ear.

Lin Fei stopped, and after a few seconds she realized what was happening. She turned around and hugged him tightly, not even daring to cry.

The surgery had just ended when Liang Yanzhe received a call from the emergency room, informing him that someone had broken into the hospital with a gun but hadn't hurt anyone; it seemed they were just looking for someone. Worried about leaving Lin Fei alone in the room, he was about to go downstairs to find her when she unexpectedly ran upstairs herself.

"Liang Yanzhe".

“Liang Yanzhe…”

Lin Fei was so frightened that he lost his ability to speak. Like a helpless fish, he frantically pounded against the fish tank, blankly murmuring his name.

Liang Yanzhe felt sorry for her and responded with a hug.

In the darkness, he touched the gun in her hand and let out a very inappropriate chuckle.

Despite being terrified, they still managed to find a glimmer of hope through sheer willpower.

"Next time you carry a gun, don't hold it in your hand. People will think you pose a threat to them and then do something to you. You can hide it behind your waist and try to conceal it. It can save your life in a critical moment." Liang Yanzhe gently stroked the back of her head. "You did very well this time. You didn't just sit and wait to die. You even managed to save yourself."

The praise finally brought Lin Fei back to his senses.

"Liang Yanzhe, I'm so afraid something will happen to you." Lin Fei dropped the gun, letting it fall to the ground. She hugged Liang Yanzhe tightly, sobbing uncontrollably, "Please don't send me back to China, okay? I know my request is unreasonable, but I want to stay with you."

Liang Yanzhe could not agree and remained silent.

"What will I do if something really happens to you?" Lin Fei felt a lump in her throat. "How can you abandon me like you did six years ago?"

Liang Yanzhe let out a helpless sigh.

"If you can't love me, why were you so good to me for those two months? When I accepted that there was no possibility of us leaving, why did you still come to celebrate my birthday and give me gifts?" Lin Fei cried as she accused him. "You said you couldn't love me, but why did every action of yours show how much you wanted to love me?"

Liang Yanzhe wiped away the hot tears on her cheeks with his thumb: "Feiwen, I'm afraid of hurting you. I... I'm afraid that the unspeakable, dishonest obsessions and darkness in my heart, as well as my strong desire for control, will make me completely lose control and unable to accept your change of heart or the fading of your love."

“A normal intimate relationship shouldn’t be like this.” So he chose to leave Jiangdu for a while, wanting to suppress the darkness in his heart; she shouldn’t have to endure this.

"It shouldn't be like this, so should I give up on love?" She bit her lower lip, trying not to make a sound, but tears streamed down her face uncontrollably.

There's no doubt he loves her.

This love can overcome self-destructive tendencies.

Realizing that I had fallen in love with her was an agonizing process.

He was obsessed with the passion she gave him, and she was engrossed in their game. When the world turned upside down, he would have a brief moment of clarity and fall into self-doubt, wondering if this was love.

Later, you might doubt yourself: why does love generate so many negative emotions? Does he love you enough?

He... still hasn't found the answer. This kind of love is too heavy. She has to endorse them for a better future.

"This kind of love is so bittersweet." He gently wiped away her tears. "Good girl, please don't cry anymore."

His heart was truly breaking.

Lin Fei rested her hands on his shoulders, ignoring the tear tracks on her face and the bloodshot eyes, and looked at him earnestly, saying, "Jealousy, control, and desire are also part of intimate relationships. If it's you, I'm willing to accept it. Love is bitter, but what does it matter? I can't accept a world without you anymore."

"All the good things I've said to you count."

She looked into his dark eyes, anxious and afraid that he wouldn't respond.

After a long while, the abyss, which seemed bottomless, gradually began to show light.

As if she had survived a catastrophe, tears streamed down her face again: "Liang Yanzhe, I can no longer stop loving you."

As if he had made up his mind, he gently grasped her hand, tightening his grip even more.

It was as if he had grasped his world.

The kiss landed reverently on the corner of her lips.

If one day the world becomes absurd, she stops loving him, and he is driven mad, then so be it.

No amount of pain can overshadow the pain of not having her.

At this moment, he could no longer refuse the hand that was reaching out to him from his life, which was constantly falling into the abyss.

Hold on tight, embrace tightly, and land safely.

He didn't love the abyss; he loved Lin Fei.

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The first rays of sunlight illuminated the ruins of half the city, and the riots ceased.

Lin Fei woke up in Liang Yanzhe's arms. There was no sticky, uncomfortable sweat on her body, and she was not in a cold, dimly lit hospital room.

He worked intensely for more than 20 hours a day, and even though the outside world was chaotic, he slept soundly.

She sat up, her gaze shifting from his deep features to the pocket watch beside the pillow.

He must have taken it off her neck after she fell asleep.

"Aren't you going to sleep?" He opened his eyes, his gaze somewhat unfocused, but his mind was already fully awake.

Lin Fei took the pocket watch and rubbed it a few times with his fingertips: "Mr. Liang, why did you give me this pocket watch?"

Liang Yanzhe took it and gently pressed the ring at the top. The lotus leaf on the cover popped open, and the dial in the middle also popped open, revealing their photo together.

“This watch is just over a hundred years old. I was born, and my grandma gave it to me as a gift. It has been with me for twenty-seven years, and I think it can accompany you for the rest of your life.” Liang Yanzhe placed it in Lin Fei’s hand and looked at her. “Well, I’m not very upright. I gave it to you with selfish motives. I hope that when you see it, you will think of me.”

This was the first time he had openly told her about his possessiveness and selfishness.

Lin Fei: "I regret not opening the gift in front of you that day."

Perhaps then there would be no misunderstanding between them.

“Feiwen, even if I couldn’t find the optimal solution back then, I would still leave.” Liang Yanzhe’s hand moved down from the top of her head to touch her neck. “I promised Xiaoyi that I would leave for six years.”

"Liang Yanzhe, let's not worry about those upsetting things anymore. Let's live our own lives." Lin Fei leaned down and hugged him tightly, not wanting to talk about the suffocating family of origin anymore.

Liang Yanzhe kissed her forehead: "Do you want to sleep a little longer? We'll be busy all day. I'll take you away tonight. Chen Shiwei sent word that the situation outside has stabilized, but it would be best if we returned to China soon."

Judging from his words, he wouldn't see her off first.

"I'll listen to you!" Lin Fei wrapped her legs around him; as long as they could be together, her heart felt at peace.

After Lin Fei fell asleep, Liang Yanzhe went out to get busy.

There were even more trauma surgeries than yesterday. Professor Jin stayed up all night, and after Liang Yanzhe arrived, he was put in charge of all the cardiothoracic surgeries.

Lin Fei didn't wake up until dinner time. After dinner, Liang Yanzhe also returned.

"Let's go." Liang Yanzhe didn't linger for a moment, grabbed his luggage, and left with Lin Fei.

Ye Zhan and Tian Ying returned to the new hotel first, and then drove back.

Lin Fei looked at the city, which had regained order, and felt absurd.

Yesterday, arson, murder, and looting were rampant; today, a new order has been restored.

However, this peace is only temporary, perhaps lasting a day or a week.

"Everyone says the stars in Lleigh are beautiful at night, and the Gobi Desert is even more enchanting, but I'm afraid you can't see them now. The sky above the city is filled with the thick smoke from bomb explosions," Lin Fei sighed in disappointment.

She's not unlucky, is she? How come she had such a harrowing experience on her first trip abroad?

"Want to see?" Liang Yanzhe asked.

Lin Fei hesitated: "Is it... possible?"

“There’s a nice place, and the jurisdiction is lax.” Liang Yanzhe was familiar with the city and easily crossed half of it to reach the outskirts bordering the Gobi Desert.

Lin Fei looked around at the pitch black surroundings and touched his arm: "It's so cold."

"There's no one around here for miles, don't worry." Liang Yanzhe opened the car door and took out a portable lamp from the trunk. It was probably almost out of power, as it was dim and visibility was low.

Lin Fei, wearing Liang Yanzhe's coat, got out of the car, circled around the open space ahead a few times, opened his arms, and finally relaxed his tense nerves, embracing the air of freedom.

"Nobody's nice. I'm even afraid to see people now." She was exhausted from running, so she stood still, took a deep breath, and felt the joy of being alive.

"Come here." Liang Yanzhe laid a blanket on the hood of the car.

Off-road vehicles are better; they can withstand rough conditions.

Lin Fei walked over and reached out her arms to him: "Hug."

Liang Yanzhe lifted her up and covered her legs with his coat. "Just watch for half an hour, then we'll head back."

Lin Fei didn't take it seriously. He stretched his hand back, leaned back lazily, swung his legs, and looked up at the starry sky.

It's hard to believe that beneath this beautiful Milky Way lies a turbulent city.

"I envy you so much. For six years, you've been able to look up and see such a beautiful starry sky." Lin Fei lay down, imagining himself sleeping on a cloud, sleeping amidst the Milky Way.

Liang Yanzhe didn't look at the starry sky, he kept looking at her: "I've been too busy, I haven't looked at it much."

Lin Fei patted the person next to him: "Come up too, take one last look, and then we'll say goodbye to this country and this city forever."

She would never set foot in the chaotic country again until she changed her mind.

Liang Yanzhe went up to her easily, sat down next to her, and tidied up the messy blanket.

"Liang Yanzhe, did you return to Gangdu for my sake?" Lin Fei asked.

Liang Yanzhe: "Well, if we have the chance, we can start from scratch."

"Are you so confident that I'll wait for you?" Lin Fei sat up and moved closer to him.

Liang Yanzhe smiled and shook his head: "I'm not sure, but I haven't thought about it too much. It would be good to meet."

"Liang Yanzhe is really good."

"How come no one pursued Liang Yanzhe before, given how good he is?"

"It's good that no one's around, otherwise how could I have such a good opportunity?"

It was unclear who she was talking to; it sounded more like she was muttering to herself.

Liang Yanzhe grasped Lin Fei's hand, raised the corners of his lips, and chuckled softly.

Lin Fei wondered, "Did the moonlight seep into the very bones of him? Why can he smile so gently at her?"

She craved his gentle caresses: "Liang Yanzhe, if the accident hadn't happened, you should have been listening to my confessions in a hotel, not in a cold hospital room. All my efforts have been wasted!"

It's all Tu Xia's fault for having such a bad mouth.

His laughter was much louder than before.

"Even without confessing my feelings, I will come to you once I've sorted out all those terrible emotions."

“It’s not bad, my lover is never bad.” Lin Fei leaned closer to him, and after expressing her feelings, she spoke her love unrestrainedly, “You asked me what you mean to me. I don’t know, maybe the meaning is when you say good morning to me, or maybe you are the meaning itself.”

The smile on his lips lingered for a few seconds.

"Feiwen, when I went to see you on my birthday, I knew very well that what I wanted from you was more than just a goodbye."

"I want to be able to hug you and kiss you again."

"I have craved love countless times, but only you have responded to me."

How could I not love you?

He tilted his head slightly and kissed her.

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Author's note: I've been scratching my head trying to write this chapter for ages [doge][doge][doge] See you tomorrow!

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