Chapter 336: Feelings

Lu Jing tightened his arms and held her in his arms. Hearing Su Qingwan's words, his heart ached slightly. "I know you won't harm the child, Xiaowu. I never doubted it."

Su Qingwan breathed a sigh of relief, broke free from Lu Jing, turned around and looked at him. She and Lu Jing had known each other for so long and understood each other too well. Su Qingwan was really afraid that Lu Jing would think she was so cruel that she would really hurt innocent children.

Although she felt uncomfortable, she also knew that Ding was innocent. If she hurt the child, it might kill Ding. She really couldn't be so cruel. The more Lu Jing kept silent, the more she was afraid that Lu Jing would misunderstand her. She didn't care about Lu Jing's thoughts at first, but she didn't know when she started to mind that Lu Jing really thought of her as a cruel and heartless woman.

Su Qingwan asked gently, "Then why did you lock yourself in the study?"

"I..." Lu Jing helped her sit down, feeling solemn. He was thinking about how to balance the relationship between Su Qingwan and the Lu family. There had been grudges between them originally, and now it was even more like fire and water. Lu Shaoqing had sent people to invite him twice, asking him to go back to the Lu family, but he ignored them, fearing that Su Qingwan would think too much. He knew that Su Qingwan might not care.

"Xiao Wu, do you care about those rumors? They say that you and I are having an affair, that you are cruel and ruthless and killed Ding's child. I avoid you like a snake or a scorpion."

"I don't care." Su Qingwan shook her head. "If I cared about the rumors, I wouldn't be alive today."

"But I have some doubts. Was it really good for you that I insisted on bringing you back to the capital? If you were in Huainan, you would definitely live a very easy and happy life. No one in the whole Huainan would dare to make things difficult for you, and you wouldn't be as aggrieved as you are in the capital. Xiaowu, today when I went to Ningyuan Marquis' Mansion and passed through the courtyard, I heard the women talking about you. They said that you killed Ding's children, that you were cruel and ruthless, and that they didn't dare to be friends with you. Listening to those gossips, I didn't know how to defend you except to scold them. I am your husband, and no one would believe me. They also believe that you are the murderer. You have no friends in the capital, you have been subjected to rumors, and you have no relatives. You are trapped in this small place. I am too selfish." Lu Jing was silent in the study for a long time. He thought that he was too selfish to insist on bringing Su Qingwan back.

"Do you regret it?" Su Qingwan pursed her lips and tightened her fingers slightly.

"Want to hear the truth?"

Su Qingwan nodded.

“No regrets!”

Su Qingwan laughed, "Then I don't regret it either, Lu Jing. It was not my wish to follow you to the capital, but I have never regretted it. No matter what I have to go through, it was my choice. Remember, it was me who followed you back to the capital, and I chose you."

Lu Jing's heart moved, he turned sideways and kissed her. Su Qingwan kissed him back. Lu Jing hugged her and sat her on his lap, his fingers gently stroking the back of her neck.

While Lu Jing was cuddling with her, he thought in great pain, Xiaowu, I believe you have never hurt Ding, but... you have always wanted to kill my brother.

I know you can't let go of the hatred for your eldest sister-in-law, but... for me, can you let go of the hatred?

Lu Jing didn't dare to ask, he didn't have the confidence, and he even knew that Su Qingwan had always wanted to kill his brother. As long as she was given the chance, she would definitely do it without leaving any trace, just like she killed Li Xueying and Lady Anping.

"Xiao Wu, give me a child!" When Lu Jing was in love, he suddenly had the idea of tying her down. With a child and a bond, would the hatred dissipate a little?

Su Qingwan panted and kissed his chin, "It depends on your ability."

Lu Jing pressed her into the soft quilt, his eyes gradually darkened, his movements became more wild and intense, pinching her waist, "Then you bear it, don't beg for mercy."