Chapter 95 Dreaming Back to My Past Life

After getting into the carriage, Jiang Fenghua noticed that Xie Shang remained silent, and guessed that he was thinking about Su Tingwan.

Su Tingwan was confined to her home for three months, and she's been locked up for two months now. He must be feeling sorry for her!

Jiang Fenghua didn't care who he was sympathizing with, and took the initiative to say, "Don't take Princess Yu's words to heart. Consort Su has indeed changed in the past two months." Princess Yu's sudden move really surprised her. Perhaps she didn't want to owe anyone anything.

Xie Shang held her hand. He felt quite at ease having not seen Su Tingwan for two months. He changed the subject, "Why did you help Princess Yu today? She must have made a lot of fuss about you after what happened with Xie Yu last time!"

“A woman would feel pity for a woman who has been beaten like that by her husband!” she said. “Princess Yu must be quite badly injured. I don’t think she will call the imperial physician for treatment. Why don’t we send someone to deliver some medicine to her?”

Xie Yu's two kicks were indeed hard, and the injuries were quite severe...

Xie Shang pulled Jiang Fenghua onto his lap. "Let's drop this matter. You rushed to deliver the medicine, weren't you just invading their privacy? It's their family matter, and we shouldn't interfere." Xie Shang knew that Xie Yu liked to use banned drugs to enhance his pleasure, and he had also secretly inquired about it. He knew that Xie Yu's health had also been damaged by him.

Princess Yu is the legitimate daughter of the Luo family of Dongyang. If she suffers grievances from Xie Yu, the Luo family will not let it go. Let them make a fuss over it.

Jiang Fenghua obediently replied, "Alright then, I won't interfere, and it's none of my business." Whatever happens to that maid named Lian'er in the Fourth Prince's mansion, no matter how tragic her fate may be, is none of her concern; she is not a savior.

Luo Ziqiong will be divorced by Xie Yu in the future. It's better to divorce such a man as soon as possible. Anyway, there are no children and no worries. However, Princess Yu really dares to say that Prince Yu has to take medicine every time they have sex. How bad is he?

Thinking of Xie Shang, she blushed.

The couple were each lost in their own thoughts. Xie Shang asked her, "Why is your face red?"

Jiang Fenghua covered her face, "Do I have one?"

"I wonder what's going on in your head. I really want to crawl inside and take a look," Xie Shang teased her.

"I wasn't thinking about anything." Jiang Fenghua had a lot on her mind, but she couldn't let Xie Shang know, otherwise it would scare him.

Xie Shang put his arm around her slender waist and asked again, "Am I important to Ruan Ruan?"

Jiang Fenghua thought to herself: What a pretentious man.

She wrapped her arms around his neck, her eyes filled with joy, as if she loved him with all her heart. "Your Highness is Ruan Ruan's husband, and even more so, Ruan Ruan's everything. Your Highness is of paramount importance to Ruan Ruan. Ruan Ruan loves Your Highness the most."

"I feel something's not quite right," he said.

Jiang Fenghua kissed his lips first, teasing him as much as possible, "Doesn't Your Highness feel that Ruan Ruan's heart and eyes are full of her husband?" Does this prove that she loves him? He must have been nervous when he heard Su Tingwan's name just now!

Xie Shang was so aroused by her that he deepened and intensified the kiss. "Ruan Ruan, let's have a child! Give me a daughter. She will be as beautiful as Ruan Ruan, and I will definitely protect and love her well."

Jiang Fenghua, with her beautiful features and a shy demeanor, nodded gently, "Mm."

After returning to the Prince's Mansion, Xie Shang couldn't wait to take Jiang Fenghua back to Lanyue Pavilion. He was going to great lengths to have a daughter.

Jiang Fenghua stopped using contraception because she knew that this child would be Xie Shang's first child after he was made crown prince.

However, in her previous life, she only consummated her marriage with Xie Shang after he became the crown prince, and they had twins.

Will they come again in this life?

She wasn't actually ready to be a mother. She was fearful, anxious, and worried that she wouldn't be able to raise her child well or be a good mother.

Xie Shang loves daughters, no wonder he doted on Su Tingwan's daughter in his previous life.

Will he be a good father to her child? After all, in his previous life, he loathed her child and never put the same care into raising his other children as he had into raising his.

Jiang Fenghua fell into a deep sleep from exhaustion. In her dream, she saw the two children who had spoken harshly to her.

"How could you be so useless? We don't have a mother like you. Why was it you who gave birth to us, instead of Empress Su?"

"We hate you, go away, we don't want you, we never want you to bother us."

"Get out! We're ashamed to have a mother like you."

"I hate you, I hate you so much! Why don't you just die? You're the one who dragged us down with you."

"Empress Su is still the best to us. Empress Su is our legitimate mother. All you do is tell us to study. We are not those lowly commoners. We are princes and princesses, enjoying endless luxury. Empress Su said that we don't need to study at all, but you keep nagging us. What's the use of studying? Do you think we are annoying?"

Jiang Fenghua felt as if her heart was being torn apart, and tears streamed down her face. She had tried every possible method to teach them well, but all to no avail.

She lived in self-blame and self-pity every day. She was depressed and couldn't teach them well no matter how patiently she tried. She spoke softly and tried all sorts of methods, but she still couldn't teach them well.

Later, she beat them until they admitted their mistakes and called her "Mother." But the more she beat them, the more they resisted and tried to run away.

She tried to persuade them to come back to her side with kind words, but it was no use, because they had the best clothes and the best food at Empress Su's place, and they didn't have to be disciplined.

She couldn't control him anymore, and she couldn't even hit him anymore. Only then did she realize that the child would bring her endless pain, make her wish she were dead, and make her feel excruciating pain every day.

She vowed that if she had a choice, she would never have a child again, never consummate her marriage with Xie Shang, and never meet this man again; she hated him.

Su Tingwan was smug, Consort Su was arrogant, Xie Shang was cold and ruthless, their children bullied and insulted her, her own children hated and loathed her, and even the Jiang family was suppressed and bullied by them. One thing after another.

She was physically and mentally exhausted, and her suffering was worse than being torn apart by five horses or subjected to slow slicing.

Why should she forgive them? She was thirty-five years old when her hair turned gray and she died in sorrow. Did death erase the twenty years of suffering she endured?

None of them are innocent.

After being reborn, she decided to make a plan. She never expected that the first person she would meet would be Xie Shang from her childhood. She wanted to ask him why he treated her this way, but what was the use of asking why? He knew nothing about her now.

So she decided to take revenge on him. She wanted to take everything away from Su Tingwan, to reclaim the position that rightfully belonged to her, and she would never love him again.

"Ruan Ruan, wake up." Xie Shang shook Jiang Fenghua awake.

Everything was pitch black. When she opened her eyes, she saw Xie Shang's face and wanted nothing more than to slap him.

Xie Shang asked again, "Ruan Ruan, why are you crying?"

Jiang Fenghua came to her senses and touched her face, which was covered in tears, and her pillow was soaked.