Chapter 38 I love you as if I were hugging you across time and space. At that time, Li Wei was lonely...

After he "died", I heard "Li Xi" mentioned by other people twice. The first time was by Tang Ruining, and the second time was still by Tang Ruining.

How could that be? Li Xi didn’t have time to think about how he would be discovered. He thought that as long as he didn’t say anything, no third person in the world would know about it.

This is so beyond common sense that no one would believe it even if you told them out loud, but Tang Ruining even discovered it himself.

Tang Ruining held his hand, without urging him, and waited quietly for his answer.

He was filled with shock, but then came relief. This matter was hanging in his mind and he couldn't let it go. The longer he spent with Tang Ruining and the deeper their feelings became, the more uneasy he became. He believed that he would tell Tang Ruining sooner or later, but he was not sure when, how, and how to deal with Tang Ruining's possible reaction. He could only put it aside for the time being. And on this ordinary morning when he was totally unprepared, Tang Ruining found out that beyond all his expectations, the person who was caught off guard turned out to be him.

"I... don't know why this happened." After an unknown amount of time, Li Xi spoke in a low, hoarse voice, "That night, I thought I was going to die. When I opened my eyes again,... I don't know why, but it just happened..."

"I woke up in the hospital and saw Xiao Cheng, and then Rong Xiao. I didn't know what to do at the time. I could only say that I didn't remember anything that happened before... Later, Jiang Yilan's mother came, and I went home with her, and then I went to find Momo."

He spoke whatever came to his mind, a little confused, "Later, it was like this, until now, but I still don't know why..."

Li Wei sighed deeply, and when he looked at Tang Ruining again, he found that his eyes were red.

Li Xi stopped talking, moved closer, and asked softly, "What's wrong?"

Tang Ruining closed her eyes, suppressed some of her emotions, and reached out to hug him.

“It hurts.”

"What?" Li Wei was puzzled.

People who haven't experienced it can't imagine how painful it is. Tang Ruining's entire chest was shaking, and he wished he could suffer the pain of being crushed to a bloody mess instead of Li Xi.

"I regret it." Tang Ruining said, wrapping her arms around him tighter, "If only I had met you earlier."

Tang Ruining hugged him, as if embracing Li Xi's lonely soul across time and space. How helpless he was facing all this alone. Li Mo, the only one who knew the truth, couldn't always be with him. He could only move forward entirely on his own, and he couldn't defend himself when he was misunderstood.

But Li Wei smiled softly in his ear and comforted him: "How can this be something you will regret? At that time, we didn't have the chance to know each other."

Although Li Xi has a gentle personality and can get along with everyone, he is not the kind of person who would take the initiative to make friends everywhere. Not to mention Tang Ruining, who blocks all social interactions on a daily basis. Unless they become teammates who spend every day together, there will be no chance for them to get to know each other.

So we really became teammates who spent every day together, and no one would have thought that we would end up like this.

"Two years late." Tang Ruining whispered. Now he would feel it wasted if he was late for two days.

"It's not too late. We still have a long future ahead of us."

In the future... Tang Ruining was actually very scared. This kind of thing that could not be explained by science had no basis. It might come and go as it pleased. He didn't dare to think that if this accident had a time limit, Li Xi's soul would leave this body one day and he would never find it again.

He can't bear it.

Tang Ruining took a few deep breaths, released the hug, and asked him, "Is Jiang Yilan completely gone?"

Li Xi lowered his eyes, "I don't know..."

"I also wondered if it was because of me that he...did I 'push' him away? He wasn't seriously injured, so how could he..."

"You're not wrong. No matter what happened between the two of you, you're the only one who did nothing wrong." Tang Ruining interrupted him, "I'm not asking this because I care whether he's still alive. I only care about you."

Tang Ruining didn't hate Jiang Yilan to the point of wanting him to die, but if only one of Jiang Yilan and Li Wei could survive, he would not hesitate even if he was asked to kill Jiang Yilan.

But he would not say this out loud, as it would definitely scare the person in front of him who was still feeling guilty.

Tang Ruining stroked the back of his neck and kissed his lips. Li Xi opened her lips slightly, and he pried them open with a few pecks and kisses. He tilted his head and kissed her deeper.

Tang Ruining pressed the back of his neck with increasing force, and he was a little suffocated by the kiss, but both of them were a little out of control, and the pain made them feel more secure.

"I often suspect that this world is fake." Li Wei said hoarsely, pressing his forehead against his. "Is it true that after death, people will enter another world and live another life? But in fact, this world does not exist. It is an illusion created in people's consciousness when they are dying."

Tang Ruining took his hand and put it on her cheek, and said softly: "I am real, you can feel it."

Li Xi closed her eyes and slowly touched the side of his face.

Tang Ruining brought his hand to his chest, and his heart vibrated against his palm through his ribs, muscles and skin.

"You are real." Li Wei murmured.

"I really love you." The heart beat faster and Tang Ruining said, "I love you."

Li Xi opened her eyes, tears welling up in them.

Tang Ruining's thumb brushed across the corner of his eye, "I will always be with you. No matter what happens in the future, I will never leave you alone again."

Li Xi's eyelashes trembled and tears dripped onto his hands.

It had been a long time since he had shed tears. Li Xi felt that he had no right to be sad about the passing of time. He had already saved his life, and he did not dare to think too much about it, fearing that fate would play a joke on him again one day.

He never thought that one day someone would say to him, "I will never leave you alone again." When Li Xi was alive, he had no family to support him since he was a child, so he grew up faster than anyone else. When Li Mo was still young, he took care of everything by himself and had to be strong for his sister. Later, Li Mo grew up and could share his burden. He had also become accustomed to facing everything on his own and did not want to burden Li Mo.

He didn't like to complain about the world, nor was he willing to stand still. He had many difficult times and thought he couldn't hold on any longer, but he never told even his dearest sister because he didn't want to make Li Mo worry.

Later, when I became Jiang Yilan, I had to learn to hide myself and play the role of another person.

—But it seemed to have failed, as someone exposed him and told him that he would not be left alone again.

Tang Ruining kissed away his overflowing tears. Li Xi lowered her head and leaned on his shoulder. They hugged each other quietly without saying anything.

After calming down, Li Xi gently pushed him away and said with a nasal voice: "I'll go make you some medicine to drink, don't catch a cold."

After running and standing in the wind downstairs for so long, Tang Ruining felt a little sore in the throat after a while. Fortunately, he had good physical fitness and did not develop a cold or fever.

When Rong Xiao came back, he saw that Jiang Yilan's eyes were a little red, as if he had just cried. He quietly ran to Tang Ruining and asked, "What's wrong? Did you have a fight?"

"No."

"Don't bully me." Rong Xiao said. He knew without asking that if there was any conflict between them, it must be Tang Ruining's problem. "Change your temper."

Tang Ruining was a little speechless, but said, "Yes, I will change it."

Li Xi came over, holding a cup of steaming water, and handed it to Tang Ruining, "Drink more hot water."

Tang Ruining took the cup, and with his other hand he still held Li Xi's hand tightly, his eyes glued to him, as if he would run away at any time.

Rong Xiao made a "tsk" sound, secretly cursed himself for meddling in other people's business, and left.