Chapter 35: The Fear of Inferiority I like it very much, I like it very much, and I will always...

early morning

Carrie lay flat on the bed, his dark eyes open, and it looked like he had been awake for a long time.

After a while, Carrie turned slightly to look to the side.

In the gentle sunlight, Lanrod's long silver-blue eyelashes seemed to be coated with a layer of crystal luster, beautiful and cool.

Carrie's eyes slid across Lanrod's cold and perfect eyebrows, and fell on the light-colored lips of the silver-haired female insect.

The cold and indifferent lips lost the rosy color of last night and turned into the pale pink of cherry blossoms again.

Reaching out, Kerry carefully poked Lanrod's lips.

There was a soft touch on my fingertips, like an electric shock.

Pulling his hand back, Kerry listened to Lanrod's steady breathing.

Maybe it was because of the alcohol, or maybe it was because of the hard work for several days in a row.

Lanrod was sleeping soundly, his silver hair spread across the snow-white pillow, blending in with the color of the pillow and adding a metallic luster.

Silently looking at the silver-haired female insect's peaceful eyes, Kerry turned over and moved closer to Lanrod.

He first rested his head on Lanrod's neck, but after a while, he quietly raised his head and climbed up.

After measuring her body shape, Carrie carefully placed the silver-haired female insect's head on her shoulder, lowered her eyes to look at Lanrod's beautiful sleeping face, and raised her hand to wrap around the silver-haired female insect's waist.

With a satisfied sigh, Carrie closed her eyes and fell into a deep sleep again.

After an unknown amount of time, Carrie opened her eyes drowsily, only to meet a pair of bright silver eyes.

His brain instantly cleared, and Kerry stared blankly at Lanrod with his dark pupils.

"Your Highness, Your Highness."

Kerry opened his mouth and looked into His Highness Lanrod's beautiful eyes, but he could not read any emotion in them.

It is obvious that His Highness is completely awake.

Kerry didn't know how much His Highness remembered about last night. Did he remember nothing at all, or just... a little bit?

Carrie's cheeks suddenly felt hot, not knowing what he was thinking about. He pretended to be calm and looked at Lanrod, but this time, he didn't back down at all.

"This is my room, Your Highness."

Blinking a little embarrassedly, Kerry was afraid that His Highness Lanrod would dislike his hut. After all, he had seen the place where His Highness usually lived, which was infinitely luxurious and extravagant.

"Um."

Lanrod looked at Kerry quietly. Before Kerry could speak again, he suddenly said, "Kerry, you don't like Shakeni, do you?"

Kerry was stunned for a moment, and the next second his cheeks flushed red. It was obvious that His Highness Lanrod remembered everything that happened when he was drunk.

"...Yes." Carrie lowered her head.

The silver-blue eyes looked at Kerry gently, and Lanrod's long eyelashes seemed to be brushing Kerry's skin.

The silver-haired female insect had a cold voice, and her breath was as clean and pure as a snow lotus.

"Do you like me, Kerry?"

As if to confirm something, Lanrod looked straight at Kerry without any avoidance.

And this time, Carrie seemed to have made some kind of determination.

He slowly raised his eyes to look at Lanrod, looking at himself reflected in those silver-blue eyes.

"I like you. I like you very much."

His cheeks flushed, but Kerry still said what was on his mind.

For some reason, Carrie was really afraid. If he didn't say it now, he might never have the chance to say it again.

"What about you?" Carrie asked.

Lanrod's lips curved slightly, and he leaned forward and cupped Kerry's cheek.

"I will only like you."

The cool air is accompanied by the rustling of cedar trees, and it seems as if you can hear the rapid heartbeat.

Kerry looked at Lanrod's superior eyebrows and curled her fingers slightly.

Lowering his head, Kerry seemed to have made some kind of decision.

"Who was that male insect-sama who stood with you at that time?"

Lanrod was stunned.

"You mean Fermon?"

Kerry pursed his lips and said nothing.

Lanrod explained: "Fimon's father is my uncle. I came to find Feimon to ask about the spiritual realm."

His fingers relaxed slightly, and Kerry looked up at Lanrod in a daze.

In other words, Femon is actually His Highness Lanrod's cousin?

The breath slides across the skin, bringing a refreshing touch.

All the frustrations that had been accumulating in my heart disappeared, leaving only regret.

Kerry pursed his lips tightly together, suddenly feeling a little embarrassed.

"Kerry," Lanrod reached out and brushed Kerry's dark hair, "Why didn't you go in then?"

Why not just push the door open and go in?

Now that you're here, why would you run away?

It was unknown how long it took, so long that Lanrod thought Carrie would not answer this question.

But suddenly, Kerry looked at Lanrod.

Those eyes, as dark as stars, seemed to have something extra in them, like honesty and courage.

"Your Highness..."

Kerry's eyebrows and eyes were as black as ink.

"Because I'm scared."

Because I was afraid from the beginning.

"You are like the bright moon in the sky, which countless people can admire but cannot reach. You are like the ice flowers on the top of the mountains, which are like a dream to me."

This was the inferiority complex buried deep in Kerry's heart, an inferiority complex that had already existed the moment he saw Lanrod.

Everything that happened afterwards, he just watched himself sink deeper and deeper, watching the snow lotus on the glacier bloom as if for him, but it seemed like just a gorgeous dream that he would eventually wake up from.

From the beginning to the end, Kerry believed that the gap between himself and His Highness Lanrod was too big.

He is not a male insect and was even abandoned by his family.

After all, he is just a C-level female insect.

Not only that, he might be hiding many secrets, but no matter what they are, Carrie intuitively feels that it is not a simple matter.

Compared to himself, His Highness Lanrod is like the bright moon in the sky. Countless noble male insects hope to be able to have a happy marriage with His Highness, but what virtue and ability does he have to embrace them?

Carrie has always been such a contradiction. He knows clearly that he likes His Highness, and this love cannot be controlled by his reason. Even if he covers his mouth, it will be revealed in his eyes.

But because of this, he could clearly feel His Highness Lanrod's love for him.

Your Highness's love is like the sun, sincere and genuine, illuminating the dark side of him.

Kerry couldn't refuse His Highness Lanrod's love.

Not only could he not refuse, he was so grateful, so eager, and so happy.

But no matter how passionate she was, Kerry always knew that she was not worthy of His Highness Lanrod.

This feeling of unworthiness was like a seed he had once planted, which always took root and sprouted inadvertently, blocking his heart.

"Your Highness, I didn't dare go in, because at that time I thought anyone deserved you more than me."

Kerry's dark eyes were filled with a hazy light.

Carrie felt inferior in front of Lord Fremon.

This inferiority complex made him dare not push the door open.

Call it fragile self-esteem or call it self-deception.

Kerry was just afraid. He was afraid that he would really stand beside His Highness Lanrod.

He was afraid of being pointed at by countless people.

He was also afraid that His Highness Lanrod would suffer more rumors because of him.

These countless fears of inferiority and scared retreats eventually formed Carrie's armor, making him shrink inside and unwilling to come out.

But last night, Kerry suddenly understood.

If I like it, I like it.

Only the most sincere courage and honesty are worthy of this most sincere love.

If he can't even overcome this fear of inferiority, can this be considered true love?

Carrie looked at Lanrod, and the next second, he was embraced by the silver-haired female insect.

Lanrod's strength was so great that it seemed as if he wanted to merge him into his body.

My neck felt itchy, and the soft silver hair slid across my skin like silk.

"Kerry," Lanrod said softly, "It doesn't matter what else I do, I just like you."

I like it very much, and I will always like it.

"Yeah." Carrie's eyes were calm, and for the first time she accepted this kind of love frankly.

The black-haired female insect lowered her head and whispered, "Your Highness, I have a small heart. When I see you being intimate with other people, I will be jealous, uncomfortable, and angry."

He couldn't remain indifferent.

The corners of his lips were carefully carved, and Lanrod looked at Kerry with his glacial eyes.

"Me too."

Gently stroking the ends of Kerry's hair, Lanrod whispered, "I don't want to see Shakaini. Once I see him, I will be filled with jealousy."

Lanrod envied Shakeni for being able to participate in Kerry's past, a past that had never included him.

"Your Highness," Kerry nuzzled Lanrod's neck, "I will only like you."

No matter what I face next, I will never choose to escape again.

I will definitely push open that door and loudly declare my sovereignty.

I feel like I have never felt so satisfied before.

Kerry reached out and pinched Lanrod's cheek.

While pinching, Kerry was also observing His Highness's expression.

But he only saw doting indulgence in those silver-blue eyes.

Her heart warmed, and Kerry hugged Lanrod coquettishly, "Can you stay with me all day?"

Lanrod laughed and rubbed the top of Kerry's head: "Yeah."

In this way, Kerry took Lanrod to do many things that he had wanted to do but did not dare to do.

It was from this moment that Carrie felt extremely free and relaxed.

"Your Highness, can I rest with you every night?" Carrie blinked and looked at Lanrod.

Lanrod smiled and said, "If you want."

"Of course I do!" Carrie said, holding Lanrod's hand. "I've always wanted to."

The mist was hazy and Lanrod felt his cheeks getting hot.

He coughed lightly and said with a sidelong glance, "Sometimes I have to deal with official business, so I will be back a little late."

Kerry nodded: "I know."

At this point, Kerry suddenly remembered something. He took Lanrod's hand and said seriously, "Your Highness, Doctor Geras said that you haven't received proper treatment yet."

Lanrod was stunned. Just as he was about to say something, he heard Kerry hum, "I don't care. You must promise me that you will go to Dr. Geras for treatment."

“…”

Looking down at Kerry's eyes that were as dark as stars, all the words he could say turned into a storm.

Lanrod said "hmm", he leaned over and kissed the corner of Kerry's lips, and said with a smile: "What kind of cake do you want to eat? I'll buy it for you."

Hearing this, Kerry suddenly frowned: "You didn't even taste the cake from Tai Qiao's yesterday. I spent a lot of effort to buy it."

After Kerry finished speaking, Lanrod suddenly remembered Maisha's words.

The image of the black-haired female insect excitedly wanting to give him a gift, but finally running back alone with a depressed look appeared in his mind.

Just thinking about it made Lanrod feel a pang in his heart.

"Let's eat together next time." Lanrod kissed the corner of Kerry's eye. "If you like, we can go tonight."

When Lanrod thought about the fact that Shakaini had finally eaten yesterday's cake, he almost immediately wanted to buy another piece for Kerry.

This time, they ate together.

With gentleness in his lowered brows, Lanrod wanted to give Kerry the best things in the world, as long as Kerry liked them.

However, Lanrod and Kerry did not go after all.

They received an urgent mission and needed to go to area B2 to deal with the infection incident.