Chapter 74 I Never Look Back

Li Tiansheng was worried that something might happen to Li Qingyun.

He watched as Li Qingyun's expression changed from blank to ferocious, resentful, and then all negative emotions surged. Even Li Qingyun's body tensed up along with his thoughts, poised to strike.

Li Tiansheng himself needed a hundred years to recover from the 13,846 lives he had lived, let alone ordinary people who had never experienced them.

Li Qingyun's condition was getting worse and worse. Li Tiansheng was afraid that he would become obsessed and go into a state of demonic possession on the spot, or that he would not be able to hold on and would be stimulated into becoming an idiot. Either way, he would not be able to explain it to Chang Yubai.

Li Tiansheng placed his palm on his forehead, preparing to take back those past events.

But Li Qingyun stopped the hand before he could.

Li Qingyun gripped her wrist tightly, which was covered by a wristband. He was clearly on the verge of exploding, but the words that came out of his mouth were full of strength and determination: "Don't make things worse."

Adding to the chaos?

Li Tiansheng gave a disappointed look and retorted, "I'm afraid you'll die here!"

"Be careful, or this fake grave of yours might turn into a real grave, and become your final resting place!"

Li Qingyun gritted her teeth and repeated, "No! Don't cause trouble!"

At first glance, it sounds like a pointless repetition out of irrationality, but Li Tiansheng knows the person in front of him too well. The fact that he can still speak proves that Li Qingyun still has reason and is thinking normally.

The words he spoke were serious, but his actions suggested he was in excruciating pain.

It must be that it is still receiving memories from previous lives, which is why it has such a stimulating reaction.

Li Tiansheng sighed, no longer acting on his own initiative. As always, he respected Li Qingyun's stubbornness, took a step back a distance, and left Li Qingyun with space and freedom.

"Remember to call me if you can't hold on, don't actually die."

Li Tiansheng couldn't resist making a few sarcastic remarks at him.

Li Qingyun grunted softly, but didn't reply.

The scene before him shifted and changed, like a fleeting moment in the blink of an eye. All his experiences came and went freely, arriving in haste and leaving his mind in a hurry, leaving only unhappiness and resentment.

In those memories, Li Qingyun saw himself all alone, searching desperately in solitude and loneliness, questioning the heavens, the earth, people, and his own heart, seeking only an answer that could give him a moment's rest.

But time and again he walked the path of spiritual practice, time and again he wanted to cry out, yet time and again he could not find an end to his journey.

It's all because of his fate as a cursed lone star.

Because he was born annoying, no one was willing to treat him kindly. Even though his cultivation had reached its peak and no one could match him, people always say one thing to your face and another behind your back. In front of others, cultivators would fawn over him, but behind his back, they would belittle him like dirt.

"Ultimately, it's just a quack's method that's not up to par." "If I had started cultivating at his age, I could have achieved what he has." "Who knows how many pills he consumed to build up those skills?" "Have you ever seen him make a move? I certainly haven't."

Human malice doesn't need to be sharp; just being inconsistent in word and deed is enough to hurt someone.

Li Qingyun was neither deaf nor blind, and after a while, he no longer wanted to waste time talking nonsense with these people.

In the end, it's all the same result: you get no appreciation. Why bother trying to win someone's favor?

Just focus on your practice, just focus on yourself.

Humans fear loneliness, especially when they cannot express their feelings for a hundred years. All their resentment can only be transformed into a calming mantra and vanish with the wind.

In a templated world, what people love to do most is generate processes based on results.

No matter how hard he tries or how sincere he is, as long as the words "a cursed lone star" hang over his head, all his struggles are in vain.

No one could see the existence of "Li Qingyun".

Nobody cares that he's a living, breathing person.

—Why?!

Li Qingyun heard her own memory roar in fury and asked this question.

Even Li Qingyun herself wanted to ask why.

He had never experienced such a devastating loneliness. Looking back on his life in his twenties, only the first eight years were not very smooth. But all the misfortunes vanished when Chang Yubai appeared, and he was completely relieved.

Even in his previous life, he had always been alone, burying himself in arduous cultivation, and even defying the will of heaven, yet in the end, he was never short of companions.

It is precisely because someone's existence is so vivid that those painful past events have been blurred, and now, looking back, they are unbearable and difficult to breathe.

But why should he feel suffocated because of his past relationship with "Li Qingyun"?

After countless reenactments of her life, Li Qingyun finally recovered and found solace for her soul.

It wasn't really a hassle, he thought.

The reason I was so miserable in the past was simply because I hadn't met the right person, and my sincere feelings were misplaced.

Those people are both myself and not entirely myself.

It's just a series of fleeting moments that can never be retrieved.

After adjusting her mindset, Li Qingyun felt her thoughts flowed smoothly, her head was no longer blocked, and she felt much more relaxed when watching her own life unfold.

In Li Tiansheng's eyes, this transformation meant that Li Qingyun had successfully broken free of his chaotic memories in just half an incense stick's time.

It miraculously healed on its own? And quite successfully at that?

Li Tiansheng stood there stunned.

He shed the pressure of life more than ten thousand times in half an incense stick's time. Should we say he's heartless or broad-minded?

All that was left for Li Tiansheng was silence.

The performance in front of Li Qingyun was not over yet. Looking at his lonely self day after day, he finally frowned and realized that something was wrong.

He was getting tired of watching, wondering why there was still no breakthrough in the course of these people's lives.

Why, after trying over ten thousand times, did he still fail to find the fulfillment he sought?

Where is Yu Bai now?

Suddenly, the screen went cold.

Li Qingyun was caught off guard by the sudden interruption and subconsciously looked at Li Tiansheng, only to see that the latter had already closed his eyes and was adjusting his breathing.

He quickly sensed the time and realized that he had been staying there for several hours.

When Chang Yubai created this space, he deliberately froze the flow of time, so that it wouldn't even take a single breath outside.

But this doesn't mean that time has lost its meaning.

Li Qingyun did the math and realized that she had actually seen the entirety of a person's life.

That's all?

Is that all?

What about Chang Yubai? He waited for so long, but in the end, he still couldn't find the person he wanted to see?

What exactly was I doing those ten thousand times?

Are you only focused on settling scores with God?!

But then he suddenly realized that this shouldn't be Li Qingyun's fault.

He first possessed memories of his last two lives, and it was only in this life and the previous life that the character Chang Yubai appeared.

If we disregard his experiences in both lifetimes, all that remains is the image of him fighting alone against Qingyun.

Li Qingyun suddenly burst out laughing.

Hearing his sudden movement, Li Tiansheng also opened his eyes, which were used for cultivating the divine, and looked at him.

Li Qingyun smiled at him again: "That's it?"

Li Tiansheng: ".

Li Tiansheng remained silent, only feeling that this person was too arrogant and deserved a beating.

"This kind of trivial matter can bother me?" Li Qingyun's smile carried a hint of sarcasm.

Li Tiansheng told him not to boast.

But Li Qingyun retorted, "What? After reading about your own past, you'll feel so sad that you want to cry?"

Li Tiansheng's attitude suddenly hardened: "I started the cycle of reincarnation not to play around."

Li Qingyun immediately stopped being sarcastic, hummed in agreement, and then turned the topic back to herself: "But you misunderstood me."

“Li Tiansheng, I am not as fragile as you think, and I do not need your pity or care.”

His words were loaded with meaning; the pity and care he showed referred to the fact that Li Tiansheng had extended a helping hand to him hundreds of times, trying to win him over to the same side.

Unfortunately, they couldn't stick to one goal.

Never.

No matter how familiar Li Tiansheng was with his style, he ultimately couldn't tolerate him.

Li Qingyun turned to look at herself on the bed, where she was sleeping peacefully with her eyes closed.

Then, with a wave of his hand, he mercilessly crushed it into powder.

"All that I have experienced is the path I came from."

Whether it's the past or the life before that, even if he knew everything, it would still be the past, adding a few different colors to Li Qingyun's present.

How dare I disturb his wonderful life now?

Even when he reminisces about the twenty-odd years of his life before regaining his memories, all he can do is smile broadly.

It's just another small path that led us to where we are today.

The road has been so long, with so many forks in the road, and we've gone through more than ten thousand strange and wonderful intersections before finally arriving at our current location.

But he was certain that he was heading in the direction he wanted.

Two different paths, yet both leading to the same destination.

He became even more certain that his falling in love with Chang Yubai was not accidental.

In both his lives, he would make the same choice.

Li Tiansheng's gaze still held a hint of suspicion.

Seeing that he remained bewildered, Li Qingyun explained, "Li Tiansheng, I am different from you. I will not get lost in the past."

"Because I never look back."

A look of surprise appeared on Li Tiansheng's face, which quickly faded away in an instant.

After a long while, Li Tiansheng finally recovered from his shock and managed to let out a laugh: "Is that so?"

Li Tiansheng: "In a way, I've gotten to know you, Li Qingyun, all over again."

Li Qingyun gave a disdainful smirk: "Who would want to know you?"

He absolutely doesn't want to get involved with Li Tiansheng!

Putting everything else aside, this bastard has been working against me in every lifetime, I'm so angry!

Spending too much time with Li Tiansheng means either becoming his servant or getting nothing but trouble. You'll never see any good treatment from him. Only a fool would stand with him!

Without any hesitation, Li Qingyun picked out her innermost thoughts and told them to the person opposite her.

Li Tiansheng: ".

Li Tiansheng: "There's no need to be so harsh."

Li Tiansheng struggled to say, "Things have been much better lately."

Li Qingyun just chuckled.

Why waste his time meeting his mortal enemy? He should use this precious time to find his good disciple, uh, his good master.

Li Qingyun's thoughts were subtly stuck.

But he quickly found a way to cope.

Li Qingyun: Forget it, why bother with the form of address?

In short, Yu Bai is still the most considerate and makes him feel the warmth of being human.

Suddenly, a glint of light flashed in Li Qingyun's eyes.

He thought back to a few days ago, also on this land in Zhongzhou, when Chang Yubai, in this life, confessed to his past life's Bai.

Looking back now, it's quite amusing.

He had an idea for his lover, whose thought process was quite unconventional, and wanted to use this opportunity to strengthen their relationship.

But this matter requires some time and the right atmosphere, and... Li Qingyun's ill-intentioned gaze fell on Li Tiansheng.

We can't just be busy doing all the work while our arch-rival is living the high life, can we?

That doesn't make sense.

Li Tiansheng: ".

not good!

This means they want to make him work as a laborer!

Li Tiansheng sensed something was wrong and immediately tried to run away. Unfortunately, the shackles that he had previously ignored had taken force into account. The runes on his wristbands flashed, pinning his cultivation level to the Initial Martial Realm. How could he possibly outrun Li Qingyun, who appeared to be at the High Martial Realm but was actually at the Venerable Martial Realm countless times?

"Why are you running away? Even a dog would have to work for me if it came."

Li Tiansheng: "..."

Don't think he can't tell that he's being indirectly insulted.

However, his cultivation level was inferior, and all his struggles were in vain, so he had no choice but to accept his fate and agree.

Then he listened in deathly silence to the many things Li Qingyun arranged for him, listening to him make his arrangements perfectly clear.

In the end, Li Tiansheng had to admit that the plan was indeed feasible.

Because Li Qingyun added at the end: "If things go well, I can help you persuade Chang Yubai and lend you a hand."

Li Tiansheng was helpless. How could he refuse now? Wasn't agreeing the only option left?

Li Tiansheng resigned himself to his fate and said, "Alright then."

Just remember to take him with you when you're done having fun.