Chapter 8: Everything is fine

Su An did not reply, because from this moment on, the Sunshine Bear account would remain silent forever and would never appear again.

Maybe Zeng Zhuqian is smarter and will guess who is behind Sunshine Bear, or maybe she will never think of her, it doesn’t matter.

Xiao Xiong's attitude shows that she is willing to help, but does not want to be overly involved in this matter.

From Lonely Frog placing an order to Sunshine Bear's trumpet helping out, Su An has done enough and has a clear conscience.

Su An feels that he is not a good person, but he is not a bad person either. He is just an ordinary person who abides by the law and likes to do small good deeds.

Su An ordered takeout, curled up on the sofa, and relaxed his mind and body.

The TV was turned on and a random movie was playing. Although she couldn't concentrate on it, it didn't matter.

Some sound would be nice.

The takeout arrived one after another, and Su An ordered a lot of delicious food.

Drinking pork ribs, lotus root and wolfberry soup, gnawing on spicy duck necks and duck wings, Su An's mix of several takeouts perfectly shows her state of mind, maintaining health while relaxing.

Rebirth day six, day seven, day eight, day nine...

The days passed by like a diary. After not going to work, Su An lived an ordinary and normal life at home.

But in her opinion, this ordinariness is full of happiness, and she cherishes this rare time very much.

Eat and drink every day, place orders online, buy things, and receive express deliveries.

Do some handicrafts and read some books.

Su An seldom goes out, one reason being to avoid getting into trouble, and the other being that she really likes staying at home.

It's so wonderful to be alone.

Even though she spent a lot of money and shopped online all the time, she didn't spend much and was quite happy.

As a person, Su An is used to being alone and enjoys this time alone.

From her previous love patterns, it can be seen that she needs love, but she also avoids love, is afraid of being hurt, and is extremely independent.

A little twisted, but that's her.

In fact, this kind of happiness is very simple nowadays, but few people can achieve it. Many children in East Asia have been living under pressure since childhood, influenced by the mainstream of society, and the expectations of their parents and family members.

Most children are similar to her, suffering mentally and physically, from going to school, graduation to work, and it never stops.

It is important in kindergarten, it is important in elementary school, it is important in middle school, it is important in high school... No event is uncritical or unimportant.

In the expectations of society and our own families, we can only move forward, work hard, and compete.

Once you fall behind, it feels like the world is over.

But how many of them are truly "successful"?

Only those who are lucky enough can become lucky ordinary people in most competitions.

Most ordinary people have become bored and anxious adults. Even when they are on vacation, it is difficult for them to fully enjoy themselves. The strong pressure, anxiety and guilt seem to overwhelm them once they relax.

Once upon a time, Su An was one of those who was swept up in the competition. She rolled up her sleeves actively. Her parents didn't want her, and her grandmother raised her with great difficulty. She had no one to rely on, so she had to squeeze herself hard and study hard.

Fortunately, he has some talent and becomes a "good kid" in the secular sense.

Sometimes, Su An would feel scared. If she wasn’t strong enough, she would have been driven crazy long ago.

But even though she had the upper hand in the competition, she was still confused when she was suddenly caught in a survival game that was like a joke one day.

She overdrew her body and spirit, and the pride she gained from her work became her death warrant. When she was struggling to survive in the survival game in her previous life, Su An had been thinking about the meaning of life, and her spirit was on the verge of collapse.

Fortunately, she was not driven crazy.

Back again, she realized.

It seemed that she didn't need to work so hard now. Taking it slow would be faster.

It's late at night.

Su An was tired after a long day and fell asleep on the sofa without realizing it, covered with a small brown blanket with a bear pattern.

The TV was still quietly playing the movie plot, and the movie characters were speaking in magnetic voices, saying that life was full of uncertainty, and only the wind was free enough.

It doesn't matter if you can't reach the top of the mountain, success doesn't necessarily mean you're alive. Once you're in this world, any way you live is good...

The movie is over and the curtain falls.

Quietly play the next movie.

What kind of life do you want to live?

The TV was playing a movie that no one was watching, and the girl on the sofa was sleeping soundly with a pillow and a bear in her arms.

Until the time slowly came to Su An's sleep time, the TV turned off automatically.

Half a month passed in a flash.

Su An successfully made a hairpin for Xiong Xiaomo.

The traditional velvet flower pattern has been changed. The main body of the chisel has been turned into a brass hairpin, which is embellished with complicated flowers, blue spliced ​​with light blue, purple spliced ​​with bright pink, and petals of these colors form furry flowers.

Suan put bear ears on her teddy bear doll, which gave it a unique touch.

"What a beautiful bear cub." Su An praised the little bear.

She touched the plush flowers on the little bear, her eyes shining, and began to imagine how happy the little bear would be when he saw the flowers on his head when he had life.

In her previous life, she died on a snowy night with the little bear at the end of the novice period. After the little bear became cold, she gradually lost the will to live.

After much difficulty, I awakened my life and gained my companions, but then lost them again.

Su An blinked to keep the moisture in his eyes from falling, watching Xiong Zaizai slowly regain his clarity.

"With such a beautiful hair ornament, I think Xiongzaizai needs a nice outfit to match it."

Just do it.

Su An opened his notebook and began to draw, then he looked through the materials he had bought because he had read a lot of books in the past few days and found some silk cloth.

These silk cloths.

She bought it because she had seen a book on classical human figure art some time ago. It introduced classical Chinese dolls and silk dolls. She bought the materials and planned to try them out later.

Her profession in her previous life was a puppeteer. Although it was not used in the game, after her rebirth, Su An intentionally or unintentionally studied knowledge related to it.

Dolls generally refer to toys provided for humans to play with.

For ordinary people, most of their first impressions are common plush toys, but this is too one-sided.

In Su An's understanding, the concept of dolls is very broad, and they come in various forms such as animals, humans, and utensils. They are regional and cultural in nature due to their respective cultural backgrounds in different countries and races.

She is Chinese, so of course she needs to understand and learn traditional crafts to make dolls.

Suan has been reading a lot of local doll books recently.

Silk figurines, sugar sculptures, wood carvings, pottery figurines...

In fact, when she was a child, she had read some of these books, but she had never studied them in detail. The adults always told her that her future was to study hard and find a good job.

However, when making velvet flowers with her, grandma would often talk about some things in the old days and some handicraft techniques. Su An learned a lot, so she learned very quickly.

The bears that have always been with her, Xiong Mo and Xiong Zai Zai, were made by her grandmother herself, except that the shape of the cloth tiger has been changed to a cloth bear...

It's a bit sad to say, but at that time, foreign teddy bears were all the rage in town, and every kid had one...

Her grandmother bought some fine velvet in the shape of a teddy bear and sewed her a cloth bear named Xiaomo to accompany her as she grew up.

Xiaomo is a little different from the authentic stuffed bear, but Su An likes it the most.

"Times have changed. Kids don't like cloth tigers anymore. Kids all love foreign bear dolls. Although grandma can't keep up with the times, if other kids have them, my kids have them too."

Grandma would say that.

Unfortunately, Su An didn't understand her grandma's loneliness at that time, and didn't understand anything about foreign or Chinese things.

Her answer lit a glimmer of hope in grandma's eyes.

She said.