Chapter 20 Knowing My Feelings

Liao Feng went drinking with Xu Nuoyan again. The atmosphere was still awkward when they sat together, but Liao Feng drank one glass after another, looking sad.

Xu Nuoyan couldn't help but finally snatched the wine glass from his hand and asked, "What's wrong with you?"

Liao Feng: "I'm not willing to accept it. I can't forget those things." He tilted his head and looked at Xu Nuoyan with a choked and aggrieved voice.

Xu Nuoyan: "Then tell me what you can't forget? Describe your best memories to me now." He sighed and decided to help him.

Liao Feng closed his eyes and began to recall. Perhaps the most memorable moment for him was when he saw Li Mingyuan pick up a chair and hit someone for a girl at the beginning of the school year. He looked so weak, panting, his eyes red, and said in a firm voice, "What's the big deal about a grown man bullying a girl?"

At that time, I felt that Li Mingyuan was very strong. When I saw that Li Mingyuan couldn't beat the other person and he kicked the boy away, Li Mingyuan looked at him with a bright look in his eyes, and that look fascinated him.

He came back the following year. He was kicked out of the house by his father and was covered in wounds. When he was about to commit suicide, Li Mingyuan reached out and grabbed him. At that time, he had just reached adulthood and didn't understand anything. He only knew that the boy in front of him was very handsome. He looked at him with smiling eyes and confessed his love to him.

When their affair was discovered, Li Mingyuan knelt down and begged Wu Yihan not to tell Liao Feng's father about their affair.

Li Mingyuan was still in the hospital that day, barely able to speak clearly, with a needle in his hand. He knelt on the ground, hugged Wu Yihan, and begged, "Brother, this is my problem, not his. Please, don't tell his father, or he'll be beaten to death."

What was he doing that day? It seemed that he had broken a bone due to a beating from his father. They sat together and swore to escape together after graduation, leave here, and live together forever.

He would feel distressed when Li Mingyuan suffered from illness, and Li Mingyuan would hug him and cry when he was beaten. They really thought they would be together for life.

Xu Nuoyan listened to him silently, without disturbing him or making any comments. Liao Feng spoke for a while and then he couldn't say anything. His voice was trembling and he couldn't utter normal syllables.

Liao Feng suddenly seemed to have thought of something. He became a little excited, and his voice recovered. He spoke quickly, "The mountain I bought is where he and I made our vows. We planted trees on the mountain and hung two signs. But now that we've broken up, that mountain, those trees, and those two signs are meaningless."

Xu Nuoyan looked at him, as if asking him what he wanted to do. Liao Feng: "I will hang up those two signs. He and I have nothing to do with each other anymore. There is no need to keep those things." Xu Nuoyan was still a little unwilling to believe it when he heard him say that. After all, Liao Feng regretted things too easily.

Liao Feng seemed to know everything and wanted to drag him there. Xu Nuoyan had no choice but to call a designated driver. They went to the mountain. Liao Feng did not go up, but just looked at the top of the mountain from the foot of the mountain.

The tree grew stronger day by day, regardless of wind and rain, but their feelings for each other gradually faded, and now there is no feeling at all, and Li Mingyuan seems to have forgotten the tree.

Xu Nuoyan stood beside him waiting for him to do something. Liao Feng did not go up the mountain. He took out a pistol from his pocket and shot down the two signs very accurately. Xu Nuoyan looked at the tree, then at Liao Feng, and sighed in his heart that his shooting skills were still so accurate.

Xu Nuoyan: "What should we do now?" He tilted his head and looked at Liao Feng. The other party took a last look at the tree, shook his head and walked back.

After getting in the car, the two of them became even quieter, and no one knew what they were thinking. Liao Feng: "I'm going to chase the deer from now on," he took a deep breath and suddenly spoke. When Xu Nuoyan heard his words, she shifted her gaze from the phone screen to his face, her face full of question marks.

Xu Nuoyan: "Have you thought it through? Do you know who you like now?" He knew he would win this bet, and Liao Feng nodded.

When I saw today's bill, I felt that my little deer was so adorable. It was great that I spent so much money. This person didn't treat him as an outsider at all.

Xu Nuoyan: "He has spent millions of your dollars, and you are still happy?" He glanced at Liao Feng's mobile phone screen, and then looked at his happy face, and felt that he was mentally ill.

Liao Feng: "You don't understand this. Wait until your brother swipes your card and you'll know." He ignored Xu Nuoyan's complacency. Xu Nuoyan didn't understand and finally added: "He maxed out your card and you shut up."

Liao Feng: "I'm happy to. I don't need such a little money. At worst I can just work overtime for a few more days." He doesn't care about money. As long as his little deer is happy, nothing else is particularly important. Although he likes money, he will never be stingy with Ruan Xingfeng.

But Ruan Xingfeng had replaced his computer a few days ago, so why did he replace it with another one? Later, he bought double the things. Liao Feng felt something was wrong, but then he thought about it and felt that these must be bought for him.

Liao Feng: "He is so good to me, I will have to compensate him in the future." Xu Nuoyan looked at him with disdain, and he was really crazy in his heart.

When Liao Feng returned home and didn't see his good little deer, he felt uneasy and called him. Ruan Xingfeng said that he was busy with schoolwork and would not be home tonight.

Liao Feng was very unhappy, but he still respected him. His and Ruan Xingfeng's video software were synchronized. In simple terms, he could see what Ruan Xingfeng was watching.

But the first one was a male model dancing. He frowned and thought that he might jump out. As he scrolled through a few more, they were all a group of men dancing without exception. He was angry and thought to himself, could it be that he could not compare to those young handsome guys?

He looked at himself in the mirror and didn't think he was ugly. Maybe it was because he always wore suits, which made him look intimidating? He decided to change his style and impress Ruan Xingfeng tomorrow.

He wore a wig that was about the same length as his hair, with gray at the ends, and had lip studs and ear studs on, and he was very pleased with himself.

The next day, I wore a gray coat with small diamonds on it, which sparkled in the sun. The white pants and black shoes gave it a unique flavor.

He went to the flower shop to choose flowers, and finally picked out a bunch of baby's breath. When everything was ready, he looked in the mirror and adjusted his hairstyle at the university gate, and then stood by the car waiting for Ruan Xingfeng to come out.

Ruan Xingfeng walked out of the campus with two books in his hands. He was surprised to see Liao Feng's appearance and thought he had seen it wrong at first.

Liao Feng always wears a suit and his hair isn't this color. And what's with the lip stud and earrings? Ruan Xingfeng can't walk anymore, which is a huge blow to him. Did his personality change after reconciling with his first love?

Apart from this, Ruan Xingfeng really couldn't think of anything else.

Seeing Ruan Xingfeng staring at him stupidly, Liao Feng was very satisfied, thinking that he was so amazed by this that he was speechless.

He took the initiative to step forward, took the book from Ruan Xingfeng's hand, and put the flowers in his arms. Several girls who were passing by in pairs covered their mouths and giggled, but only Ruan Xingfeng looked at him at a loss.

Liao Feng: "Why are you so stupid?" He naturally took Ruan Xingfeng's hand and pulled him into the car.

Ruan Xingfeng kept looking at him until he came to his senses when they arrived at the restaurant. Liao Feng had already ordered the dishes, and the two of them sat next to each other in the private room.

Liao Feng placed his hand on his waist and rubbed his earlobe with his lips. He could still tolerate this, but the lip stud on Liao Feng's lips was cold against his earlobe, making his ears hotter and hotter, and his face flushed.

Is this man crazy? Ruan Xingfeng only had this thought. He didn't dare to avoid Liao Feng. He felt uncomfortable responding to him, so he could only stiffen his body and let him rub against him like a big golden retriever.

Liao Feng: "I was planning to get a tongue piercing, but I thought it might hurt you, so I didn't." After he said that, he went straight to it. Ruan Xingfeng felt the lips with the lip piercing pressed against his lips, and he felt itchy and numb.

He reached out to touch Liao Feng's ears. When Liao Feng was very excited, his lion ears would always show. Now, his lion ears were lightly red. He didn't know if it was because he was too happy or because it hurt from getting his ears pierced.

Both Ruan Xingfeng thought Liao Feng was too weird. His clothing style had changed. He used to be a very serious person, but now he dyed his hair, had lip studs and ear studs, and even said he wanted to get a tongue piercing.

In the end he pushed him away with force. Liao Feng licked his lips and looked at him with an unsatisfied look. Ruan Xingfeng: "Sir, why do you come to me instead of accompanying your first love?" His tone was not jealous, but as if he was really blaming him.

Liao Feng hung his head, as if he had been abandoned. Ruan Xingfeng turned his head away and pretended not to see.

Liao Feng: "I apologize to you. I shouldn't have said those words that day. I made you sad. Xiaolu, I want to make it up to you. Can you give me a chance?" He stopped acting like a hooligan and asked calmly in the gentlest tone.

Ruan Xingfeng really couldn't believe what he said. This man was apologizing?

Liao Feng felt uneasy when he saw that he had not responded yet. He knew he was in the wrong, so he did not have the face to urge Ruan Xingfeng. He also remembered how Ruan Xingfeng collapsed that day, and he could empathize with him. That feeling was really painful.

Ruan Xingfeng found it so strange. She was so arrogant just a few days ago and said that he was her lover, but now she was so humble in front of him. Was Liao Feng possessed by another's body, or did he go crazy after being rejected by his first love?

At this time, the waiter knocked on the door and brought the dishes. Ruan Xingfeng breathed a sigh of relief and started eating with chopsticks. Liao Feng was also very quiet, picking up dishes for him from time to time, and picking out the meat pieces that were accidentally put together in his bowl.

Liao Feng likes to eat coriander, but Ruan Xingfeng doesn't even touch it, so he finishes the coriander himself and tries to give him the best dining experience.

Although it was like this before, it was a bit too much today. Liao Feng's change of attitude made him a little overwhelmed, but he felt a little happy in his heart. It felt good to be served.

After dinner, Liao Feng took him to visit the company again. In the afternoon, he took him to the construction site to let him see how other designers on duty did it.

Ruan Xingfeng put on a safety helmet and followed Liao Feng into the construction site. Looking at the macro-structure, his eyes lit up. He followed the designer and asked questions.

Liao Feng looked at him from behind with a doting face, and the foreman was talking to him non-stop in his ears, seeing that he did not neglect either his wife or his work.

When the wind blew, the dust on the ground flew up. Liao Feng subconsciously stretched out his arms to block Ruan Xingfeng. Ruan Xingfeng's vision was only darkness, and the tip of his nose was lingering with the scent of the perfume on Liao Feng's suit. It was neither light nor strong, and smelled very comfortable.

Liao Feng lowered his head and whispered in his ear, "It looks like it's going to rain, let's go back." Without waiting for Ruan Xingfeng's reaction, he took his hand and left the construction site.

This summer vacation, Ruan Xingfeng's sister also came back with Song Xuexi. When the two siblings met, their eyes were full of joy of reunion, while Song Xuexi and Liao Feng glared at each other when they met.

Song Xuexi: "Mr. Liao is so domineering, he just glares at people." She pushed the suitcase onto Liao Feng's legs and pretended not to see the bad words.

Liao Feng's face was calm and composed. He took the suitcase and pulled Song Xuexi to a place where they couldn't see him. Liao Feng said, "You said you didn't like me, but now we've brought me back. And what's wrong with your neck? Why is it so wild?"

When she came out, Liao Feng saw the obvious scratch on her neck. Song Xuexi chuckled and lit a cigarette from a box in her pocket.

"The wind in China is still better, don't you think?" She did not answer Liao Feng's words, but talked about another unrelated thing.

He was dissatisfied with Song Xuexi's change of subject, but he didn't say anything. He just nodded and took a cigarette from her cigarette box.

When the brother and sister came out, they saw them smoking in the parking lot, their lips moving slightly and no one knew what they were saying. Ruan Xingfeng turned his head away, really not wanting to look at Liao Feng's fiery gaze.

Liao Feng also noticed his avoidance, feeling sour in his heart but still looking calm on the surface. Song Xuexi and Ruan Yuexin looked at each other and couldn't help but smile, which formed a sharp contrast with the two of them.

"Brother, I'm taking my girlfriend out for a walk, and I'll leave our suitcases to you two brothers." Song Xuexi left the suitcase behind, got into the car with Ruan Yuexin holding hands, and took the car keys from Liao Feng's hand.

The two people who stayed behind were holding two suitcases that were messy in the wind. "Did you know that they were together?" Liao Feng asked when he saw that he didn't look very surprised. Ruan Xingfeng nodded. He was already numb.

Especially the day when his sister happily called him and told him that she was with Song Xuexi, he felt like the sky had fallen. There were so many girls in the world, why did his sister like Liao Feng's sister?

Neither of these two people is normal. Although she doesn't know who Song Xuexi is, she always smiles, but she is a typical smiling tiger with a dagger hidden in her smile.

But his sister wouldn't listen. What else could he do? He could only let her do what she wanted. Liao Feng called the driver to pick up the car. Ruan Xingfeng saw the new car and casually asked, "How many cars do you have?"

Hearing this question, Liao Feng also found an opportunity to show off. Sitting in the back seat, he said nonchalantly: "Not many, about 20. Do you want to take a look?"