Chapter 6 The boy did not wrong her

It rained heavily today, and my mood was particularly heavy.

The umbrellas are placed next to each other, as if complaining that the rain is too cold, or as if mocking human beings for being so ridiculous.

——"Zhen Hao Diary"

"Hey, classmate Hangyu, why are you so fierce?" Yu Ling stomped her feet in dissatisfaction at the receding figure of Shi Hangyu.

Zhen Hao shook his head at her: "Forget it, I'm fine."

Although she was also puzzled by the letters in her hands, class was about to start and she had no time to figure out what was going on.

Just after she finished saying that to Yu Ling, her throat suddenly felt like it was blocked by something, and her eyes quickly became hot.

She lowered her head, not wanting Yu Ling to see her miserable appearance.

She didn't need to look in the mirror to know that her eyes must be frighteningly red and ugly.

She seemed to have returned to her childhood, where she dared not resist when she was wronged, her eyes would only turn red, and she dared not even cry out loud.

Without waiting for Yu Ling to say anything, Zhen Hao gathered the envelopes in his arms and walked quickly towards the classroom.

As soon as she walked into the classroom, she felt that strange atmosphere again.

Several girls cast their gazes at her intentionally or unintentionally, with obvious inquiry in their eyes.

It was the same feeling as last night in the dormitory. It felt like being stripped naked and standing in a crowd. It was very uncomfortable.

What exactly are they exploring? What is there about her that is worth exploring?

Zhen Hao lowered his head and walked towards his seat, deliberately ignoring those inquiring gazes.

As soon as she sat down, she quickly threw the things in her arms into the hole in the table.

Zhou Chunrui saw her coming back and turned to talk to her as usual: "Okay, we have English dictation later, save my life..."

She was halfway through her words when she noticed something was wrong with Zhen Hao's eyes: "Okay, what's wrong with your eyes?"

"Oh, it's okay. I just got some sand stuck in my mouth and rubbed it twice." Zhen Hao tried his best to control the trembling in his voice.

The class bell saved Zhen Hao. Zhou Chunrui said "Oh" half-believingly and turned back.

Yu Ling reached out and gently patted her back, comforting her: "Okay, it's okay, don't worry about what the stinky boy says."

"Yeah." Zhen Hao straightened his back slightly and dodged Yu Ling's hand without leaving a trace. "It's time for class."

The first class is English class, and as Zhou Chunrui said, the teacher will do dictation first.

Zhen Hao's mind was in a mess, he couldn't remember a single word, and his dictation was a mess.

Her mind was entirely on the letters in the hole in the table.

After the dictation papers were collected, she was mentally prepared to be punished by copying words after class, and was also mentally prepared to be criticized by the teacher.

She was also absent-minded in the following class and didn't hear a single word.

Why did Shi Hang say that?

What was in those envelopes?

Why did her classmates look at her like that?

Question after question filled Zhen Hao's mind, causing her to grip the pen a little harder.

She couldn't wait for the get out of class to end. Only after class could she take the letter to the bathroom and open it to read it carefully.

But the more she looked forward to the end of get out of class, the slower time went.

She felt restless, as if bugs were crawling on her body, and no matter how she adjusted her sitting position, she felt uncomfortable.

This tormenting feeling almost made the violent factor in her body burst out, and her frown never relaxed.

Yu Ling sensed her restlessness, so she wrote a note and pushed it to her side.

She unfolded it and saw the words: "Okay, are you feeling unwell?"

After his attention was slightly diverted, Zhen Hao felt better.

She replied to Yu Ling: "I'm fine, thank you, deskmate."

Her desk mate is so nice. He often brings her delicious food, lets her read new novels first, and is so considerate.

Thinking of this, Zhen Hao turned his head and gave Yu Ling a subtle smile, mouthing, "I'm really fine. Just listen carefully."

After hearing her say this, Yu Ling nodded with relief: "Okay, listen carefully."

As soon as the English class was over, Zhen Hao's heart started beating wildly.

She looked around and made sure no one was paying attention to what she was doing, then she put the letter back into her arms and covered it tightly with her school uniform.

Yu Ling took in all her movements and expressions, but she said nothing.

Because she was too nervous, Zhen Hao did not notice her deskmate's gaze. She quickly stood up and trotted towards the women's restroom.

She didn't even hear Shixu calling her.

Looking at the girl's flustered look, he murmured to himself somewhat worriedly: "Could it be that she was frightened by De Ge last night?"

From the moment he saw Zhen Hao before morning self-study, he felt that she was weird.

Suddenly, someone tapped his shoulder gently.

He turned around and saw Shi Hangyu, spinning a basketball in his hands, inviting him, "Let's play a game after lunch?"

"Come on, let's fight." Shi Xu agreed without hesitation.

He heard that playing basketball can help grow taller, so no matter whether he can or not, he will play hard and surpass Zhen Hao's height as soon as possible.

Shi Hangyu was only three months older than him, but he was much taller than him, already 1.75 meters tall.

He must not have played basketball enough, so he said shamelessly: "Hang Yu, count me in when you play basketball from now on. Even if knives rain from the sky, it won't stop me from going to the basketball court."

"No problem." Shi Hangyu was overjoyed. "From now on, I won't have to worry about no one to play basketball with me."

While the teenagers were talking about how to do a three-step layup, Zhen Hao had already entered the women's restroom cubicle.

Afraid that the letter would fall into the pit, Zhen Hao moved very carefully, as if he were treating some precious treasure.

This was handed to her by the young man himself. Even though his eyes were as cold as a poisonous snake, she felt a strange joy in her heart.

At least he took the initiative to talk to her and looked at her several times.

When she opened the first letter, Zhen Hao's heart was pounding so hard that her movements slowed down a bit, and the letter almost slipped from her hands.

After the letter was fully unfolded, Zhen Hao's eyes suddenly widened, and then his hands couldn't help shaking.

She scanned every word on the paper in disbelief.

You are like the April wind, gently blowing through my heart, bringing warmth and peace of mind.

Your back standing in the corridor is like a small poplar. No matter how strong the wind and rain are outside, I can't take my eyes off you.

Your profile is listening attentively to the lecture, the breeze blows up a corner of the curtain, a ray of light falls on your hand, and even the desk becomes cute.

When you jump on the basketball court, the colorful sunlight just builds a rainbow bridge and falls on your white school uniform. You must not know that there is a girl secretly watching you.

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Zhen Hao's hands were shaking more and more violently, and her lips had already tasted blood from being bitten by her, but she was completely unaware and quickly opened the second letter -

Young man, I always vaguely thought that you would only smile at me, and I didn’t want to admit that you were gentle and humble to everyone.

Young man, I like the way you look when you are in a daze, I like the way you laugh, and I like the way you look shy even more.

What a pity! You are not in a daze for me, nor laughing for me, nor shy for me.

Young man, do you also have an unspeakable girl in your heart? Are you like me, obsessed with your sweetheart and unable to sleep at night?

Young man, I have so many things to say to you, but when I pick up the pen, only one sentence remains: Can you look at me more?

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Seeing this, Zhen Hao's eyes were already red.

She gripped the letter so tightly that her knuckles turned white.

With a hopeful mentality, she opened the third letter——

You don't need to say anything, just a look from you is enough to make me happy for the whole day.

Just like when you got a favorite toy as a child, happiness can continue forever.

Sometimes I wonder if you are the great treasure that I have lost for many years, and in the gears of time, you have been brought back to me.

Maybe it sounds a bit pretentious to say this, but this is my truest thought.

I wonder if you think a girl who takes the initiative like me seems cheap?

I care a lot about what you think, but I am afraid of knowing what you think. Isn’t it contradictory?

You boys probably all like pretty girls. I know I’m not pretty enough, but I still can’t help but want to pay attention to you.

I guess this is the mentality of a secret admirer.

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Secret admirer...

Zhen Hao's heart skipped a beat when he saw this.

She didn't understand how things turned out like this, she clearly...

She didn't want to maliciously speculate about people's minds, but the facts were before her, and it was hard for her not to think too much.

With great panic, she opened the fourth letter -

"I wrote 'I will love you forever' at the end of the poem. You are the only one I want to understand."

This is a line of lyrics that I like very much, and I’m giving it to you now.

I will continue to write, keep writing, writing about our summer.

It seems like I never have enough words to write about you, just like I can never get tired of seeing your smile and your back.

Do you feel the same way?

I am afraid of your answer, and I am also afraid that you have no answer.

Am I boring because I'm so twisted? You don't have to answer this question, because I know very well that I am a boring person.

A puppet can perform a play by pulling its strings, but I can only write you an anonymous letter.

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The fifth letter——

There seem to be more and more sparrows in the school, which inevitably reminds me of that line of lyrics.

"The sparrows outside the window are chattering on the telephone poles. You said this sentence has a very summery feeling."

I said that our meeting also felt like summer, and I saw the whole summer in you.

I love this summer, and I love you even more.

Are these words particularly whiny? Even a little bitter.

But I quite like it and want to read every sentence to you.

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The Sixth Letter——

Today, looking at your back as you listened attentively in class, I suddenly wanted to learn painting.

I want to draw you frowning, you doing your homework, you spinning the ball, your youthful energy...

I want my sketchbook to be filled with you, this is also my youth.

It’s a pity that I can’t draw, so I can only write these sour words for you.

The only thing I am thankful for is that you don’t seem to have any girls you like, and your eyes seem to only desire knowledge.

As long as you don't belong to anyone else, I have the chance to make you belong to me.

This may seem a bit extreme, but that’s really what I think.

Isn't liking someone selfish? Or should we call it possessiveness?

Summer will pass, but some things won't.

For example, I like you.

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Zhen Hao read the last word with a pale face, his fingertips trembling so much that he could hardly hold the thin paper.

These letters were really written by her.

Every word and every sentence is her original creation and reflects her truest state of mind.

Shi Hangyu did not wrongly accuse her.

But these letters were not written by her.

A loud thunder exploded in the sky, interrupting Zhen Hao's confused thoughts, and heavy rain began to fall.