Chapter 47 Mo Hannian Regrets

Thinking of that notebook, Ye Li guessed why Mo Hannian had reacted, so she found a seat and sat down to watch the show.

Protected by Lu Ziting, Su Ying'er looked worried. "Fifth Senior Brother, what's wrong? Did Ying'er do something wrong? If Ying'er is wrong, you can hit me or scold me, just don't get angry and hurt yourself."

Such sweet words of care had moved Mo Hannian deeply. He felt that Su Ying'er was the person in the world who understood him and cared about him the most.

She understood his pain from being poisoned by the Gu, and she understood how much he loathed those useless drugs.

But these words, when they reached his ears again, failed to stir even the slightest ripple in Mo Hannian's heart. He spoke slowly and deliberately, "Su Ying'er, it was you who poured out that bowl of medicine half a year ago, wasn't it?"

Su Ying'er was puzzled as to why Mo Hannian suddenly brought up the past. She remained as innocent and carefree as ever, saying, "Yes, Fifth Senior Brother, that day was your birthday. How could you suffer on your birthday? For so many years, Senior Sister has made Fifth Senior Brother suffer. Ying'er feels sorry for you, so Ying'er..."

"Enough!"

Mo Hannian gritted his teeth, "If you hadn't thrown away that bowl of medicine, my Gu poison would have been cured!"

Su Ying'er was taken aback, "Antidote?"

Wen Yao was somewhat skeptical, "Xiao Wu, can you cure your Gu poison? Didn't you say there's no cure for Gu poison?"

Su Ying'er bit her red lips and said aggrievedly, "Yes, Fifth Senior Brother, have you misunderstood something?"

Mo Hannian threw the notebook on the table and said, "You can see for yourselves!"

"Methods of Detoxification"

Upon seeing the words on the cover, Wen Yao and Lu Ziting both recognized the handwriting. "This is... A-Li's handwriting?"

The notes were very old, and it was clear that the person who wrote them had frequently looked through them.

The first page reads: "Everyone says that Gu poison is hard to cure, but I, Ye Li, refuse to believe it. I will definitely find a way to cure Han Nian."

Seeing the strong, slender handwriting, Mo Hannian seemed to hear Ye Li's resolute voice.

The notebook contains records of no fewer than a hundred kinds of herbs, and she has made a record of each one.

From harvesting to medicinal properties, and then to drug testing...

Because Mo Hannian was weak, Ye Li tested the medicine on herself, fearing that the medicine would be too strong and harm Mo Hannian's body.

Ye Li also recorded the reactions after being poisoned.

"This is extremely toxic! It causes blood to reverse and excruciating pain all over the body. It can't be used on Han Nian! I can't write anymore, it hurts so much."

"This poison is tolerable, but it has a foul, fishy smell. Remember to add some other herbs to neutralize it."

"Although this poison is difficult to harvest, it can temporarily suppress the onset of Gu poison, so it is usable."

"What kind of poison is this! I've been unbearably itchy all over for a month. Thank goodness I didn't give it to Han Nian! Ah! Itchy, itchy, itchy!"

...

Because it was written for herself, Ye Li didn't nitpick over the wording or put on airs as a senior sister.

That's why Mo Hannian seemed to be able to see Ye Li taking notes at her desk through those words.

She would grimace in pain, scratch her arms, or furrow her brows, hold her breath, and force down the bitter medicine.

Instead of complaining, she was glad that she had tried it first and that he hadn't had to suffer the same pain.

With each page he read, Mo Hannian's heart ached more. By the end, he was in excruciating pain all over his body and could no longer tell whether it was the Gu poison taking effect or his heart aching.

The last page depicts the poisonous plant *Gelsemium elegans*.

Ye Li's joy leaped off the page: "Finally, I've found a way to cure the poison! As long as forty-nine days pass, Han Nian's Gu poison will be cured."

The day of the detoxification happened to be Han Nian's birthday; he would definitely like this gift.

To record the therapeutic effects, Ye Li took notes every day thereafter.

"Day 1: Han Nian experienced no discomfort after taking the medicine, which is a good start."

"Day 10: Han Nian himself didn't notice, but his complexion had improved a lot."

"Day 20: Han Nian's spiritual veins have begun to purify; he can now practice swordsmanship."

"Day 48: The poison will be cured soon. Starting tomorrow, Han Nian can begin a new life. Just one more day, only one day left."

Through those records, Mo Hannian felt that future within reach.

If Su Ying'er hadn't thrown away that bowl of medicine, what would he be like now?

Will you drink and spar with your fellow disciples? Or will you travel across beautiful mountains and rivers? Or will you defeat your opponents in the Sword Sect Tournament and bring glory to the Lotus Sect?

Fantasy is just fantasy.

On the forty-ninth day, there was no record, only a crossed-out cross.

"It's alright. Han Nian has just been tormented by the Gu poison for too long and his mind is unsettled."

There's more than just this one Heartbreak Grass in the world. No matter where you go, I'll find it for you.

...

Mo Hannian closed his sore eyes.

Regret and guilt.

It turns out that he wasn't the only one suffering.

While he felt he had suffered, his senior sister had suffered a hundred times more than him.

She even kept quiet about her sacrifices so that he wouldn't regret it.

However, because he was greedy for Su Ying'er's little bit of sweetness, he betrayed his senior sister's heart.

He misinterpreted her efforts and accused her of being ambitious and eager for quick success.

The truth is that he felt inferior because of the Gu poison and was jealous that his senior sister was able to break through to the Nascent Soul stage. So he spoke ill of her and refused to accept any of her kindness, as if that would make him less pathetic.

The despicable one wasn't Ye Li, it was himself...

Seeing everything Ye Li had done for Mo Hannian, even Lu Ziting fell silent.

Wen Yao's voice trembled with heartache, "These are all deadly poisons in the world, and A-Li actually tried them all. Xiao Wu, A-Li really loves you like her own brother."

Mo Hannian gripped his notebook tightly, his eyes vacant, muttering, "Senior sister, senior sister..."

He kept repeating Ye Li's name, then suddenly looked around, "Senior Sister, are you right in front of me?"

"Senior sister, come out, come out..."

He wandered around aimlessly like a headless fly, just to find Ye Li.

Ye Li sat right in front of him, coldly watching him call out to her repeatedly.

The current Mo Hannian is very much like she used to be; no matter how hard she tries, she can't get into Mo Hannian's heart.

Mo Hannian finally realized something and walked towards her, but she no longer cared.

Seeing Mo Hannian's dazed expression, Su Ying'er trembled as she tugged at his sleeve, "Fifth Senior Brother, Ying'er didn't know that was the antidote Senior Sister gave you. Ying'er just wanted to celebrate your birthday. It's all Ying'er's fault..."

"Don't touch me!"

Mo Hannian roared and flung her away, leaving Su Ying'er's hand awkwardly hanging in mid-air.

Lu Ziting frowned. "Ignorance is no excuse. Ying'er is just concerned about you."

"She cares about me? Knowing I'm poisoned, she still made me those sweets. Is she genuinely concerned, or did she deliberately make me have an attack?"

"you!"

Su Ying'er stopped Lu Ziting, who wanted to argue for her, and shook her head firmly, "It's okay, Senior Brother. Fifth Senior Brother is just like this because he doesn't know the truth. Ying'er won't blame Fifth Senior Brother."

Mo Hannian sensed something and frowned, "The truth? What truth?"