Chapter 90 Sifan goes to find your memories

“Divine power?” Shen Cangyu caught the key word. “What divine power?” Could it be that she had really cultivated to the level of a god in the past?

Wasn't she a time traveler? How did she cultivate herself into a god?

Did she truly believe in those Taoist theories and beliefs in the past, and diligently cultivate herself to bring the theory of "all things returning to the heart" to its extreme?

If she was so powerful, how could she have had her identity stolen by a new time traveler? That doesn't make sense.

"What do you know? Tell me everything you know." Shen Cangyu looked at Pei Wenjing and knew that he must have recovered all his past memories. She wanted to know everything from him, including her past.

“No,” Pei Wenjing refused decisively. “If you remember everything, you will definitely leave, just like before.” Shen Cangyu had finally returned, and he would absolutely not let her leave.

He never went to Kunlun to seek immortality; he only wanted to find Shen Cangyu and live out the short human life with her in peace and tranquility.

While she hasn't remembered everything yet, perhaps he still has a chance...

"Fine, if you won't tell me, then I'll go find it myself. I'll regain my memories sooner or later, and you can't stop me." Shen Cangyu glanced at him, turned around, and walked away without any hesitation.

Pei Wenjing's jaw muscles twitched: "Where are you going to look for your memories?"

Shen Cangyu didn't stop, continuing to walk: "I don't know, but if I keep walking, I'll definitely find it." She needed to constantly receive specific situational stimuli. As long as the scenes she experienced were the same as in the past, she could obtain the corresponding plot. She couldn't retrieve all her memories at once like Pei Wenjing; she needed time and needed to constantly rewind.

She has now gained many memories of her time with other disciples in Kunlun, and through these memories, she sees her past self.

She grew up in Kunlun, where she displayed exceptional talent and learning ability from a young age. Because her small body housed the soul of an adult, she excelled at learning and at disguising herself. She disguised herself as a gifted individual, gaining the favor and admiration of many Kunlun elders and disciples.

She was different in the past than she is now. Although she was also an orphan, she was adopted by Shen Yingda from a young age. She appeared in the world as the daughter of the sect leader and held a high position in Kunlun. She was groomed to be the next successor from childhood.

She was talented, capable, well-connected, emotionally intelligent, and well-connected. She had it all, but in her memory, the doubts about her never disappeared.

There will always be people who say that if it weren't for her status as the daughter of the sect leader, she wouldn't be where she is today.

There will always be people who smear her behind her back, portraying her as someone who rose to power through connections, saying that her existence takes away the place that all the harder-working kids deserve.

She was speechless with rage, hating those voices, yet she had to pretend not to care in order to maintain her image in front of others. She knew that if she tried to explain or refute, she would fall right into their trap and disappoint even more people.

Pei Wenjing once told her, "It's lonely at the top, there will always be criticism, and we can never please everyone." Pei Wenjing was a pessimistic person, but Shen Cangyu was different from him; she always felt that everything could be changed.

In this life, she repeatedly tries to distance herself from Shen Yingda, which is also influenced by her past memories.

She has now proven that without any powerful connections or background to help her, she has still managed to get to where she is today through her own abilities. She remains the exceptionally talented Shen Cangyu. However, criticism still exists, perhaps proving Pei Wenjing's words: "The higher you climb, the colder it gets." They can never please everyone.

At that time, Shen Cangyu treated everyone as a target for conquest, as NPCs in a novel. She felt that she was a time traveler, the main character, and that she was here to be the emperor. Anyone who slandered or mocked her in the marketplace or court should have their entire family executed.

She went to Kunlun only to complete a mission. She is the protagonist. Why should she suffer such injustices and be misunderstood by those people? What if her senior brothers, sisters, and friends hear these words and actually believe that she is that kind of person?

It wasn't until later that Shen Cangyu realized that she didn't hate other people's criticisms; she was just worried that the people she cared about would be affected by the rumors. She didn't know when it started, but she had come to treat the people around her as real people and cared about their opinions.

When she had this thought, she began to realize that she was gradually merging with the world, and she could no longer see herself as an outsider strategist.

This time, she wants to sever all ties with everyone and be completely alone so that she can leave without any worries when she completes the final story mission.

She had almost finished unlocking her memories of Kunlun, but she had no memories of her later life. Perhaps her later life in that life wasn't in Kunlun. Shen Cangyu thought.

The path of cultivation for immortals is a constant cycle of entering and leaving the world, and then entering and leaving it again. She should go to the human world outside Kunlun to find her memories.

“I know where your memories are, I’ll take you to find them,” Pei Wenjing’s voice sounded behind her.

Shen Cangyu stopped and turned to look at him.

The wind blew up Pei Wenjing's silver-white robes. Behind him were verdant trees and a blue-white sky, but Shen Cangyu seemed to see a vast expanse of snow through his figure.

"I'll take you to find it." Pei Wenjing's voice was very soft, drifting away on the wind.

Let him lead her step by step through the places they had once walked together. If, after walking all that way, she still hasn't changed her mind, then let her go.

She saved him for one lifetime, and he remembered it for countless lifetimes. Now that she has returned, he helps her regain her memories, and their debts are finally settled. If she wants to leave, he won't stop her; he is about to face the ending he deserved.

This is also the last life.

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"Didn't you say that even if Shen Cangyu wasn't related to you by blood, you would still recognize her as your goddaughter? Shen Yingda, you regret it now."

Huang Menglu stood in front of the main hall of Longji Mountain, looking at the figure standing under the sword rack and said.

Shen Yingda's figure disappeared into the darkness, appearing somewhat hunched over. He hung his head, looking slightly dejected.

"Is this bloodline that important to you?" Huang Menglu asked him from across the threshold.

After a long silence, Shen Yingda said in a hoarse voice, "I have nothing left but my bloodline. What else can I do?"

Huang Menglu watched as darkness climbed up Shen Yingda's shoulders, and in a daze, he seemed to see evil spirits wrapping around his neck.

They grew up together in Kunlun, their paths diverging but their bond deep and familiar, like brothers. Shen Yingda grew up under the stern reprimands of the former sect leader. As a child, she often played with other Kunlun disciples, but few could spot her. In class, he always sat upright, yet Huang Menglu had seen the bruises on his arms hidden beneath his long sleeves.

It is said that the former sect leader was extremely demanding of him. Whenever Shen Yingda did something wrong, he would hit him with a ruler to teach him a lesson.

Huang Menglu then said to Huang Guangming, "It's fortunate that they weren't born in a time when all things return to their hearts."

Now that the former sect leader has been gone for many years, no one will use a ruler to hit Shen Yingda's arm anymore, but he seems to have engraved those lessons into his bones, and he will punish himself.

“You clearly still like Cangyu and Wenjing in your heart. There are so many ways to have the best of both worlds. You didn’t have to go to such extremes.”

“There’s no going back,” Shen Yingda interrupted Huang Menglu. He suddenly turned around, revealing half of his face, and stared at her with eyes like a wild beast.

Huang Menglu's brow twitched, and she suddenly raised her hand and made a hand seal: "Soaring High!"

A whirlwind burst through the half-closed wooden door and rushed into the main hall. The door rattled and creaked, and the flickering candlelight inside was swept away by the gust of wind, turning into white smoke that dissipated. Shen Yingda's robes billowed in the whirlwind.

A few leaves were caught in the airflow and swirled towards him, blood spurting out as a chunk of flesh was ripped from Shen Yingda's arm.

The piece of meat fell to the ground and transformed into the shape of a black eyeball. The eyeball struggled for a moment before shrinking into a black bead.

Immeasurable life.

Huang Menglu stared at the black bead, his face grim. They had thought that with Amitabha's death, the Boundless Life Form had been eliminated, but they hadn't expected that it was still attached to Shen Yingda. They didn't know when it had started, but this black bead had taken Shen Yingda as its host, absorbing his life force and flesh. They had studied the Five Evils for so long, yet no one had discovered this.

Cultivators are also human beings. Apart from mastering mental techniques and Taoist methods, they are no different from ordinary people. If a cultivator's mind is unstable, he or she will be corrupted by the Five Evils and become a follower of the Five Evils.

There is no safe place in this world. As long as there are people, the five evils will always appear.

In contrast, the places where Huang Menglu lived, Xiaoyao You, and Huang Guangming lived, Shan'e Tang, were the safest.

The carefree wanderer is indifferent to human affairs and has no desires or wants. As long as one has no desires, doesn't care about others or oneself, one will not be corrupted by the five evil emotions.

The concept of the Hall of Good and Evil is completely opposite to that of the Wanderer. The Hall of Good and Evil regards the publicly known standards of good and evil as the highest standards in the world. They are self-centered but firm, so other emotions will not affect them.

If even the leader of Kunlun was unknowingly corrupted by the Five Evils, then how many people in Kunlun have fallen into the influence of the Five Evils?

Huang Menglu suddenly felt attacked from both sides.

She took out her name tag and was about to send a message to Huang Guangming when suddenly her right hand twitched, and a dull pain appeared in her heart.

Huang Menglu was a wanderer of carefree wandering, but she had been involved in the world for too long and had become entangled in the karma of too many people. As she became involved in the world, her wandering Taoist magic declined, and the power protecting her heart meridian also gradually weakened.

Shen Yingda, who was kneeling in the main hall, suddenly raised his head and waved his hand, sending several swords flying towards Huang Menglu.

Oh no, has she not yet eradicated Wuliangsheng?

Huang Menglu wanted to unleash his magic to block in front of him, but a tearing pain shot through his heart meridian.

It just so happens at this time...

A series of screen-like scrolls unfolded before her eyes, layer upon layer, blocking her way and causing the flying sword to tremble.

"I told you to be born into this world, so be it. Leave the worldly matters to me, but you won't listen." A familiar voice came from beside me.

Huang Menglu turned her head to look and saw that her elder brother had arrived at some point and was standing beside her, using the Book of Life and Death to block Shen Yingda's attack.

A layer of cold sweat beaded on his forehead, his face tense, as if he were angry. They were twins, sharing a common sense; perhaps he sensed the tremor in her heart and rushed over.

Huang Menglu recalled that when she chose the path of Taoism, she insisted on going to the Hall of Good and Evil, but her parents refused no matter what she said.

“The Hall of Good and Evil is exhausting, and you’ve had a weak heart since you were little. No matter what you say, I won’t let you go.” It was rare for Huang Menglu’s mother to speak so harshly to her. Although Huang Menglu and Huang Guangming were twins, she was born with a weak heart and faced death several times. They went to great lengths to save her.

At that time, Huang Guangming always felt guilty, thinking that he had taken away her life force in the womb, which made her so weak. Therefore, no matter what she said, he would agree to her request.

Huang Menglu wanted to go to the Hall of Good and Evil, but her family was afraid that entering the world would exhaust her and harm her.

Huang Guangming said to her, "You stay here in Xiaoyao You and use the methods of Xiaoyao You to nourish your heart meridian. I will go to the Hall of Good and Evil in your place."

He was clearly the one who most wanted to travel freely.

That year, they swapped their choices for each other.

Huang Guangming has learned to be worldly for her sake, becoming the ruthless and unapproachable Master Huang whom everyone hates.

But she could never truly detach herself from the world; she was always concerned about everything in this world and could never truly live a carefree life.

She can't let it go.