Chapter 362 I Will Be Your Hope (Revised)

Under the guidance of her master, Xia Wange knew from the very beginning what path she wanted to take. At a very young age, she knew what her life would be like.

But Lu Qiu was different, he had a healthy body.

He suffered all these blows suddenly after he became an adult... There was no trace of what happened to him. He experienced helplessness and confusion, but later he grasped hope and lived every day counting on it.

But now he had to give up everything that was within his reach, abandon everything, and start over again.

The greater the hope, the greater the disappointment.

However, there was no way he could not help saving people.

He can't be a good person, a bad person, a normal person, or a madman. He can't give up his dignity, his conscience, or his emotions...

Since there is nothing you can do, since you can't give up anything, then pick one thing you can accomplish, try your best, bet everything on it, and become a dead person...

Before waiting for the flight, Xia Wange found a place to take a shower to make himself feel more alert. Sitting on the plane, Xia Wange stared out the window without any sleepiness, as if a person would only wake up when he might lose the person.

Only then will you realize that your previous concerns are insignificant in the face of life and death.

What's the point of having a long life or a good fortune? A disaster might happen the next day, and the future you planned will come to an abrupt end before it even begins.

The past can only be recalled, the future can only be looked forward to, and the only thing we can hold on to is the present.

After a transfer in the middle of the night, it was already morning when we arrived in Beijing.

Xia Wange didn't have time to rest, and went straight to Lu Qiu's old house. Seeing Xia Wange coming, Uncle Zhao, the housekeeper of the old house, was surprised for a moment, but soon his eyes dimmed again. He looked at Xia Wange and hesitated to say, "Miss Xia, you are here? Are you looking for your wife and husband?"

"I'm looking for Lu Qiu." Xia Wange said bluntly.

The butler opened his mouth and said, "Come in first."

In the main hall, Mrs. Lu, Mr. Lu, and Big Brother Lu were all there. When they saw Xia Wange coming, their eyes lit up, but they quickly turned their gaze away.

"Uncle and aunt, Brother Lu, I'm here to look for Lu Qiu. Where is he?" Xia Wange said to them.

Mother Lu clenched her hands tightly together, and finally said, "Ms. Xia, Lu Qiu is not here."

"Not here?" Xia Wange raised his eyebrows.

Mother Lu stared at Xia Wange for a long time, then nodded, "Not here."

Xia Wange frowned and made a gesture with her fingers. She clearly felt that the wooden sign was here. She also caused the wooden sign to jump a little and felt the heat.

"Miss Xia..." Mother Lu looked at her, "Please don't make things difficult for us."

"Lu Qiu said he's not here." Brother Lu said directly, "Lu Qiu said that anyone who comes to see him, especially you, must say he's not here. Even if he's dead, he doesn't want you to attend his funeral. He hopes everyone can respect him one last time. He said this is his choice."

"He said he didn't want to collapse in front of you. He said his condition was very bad and he might be completely paralyzed. He said he wanted to accompany you in another way, although I don't know what way." Brother Lu said, "He hasn't seen anyone in the past few days. He also said that if we go to his room, he will immediately disappear in front of us and die outside. He begged us to give him a decent treatment."

"Miss Xia, we are his family. He looked at us with such pleading eyes. Even if he wanted to die... we knew he was still alive through the dynamic electrocardiogram." Brother Lu said, "This is his choice. When he woke up this time, we saw that there was no will to live in his eyes. He has never asked us for anything in these years. We don't want to embarrass him, so please go back and pretend that you have never met Lu Qiu."

Xia Wange looked at the people in front of her who were grieving deeply, her eyelashes trembling slightly, and she felt a little at a loss.

"He can still be saved." Xia Wange said after a long while, "I can still save him."

"But he no longer has any will to live." Brother Lu said in a trembling voice, "I can't see any hope in his eyes. After he woke up, he just kept asking us why he wasn't dead yet. Miss Xia, instead of watching him live in pain, it's better to let him go completely."

There is no hope...

Xia Wange's pupils trembled slightly, she staggered a step, touching the corner of the table, and pursed her lips without saying a word.

At this time, Brother Lu took out a box from the side and said, "This is the gift I ordered for you. I don't know if it is what you said, but I'll leave it to you."

After that, Brother Lu stuffed the box into Xia Wange's hand. He said calmly, "You don't have to feel guilty. Lu Qiu just returned to the track his body was supposed to return to. On the contrary, it was you who made him spend a lively and happy time. This period of time was enough for him to have endless memories when he was in the most painful time. I think he must be happy when he really wants to leave."

Xia Wange looked at everything in front of him blankly, feeling a little overwhelmed.

At this moment, Xia Wange felt her soul tremble slightly. She immediately looked upstairs with her pupils shrinking slightly.

Someone broke the wooden sign.

Lu Qiu!

Putting down the box in her hand, Xia Wange ran quickly to Lu Qiu's room. After opening several doors in succession, she glanced at the locked bedroom door in front of her and kicked it open without saying a word.

The door was opened, and the light from outside shone into the room, just falling on Lu Qiu's face.

He frowned slightly and tilted his head, looking at the person at the door, smiled slightly, and said in a gentle voice, "You're here?"

Xia Wange was stunned. Looking at the familiar smile in front of her, she felt a little overwhelmed. Her original excitement disappeared at this moment and then became calm.

It seemed that Lu Qiu always had a way to calm her down.

The passion that had nowhere to go cooled down in an instant. Xia Wange hesitated for a moment, then walked in, sat beside Lu Qiu's bed, without saying a word.

All the questions and anger were blocked by Lu Qiu's warm smile, and Xia Wange felt a little stuffy in his chest.

Before Xia Wange could say anything, Lu Qiu said softly, "You've seen it, so just leave. I don't really want to see you right now."

"Don't want to see me?" Xia Wange was furious. She took out the letter that was torn in half. "If you don't want to see me, I won't even see this letter! I..."

"When the sign suddenly broke just now, I knew you would come up." Lu Qiu sighed softly, "But it seems to understand my thoughts better. It seems that I can't hide in front of you at all."

Xia Wange's nose felt sore, and her rising emotions were calmed down again. Her temper kept rising and then being suppressed, making her feel uncomfortable.

Lu Qiu was like a gentle knife, stabbing deep into the heart without drawing blood.

"Don't be sad, just leave." Lu Qiu closed his eyes and said softly, "I've been in a bad mood recently. I lose my temper easily and become extreme easily. I just want to consume those negative emotions by myself, so don't stay here. Isn't it good for me to wait for the destined ending here alone? If I hadn't met you, I would have died soon."

The tone was gentle, yet the words pierced the heart.

Xia Wange frowned, and the emotions that had been suppressed before surged up even more violently.

She lifted her legs onto the bed, knelt on Lu Qiu's waist with her knees apart, reached out to grab his collar, pulled his upper body up, then leaned forward and kissed Lu Qiu on the lips, "You said you can't see hope, then I will be your hope, unless I die, I will definitely make sure you are okay. Lu Qiu, I like you, let's be together, there is no destined ending, we can change our fate!"