Chapter 363: Opening Up Again

The slightly cool and unfamiliar touch on his lips made Lu Qiu's pupils dilate instantly. He looked at the person so close to him in disbelief, his eyes panicking for a moment. Lu Qiu raised his hand and slowly placed it on Xia Wange's shoulder. His fingertips slowly tightened, and finally he closed his eyelashes and pushed her away fiercely.

Lu Qiu's upper body fell back onto the bed. He put away all the nostalgia and joy in his eyes, and turned his eyes to gaze calmly into her pupils, his emotions slowly becoming agitated, "Xia Wange, are you feeling sorry for me?"

"You! Hiss..." When Xia Wange was about to move forward, he suddenly felt a pain in his knee.

She frowned and looked at the bed sheet, then reached out and touched the area below her knees. She instantly felt something was wrong, so she frowned and lifted a corner of the bed sheet. She stood there in a daze for a long time, her eyes full of shock and confusion.

Under Lu Qiu's bed sheets were filled with various kinds of jade.

He was lying on the jade these days? !

"You...you are really crazy." Xia Wange cast his gaze towards Lu Qiu and said only one sentence after a long while, "Are you torturing yourself?"

"Self-abuse?" Lu Qiu curled his lips, looking at Xia Wange with mockery in his eyes. He could no longer control his emotions and tore off his calm disguise. "I can't feel any pain in my legs, so how can it be considered self-abuse?!"

Xia Wange was silent for a moment. She looked at Lu Qiu, took out the letter, and said earnestly, "I have already signed and put my fingerprints on Party A. This contract has come into effect, so you are my boyfriend."

Lu Qiu slowly stood up, approached Xia Wange and said, "I will pretend that I didn't hear what you just said. Let me rot here. Whether I live or die, it has nothing to do with you. Our labor contract is terminated, and this torn letter is not valid. Please leave. I really can't control my emotions anymore."

"What about these jades?" Xia Wange asked, "Do you just want to lie on the jades and enjoy the feeling of being buried with the dead in advance?"

Lu Qiu pursed his lips and stared at Xia Wange for a long while, lowering his eyes to hide the reluctance in his eyes. When he raised his eyes again, his expression was cold. His calm disguise was completely torn apart, and the soft knife was finally covered with a hard shell.

"Xia Wange, are you so kind to everyone?! Put away your sympathy, because don't you think it's ironic that you have sympathy with me?! Or are you simply unable to let go of the purple energy all over my body? Are you clinging to me like this and planning to use my body to survive? Then just wait, I'm going to die soon, and after I die you can take whatever you want, why sacrifice yourself while I'm alive..."

“Bang!”

A loud slap sounded, and Lu Qiu's hands could no longer support his upper body, so he fell onto the pillow. He took two deep breaths, feeling the stinging pain on his cheek.

"Say it again." Xia Wange looked down at him, her tone cold and calm, "Start again from the beginning."

Lu Qiu slightly turned his eyes away and gave another mocking smile, "You haven't listened to all the nice words I've said, and you really want me to get mad at you? You..."

Xia Wange took out two jade rings from under the bed sheet and put them on her fingers. She raised her hands again and said coldly, "If you still want to be slapped, keep making up those thorny words. These words are nothing more than pulling the knife out of your heart and stabbing it into mine. Apart from hurting both sides, what else is there to do?"

Lu Qiu glanced at Xia Wange, then looked away at her raised hand, pursed his lips, and finally did not speak again.

"And you just said that I sympathize with you? How can I, a person who counts the days of my own death, sympathize with you?! You..." Xia Wange put his hand down, glanced at Lu Qiu's legs, hesitated for a moment and admitted, "Well, you are more miserable than me, at least I can live by doing good deeds, but you will die by doing good deeds... I can follow my heart, but you can't. You are indeed more miserable than me, but only in this respect."

Doing good things but not getting rewarded will either drive a person crazy or kill him.

Lu Qiu: “…”

"But then again." Xia Wange looked at Lu Qiu, stretched out her hand to pinch his chin, and forced his face to the side, covering the swollen side and revealing the side that had not been slapped. "There are so many miserable people in the world, why don't I be someone else's girlfriend? There are so many people I sympathize with, do I have to ask each of them if they are willing to be my boyfriend? The people chasing after me are lining up from here to the gate of the underworld. I only want to be with you because you are a human being and you are good-looking. If you die, you will have to line up again in the underworld."

Lu Qiu's throat choked, he glanced at Xia Wange, then turned his head away, "Just go away, don't bother me anymore."

If she stayed with him, she would just be held back by his legs.

"Give me a reason." Xia Wange straightened Lu Qiu's face again and forced him to look directly at her. "Tell me what you really think."

With his chin pinched, Lu Qiu could only look at Xia Wange. In the end, he still said nothing.

"Okay." Xia Wange released Lu Qiu's chin, "I'll ask you questions and you'll answer them."

"Don't believe me?" Xia Wange raised an eyebrow. "Don't you believe I can heal you again?"

"Believe me." Lu Qiu lowered his eyes and said, "I have never doubted your ability. I believe in yourself more than you do."

"Do you regret saving someone?"

“No regrets.”

“You regret saving fewer people?”

"I have tried my best."

"Then why do you want to die?" Xia Wange straightened Lu Qiu's face again, "Do you feel there is no hope, and I give you hope, or do you think I can't be your hope?"

"I can, but I don't want hope anymore." Lu Qiu stared at Xia Wange from bottom to top, raised his hand and held Xia Wange's hand, and asked in a deep voice, "Why did you stay there even though you knew there would be an earthquake?"

"I know that I can survive and save people with my abilities." Xia Wange said quickly.

"I also know that I have the ability to save people, so I can't just sit there and watch." Lu Qiu held Xia Wange's hand tightly, his voice choking. "I can endure living in pain all the time, and I also want to live in hope all the time, but I can't accept repetition."

I can't bear to let my body drag down my loved ones and you for the rest of my life!

"I don't want to see myself crushing the hope that is within my grasp with my own hands again, falling into the abyss, and then climbing up little by little. I am not that great. I just want my conscience not to be condemned, but my conscience seems to be in conflict with my body..."

"Xia Wange, I am not a resolute and decisive person. I am hesitant and indecisive. People like me who want everything will end up with nothing..."

"I can't be a pure villain, and I don't want to be a good person like Wende. I just want to be an ordinary person. I want to be selfish and think more about myself. When I found that I had the ability to save people, I couldn't just stand by and watch. But after I saved many people, I didn't want to see my body getting worse and worse..."

"Xia Wange, they say that when the sky falls, there will always be tall people to hold it up, but I am that tall person, and I will always be that tall person."