Chapter 50: I confessed my feelings to him

Chapter 50: I confessed my feelings to him

After seeing off this worried and dedicated man, the two returned to their dormitory.

They remained silent the entire way.

The others didn't know whether they had gone to eat or play, so the two of them were left awkwardly alone in the same room again.

Fang Yuenian was told by Cheng Bing to apply the medicine, so she didn't dare to delay. She grabbed her clothes and prepared to take a shower first. Meng Xiaoyang, who was usually calm, was pacing back and forth like a quail with his head down.

"I'm going to take a shower first, I need to apply medicine later," Fang Yuenian said without looking at him. "Is your husband's condition not serious?"

“Okay,” Meng Xiaoyang quickly said, “You go first to wash, I’m fine, is your injury alright?”

“It’s nothing,” Fang Yuenian shook her head, but before entering the bathroom, she couldn’t help but say, “Hey, don’t be like this, I didn’t say anything to you.”

Meng Xiaoyang stopped abruptly as she reached for the empty kettle for the third time, staring blankly at him. "Oh, okay."

By the time Meng Xiaoyang finished showering, Fang Yuenian had already applied the medicine to her face.

Seeing him come out, they asked, "Did you go to the infirmary?"

"I went there, and the school doctor cleaned the wound and said I didn't need to apply any medicine. I'll just put a band-aid on it later."

“Oh,” Fang Yuenian nodded, “Let’s go eat then, or the cafeteria will run out of food.”

“Wait,” Meng Xiaoyang said, “I am Fang Yuenian, and I have something to tell you.”

Fang Yuenian paused for a moment. Actually, he hadn't thought about how to ask, or whether to not ask at all. Now that Meng Xiaoyang wanted to speak, he nodded and said, "Okay, go ahead."

Meng Xiaoyang had probably finished mentally preparing himself in the bathroom, so he didn't hesitate. He looked at Fang Yuenian and whispered, "I want to apologize to you first. After I met He Linjie last time, I didn't tell you the whole truth."

Fang Yuenian said, "You have no obligation to tell me. This is your own business. Whether you tell me or not is your freedom."

Meng Xiaoyang gave a wry smile: "But now, I feel it's necessary to tell you, and I want to tell you too."

"Okay, I'm listening." Fang Yuenian sat down, pretending to listen patiently.

Meng Xiaoyang took a deep breath and said, "The reason I broke off my friendship with He Linjie was because I confessed my feelings to him back then."

Fang Yuenian's eyes glazed over for a moment.

...

He Linjie only said half of what he wanted to say, but he had already guessed the other half. He didn't know why, but he refused to think about it and accept the process. It went exceptionally smoothly under those circumstances, but this "confession" still dealt a heavy blow to his original mental preparation.

"Confess?" He frowned, looking troubled. "You, you really," he said, finding it hard to speak, "do you like this gender, or do you like him as a person? Is it possible that you're confused? You might be quite dependent on him and like him quite a bit, but that might not be your true sexual orientation."

Meng Xiaoyang was stunned by what he said again. After a long while, she stammered and said nervously, "You, you don't think it's disgusting?"

The faint expectation in his eyes did not escape Fang Yuenian's notice. Fang Yuenian coughed and said, "Well, anyway, I think, let's just leave it at that. I'm not that ignorant. This isn't the first time you've done something like this. He Linjie really hasn't seen the world. Don't change the subject. Did you even hear what I just said? You're really innocent."

Meng Xiaoyang was stunned, and the next moment, a sunflower suddenly burst into his eyes.

Fang Yuenian couldn't stand being stared at like that, "What are you doing?"

“I know what you mean. He Linjie and I used to be very close. He always treated me as his best friend and brother. You mean that I got stuck in a rut because of this and might not like other guys anymore, right? I'm not that ignorant. I can tell the difference.”

Fang Yuenian's expression changed slightly; she was starting to admire this person.

"You mean you'll like other people too?"

"So what if it is?" Meng Xiaoyang couldn't help but smile.

Fang Yuenian stood up: "It's nothing. You can like whoever you want, just don't like me."

Meng Xiaoyang's eyes welled up with tears, but she quickly masked them with a smile. "Okay, don't worry, I won't try anything with you."

"That's good."

Fang Yuenian wanted to laugh too, but after a pause, she said, "Let me ask you, since He Linjie is your friend, it's one thing if he doesn't like you after you confessed your feelings to him, but why is he treating you like this? Is he that homophobic?"

Meng Xiaoyang was silent for a while, then said, "He said I betrayed him."

Fang Yuenian couldn't quite make sense of He Linjie's thought process. "Betrayal?"

"Yeah, betrayal. It's like, we could have always been good friends, but I had to make things... so disgusting."

Fang Yuenian opened her mouth, "Ah."

“Wait, I still don’t understand,” he raised his hand. “He said you betrayed him, that’s why he’s so angry. Didn’t you have any new friends before me? If you did, would he rush up to each and every one of them and expose this? What for? Is he so noble, afraid that others will be ‘disgusted’ by you like he is? If he’s so right, why did he take the initiative to apologize in front of the teacher?”

Meng Xiaoyang shifted his gaze to the center of the table, and after a long while, slowly spoke: "He didn't want others to know about this. He hadn't told anyone before today. The reason he told you is because he felt that you were my new target."

Fang Yuenian was finally stunned.

This series of events tested his resilience more and more than ever.

Meng Xiaoyang quickly looked at him and said, "But I really consider you a good friend, I have no other thoughts, really."

Fang Yuenian: "Good, good, that's great."

Meng Xiaoyang was initially bewildered, then burst out laughing.

"Alright, stop laughing," Fang Yuenian's ears were burning, so she decided to speak her mind. "I'm asking you, do you still like He Linjie?"

Meng Xiaoyang smiled, shook his head, and said seriously, "I will never like someone who disrespects me again."

Wow, this sentence seems to make a lot of sense and is even quite manly, how come?

Pah, pah, pah, he's a... man my ass!

"Then let's not talk about this person anymore. Anyway, we've already fought, and I'm still worried about how to explain this to Cheng Bing." Fang Yuenian finally remembered her own business.

Meng Xiaoyang was puzzled: "What should we tell him?"

"You don't know, I promised him a long time ago that I wouldn't fight casually."

Meng Xiaoyang seemed to understand but not quite, "Then, you explain it to him."

Fang Yuenian said, "Okay, I'll go find him tonight."

Meng Xiaoyang added, "You can tell him about my situation."

Fang Yue Nian was shocked: "Damn, you're just going to go around saying this? I advise you to be a little more discreet. He Linjie isn't the only homophobic person."

Meng Xiaoyang smiled and said, "I know you reminded Cheng Bing to keep it a secret for me. You fought for me, how could I let you have an unclear explanation? It's okay."

Fang Yuenian: "...I admire you."

He received too much bombardment of information today, and his brain wasn't quite processing it, so he deliberately ordered an extra dish at dinner.

Under the cover of darkness, he crept over and knocked on the door of dormitory 401.