Chapter 38: Jun Xin Chui (5) Did Yan Huinan cry in front of her? ...

Xie Yun replied indifferently: "When did I..."

When did she stop wanting to live?

Yan Huinan: "You really don't want to have any contact with me, right? Even in this way?"

Xie Yun's words were particularly harsh. She looked directly into Yan Huinan's eyes, without a trace of fear or reluctance, only determination: "Yes, I don't want to have any contact with you, even in the slightest."

After she finished speaking, she paused briefly, then continued, full of cruelty: "But the General has misunderstood me a little. I value my life very much, and I will not sacrifice myself for you. Because there is no need."

As soon as he finished speaking, Yan Huinan felt as if something was disconnected in his heart.

Xie Yun: "Similarly, we won't have children. I don't want my child to be born into hatred. Let's just consider it a good deed and let all the grudges end here, between us."

"General, are you done asking questions? If you are, I need to take my medicine."

Yan Huinan forcefully pulled Xie Yun into his arms and bit her lips without a word. He forcefully deprived her of her breath and warmth, pushing her down onto the bed.

Anger and pain demanded from her.

This time Xie Yun did not shed tears, but her fingertips touched the wet water.

Just when she thought Yan Huinan was going to have sex with her as brutally as before, he let her go and said to her, "Xie Yun, you are so cruel."

Xie Yun raised her hand blankly. The setting sun shone through the window lattice onto her fingertips, a layer of crystal water. She rubbed her fingertips together and found them moist.

Those were not her tears.

So, those were Yan Huinan's tears, right?

Has he ever... cried in front of Xie Yun before?

Maybe, maybe not. Her mind was a blur, she had forgotten. She first lay exhausted on the edge of the bed, then curled up in a ball, until the sun set, until night fell, until an owl hooted onto the tree branch in the dead of night.

How could she not be afraid? She was afraid too.

She was afraid that she would not be able to give birth to her own child in the future. She was also struggling with pain.

-

The days of recuperation were not easy. Xie Yun had always been an optimistic and cheerful person. When he was young, he loved playing with others. Later, when he grew up, he always liked to find new things to learn and things to do.

But he has been recuperating from illness recently, and both his medical skills and craftsmanship have become much less sophisticated, and he is always feeling depressed.

The next day, she was able to walk. She was actually weak from the blood loss, and walking around afterwards would help her recover.

After Han Zhen finished combing Xie Yun's hair, he unexpectedly found a box of incense in an inconspicuous corner of the table.

She picked it up and smelled it, "Madam, is this the incense you carry with you?"

Xie Yun took it with a puzzled look. It was a box of lychee ointment. The ointment was warm and had a light fragrance. The box it came in was exquisitely crafted and small and delicate.

She guessed who had put it there. He was the only one who knew that she liked this scent.

"yes."

"Then I will use this for Madam today!" Although Han Zhen didn't remember when Madam had this incense, since Madam said yes, she didn't ask any more questions.

That morning, when Prince Rui heard Xie Yun was ill, the child even came to visit. He had become quite familiar with Little Coal Ball, and Xie Yun was still asleep when he came. When Xie Yun woke up, she saw Prince Rui, serious and focused like a little adult, holding Little Coal Ball in his arms, a book open on the table, and they, the dog, reading intently.

Meiqiu groaned, and Prince Rui immediately pinched his dog's mouth with a serious look, not wanting him to bark and disturb Xie Yun.

Xie Yun was surprised that Prince Rui didn't pester Yan Huinan to practice martial arts, but instead stayed with her obediently.

She asked with a smile, her voice a little weak: "Your Highness Prince Rui, what are you looking at?"

When Prince Rui heard the voice, his serious little face almost wrinkled into a ball. He came over and touched Xie Yun's head with concern, as if to check if she had a fever.

Xie Yun thought he was adorable. "Your Highness, I don't have a fever. You won't be able to find out anything like this."

Prince Rui understood and nodded. He handed the book to Xie Yun to read.

Oh! It turns out to be a collection of strange stories... The title is "Xijing Guaitan"

Sure enough, he won't study hard!

But when Prince Rui saw that Xie Yun had woken up and was not seriously injured, he placed the book beside Xie Yun's pillow in a serious manner and turned to leave.

Xie Yun didn't understand what he meant, "Your Highness, your book!"

Han Zhen had just brought in the tea and was about to replace the pot for Prince Rui when he saw the man leave. Han Zhen said to Xie Yun, "Eunuch Zhou said that His Highness came today, firstly to visit, and secondly to bring this book to Madam to cheer her up. This seems to be a book His Highness really likes."

Xie Yun smiled and picked it up to look through it, "It's really cute."

It's just that His Royal Highness Prince Rui never speaks, so communicating with others is a problem. If there's a chance in the future, she can try to teach him sign language.

After noon, Xie Yun came back from a walk and was taking medicine when Yan Yiling brought an unexpected person to visit Xie Yun.

Yan Yiling walked in with the man familiarly. "Madam General, I heard you were sick again. You don't look like the heroic figure at the archery range that day. You look like a sickly person! Let me see if you're feeling better."

Xie Yun drank the bitter medicine in one gulp. Drinking hot medicine in the summer made her sweat all over.

She looked up and saw the person behind Yan Yiling. He looked very familiar. She wondered who he was and answered absentmindedly, "It's not as empty as you say... I'm much better now."

Who is this person?

"Xie Yun, how are you?" The man took the initiative to greet her.

Yan Yiling hurriedly introduced Xie Yun, "Madam General, this is my aunt's cousin, Liu Shijun. She's been staying at my house for a while recently. She said you know each other! I heard you were sick, so I wanted to come see you, and she came along."

After saying this, Yan Yiling muttered to herself again, "Yeah, I'm so stupid! You two live in the same capital, so of course you know each other!"

As soon as the name was mentioned, Xie Yun matched the face with the name.

When she saved Princess Heqing's cat on her father's birthday, Liu Shijun was the one whose face was scratched by the cat. She was also the one Xie Shaohua found an excuse to abandon her on Suzaku Street.

She had not had many interactions with Liu Shijun in the past and did not have a deep impression of this person, but the few interactions they had were all bad memories.

Xie Yun only remembered that Liu Shijun, like the other girls in the capital, seemed to be attracted to Yan Huinan. At that time, Xie Yun was only eight or nine years old. How could she understand the thoughts of these young girls who were already beginning to fall in love? She didn't even pay attention.

However, Liu Shijun relied on her father's high official rank and always tried to suppress other noble ladies. Even when it came to her love for Yan Huinan, she was not willing to be outdone. In order to attract Yan Huinan, she used all means possible.

But she didn't expect that she and Yan Yiling were cousins.

Xie Yun responded politely, "Ms. Liu, it's indeed been a long time since we last met."

Liu Shijun was still arrogant, and sneered lightly: "It seems that you are not doing well. I feel sorry for you."

What Xie Yun didn't expect was that the Queen asked Liu Shijun to accompany her to the Taishan sacrificial ceremony the next day.

-

The next day, before daybreak, the sky was a dark blue, like the deep sea. When Yan Huinan emerged from his room, the courtyard was ablaze with flames, and soldiers and horses were already waiting outside to depart for patrol.

In late summer and early autumn, the wind at Yinshi in Fenggao County was already chilly, and the morning dew quietly condensed and fell.

However, the people who came to help Yan Huinan change clothes and wash up this morning were replaced by a group of young and beautiful people. Yan Huinan was very strict with the people who served him, and ordinary people were not allowed to get close to him easily.

One of the women was holding clothes and was about to help Yan Huinan change, but Yan Huinan's face changed immediately. He didn't even want the clothes that the woman had touched. He asked the old maid he was used to using to get him a clean set of clothes, which he put on himself.

He took a sip of the freshly brewed tea and asked, "Who asked you to come in and serve me?"

Several young women sensed the general's displeasure and quickly knelt down to explain, "Eunuch Fang brought us here yesterday, and we only came to serve the general with the madam's approval."

Got the lady's approval?

Thank you Yun!

Yan Huinan was so angry that he threw the teacup in his hand away. The porcelain broke on the ground with a terrifying crisp sound. The people kneeling on the ground quickly knocked their heads to the ground and begged for mercy.

"Get out of here!"

Si Wen also came in at this time and faced the person who ran out crying in fear.

Yan Huinan: "Do you know about this?"

Si Wen had been working alongside Yan Huinan all day yesterday and was unaware of the situation. But just as he hurried over, the eunuch in charge of all matters in the courtyard grabbed Si Wen and told him about it.

"I just found out about this as well."

"She did a great job." Yan Huinan laughed in anger, his heart filled with bitterness, "She knows how to make things difficult for me."

Now, the only person who can make Yan Huinan feel humiliated and angry but cannot really kill her is Xie Yun.

"Madam, you must have heard something in the Queen's Palace that day. These people are the same ones that Eunuch Zhao sent last time." Si Wen persuaded.

Yan Huinan didn't even glance over, picked up his sword, and walked out. As he mounted his horse, the lights in the courtyard went out. In the last moment, Yan Huinan took a deep look at Xie Yun's courtyard, and when he looked back, a layer of frost appeared in his eyes: "Let's go!"

The patrols involved searching every road, village, or town within a radius of one hundred miles, centered on the altar, to prevent any unforeseen incidents. This process lasted from the hour of Yin until nearly noon, just before the ceremony began.

On the way back to Fenggao, Yan Huinan had just severely punished a group of soldiers who neglected their duties. After being beaten with eighty military sticks, they were expelled from the army and were never allowed to join the army again.

Yan Huinan has always been strict in disciplining his troops, which is also normal military discipline and regulations, but Yu Xian, who was standing by, could still clearly feel that Yan Huinan was in an unusually bad mood today.

Yu Xian knew without even thinking that the only person who could make Yan Huinan care so much and make him so angry that he had no place to vent was that person.

Yu Xian asked: "What's wrong? Did you get humiliated by Xie Yun? I advised you a long time ago..."

Yan Huinan: "The Minister of the Supreme Court should think carefully about whether you should cry or laugh at having a new nephew. Have you figured out how to deal with the mess in your Yu family?"

This sentence really hit the nail on the head. He was indeed in a dilemma. He and Yan Huinan were really like the pot calling the kettle black.

If they really come to a fuss, Yan Huinan is more open-minded than him.