Chapter 65: Sad Painting Fan (5) Have you ever thought that this child is also...

After more than a dozen military doctors worked tirelessly for a whole day and night, they finally brought Yan Huinan back from the brink of death.

Yu Xian felt more anxious than ever before. In fact, even for years, he had never considered Yan Huinan's death. It had never crossed his mind, as if he subconsciously considered Yan Huinan a god of war, and gods of war could not die.

The God of War will always stand in front of the Great Zhou like a guardian god, building an indestructible wall for the Great Zhou.

Even when he was suddenly ambushed by Prince Yu in the capital, the first person Yu Xian thought of was Yan Huinan. As long as he could find Yan Huinan, he and Yan Huinan together would surely be able to resolve the current predicament and eliminate the immediate disaster.

But he overlooked that Yan Huinan was also a human being.

From the moment Yan Huinan snatched the sword from his waist, he remembered that the God of War could also die and fall into despair.

Only then did I remember how Yan Huinan had come to where he is today, step by step.

He, too, had grown from a kindhearted, high-spirited, and frivolous young man to the man he is today. Everyone's life experiences are a treasure, but no one's journey was more difficult than Yan Huinan's.

"God, have mercy on Yan Huinan, or on Xie Yun and his child. Please don't let Yan Huinan die..." Lu Lingyu rarely prayed to the gods; she didn't believe in fate, only in people. But as she held the baby in her arms, who had just cried, her eyes still stained with tears, her thick, black eyelashes glistening with tears, this thought flashed through her mind for the first time.

Over the years, she had seen the fickleness of human nature in the Imperial City, but she believed Yan Huinan was not an unforgivable sinner. He felt guilty towards Xie Yun, but he was still a filial son and a loyal and courageous man.

This child already has no mother. If he loses his father as well...

Could it be another Yan Huinan? Then, who would he turn to for revenge?

Maybe it was a response from heaven, or maybe it was heaven's will for Yan to return to the south.

At that time, his sword was held back by Si Wen and Yu Xian, and it didn't penetrate deep into his body, so no vital organs were injured. However, his body was now covered with wounds.

After saving his life, three days passed before Yan Huinan woke up from his coma.

Upon waking, Yan Huinan's consciousness wasn't initially clear. He couldn't even remember what year it was, only feeling excruciating pain all over his body. It wasn't until a group of people gradually gathered around his bed and a military doctor examined him that Yan Huinan finally came to terms with the reality before him.

He is still living in this hopeless world.

The physical pain was ultimately no match for the endless flood of memories, and he remembered everything that had happened before.

When he was alive, countless people wanted him dead, but now he was about to die, but he couldn't. God was always against him.

He closed his eyes helplessly and bitterly, and before him was darkness, and in the darkness was a burning red. That was his vibrant life, but it also reminded him of the fire that filled the sky that night.

He personally killed Xie Yun.

Self-blame and regret flowed through his body like blood. Every breath he took was a strong backlash on him. How could he deserve to live?

At this moment, he could not hear any sound, he had completely locked himself in. All his thoughts were living in the past, living in that silent moment, the moment when he looked at the burned mountain in the distance with fear.

Until a sharp cry entered his ears.

"Wow! Wow!"

Then, someone sighed, his voice restraining sadness and anger, and asked him: "Yan Huinan, do you want to open your eyes and take a look at your son?"

The crying baby was brought to Yan Huinan's side, and his crying became even louder.

This crisp sound broke through the thick black fog, and the world in Yan Huinan's mind suddenly became clear.

He slowly opened his eyes and looked at the child placed next to him expressionlessly.

"Xie Yun hasn't had time to name him yet." Lu Lingyu said, "You are the father, you should give this child a good name." Lu Lingyu didn't say the rest.

Give him a good name, a resounding name, and then he will never have to live the hard life like his parents.

It wasn't until Lu Lingyu mentioned Xie Yun's name that Yan Huinan's heart was completely pulled back. Xie Yun...

His Xie Yun...

Never coming back.

The child cried for a long time, and the noise was so loud that it was almost unbearable in Yan Huinan's ears. It seemed as if the child's internal organs were about to be broken by crying. Only then did Yan Huinan's heart relax slightly, and he frowned.

He struggled to prop up half of his body, with his black hair hanging down. He bent his fingers and gently rubbed the baby's round face.

His whole face was red from crying, and it was wrinkled so ugly that he looked like an ugly monkey.

As soon as Yan Huinan's warm fingers touched the little baby, he stopped crying immediately as if he had discovered something new and interesting. His two big eyes, full of tears, stared at Yan Huinan in curiosity.

Yan Huinan's hands were big enough to cover the baby's entire face. He raised his thumb and wiped away the baby's tears.

In fact, the child had grown much bigger than when he was first born, and his skin was not as dark. Although the journey was difficult and dangerous, Lu Lingyu and Yu Xian protected the child very well, and he even grew a lot whiter and plumper.

However, when Yan Huinan looked at the child, there was still a look of numbness and indifference in his eyes.

"This is your and Xie Yun's child." Yu Xian said from the side, "It was almost killed by Prince Yu."

Prince Yu...

Before Yan Huinan returned, he was too sad to think about many things. When despair filled his body, all he could think about was his guilt towards Xie Yun.

Only when he died could he forgive himself.

If Xie Yun is gone, then all the grudges will be meaningless.

So Yan Huinan remained unmoved by what Yu Xian said.

"I don't want children, I only want Xie Yun." Yan Huinan didn't speak for a long time, his voice was dry and hoarse, and he spoke so softly that Yu Xian couldn't hear it. He had to get closer to hear it.

"If I strangle this child to death, can you return Xie Yun to me?"

Yu Xian heard this and looked in disbelief at the man he had grown up with. In his childhood, he had clearly distinguished between love and hate, his emotions clearly expressed on his face. Later, he was brave and fearless, with a cruel heart and ruthless hands, but he was also a person of flesh and blood, and his heart beat passionately.

His heart seemed dead now, and he actually said such words.

Before he could raise his hand, Lu Lingyu behind him took a step forward and slapped Yan Huinan in the face.

Yan Huinan was slapped in the face, and he just smiled hopelessly and silently. He slowly looked at Lu Lingyu, with no anger or shame in his eyes. He was like a pool of stagnant water, without any waves or ripples. All the winds blowing past him could not create any ripples on him.

"This slap is for Xie Yun." Lu Lingyu didn't expect Yan Huinan to say such a mean and inhumane thing. "Are you crazy? How dare you say such a thing?"

"It's my fault... I forced her to keep the child. She hated me to death. She hated me until her death..." Yan Huinan said these words absentmindedly, his voice very low, like a whisper, "She didn't want this child in the first place. It's all my fault."

He doesn't care about the child that Xie Yun doesn't like.

If it weren't for this child, Xie Yun might have been able to go wherever she wanted to go, and might not have been implicated by him.

The person who deserves to die the most is actually... himself.

Lu Lingyu cautiously brought the child back. The loud slap she had just given him had frightened him and made him cry again. She had to soothe him gently, and it took a long time before he finally calmed down. "How do you know Xie Yun doesn't like this child?"

"You're being unfair to Xie Yun. You owe her your whole life. You owe her two lives. You know the first life yourself," Lu Lingyu raged. "But do you know that childbirth is a journey through the gates of hell for a woman? She endured ten months of agonizing pregnancy, experiencing discomfort and vomiting, insufficient energy and blood, pain even when sitting or lying down, and swelling. Her frail body had to nurture a child weighing seven pounds. Her figure was completely out of shape, and her face was haggard. The hardest and most dangerous part was the final delivery. Xie Yun persevered through all of this, so what right do you have to say she doesn't love this child? How can you even say you want to strangle this child?!"

"Have you ever considered that this child also represents Xie Yun's life?" Lu Lingyu, unable to contain her anger any longer, shouted, "She risked her life to give birth to this child, and now you want to kill her again."

Lu Lingyu's voice was deafening. Her words were like a slap in the face of Yan Huinan, and also a heavy blow to his heart.

He didn't know this...

If he knew this, he would never have the heart to force Xie Yun to keep the child.

Xie Yun is also his life...

Lu Lingyu: "You are the closest person to this child in this world. How could you have the heart to strangle him to death? And how could you be willing to give the child that Xie Yun had worked so hard to give birth to someone else?"

"Yan Huinan, I don't care how desperate you are, or how much you want to die. I don't care how much you deserve to die, but as long as Xie Yun's child is still alive, you must not die." Lu Lingyu frowned deeply. "You have to lead us back to the capital. After all, besides you, there are still people alive who killed Xie Yun."

Lu Lingyu's words completely awakened Yan Huinan.

He and Xie Yun have a child, and he can't give up this child. This child is also Xie Yun's flesh and blood...

Yan Huinan knew that his crime was unforgivable, but he still wanted to keep his life and take good care of the child Xie Yun left him.

And, as Lu Lingyu said.

He still has a lot of things to do, and he will not let anyone who harmed Xie Yun go.

This time, Yan Huinan hesitated because of his ridiculous words, and finally said to Lu Lingyu, "Let me see him."

I miss her very much.

This child was Xie Yun's only relic of him. It was also the only thing she left him. At this moment, nothing else could rekindle Yan Hui's hope of returning to Nansheng.

There is only this child, only this legacy of Xie Yun.

The ice in Yan Huinan's heart completely melted the moment he hugged his child.

Live on in pain yet full of hope, Yan Huinan. There are still many things that need to be resolved by you personally, he thought silently.

When Yu Xian once again looked at Yan Huinan, a fierce look reappeared in the latter's eyes. Yu Xian knew that they would definitely return to the capital and put an end to everything.

At the same time, a figure outside the tent fell to the ground in fright.

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Yu Xian: "During the days you were unconscious, the Great Prince of Liang sent someone to tell you that Xie Qingyun was a great gift from him. He hoped you could help him make a comeback and promised that if he ascended the throne, Daliang would become a vassal state of the Great Zhou and pay tribute every year. Daliang still didn't know about your suicide."

"We can't confront the Liang army head-on right now, or that would be exactly what Prince Yu wants to see. He already controls the capital, waiting for you to return with your defeated troops so he can reap the benefits and decapitate you. Furthermore, he's already spread the news of your death throughout the country, so even if he kills you, no one will suspect anything. And as a brother of the late emperor and his own tutor, he can use the emperor to control the other princes."

Although Yan Huinan didn't know why Prince Yu, who had always treated him so well, would do this, he believed that everything would be revealed once he returned to the capital. And judging by the current situation, one thing was clear.

Prince Yu's ambition is outrageous.

Perhaps it was because Yan Huinan had always respected him like a father for so many years, so he didn't let him see how Yan Huinan looked when facing his enemies.

He raised his eyes indifferently, "What if he doesn't want to use the emperor to control the princes, but instead wants to completely eliminate us and ascend the throne himself?"

A young emperor can be destroyed by just a cold.

Yan Huinan suppressed a few coughs, and Yan Lang, who was sleeping in the crib next to his desk, began to whimper a few times, as if he was about to cry because he couldn't sleep well. He quickly reached out and patted the child, and after a while, Yan Lang fell asleep again.

Yan Huinan had no choice but to lower his voice again, "Tell Lou Tan that I will help him. Let him keep Lou Cheng busy for a while. We will leave for Beijing in three days."

Yu Xian also agreed with Yan Huinan's approach: "Lou Tan is much easier to deal with than Lou Cheng. If he ascends the throne, Daliang will not be afraid..."

But Yan Huinan said disdainfully: "I won't help him ascend the throne. It's just that I don't have the time to deal with him right now."

Yu Xian understood instantly. Yan Huinan would not let any of those who had contributed to this outcome go unpunished.

After all, the first person he didn't let go was himself.

Then the latter ones are not worth mentioning.

He will settle accounts with these people one by one.

But this was Yan Huinan, the fierce, flesh-and-blood Yan Huinan.

After Yu Xian left, the military doctor came to apply medicine to Yan Huinan as usual. After the change of medicine, Yan Huinan was covered in the pungent smell of medicine. He asked Lu Lingyu to look after the child.

He was afraid that the unpleasant smell on his body would bother the child, so he went outside alone.

The passing wind blew past him. Yan Huinan closed his eyes and felt the breeze, thinking sadly: May the smell of medicine on me blow away soon. May his sins also blow away soon. If I can't raise Yan Lang cleanly, at least let him kill all his enemies and raise Yan Lang safely.

Now, he has one more thing to do.

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In the center of the camp, the dying Song Hongxuan was tied to the middle pillar.

He changed his original battle robe into a coarse cloth shirt, but now the coarse cloth shirt has become dirty and ragged, and is covered with wounds.

At Song Hongxuan's feet stood a pile of firewood, surrounded by soldiers who had fought alongside Yan Huinan for years. Their faces were illuminated by the firelight from the camp, their eyes revealing neither hesitation nor fear. Instead, they held a fierce resolve to follow Yan Huinan to the bitter end.

Yan Huinan walked up to Song Hongxuan calmly.

The moment Song Hongxuan raised his eyes and saw Yan Huinan, his originally haggard face suddenly became filled with fear, and every inch of his skin was filled with fear.

"Yan Huinan! We are blood relatives! I am still the Son of Heaven! You can't do this to me."

Yan Huinan completely ignored his words.

In fact, Yan Huinan had been thinking since Lu Lingyu slapped him awake. There was something he couldn't figure out.

Xie Qingyun originally kept Xie Yun to use her as a pawn. Perhaps he only wanted to rely on Xie Yun to win over Lou Cheng. But how could he suddenly have a change of heart?

If what happened back then was also related to Prince Yu, then perhaps Prince Yu is still working with Xie Qingyun now.

Based on this inference, if Prince Yu gave Xie Yun to Xie Qingyun, Xie Qingyun would definitely make good use of her.

At least they would send someone to negotiate with him.

But Yan Huinan did not receive any news at all.

If this is the case, Prince Yu's move is a useless one.

But as ruthless and vicious as Xie Qingyun was, he would never give up Xie Yun, a chess piece that was in his favor. Even a tiger wouldn't eat its own cubs, but Xie Qingyun was different. Although they hadn't truly fought each other for many years, Yan Huinan knew Xie Qingyun better than anyone else.

"Blinded by greed" is not enough to describe him. But all the most vicious and evil words in the world can be used to describe him.

For this reason, a few days before Yan Huinan returned, he sent Si Wen to investigate the matter in the army.

Until Si Wen came to report that Song Hongxuan was missing. It was as if he had evaporated.

But Yan Huinan quickly figured everything out. As he was leaving the Jinzhou Garrison, someone saw the Liang envoy enter the city and the garrison. Although the contents of the letter had been destroyed, the army was full of men loyal to Yan Huinan, and Yan Huinan could easily find out that Song Hongxuan had intercepted the letter.

Yan Huinan's eyes, which had just been cold, had gradually been filled with anger and hatred. He hated Song Hongxuan so much.

If he had seen Xie Qingyun's letter, he would definitely not have ordered the mountain to be set on fire.

Yan Huinan took two steps at a time and walked up to Song Hongxuan. He kicked him painfully in the abdomen and said to him through gritted teeth, "I warned you long ago, don't touch Xie Yun."

In the past, Song Hongxuan had troubled Xie Yun, and he hadn't stopped him. It was his fault. He was guilty.

But now, Yan Huinan paid the price for his stupidity with blood.

He lost Xie Yun forever and completely.

Song Hongxuan was kicked hard in the abdomen. His face was twisted in pain. He suppressed the urge to vomit and gasped, "Yan Huinan... You have no right to hate me. If it weren't for me... You couldn't have killed Xie Qingyun."

"I knew from the beginning that you had not given up on Xie Yun. But I thought you would be rational, but from the moment you risked your life to save Xie Yun, you were no longer the Yan Huinan who rushed into the imperial city covered in blood." As Song Hongxuan spoke, he thought of the early days, how he and Yan Huinan, his cousin who was closer to him than his brothers, swore to kill their enemies with blood and restore the Great Zhou.

They worked together to forge ahead and overcome difficulties, and finally brought the precarious Great Zhou to where it is today.

At that time, Yan Huinan's country was destroyed and his family was ruined, but Yan Huinan was not the only one whose country was destroyed and his family was ruined.

Him too.

When the country was in danger, he was pushed to the throne. The court was corrupt, with internal and external troubles. Soon after Song Hongxuan ascended the throne, the border of the Great Zhou was attacked from both sides, and the enemy soon attacked the imperial city.

At that time, Yan Huinan, covered in blood, fought his way out for them.

Because of this day, Song Hongxuan will remember Yan Huinan for the rest of his life.

It is said that emperors are ruthless. Born into an imperial family, Song Hongxuan has never experienced the love of brothers. When the country was in danger, his brothers retreated into hiding, and no one came to help.

Only Yan returned south.

Yan Huinan's achievements surpassed his master's, so he accepted it.

Afterwards, he and Yan Huinan, one a civil official and the other a military official. One was good at scheming and gradually became a cold-blooded emperor who played the game of emperor; the other became a god of war who protected the country and the people and was feared by everyone.

Song Hongxuan thought that he and Yan Huinan would gradually regain everything they had lost and continue the glory of their fathers.

But Xie Yun's appearance ruined everything.

Song Hongxuan had long expected that as long as Xie Yun was around, Yan Huinan would eventually soften his heart.

People who are soft-hearted will eventually fail miserably.

But it all happened, no matter how he tried to stop it, it all happened inevitably.

Even though Xie Qingyun was right in front of him, Song Hongxuan was unwilling to let it end like this. He was unwilling to let Xie Qingyun go.

So his first thought when he saw the letter was not to let Yan Huinan see it.

When the flames shot up into the sky, Yan Huinan was not the only one who felt deeply moved.

If it weren't for Xie Qingyun, Song Hongxuan's country wouldn't have been so defeated. He wouldn't have nearly lost his life.

"If you didn't kill Xie Qingyun for Xie Yun, how could you be worthy of your aunt's spirit in heaven?!" Song Hongxuan's eyes were moist. "You can't do this to me. In this world, I am your only relative! I am the only one who treats you sincerely! Xie Yun, whom you care so much about, has never even looked at you..."

"Enough!" Yan Huinan roared, "If it weren't for mother, I would have watched you die."

He hated the late emperor and the royal family.

But that was his mother's home, where his mother's soul rested.

Even if the late emperor listened to slander and killed his father.

Yan Huinan finally saved Song Hongxuan.

He has done his best and will not tolerate any more in the future.

He wanted Song Hongxuan to experience the same pain that Xie Yun had experienced.

Yan Huinan turned around and ordered, "Light the fire."

Soon, the firewood behind him crackled and burned, and the scorching air flowed behind Yan Huinan. Then came Song Hongxuan's screams of agony, which were even more persistent, sharp, and painful than the screams Yan Huinan had heard when he killed people with a sword.

But when I think of Xie Yun being like this...

Yan Huinan's heart tightened again. Amid the strong smell of burning, Yan Huinan coughed violently from his wound, and tears came out of his eyes.

Si Wen rushed over to support Yan Huinan, who was about to fall down due to the pain of his wound.

But Yan Huinan pushed him away. He squatted down while coughing, raised his hand to cover his mouth and continued to cough violently. In the end, his hands were covered with blood and tears.

The screams from behind were endless.

Yan Huinan wanted to jump into the sea of ​​fire to atone for the harm he had caused to Xie Yun.

But he still has Yan Lang, and he is still so young.

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The author has something to say: I'm late~ Yan Zi has a lot of things to do now, and he will meet Xie Yun baby after finishing these things~ Don't worry. Also, this article is actually still about emotions. My political tactics are terrible, so please don't scold me, readers.

I don’t know if you will feel tired watching these scenes all the time, but I feel that if Yan Zi did not do these things, and if Yan Zi’s atonement was not written about, he would actually not be able to forgive himself in the first place. These plots are still quite important.

There's another point I'm not sure if you can grasp, but I left it blank, but I still wanted to bring it up. Yan Zi wasn't deliberately unaware of the fact that women give birth. He actually had no idea at first, and the people around him didn't dare tell him. They also thought his wife's pregnancy was a good thing, so they wouldn't tell him.

But why didn't Yan Zi have any idea? Because his mother died early... If the eldest princess was still alive, when Yan Zi was old enough to get married, she would definitely teach Yan Zi how to love his wife and tell him that being a woman is not easy, and giving birth is even harder. But Yan Zi's mother didn't have the chance to tell him these things...

This is a rare chapter of mine, hehe, although it's two days late (sigh, because I'm really busy with work, I'll try to save the full text for the next book and then meet you all), and the preface is also quite long, I hope you guys won't bother me. After writing so many words, I occasionally want to express my feelings a little.

I'll give out red envelopes to everyone who comments on this chapter!!! Red envelopes!!! Everyone, take a look! Red envelopes!!!