Chapter 17 Dream I know that is not my moon.

Later, she put the Polaroid photo in her diary, and wrote next to it: "I know that is not my moon, but for a moment, the moonlight did shine on me."[1]

The photos eventually faded, but the youth in the memories remains evergreen.

Wen Xin noticed that Bo Xia seemed very happy. She leaned over to look at the photo and saw some clues. However, those thoughts quickly dissipated from her mind and she didn't care. "I'm so tired today. Do you want to go out for dinner later?"

Everyone said it was good.

When they left, they went to other stalls and bought milk tea and other food made by their classmates.

“This milk tea is quite delicious.”

Bo Xia nodded.

Wen Xin smiled and said it would be nice if there were activities every day and they could eat delicious food. Zhou Suiye said, "You're dreaming before it even gets dark."

The weather in November was a bit cold, and the golden ginkgo leaves on both sides of the road swayed in the wind, making a slight sound.

A few people chose a roadside restaurant to eat. The others just sat down because they thought the environment was nice, with only two exceptions who were taking out tissues to wipe the table.

Seeing the gaze fall on herself and Jin Yunyan, Bo Xia paused, as if it was just a coincidence and she was afraid of being noticed. She wiped it twice and sat down directly, then changed the subject: "What are you eating?"

"Hot and sour noodles, I haven't had it for a long time."

Several people sat together at the table, making the originally quiet restaurant suddenly lively. Wen Xin couldn't help but review today's sales and said, "I didn't expect the twisting sticks we made to be so popular. It's a pity that we're not allowed to set up stalls in school during Christmas, otherwise I would have made a lot of money."

Zhou Suiye expressed his admiration: "With your academic acumen, you would have been admitted to Tsinghua University a long time ago."

"Who are you looking down on? I'm just not interested in studying. Look, I didn't study hard, but I'm still in the same class as you guys."

Zhou Suiye said she could go into business in the future, and somehow the conversation turned to the career she wanted to pursue in the future. Bo Xia lowered her eyes. She didn't have a clear career goal yet. It was just that she was young and simple-minded at that time, and she didn't know what the future would be like. She just imagined that the future would be like in "Du Lala's Promotion Diary" -

Wearing bright and beautiful clothes to work in the office building, you will be promoted and shine in the workplace.

“Maybe I’ll study physics someday.”

Hearing Zhou Suiye say this, Wen Xin called him a pervert, saying only a pervert would study such a perverted subject.

In fact, no one has a very clear goal. They only talk about the general direction. But even so, they are so ignorant that they feel that the future has infinite possibilities.

Amidst the uncertain voices, someone suddenly said, "I want to be a doctor."

Even after many years, Bo Xia still remembered Meng Roujin's determined look that day. She didn't say "maybe" or "probably", but was so certain that that was her future direction.

For the first time, Bo Xia discovered that people with dreams can shine.

She asked Meng Roujin, "Why? I heard studying medicine is very hard."

"When I was a child, my grandmother fell ill. With the technology available at the time, few people could perform the surgery. I eventually used my connections to find a doctor who specialized in that area, and he cured her. That was the first time I realized what a great profession doctors are. They can be a source of hope for patients' families, and I wanted to be one of them."

Zhou Suiye gave her a thumbs up.

Bo Xia thought, what did she want to become?

Many times, learning seems to be just for the sake of learning, but she has never thought about the final destination. It seems that as long as she keeps moving forward, someone will naturally show her the way forward when she reaches the end.

But is there really any meaning in walking on such a vague path? It's like being pushed around in life, never finding your own direction.

She remained silent for a long time, unable to give an answer to her short life of more than ten years.

Fortunately, Jin Yunyan didn't say anything. She thought, she wasn't the one who didn't fit in. Maybe being lost wasn't a bad thing. She still had time to think about her future.

The night gradually deepened. After dinner, Wen Xin suggested going to KTV. Bo Xia agreed because she didn't want to spoil the fun. Besides, Jin Yunyan didn't refuse either.

The three girls walked side by side in front, their long shadows looming in front of them.

Bo Xia stepped carefully on his shadow under the street light, wishing that the road would never end.

Because Jin Yunyan was there, Bo Xia couldn't let go after entering the box.

She made the excuse that she was a little tired and didn't want to sing, and sat in the corner watching them sing Jay Chou's songs together, using the hand bell in the box to act as the atmosphere group.

The craziest one was none other than Wen Xin. She picked up the microphone and sang "Over the Fire" loudly, so loudly that Bo Xia couldn't help but quietly sing along with her.

It turns out that KTV is suitable for singing such energetic songs.

Bo Xia had already eaten half of the fruit plate in front of her when she suddenly felt the urge to go to the bathroom. She opened the door and went in to take care of her urge. On her way back through the corridor, she heard some off-key voices coming from other private rooms and couldn't help but chuckle.

Bo Xia looked around, and the smile froze on her face the next second. She seemed to have forgotten which private room they had just been playing in.

She stood there and looked around, trying to remember the direction she had taken.

Just as I was thinking about whether to go closer to these boxes to listen to the sounds inside, I suddenly heard a clear voice not far away: "What are you doing standing here?"

Bo Xia's heart skipped a beat. She looked up and saw him leaning against the wall with one hand in his pocket. The dim light flickered on his delicate face, illuminating his eyes.

Jin Yunyan looked at her with a slightly scrutinizing look, and there seemed to be a smile in his eyes. It was not known whether his voice was natural or not, but it always made people feel that the ending of his voice was lingering.

He asked her in a tone that was almost as tolerant as an elder would show to a child, "Can't you find the box?"

Having his thoughts discovered, Bo Xia suddenly became embarrassed, and his originally fair face unexpectedly turned red.

She could feel the warmth on her face without even looking in the mirror.

After being pointed in the direction, Bo Xia stammered, "Thank you, thank you."

The moment before she was about to open the door, she couldn't help but look back at his tall and thin figure.

At that moment, she had the illusion that they did not belong to the same world.

He was too cold, like the moonlight hanging high in the sky. No matter how much she fantasized, she knew clearly that the moon would not be hers alone.

As the door opened, the noise inside hit me.

Wen Xin saw her and asked her where she had been. She said she had gone to the bathroom. Wen Xin couldn't hear her and shouted, "What?"

"I said, I'm going to the bathroom."

"oh."

Bo Xia was still thinking about the scene just now, wondering if she had left a bad impression on Jin Yunyan, and if she looked a little stupid or sneaky.

To Jin Yunyan, it was just an ordinary little thing, but she chewed over it over and over again.

After being in a daze for a while, Bo Xia suddenly remembered something and glanced at her watch: "Wen Xin, I have to go back."

"Isn't it just after eight o'clock?"

"That's true, but if I go home late, my dad will scold me."

Wen Xin picked up the coat next to her, stood up and said, "Then I'll take you home."

It's a little far from the bus station and not very safe at night.

Hearing his friend say this, Bo Xia subconsciously refused: "No need."

The song they ordered just stopped, and the room quieted down a bit. Wen Xin continued, "Are you trying to say you can? Why is it always like this? Friends always have to bother each other."

Bo Xia was stunned. She really liked to reject others too much and was too polite. Someone once told her that she always made others feel alienated.

However, the eldest daughter who was neglected by her parents since childhood always had to shoulder many responsibilities that did not belong to her. She had to be independent and strong, and over time she developed such a character.

This time she didn't refuse. Zhou Suiye, who was sitting there ordering songs, sat down and said, "Let me take you there. It just so happens that Bo Xia and I are going the same way."

Bo Xia resisted the urge to be rejected and said "OK".

She was not good at getting along with the opposite sex, especially when alone, so she didn't speak much along the way, and Zhou Suiye was probably tired of singing and didn't say anything either.

The two waited at the bus stop for a long time, and they didn't know why the next bus was so late.

Bo Xia suddenly found a topic and asked him, "Why do you want to study physics?"

"Don't you think physics is interesting?"

“…” She suddenly remembered what Wen Xin had said. Sure enough, Zhou Suiye was a pervert. She had found physics interesting when she did well in the subject before, but this semester, she had started to struggle with it. Suddenly, she felt that the once challenging subject wasn’t so appealing anymore.

"Many physical phenomena are very strange and have a natural charm. I really want to study galaxies and those unknown areas."

Bo Xia listened attentively, and it seemed as if time slowed down a lot.

The night in this city is very quiet. The moon hangs in the blue sky, but a piece of its bright body is missing.

The sound of the bus rang in his ears. Bo Xia swiped the card for Zhou Suiye and then sat in the back row by the window.

From Zhou Suiye's perspective, she looked small, carrying a pink schoolbag, and looked exceptionally quiet. He went over and sat beside her, and they both closed their eyes to rest.

When they were near her home, Zhou Suiye insisted on taking her home. Bo Xia wanted to refuse, but Zhou Suiye wouldn't let her. He carried her schoolbag and pushed her forward, walking all the way downstairs.

Just as Zhou Suiye was about to leave, he turned around and heard a voice coming from the corner of the stairs. It was a middle-aged man.

"Why are you back so late, and with a boy? No wonder your midterm exam grades dropped. Are you dating a classmate in class?"

Bo Xia's voice sounded aggrieved: "I didn't."

"That's good. You also know how hard it is for your parents to support your education..."

Zhou Suiye felt inexplicably uncomfortable. On the way back, he kept hesitating whether to send a text message of comfort to Bo Xia, but in the end he said nothing.

If it were him, he probably wouldn't want his classmates to see him being scolded by his parents.

Zhou Suiye thought about it, called Jin Yunyan and asked him for his study notes. Jin Yunyan said that he never took notes. Zhou Suiye: "..."

"Then help me sort out the key points of physics and give me a copy of your exclusive study guide."

There was a bit of noise on the other end of the phone. After a while, it quieted down and the boy's lazy voice came through clearly: "Are you sick?"