57 Weak

I don't dare lose her

"I really don't know. You didn't tell me." Kong Wei said, "We're not that close."

They didn't have such a close relationship, but she knew her name was An Ran. She had never told her in her life.

Yan Xunzhi grabbed his clothes and half-crawled, half-moved two steps towards her.

Her clothes were unbuttoned, and she paused for a moment before leaning forward, half begging, her voice tearful, "I beg you, I beg you, don't lie to me, just this once."

Kong Wei met her gaze and spoke calmly, "When I met you, Shu Chi was already dead. I just asked you why you didn't come to the surface and decided to come to the Logistics and Armaments Department. You said it was because your friend had died, and you were afraid, afraid of dying on the surface like her."

"But I can see that's not the truth. You never told me how she died, and I never asked."

Yan Xunzhi stared into her eyes, as if falling into the deepest trench in the world.

If this was true, and Shu Chi's death had another cause, she subconsciously felt that this sentence must contain more information. But her mind was a mess, and she couldn't figure anything out.

Their relationship is so unequal in every way. Kong Wei can easily see through her lies, but she regards every word she says as the golden rule, even if they are all false.

"You..." She almost felt that the second half of her sentence was ridiculous, "Swear, you didn't lie to me."

"I swear, I didn't lie to you."

Cheated. She even added a prefix herself.

Yan Xunzhi was stunned for a long while.

Indeed, in a sense, the Yan Xunzhi of the past in her eyes was her future self. It was true that she loved her and didn't use her as a substitute for anyone else. Yan Xunzhi was her, and she was Yan Xunzhi. What she had always admired was just a future that she could not reach.

They are two people on two non-intersecting timelines, but they are exactly the same people in the same world and in the past eighteen years.

It was Kong Wei who changed, not her. She was just the one who was affected.

Yan Xunzhi couldn't help but sigh.

How...how shameless does a person have to be to say such a thing?

She let go and stepped back, her body still shaking uncontrollably, but she seemed remarkably calm. "Is it interesting, Kong Wei? You've lived two lifetimes, so you're so much older than me... three times, maybe? Is it interesting to keep a sentry like me, who just came out of the White Tower, hanging around in circles?"

Kong Wei's brows relaxed, he just looked at her without answering.

Yan Xunzhi thought, after following her for so long, why haven't I learned the skill of telling lies with open eyes and making them sound so righteous?

"Look at me, I'm happy, right? Watching me struggle, hesitate, and bewilderment, watching me get jealous of you, watching me repeatedly suspect everyone around me. You understand everything, and seeing me revolve around you like this, you're happy, right?"

She tried to control her emotions, and although they weren't particularly intense, tears still fell uncontrollably. "Didn't you climb to a very high position in your last life? In two lifetimes, you had plenty of dogs to lick your ass, didn't you? You just needed me? You're only happy if I'm this attentive to you?"

"Congratulations, you did it. I love you and admire you wholeheartedly. You used all your years of experience to seduce a White Tower student. You are amazing and great."

Not only was his vision blurry, but he was also dizzy from the extreme lack of oxygen. Yan Xunzhi leaned back against the wall, his chest heaving violently, and he could no longer see Kong Wei's expression.

It was nothing to see, she could almost imagine that calm face.

It's over.

There will be no more results. Kong Wei had expected this day, and those scoldings were completely insignificant. She had suppressed it for too long, and when it was revealed, she was prepared, so it didn't hurt that much.

I just feel that if I don’t call out now, there will never be such a legitimate opportunity in the future.

Yan Xunzhi knew very well what kind of person he was.

I have gained too much from Kong Wei. Even if the money tree is injured and the falling gold coins hit my head and bleed, I am still unwilling to let go.

She had been accustomed to being a princess in the castle and had been raised like a flower in a greenhouse. She could not cope with the storm outside.

Even though she already knew that she was acting as her own substitute, even though she knew that Kong Wei had never seen her, even though she was so shameless——

Yan Xunzhi took a few deep breaths and recovered.

"This is your place." She propped herself up and slowly got up, putting her clothes in order. "You stay here, I'll go out. I'll calm down for a while."

She still needs Kong Wei's help, that's the reality.

So she didn't even dare to say anything too drastic or decisive. Everything she had was given by Kong Wei, and she didn't have the courage to really cut herself off from him. She was attached to Kong Wei, flesh and blood, and she didn't know how Kong Wei would feel if she was taken away. She would definitely be heartbroken.

She didn't have the guts to quarrel with him. Compared to her life underground, this little bit of love was nothing, just the icing on the cake.

When leaving the bed, Kong Wei finally took action and reached out to hold her back.

Yan Xunzhi didn't want to get entangled with her, so he turned away slightly, put on his clothes, and walked to the door before he realized that she had the ability to paralyze the mind.

If I had known earlier, I would have let her catch me.

Just before leaving, he turned back and asked her, "...You promised to take me to see Shu Chi's autopsy. When?"

Kong Wei raised her head slightly, but Yan Xunzhi lowered his eyes, afraid that she would see the weak and tangled twist in her eyes. "Wait two days. You should take a rest. You also need to do the data first."

“…”

He is truly a good researcher.

Yan Xun didn't stay for a second and turned around to close the door.

It was too late, and the corridor was deserted. She walked forward for a while, and after the emotion subsided, her legs felt a little weak.

Her body was too honest, and she finally managed to stand up straight. Yan Xunzhi held onto the wall for a few seconds, then looked at the flashing lights on the surveillance cameras in the corridor and struggled to get up again.

He called Jing Ting, but no one answered. Yan Xunzhi remembered that she had a theory class in the evening, so she must be still in training, so she didn't call again.

Scrolling down the contact page...it's so funny, she has lived in the South District for a while, and all the people she knows are through Kong Wei.

She was too different from these people. It was Kong Wei who had hooked them, not her. They certainly wouldn't stand against Kong Wei and help her. Yan Xunzhi was very understanding and sighed at the same time.

After hesitating for a while, he made up his mind and played it to Sang Wanyin.

Sang Wanyin responded quickly, but Yan Xunzhi didn't say it directly. He asked her in a roundabout way if he could stay with her for one night.

Sang Wanyin yawned on the other end of the line. "Actually, it's fine for you to come see me anytime. I still have the cards, but not today. I have to go to the surface tomorrow..."

Yan Xunzhi was silent for a moment. All the words she had prepared before the call were soaked in water, and she couldn't say anything. Getting to the ground was more important than anything else. There was no way she would bother Sang Wanyin over such a small matter.

"Then I won't bother you anymore. Go to sleep. I'll play cards with you when you come back."

"Okay..." Sang Wanyin was still perceptive. "What's wrong with your voice? Is there something wrong?"

Yan Xunzhi cleared his throat. "What could possibly happen to me? There's a great god protecting me. I've been lying in the medical department for too long. I'll be lying there again when I get home. I'm bored, so I'm looking for someone to talk to."

After hanging up the phone in a hurry, she turned around to look at the door of the room she came out of, and suddenly felt a little sad and a little ridiculous.

She really became the flower that Kong Wei raised, planted in her flowerpot. Without her, there would be no soil at all.

She just doesn't believe it.

The special training room was always open and unmonitored. Yan Xunzhi figured that with the heavy workload in the South District, no one would be free to train at night. She'd go in quietly and be alert, as someone would jump up and do the training. Just don't get caught...

When I arrived at the special training room, I subconsciously and skillfully gave myself a set of tests as soon as I entered.

While waiting, Yan Xunzhi stared at the data on the display screen, a little hesitant.

Hanging out with Kong Wei every day, she knew all these data standards by heart. But after coming to the South District, especially after returning from the surface, she had been experiencing drug interference, and she hadn't done a complete data test in a long time.

The high numbers in front of her made her feel a little dazed.

That's her... She's so tall, I can't even begin to look like her.

She still remembered the passing score for the second round of exams. Yan Xunzhi remembered that before Kong Wei came, her goal had always been to just barely pass that elimination line. This line fluctuated every year, and she herself was a little worried that she might be unlucky and end up being the last one left.

It's only been two years... Her overall data has reached A-level level, even far exceeding A-level in speed and reaction.

There was something stuck in Yan Xunzhi's brain gears.

It was certainly damaging for Kong Wei to use her as a substitute... but all she lost was the boy's affection and wishful thinking.

Those things are so ethereal and floating that they cannot be grasped, but these data and the effects they reflect on her are real and exist heavily.

She didn't want to be treated as a fool. She hated Kong Wei for treating her as a fool, and for making her walk around in circles foolishly with a carrot hanging from her neck.

But the silly donkey pulling the mill didn't get to eat carrots despite all his hard work. What about her? In comparison, it's no exaggeration to say that she had a full banquet.

Anyone who encounters this kind of thing would be willing to be the monkey played by Kong Wei.

It’s just that others want to be one but they’re not destined for that. If you think about it from another perspective, could this be considered a gift given to her by Yan Xunzhi in her previous life?

The door creaked open.

"You're here." Ning Yue popped her head in and waved her hand. "Sang Wanyin told me you were looking for her? Why don't you look for me? I won't be on the ground tomorrow. I'm injured and don't have to train, so I'll be free. If you have anything, just look for me."

Yan Xunzhi was stunned for a few seconds and then smiled.

She laughed for a moment and said frankly, "I had a quarrel with Kong Wei, so I'm afraid it's not appropriate to come to you."

Ning Yue's eyes lit up, "Why not? Come on, it's absolutely perfect. Did you lose the argument?"

Yan Xunzhi held his chin and thought, "I think I won the argument."

Ning Yue pushed the door open, groaning. "You can win an argument with Kong Wei? You're quite capable. I couldn't even beat her, so how did our big winner end up homeless?"

Yan Xunzhi said, "Who said the winner can't flee? Besides, this is her territory. If I win, I have to leave quickly, lest she gets angry and attacks me. Haha, I can't beat her."

【Author’s words】

Pickled fish: The salted fish is stable and has calmed down. I will continue to lie down in two days...

Kong Wei: It doesn’t matter, it will be completely blown up in two days.

Pickled fish: ???