Chapter 140 Pollution 17 Sorry, I don’t want to leave you

It was late at night. The night light on the bedside of the master bedroom was warm and gentle. It was the one that He Yan bought for Li Yanze with his scholarship when he was fifteen years old.

Li Yanze lay on the bed, tilting his head to look at the simple and rustic night light. Everything in the base was based on efficiency and practicality, so this kind of night light was considered useless.

But Li Yanze regarded it as the most precious gift.

So why do feelings change when you grow up? Li Yanze couldn't help but sigh, and reached out to pull the cord of the night light to turn it off.

Things like this can't withstand constant use, so Li Yanze only opens them occasionally.

"Li Yanze."

As soon as he turned off the night light, the door was opened. He had locked it before going to bed, but it was of no use.

Then, the fresh scent of soap mixed with cold water vapor came over, and a pair of hands that felt hot came over.

Li Yanze was used to it. Even when he arched his back and lay in his arms, he subconsciously reached out and rubbed his hair. The next second, he stiffly moved his hand away as if nothing had happened.

He Yan reached out to pull the light cord, and the faint warm yellow light illuminated the small area at the head of the bed, with overlapping shadows on the wall.

Li Yanze raised his eyes to look at He Yan, who was propped up above him, and his eyes slowly moved down to his lips. Their breaths were gently entangled, and the smell of their bodies was the same, and there was nothing unfamiliar about each other.

He Yan slowly moved down tentatively, but Li Yanze suddenly said, "You are disrespectful."

He Yan looked at him in surprise. Li Yanze raised his eyebrows and repeated it.

"You are disrespectful. Brother or Dad, you choose one to call me."

Li Yanze's eyelashes were full of light, and he raised his eyebrows and smiled a little bit wickedly. Li Yanze, as a parent, has always been unreliable and likes to tease children, but he never cares about this name.

He Yan's heart was pounding. It seemed like he should shout, but did he have to shout at this time? That was really...

Very exciting.

He Yan lowered his eyebrows a little and chuckled: "Daddy."

The last syllable died out between his lips and tongue. Li Yanze didn't expect that he was so shameless and pushed him away violently.

"Unfilial son."

Li Yanze's lips were rubbed and swollen from excessive friction, but his expression had a sense of stability and calm.

This kind of calmness can be indulgence, or it can be some kind of unbreakable rule decided by Li Yanze.

This made He Yan think that no matter what he did, he would just call it "nonsense". He Yan was always frustrated by this, but he was tireless.

He Yan pulled open his collar, and Li Yanze looked at him indifferently, letting him pull open his collar to expose his collarbone and chest.

"What?"

"Fuck you."

Li Yanze sneered, folded his hands behind his head, and looked at He Yan who was sitting astride him.

"It's fucked up."

He Yan was holding back his anger, he opened his mouth and bit down fiercely, his hands tightly grasping his waist.

Li Yanze hissed softly, lowered his eyes to glance at him, waited calmly for him to bite enough and lick again, then raised his head to look over.

"Not weaned? You can't have it here."

He Yan knew that this was humiliating him, and he was reminded over and over again that they could not be lovers. But He Yan was still hopelessly aroused by this sentence with forbidden pleasure.

He Yan reached out and touched the place he had bitten, then lowered his head and took a bite on the other side. His lips were moistened by the water and turned bright red, but this was even more true of other places.

“You have to try it to know.”

Li Yanze sighed and wiped it with two pieces of paper. "Are you done with your madness tonight? Go back to sleep."

He Yan knew why he was so tolerant now. Tomorrow was the graduation ceremony and he should report to the admission institutions in the afternoon.

According to Li Yanze, this might be their last night together.

After tonight, He Yan should live his own life. No matter how messy the emotions are, they will end tonight.

A few days ago, He Yan felt anxious as if he was about to die.

Until today, he actually felt that since he had already done what he had done, he would be in trouble sooner or later, so he might as well do everything he could now.

"It's not over yet. It's not enough."

He Yan was surprised at his calmness at this moment. He felt guilty when it was mentioned a few days ago, but tonight he was calm.

"I'm going to Area A tomorrow. Even if we meet again, it will probably be just a few times. Li Yanze, don't be so cruel to me."

Li Yanze stretched out his hand and twisted his ear: "If I was really cruel to you, you should be in the hospital treating your broken leg right now."

He Yan stared at him and tears fell without warning, silently, his Adam's apple suppressing sobs, and he watched him cry with a frown.

"Are you expecting me to leave? You've been waiting for this day. Dump me and you can be free and easy in the future."

Li Yanze looked at He Yan in shock. This kid had been very stubborn since he was young, and he had never seen him cry. Li Yanze stood up, with his clothes still open, and reached out to hug him.

"Where did you get the words..."

"You only think about that dead man He Yihong, and I am just a byproduct. Isn't that what you think?"

Li Yanze knew that he was being unreasonable, but each drop of his tears fell on the palms and backs of his hands.

"He Yihong is your father, don't be so... Okay, okay, I won't tell you. How did you come here by chance, you ungrateful little bastard? You are slandering me."

He Yan had no impression of He Yihong when he was a child. When he was very young, his mother only said that his father was a coward who abandoned them.

Later, he was the only one left, and he felt even more disgusted with He Yihong, the so-called father. No matter what Li Yanze said later, it was of no use.

Li Yanze gave in. A 1.9-meter-tall man pressed him down and cried while sitting on his bed.

"What do you want? Stop crying..." Li Yanze held his cheeks with both hands and wiped away his tears with his slightly rough thumbs.

"Let me do it."

"Impossible." Li Yanze held his breath and almost strangled him to death.

He Yan continued to cry and took a step back. "I won't go in."

"No." Li Yanze had already started twisting his ears with his fingers.

He Yanfei moved closer to him, and his tears fell into Li Yanze's neck, following his beautiful muscle lines and into his waist and abdomen.

"What about a hug?"

Li Yanze sighed and acquiesced without saying a word. He Yan lowered his eyes to hide the smugness on his face that was hard to suppress. He Yan started to peel off the fabric of his pajamas, and before Li Yanze could react, he was stripped naked.

His hands and feet are long and well-proportioned, and his thin muscles are not only beautiful but also contain strength. Li Yanze's skin is warm and fair, but you can see many crisscrossing scars tearing his body apart.

The white jade has flaws, but it makes He Yan even more moved.

Li Yanze's short black hair was ruffled, and he looked at He Yan with dissatisfaction. "Not just hugging?"

"Take it off." He Yan said as he reached out and threw the clothes off.

He Yan really just hugged her, but he hugged her close, skin against skin, flesh against flesh, the tiny tremors and the cold and warm temperatures had to be indistinguishable, He Yan was very excited the whole time.

Li Yanze didn't hug him back, but he didn't kick him away either, until He Yan turned around with his cheek pressed against his, no longer facing each other sideways, but up and down.

"It's too heavy, get out of here." Li Yanze warned in a low voice, but He Yan looked up and rubbed Li Yanze's cheek with his flushed cheek.

"Wait, wait," he mumbled, his lips pressing against the side of his neck and shoulders, leaving traces bit by bit.

Li Yanze was not cold and indifferent. He Yan pressed on him tightly. He trembled and could not bear it any longer. He reached out to push him away. He Yan buried his head in the crook of his neck and smiled silently with triumph.

"Stop pushing me!" Li Yanze finally couldn't stand it anymore. He kicked him away, sat on the side with a quilt wrapped around him, his whole body red and trembling.

Uncovered legs, the inner side of the legs is red.

He Yan came over from behind again, hugged him around the waist, and he couldn't cry anymore, and even pinching himself didn't work. For him, the food was better today, and he was a little excited.

Li Yanze pushed it away, and the man stuck to him again like a dog-skin plaster. He simply gave up and reached out to grab a cigarette and put it in his mouth.

A hand reached out from his body, pinched it and pulled it away.

"It's bad for your health, stop smoking."

Li Yanze did not insist on coming back. He lowered his eyes and looked at He Yan's hands that were tightly pressed against his waist.

The fingers are long and thick, with obvious bones and blue veins. They are no longer the tender and soft short hands of childhood.

There was a loneliness in his brow, and a somewhat tired look.

"It doesn't matter whether it's good or bad, it's just a matter of dying sooner or later."

After Li Yanze finished speaking, He Yan almost strangled him to vomit.

He Yan bit his shoulder and threatened viciously: "If you die early, I will commit suicide in front of your grave. You will never rest in peace."

Li Yanze thought it was a little funny. "Stupid, if you die, you die. There's no such thing as whether you can rest in peace or not."

"If you do this, I won't know about it, and it's meaningless. You should live well and forget about me."

"This is the best revenge, understand?"

He Yan didn't understand and just bit his lips fiercely.

Since he could only hug her, he hugged her with all his strength, holding on tightly as if she was born into his flesh and blood.

After tossing and turning all night, Li Yanze was too sleepy to open his eyes, but he woke up naturally at a certain time.

The dead kid He Yan closed his eyes and hugged his waist tightly, scratching his hands, and no matter how Li Yanze pulled, he couldn't get them free.

Li Yanze took a look at the mess of clothes on the ground and let out a sigh of helplessness.

If you can't figure it out, just ignore it.

Li Yanze lowered his head and looked at He Yan. This guy had lost the fat from his childhood and his facial features had matured. He no longer looked like the delicate boy he used to be. He looked like a man with deep brows and eyes.

This face resembles He Yihong by a factor of 5. Sometimes he would feel inexplicably familiar with it. He reached out and gently touched the corner of his eye.

It seems to be dark blue, and there should be a mole in the thin and narrow folds of the eyelids.

Li Yanze felt that he was a little confused and rubbed his messy hair like a dog's head, but He Yan just closed his eyes and buried his head in his waist.

Li Yanze sighed softly. He didn't know why, but he had a bad feeling today.

But what can happen?

What could be more fucked up at a graduation ceremony than He Yan chasing him and saying he "wanted to fuck" him?

It's impossible.

Li Yanze narrowed his eyes and thought of a possibility, but quickly dismissed it. He watched He Yan fill in the A-area research institute. Besides, He Yan had never dared to lie to him since he was a child.

At most I would hide things and not tell him.

Li Yanze calmed down and reached out to grab his ear.

"He Yan, I give you three seconds to open your eyes and get up."

He Yan opened his eyes the next second and climbed up abnormally, being too obedient.

Li Yanze was invited to present the admission letters to them and had to wear a military uniform. He Yan also wore a white shirt and black pants, leaning against the door and watching him adjust his badge.

There are so many people around. If Li Yanze slaps him, will he pretend to be dead or kneel down and admit his fault?

Today Li Yanze specially borrowed Fei Liang's car. The closer he got to school, the more excited he became.

When He Yan first entered school, he couldn't even recognize words, but now he is the first in the joint entrance examination.

When Li Yanze was chatting in the military district, many people expressed envy for him for having picked up such a good child for free.

Well, apart from being greedy for his parents' bodies, he is still a very good child.

"After the ceremony, I'll take you to dinner. This time it won't be the military cafeteria, but there will be fresh fruit."

Li Yanze rarely took care of his hair today. He tied half of his hair up, revealing his gentle eyes and a delicate and beautiful face, but the neat military uniform on his body symbolized his merits.

The danger is so great that it attracts everyone's attention.

He Yan's heart was pounding. He was infatuated with him, but also afraid of him at this moment.

"Commander Li! It's Commander Li!"

As soon as the car stopped, most of the students who had arrived rushed over like they were chasing stars. Sander, who always had a sour face, moved closer nervously.

"Li...Commander Li."

Li Yanze raised his eyebrows, holding his military cap between his elbows, and repeated with a smile: "Li Li? So affectionate."

Sander's face turned red visibly, and Li Yanze patted his shoulder.

"Just kidding. I remember you, from back in the Western Passage. You were very brave, Xander."

Sander didn't expect that he would remember him. He was so moved that he couldn't speak. He wanted to talk to him more, but there were too many people. He was squeezed away without noticing.

He Yan walked over and held Li Yanze's hand. You are attracting bees and butterflies again. Do they know that you like to beat children?

Li Yanze smiled and waved to him.

"See you later, I hope you all get what you want today."

"Oh, I forgot to ask for an autograph!"

"I'm even more jealous of He Yan. He seems to be living a godly life every day."

He Yan held Li Yanze's hand tightly.

Yes, he eats well every day. He Yan tickled Li Yanze's palm with his fingers, as if flirting with him.

Under Li Yanze's military uniform, from the neck to the thighs, there were traces of his presence.

Li Yanze shook his hand and patted him on the back of the head as a warning.

"Behave yourself."

Li Yanze was invited to give a speech at the graduation ceremony. He Yan sat with his classmates and looked up at the dazzling young officer with them.

"You are lucky. Everything you have learned here will give you some wiggle room when facing the inevitable crisis. But you are also unfortunate. You have been deprived of the right to retreat and can only face the greatest crisis in human history."

“Don’t be afraid. When you choose to face the challenges head-on, you become me and the hope of all mankind.”

"The night will eventually pass, and the dawn will eventually come."

Sander sat next to He Yan, clapping his hands until they were almost broken. He Yan just stared at Li Yanze, and many of his classmates looked at him with shining eyes and red faces.

He Yan heard Li Yanze practicing this script at home a few days ago, and he could recite it fluently immediately, but he did not agree with the words in it.

He is not interested in humans, only in Li Yanze.

He didn't want to protect humans, he just wanted Li Yanze to be safe. For this reason, he would stand by Li Yanze at all costs.

"Now we will announce the admission status of each student..."

Everyone's face showed a nervous and expectant expression, only He Yan had a guilty expression.

The announcement will be from back to front. The first 100 are voluntary choices and there will be no surprises. The last 100 are admissions.

Some were overjoyed while others were devastated. The admission requirements for the graduate school were very strict and most of them went to the military and the government.

There weren’t many people, so we quickly reached the top 100, this time from the back to the front.

Li Yanze was invited to the front, holding a stack of admission notice papers in his hand.

He Yan's face turned pale... and he exchanged glances with Li Yanze. Li Yanze smiled, and now he felt like a child again.

There was clearly nothing unexpected, but he still looked so nervous.

"Xander... Congratulations, you have been accepted as a military candidate in Area C2."

In the first hundred miles, most people went to the research institute, and when the roll call was almost over, only about ten people went to the military area.

Soon He Yan walked onto the stage with two other people.

He looked at the smiling Li Yanze from afar, and finally he was the only one left.

Li Yanze breathed a sigh of relief, his child had finally arrived.

"Student He Yan, congratulations! You have been accepted...as a candidate for the C2 military program."

He Yan had already walked up to him and reached out to take the paper, but Li Yanze lowered his head and looked at it without handing it over.

Li Yanze even rubbed the ink-stained words with his fingertips. He Yan swallowed twice and whispered hoarsely: "I'm sorry, I don't want to leave you."

Li Yanze looked up at him, the smile on his face disappeared completely, and he handed the paper to He Yan.

He Yan stretched out his hand. Li Yanze looked at his hand for a long time and then laughed.

Every graduate who chooses the military region will shake hands with him after receiving the award, which represents Li Yanze’s welcome and recognition.

He Yan's fingers trembled slightly, and just when he was about to withdraw his hand, Li Yanze reached out and shook hands with him.

He Yan only then realized that his fingers were so cold.

"welcome."