Chapter 40: They used to be

The aunt who came to the house was gentle and elegant, but her red eyes could not deceive anyone. She hugged Fang Xin tremblingly.

"Come to City A. Auntie will help you with anything."

It was an embrace as warm as his mother's. He thought of his mother who had been taken away. Her hands were already skinny, and she had always worn a blackened silver ring on her ring finger.

The cemetery was empty and without any shelter, only countless tombstones. He sat in front of the tombstones and recalled these things, his tears flowing down his cheeks and being blown away by the biting cold wind.

It was a little painful, but not deep down. He only knew that on the day Fang Xin's mother died, his aunt came to see him with her only son.

Xu Shi'an, who has grown into a big boy, is not the silent and indifferent him. Seeing the thin Fang Xin going to his mother's tombstone to see her every day, he tried to stop her, but Fang Xin refused to listen to him no matter what he said.

So An Mei let him live in W City for the entire winter vacation. An Mei asked him to look after Fang Xin and take care of his younger brother.

At first, Fang Xin didn't like to talk. Since he was young, his mother taught him to smile more. Xin Xin looks so good when she smiles, so he should smile more.

Fang Xin thought about just dying like this. What would he do after losing his mother? Everything in the house was arranged by him and his mother, and the memories would always come back to him.

He thought of An-Mei, whom he had met before. They were sisters of the same age, so why did his mother look so old?

Later I realized that my mother had married the wrong person. She raised him alone and was afraid that a new stepfather would treat him badly, so she stopped considering marrying another man.

Once the self-blaming mood arises, it is difficult to disappear. Fang Xin just wants to end it all. He doesn't want to die at home. Such a warm home cannot be destroyed by him like this.

Jumping into the lake did not feel pleasant. Water kept pouring into his nose and mouth, and the pain and suffocation made him feel desperate.

Until a pair of strong arms grabbed him and brought him to the surface of the water. When he woke up after swallowing water, the first thing he saw was that cold face with anger running rampant on it.

"Aunt Huo has put so much effort into you. If you follow her, why would she have to suffer so much for so many years?"

Xu Shi'an's face still had a youthful look, but his aura was hard to ignore.

"If Aunt Huo saw how you treated her, she wouldn't be able to rest in peace even if she passed away. Do you really want her to suffer in both life and death?"

Young people are always impulsive. Xu Shian realized that what he said was a bit hurtful, so he awkwardly changed his expression to a gentler one.

"Would you please stay alive and see the world for her?"

He couldn't say anything warm, he just wanted to tell Fang Xin that abandonment would not solve the problem, Huo Ying's original intention was to hope that Fang Xin could live a good life, at least not like his father.

Sobbing sounds came out from the ventilator. He was so sad that he felt like dying. If he had the chance to see his so-called father again in this life, he would kill him to pieces no matter what.

During Fang Xin's hospitalization, Xu Shi'an brought him meals every day, gave him books he wanted to read, and taught him some knowledge for going to high school.

Fang Xin lives with Xu Shi'an every day, and it seems that her broken heart is gradually recovering.

He fell in love with Xu Shi'an, and the pure friendship between the teenagers was misinterpreted by his different thoughts.

After Xu Shi'an found out that he liked her, she avoided him for a long time. He had never understood such a thing before and was very confused.

He knew clearly that he didn't like Fang Xin. After he returned to City A, he asked his mother not to bring Fang Xin to City A first, wanting him to finish his studies in City H before coming back.

The cold wind was howling as Fang Xin sat silently in front of Huo Ying's tombstone for nearly an hour. His hands and feet had gradually become stiff.

He couldn't stand up and just looked at the woman in the tombstone. This photo was cut out by An Mei from a photo of the two of them.

There weren't any decent photos of her mother. As far as Fang Xin could remember, there was only her mother. But she just went to work and came home to cook every day, and that was all there was to her.

She said, "We don't blame others, it's just how we are."

Fang Xin felt extremely empathetic, as if she was the real Fang Xin, and everything the original owner had experienced came to her mind.

Finally I know the original owner's life experience, and why the original owner has such a strong obsession with Xu Shi'an.

It is true that in the original script, Fang Xin became depressed after Xu Shi'an and Lu Ziyan got together. He really regarded Xu Shi'an as the second ray of light in his life.

Xu Shi'an could get married and have children, but when a man appeared next to him, he completely collapsed.

The original owner felt that he was always the one who was abandoned. His mother passed away, and Xu Shi'an rejected him countless times, but he turned around and fell in love with Lu Ziyan, who was of the same sex.

This was nothing but adding insult to injury for the original owner, who was already not very cheerful.

He didn't know how long it had passed before a pair of black leather shoes appeared beside him. The wind blew the scent of flowers into his nostrils, and he instantly became much more sober.

Xu Shi'an blocked the wind that was constantly attacking his side and bowed to the tombstone.

"Aunt Huo, we are all here to see you."

Fang Xin couldn't help but feel a lump in his throat when he heard Xu Shi'an's voice. He knew that he didn't like Xu Shi'an, but at this moment, he couldn't help feeling sad when he thought of so many things.

"Rest assured, Fang Xin is now a very good actor and can already stand on her own."

Having never heard Xu Shi'an talk so much before, Fang Xin didn't know whether to cry or say something.

Xu Shi'an handed him some papers and said, "Ugly."

Fang Xin glared at him and took the tissue from his hand, "Better looking than you."

Xu Shi'an stood tall and straight, and he did not shiver even when the cold wind hit him.

"Do you still remember what you said back then?"

At this moment Fang Xin didn't know what he was referring to. He looked up at Xu Shi'an in confusion.

Xu Shian was slightly nervous when he looked at her, "That's it..."

The phone rang at an inopportune time, interrupting what he was about to say. Xu Shi'an had no choice but to answer the call, leaving Fang Xin in a state of confusion.

He stood up with the support of the grass. By the time he finished bowing and stood up, An had also finished the call.

"Go back, it's too cold."

After saying that, Fang Xin left the tombstone first, and Xu Shi'an clenched his hands and followed suit.

Fang Xin's mood didn't improve much after returning to the villa. He dragged his exhausted body back to his room.

Xu Shi'an was also silent when he walked in from behind. The sound of Fang Xin's door closing echoed in the empty villa.

He dealt with a lot of things today and spent a long time looking at the branch's general account. He knew it when he returned to the villa and didn't see Fang Xin after finishing these things.

In the huge cemetery, a figure sat motionless in front of a tombstone. The heavy winter clothes could not stop the shivering body. For a moment, it was unclear whether he was cold or sad.

Just like the little eunuch in "Thousands of Years", a helpless person suddenly has someone to rely on, and that is his heaven.

He had an impression of Huo Ying in his heart. She was a very gentle aunt. She was very pretty, but she often looked tired.

She and her mother used to see each other often. She was especially nice to him when he was very young and even let him be a flower boy at her wedding. However, after her marriage, he saw Huo Ying less often.

All I know is that there was an aunt who was very kind to him and loved to laugh.

Later, when he saw the face that was 70% similar to Huo Ying, he decided to be nice to this younger brother, as he was the only child left by Aunt Huo.

With this mentality, Xu Shi'an restrained his habit of treating strangers. He wanted Fang Xin to get better, and hoped that he could live a good life in the future instead of Huo Ying and see the beauty of the world.

But when he saw Fang Xin looking at him with different eyes, he shrank back in fear.

He is a man, and he is naturally not fond of men of the same sex. He is surprised that the child he treats as a younger brother actually has such dirty thoughts towards him.

This frightened the already young Xu Shi'an so much that he returned to City A, and for a long time he did not dare to face the root cause of the incident.

It was not until Fang Xin came to City A to attend university that An Mei sponsored him. However, Fang Xin was not doing his job properly and wanted to have a further relationship with Xu Shi'an.

He tried every possible means to pester him, but Xu Shi'an showed no feelings towards him and even hated his behavior.

It was also because of Xu Shi'an's courage to enter the entertainment industry that his reputation in the early days was that everyone was condemning him, but now the situation has turned around.

Ever since Fang Xin told him that she would not pester him anymore, he really didn't pester him anymore.

Some time ago, I heard Xiao Huai say that Fang Xin still liked him. At that time, I stayed away from Fang Xin with doubts, and I didn't see him take any action.

He also wanted to slowly restore his friendship and brotherhood with Fang Xin, but he was a little confused about Fang Xin's opinion of him.

Xu Shi'an had been on a business trip for three days. When An Mei asked him when he would be back, he did not give a clear answer, but just said that he would tell her when it was confirmed.

Fang Xin was resurrected with full health the day after visiting his mother. He learned his lesson and got up early to go to the gym to wait for Xu Shi'an to come.

Xu Shi'an would always unconsciously be attracted by Fang Xin. Whether Fang Xin was doing exercises, lifting weights, or jogging, he would be attracted to him.

Her wet hair hung down in front of her raised eyebrows, her face was slightly red after exercise and looked like a peach, and her chest rose and fell due to the intense exercise. Xu Shi'an, who swore that she would not be interested in men, would always take a second look at this scene.

Feeling that his lips and tongue were dry and needed to be hydrated after exercise, he licked his lips and looked away to find water.

After the exercise, Fang Xin wanted to collapse on the sofa but was stopped by Xu Shi'an. After the intense exercise, one cannot collapse directly and needs to relax for a while before collapsing.

Today is already the fourth day, and Xu Shi'an, who said he had been here for three days, is not in a hurry to leave. He can be seen receiving calls from senior executives of the head office in City A every night, but he has not returned yet.

Fang Xin couldn't help but ask, "When are you going back?"

Xu Shian's face turned pale when he heard him say that. He raised his eyebrows and said mockingly, "It's my house, you care about me?"

"Mr. Xu, didn't you say you were here on a three-day business trip?"

Xu Shian accepted what he had said, paused for a moment and then returned to normal, "That's my business, and more."

His eyes were stern and serious, "Don't call me Mr. Xu in private."

Not knowing how to answer, Fang Xin watched Xu Shi'an's back as he quickly left after speaking.

Sometimes it seemed as if the reason for a quarrel had been found. Fang Xin had no intention of looking for Xu Shi'an and humiliating himself, so he chose to ignore it.

Now I have more reasons to thank Xu Shi'an for inviting me to dinner. After he has rested well in W City, I will go back and make an appointment to meet them both.

Only when the world balances the plot will he feel that his arrival is right.

That is, I want to live a good life, and I also want those who are good to me to have good results.

Fang Xin made up his mind secretly and took a good rest for a week. Xu Shi'an didn't go back either. He could be seen in online meetings every day. Occasionally, the two of them would have dinner together. The relationship between them was no longer as awkward as it was in the past few months.

Now that Fang Xin has learned her limits, her fear of Xu Shi'an has decreased a lot, but she is still afraid of his cold face sometimes.