49. He Gu has arrived.

After the two finished eating, Shen Ju took the initiative to wash the dishes and clean the room. Then he lay on the bed with Lin Jiang, doing nothing but sticking to him and being very happy.

Lin Jiang was lying down playing on his tablet when Chen Ju hooked his foot, but he ignored it.

After a while, his waist was also entangled. He said a few words, but didn't take it to heart.

A little while later, Shen Ju wrapped himself around her.

Lin Jiang slapped his hand, "Stop fooling around."

The puppy finally calmed down.

Shen Ju has a bad habit of sleeping with his head covered by the blanket. Lin Jiang put down his tablet and curiously shrank into the blanket. "Why do you like to sleep like this?"

The dim light from the tablet illuminated Lin Jiang's profile, highlighting his prominent Adam's apple. He had a pleasant voice and a pleasant scent.

“Because…” Shen Ju’s throat moved, and he leaned in to kiss him, “I want to do something naughty.”

Lin Jiang quickly crawled out of bed, but it was too late; Shen Ju's mind had already been stirred.

He held him in place like an octopus, "Lin Jiang, let's try again? I wasn't prepared just now, I'm sure I made you uncomfortable. Give me another chance, I'll definitely make you feel good..."

He started biting at her, his neck covered in saliva.

Lin Jiang really wanted to kick him, "Do you think my back can take this?"

Shen Ju buried his face in his neck to calm himself down, then went all out: "Then you can have me."

Lin Jiang desperately wanted to escape, but Shen Ju tackled him to the ground. He lay on the bed, looking at Shen Ju with a lifeless expression: "Do you think I can lift you with my back like this?"

Shen Ju smiled like a puppy, climbed onto Lin Jiang, and kissed his fingers affectionately, "Then I'll do it? You just lie there and don't move."

I don't know if it was Lin Jiang's words about "the first time" that provoked Shen Ju, but for the next few days he kept showing him his not-so-mature skills.

Sometimes Lin Jiang really felt that Shen Ju's words were deceitful.

There's no sofa he can't use properly; there's nowhere in this house he can't use properly!

Lin Jiang's back is weak. If his back were strong, he would definitely want to pin Shen Ju down on the bed and do it to him, so that he could experience what it feels like to be forced into sexual indulgence.

Shen Ju stayed at Lin Jiang's house for seven days, but didn't finish a single game, though he did use up all the boxes he bought.

Later, Lin Jiang lay on the bed, too lazy to pay attention to him. Shen Ju would nuzzle his hand, snuggle into his blanket, and tease him vigorously: "Lin Jiang, don't you want to be on top?"

Lin Jiang suddenly opened his eyes, pressed Shen Ju down on the bed, and bit him hard on the neck.

"Ouch—! It hurts, it hurts, it hurts!"

That was so satisfying.

Lin Jiang bit him on the neck, leaving a small but noticeable tooth mark. After that, Shen Ju acted like a pervert, constantly touching himself in front of the mirror.

No, I can't go on like this, I'm really going to collapse and die.

Lin Jiang struggled to his feet, preparing to take a shower.

The little dog outside started getting restless again. "Lin Jiang, are you done washing?"

"Not finished washing."

"Can I come in? I want to take a shower too."

"cannot."

The puppy's voice was full of temptation: "This time I'll really let you be on top, I'm not lying to you, don't you want to try it?"

Lin Jiang couldn't take it anymore. He immediately opened the door, pulled Shen Ju in, pushed him onto the bathroom counter without saying a word, and kissed him.

Lin Jiang, shrouded in mist, resembled a fairy, captivating at every glance.

Lin Jiang deliberately gnawed hard.

He wanted to teach this dog a lesson: what goes around comes around.

Little did he know that Shen Ju was even more eager than Lin Jiang. He took the initiative to tear off his clothes and kissed him even more forcefully than Lin Jiang, almost biting his lips until they bled.

Lin Jiang originally intended to teach him a lesson.

Every time I see him fully immersed in his role, I wonder if he looks just as beautiful when he cries.

But when he actually pressed it into the pool, looking at Shenju's skin that would turn red with the slightest pressure, he was still a little reluctant.

He stroked Shen Ju's neck and sighed, "Why are you so delicate?"

Shen Ju didn't care about any of that; he was truly bewitched by Lin Jiang's voice. "I'm not delicate; I can handle it."

He nuzzled against his neck like a puppy and kissed his fingers. How could his hands be so beautiful? Suddenly, he felt that he would be willing to die in Lin Jiang's hands.

His consciousness had completely flown away, and he shouted, "I don't mind, I really don't mind."

He was willing to do anything to make Lin Jiang happy.

He took Lin Jiang's hand and pressed it deeply to his lips, as devout as a sacrifice. He didn't know when the butcher's knife would fall, but he was ready.

Lin Jiang was already extremely satisfied with being kissed by the puppy, and he didn't care much about what was going to happen next.

Besides, my back isn't doing well either.

Look at the mess these past few days have made.

Lin Jiang grasped Chen Ju's restless hand. "Alright." Then he leaned down and whispered in his ear, "I know you're willing, but I wouldn't want to do it myself, okay?"

He kissed his earlobe as he spoke, "Be good, behave yourself."

So gentle.

How can someone be so gentle?

In comparison, Shen Ju felt like a naked beast.

He sat on the bathroom counter, looking down and hugging Lin Jiang's waist tightly, as if afraid he would leave him, and the hug became tighter and tighter.

The smoky bathroom blurred his vision, and Lin Jiang cried out, "My back hurts."

Shen Ju immediately rubbed his waist, gently relieving his pain. "Does it still hurt? I'll go with you to buy some medicine."

Lin Jiang couldn't bear the embarrassment, so he said, "No need."

"Shall I rub it for you?"

"good."

Lin Jiang was wrapped in his arms, and the two of them held each other like that, neither of them making a move, the shower water above their heads scattering their hearts into pieces.

Shenju's clothes were all wet, so he had to wash them too.

After taking a shower, he went downstairs and bought a bunch of ointments for Lin Jiang.

Lin Jiang looked at the bag of medicine and suddenly stammered in fright, "Where...where did you buy this?"

Shen Ju was puzzled: "The pharmacy downstairs."

When he bought it, the shop assistant stared at him for a long time, but he was preoccupied with Lin Jiang and didn't pay any attention.

"The one with the blue license plate?"

"Um."

The shop assistants knew Lin Jiang and would greet him every time they saw him.

Lin Jiang felt like he was going to die. No, he had to keep his distance from Shen Ju from now on, even when going downstairs.

With a pure heart, Shen Ju applied the medicine to Lin Jiang and played games with him while holding him.

It's strange, just holding Lin Jiang and kissing him every now and then makes me feel so content.

Night fell, and this was Shenju's last night staying here.

He was a little reluctant to part with Lin Jiang, and held his hand all night, kissing it whenever he felt uncomfortable.

Once I'm back with the team, I need to keep my distance from Lin Jiang.

"After I get back to the team, can I sneak over to see you at night?"

"Can't."

"So, can we go on a date during our vacation?"

"No, that won't work either."

Shen Ju felt wronged. "When can we do that?"

"Let's end the World Championship."

All things considered, there's still more than a month until the World Championship starts, and the competition will last for another month, meaning we'll have to endure at least two more months.

Shen Ju couldn't take it anymore and hugged Lin Jiang tightly, saying, "I really want to fold you up and put you in my pocket."

Lin Jiang: ?

He suspected Shen Ju was driving, but had no proof.

In the darkness, Shen Ju kissed him, and Lin Jiang was fairly cooperative.

The two kissed and then got heated again. At the crucial moment, Shen Ju suddenly stopped, saying, "Forget it, that thing is used up."

Since it was the last night, Lin Jiang suggested, "Shall we go straight to it?"

These words reignited Shen Ju's anger. He hugged Lin Jiang and kissed him for a while, but in the end, he held him and stopped thinking about it. "I won't come."

Lin Jiang teased him deliberately: "Is that all you can do?"

Shen Ju kissed his fingers, then obediently closed his eyes. "I read online that not taking precautions can easily cause a fever. Don't seduce me, I'll fall asleep soon."

Lin Jiang didn't seduce him; he was just sleeping normally, okay?

Shen Ju held him and slept for a while. Lin Jiang was almost asleep, but he vaguely felt that Shen Ju was still not quiet.

The puppy couldn't sleep. In the middle of the night, it suddenly looked up at him and said in a hoarse voice, "Why don't you be me? I can handle it."

After saying that, she excitedly pulled him out of bed and started taking off his clothes.

Lin Jiang: ?

Is this something that absolutely must be done?

He kicked Chen Ju off the bed, saying, "Go sleep on the sofa."

Shenju refused and climbed back onto the bed, finally behaving himself.

Lin Jiang is not a lustful person; nine times out of ten, he gave in because Shen Ju wanted it.

In reality, Lin Jiang didn't have a high need for this. He was mostly accommodating, and only Shen Ju was sad when the two were apart.

Shen Ju knew that when it was time to leave, he still held him tightly, reluctant to part, "Lin Jiang, are you really not coming back with me?"

Lin Jiang also considered it, but he felt that Shen Ju would definitely not be able to control himself, so he decided against it.

He patted his head. "Be good, go back and stay there first. I'll go tomorrow. When you get to the team, don't forget your promise to me: keep your distance and call me captain."

"Okay, Captain."

He gave Lin Jiang's wrist one last kiss, slung his backpack over his shoulder, and obediently left.

After seeing Shen Ju off, Lin Jiang suddenly felt a little uneasy.

He cleaned the room, subconsciously considering Shen Ju's preferences, feeling that this was the room for the two of them in the future.

When he realized that he was actually responding to the other person, Lin Jiang slowly stopped.

He always considers the other person's feelings in relationships, subconsciously putting himself in a very low position, which is really not good.

Forget it, Lin Jiang gave up on cleaning up.

He didn't really like this version of himself.

He lay on the sofa and suddenly felt that he was not suited for dating, and even doubted whether his choice was right.

My phone rang once.

It was sent by Shen Ju.

He stayed up late at night and went to secretly take pictures of other people's dogs.

Shenju: Captain, this dog is so fat.

Shenju: We should raise our dogs to be this fat in the future.

Lin Jiang laughed when he saw the message. He typed back: I've had enough of raising you, my dog.

Shen Ju hummed twice in dissatisfaction, then chatted with him about all sorts of things until 11 p.m. before finally returning to the base at Lin Jiang's urging.

Back in his room, Shenju was still restless and sent him a picture of two dogs.

One was a beautiful, clean-cut Samoyed, smiling dignifiedly and adorably; the other was a military dog ​​that couldn't move when it saw the Samoyed, kicking its four legs to pull on the leash to see it.

Shenju: Doesn't it look like the two of us?

Lin Jiang replied helplessly: "You can be a dog yourself, but why drag me into it?"

Shenju: How can a Samoyed be a dog? It's an angel.

Shenju: Captain, let's get a Samoyed from now on? I love it so much! Seeing it reminds me of you, and my cup too. Without it, even drinking water doesn't taste good today…

At the end, he asked him with a pitiful look on his face: "Captain, I miss you. Can I take a taxi to come see you?"

Looking at the message, Lin Jiang suddenly realized that it was the right thing to not go back with him. Given Shen Ju's personality, he would probably be heading to his room that very night.

Lin Jiang: No, you can't. You need to control yourself.

Shenju: Hmm. I'll restrain myself then.

In fact, Lin Jiang couldn't sleep either. Lying in bed, he kept thinking about the scene of Shen Ju crawling under his blanket. Why was this night so hard to bear?

He was half asleep when he suddenly heard someone ringing the doorbell.

Lin Jiang suddenly came to his senses. He thought he had misheard, but then he heard another sound.

Is that idiot Shen Ju really coming?

Lin Jiang ran over and opened the door without even putting on his shoes, "Are you crazy? Coming here in the middle of the night..."

Upon seeing the person approaching, Lin Jiang suddenly stopped speaking.

The hallway lights were somewhat dim, and a tall figure, backlit, held a bouquet of white roses, quietly waiting for him to come out.

He Gu seemed to have been drinking; his tall frame swayed slightly, but his clothes were still quite formal. He glanced at his watch, then looked up at him seriously. "Haven't you returned to base yet?"

Seeing He Gu at this time made Lin Jiang feel a little uncomfortable.

He looked outside. "Where's your bodyguard?"

"I didn't bring it."

Where is the driver?

"I came by taxi."

Lin Jiang didn't know why he had suddenly come to find him. "You...want to see me for something?"

He Gu smiled faintly, just like when they first met, carefree and spirited, with the courage to overcome even the most difficult obstacles.

"Lin Jiang, I'm going to confront my family about this."

He looked at him expectantly after he finished speaking, expecting to see a moved expression on Lin Jiang's face, but in reality, Lin Jiang did not understand and looked at him with a puzzled expression.

He Gu smiled again and patiently explained to him, "I cut off all financial ties with my family and started a project I invested in overseas. From now on, my family can't control me anymore. I don't have to follow their arrangements every day, nor do I have to attend those suffocating family banquets. I can also choose what I like in the future."

Lin Jiang was taken aback. "You...when did you start?"

He Gu held the white roses and looked at him seriously. "Lin Jiang, actually, I've been doing this all these years, including going abroad for further studies, all for the sake of doing it secretly. My family has a very tight control over my funds, and I only have the opportunity when I go abroad. I did think about telling you at the time, but you know me, I don't dare to do things I'm not sure of. Today, as soon as the project succeeded, the first person I thought of was you."

He lowered his head and arranged the roses in his hands, not allowing them to be in any disarray. "I drank a lot of wine at today's celebration banquet. I don't usually drink this much. I guess it was to give me the courage to say a word to you."

"Lin Jiang, let's start over. This time, I won't back down."

He Gu was holding a large bouquet of flowers, white roses that Lin Jiang liked, and a box containing the same watch as the one on his wrist.

He lowered his head, like a naive young man experiencing his first love, and opened the box. "Back then, I actually had two of these watches custom-made."

"After receiving it, I felt that the watch band was too wide and the color of the diamonds was not right, so I asked them to take it back and remake it, which is why I received it a little late."

He is an extreme perfectionist. In his world, everything is done step by step, from major company decisions to minor details like the color of diamonds, all of which must meet his expectations.

Lin Jiang once said that it would be difficult for someone like He Gu to find a suitable partner.

He always felt he was unlike his mother and wanted to break free from his family's control, but in reality, he was always moving in that direction.

Lin Jiang didn't accept the gift. He took a deep breath and, to save face for both of them, said, "It's too late, you should go home."

The light in He Gu's eyes slowly faded, and he lowered his hands dejectedly. "It's not too late. It's never too late to start."

Under the influence of alcohol, he finally admitted: "I was thinking about doing this from the first day I met you, but I didn't expect my mom to find out and ruin something that was still in the planning stages."

He always refused to admit that he loved Lin Jiang more, thinking that if he withdrew first, he wouldn't be discovered.

But in reality, you can't hide your feelings.

After our last conversation, he kept having nightmares. He knew he couldn't just sit and wait to die any longer, even if it meant being the one to back down first.

He Gu didn't notice Lin Jiang's somewhat cold expression until he finished speaking. He reached out to hold Lin Jiang's hand with some unease. "Lin Jiang, why aren't you saying anything?"

Before their fingers even touched, Lin Jiang suddenly took a half step back. "I made that clear to you last time."

He Gu insisted: "I feel that I haven't explained things clearly, and I'm here today to make things clear to you."

"You..." Lin Jiang didn't know what to say. "Never mind, you've been drinking, I won't talk to you, you should go back first."

He tried to close the door, but He Gu refused.

He leaned against the door, his eyes bloodshot. "I know I've been drinking. I wouldn't dare tell you this if I hadn't been drinking. I'm scared myself."

"Lin Jiang, please let me finish speaking, okay?"

After drinking, his former arrogance vanished, and he finally admitted his disheveled state: "It's because I can't live without you, it's because I like you more."

“I know you’ve been angry with me. I haven’t done well all these years. I always wanted to prove your feelings and see your sincerity first. I confused feelings with investments.”

“I gave up KUG because I wanted to have the leverage to stand up to my family. Lin Jiang, you know my personality. I won’t do anything that won’t lead to anything. Now that I’ve cut all ties, I dare to come and say these things to you.”

He Gu is a person who is very good at deep thinking. He is very suitable for working behind the scenes. He always weighs the pros and cons clearly before he makes a decisive move.

Lin Jiang is now part of his decisive action.

Lin Jiang suddenly felt a pang of nostalgia. He had never seen He Hu again in his life, who had risked everything for KUG back then.

Over the years, Lin Jiang had long been accustomed to his way of thinking. He didn't want to say anything, so he could only say, "We're really not a good match."

"You're not even together, how do you know we're not compatible? Do you remember before? We used to be so compatible, and we could never find anyone more compatible than each other."

He Gu's eyes were still full of hope; he wouldn't do anything he wasn't sure of, including Lin Jiang.

But Lin Jiang gave him a deathly calm. In the dim light, Lin Jiang gently interrupted him: "Do you really think we're a good match?"

Now that things have come to this, he no longer cares what He Gu thinks.

“I never wear a watch. You are the one who likes watches. I started studying them because of you.”

“I’m not as obsessed with diamonds as you are. Blue is your favorite color, and you just want me to like the same color as you.”

"And white roses, which are also your favorite flowers. Because the first time I accompanied you to an event, I chose white roses, and you always thought I liked them."

"He Gu, rather than saying you like me, it's more accurate to say you like the image of me you have in your mind."

"Actually, I don't fit your taste. I'm not as quiet as you imagine. I like liveliness, while you prefer quiet. I just want to keep you company."

“I like making friends, have you forgotten? You hate it when I hang out with those friends, you say it's noisy and makes the room dirty.”

"And this apartment, I bought it three years ago, and you've only been here once, sitting for less than 10 minutes. You may have forgotten why I changed the curtains and sofa to blue, it's because you casually said you liked it, and then you came in, sat for a few minutes, and never came back."

Lin Jiang had never told He Gu any of this.

He never knew that Lin Jiang thought this way.

He Gu felt a little sad, but he was also glad that the other person had spoken to him openly. He took the initiative to lower his stance: "You have never expressed your preferences. I thought you liked the same things as me. I was negligent. But it's okay. I can try to like the things you like. It's always better for two people's personalities to complement each other. I think we will still be very compatible."

Try again?

Lin Jiang smiled and shook his head.

He Gu didn't know, but he knew best that even if he tried again, it wouldn't change his desire for control.

Lin Jiang had to admit that some genes are innate; how his mother treated him would unconsciously influence how he would treat the world.

Memories of his past life began to resurface in his mind, but Lin Jiang had no intention of dwelling on them. "Shen Ju and I are already together."

He Gu knew, "You two aren't a good match."

Lin Jiang turned his face away and said coldly, "I've tried it, and it fits perfectly."

He Gu then noticed that, in the dim light, there were some ambiguous marks on Lin Jiang's neck, faintly visible under his collar.

My mind went completely blank, as if struck by lightning.

He suddenly pried open Lin Jiang's neck with force, and the marks became more obvious. No matter how he wiped them, they couldn't be erased, confirming that they were real.

What was initially just a feeling of discomfort in his chest suddenly became unbearable, as if a dull knife was stabbing into his heart.

He Gu's hands trembled slightly. "You...you and him...?"

Lin Jiang refused his touch, "Do you know now? It's really impossible for us."

A buzzing sound filled his ears, and He Gu suddenly couldn't hear his voice clearly.

My vision began to blur, as if it weren't real, but a nightmare.

Lin Jiang's tone was frighteningly cold, "I know you have mysophobia and you have extremely high standards for your partner. Even if I could come back to you one day, you yourself would never accept me again. Young Master He never does anything without a result. Stop now and go back."

He had witnessed He Gu's obsessive-compulsive disorder.

It has reached a certain abnormal level.

If someone touches him at a banquet, he will frown and go to wash his hands because he can't stand it.

Lin Jiang once joked with him, "How are you going to find a partner like this?"

He Gu replied without hesitation, "I'll find someone clean."

The aloof and demanding young master He is an extreme perfectionist who simply cannot accept that his partner has been touched by someone else; it is something that exists in his instincts.

Lin Jiang didn't think he would change his instincts for him. He told him this just to make him understand that there was absolutely no future for them.

"Go back, don't waste your time on me."

He Gu leaned against the door, a wave of pain churning in his chest. At that moment, he finally realized that Lin Jiang had truly given up on him.

It wasn't to get revenge on him, nor to spite him; he had truly given up on himself and was with Shen Ju.

His Linjiang no longer belonged to him at all...

He Gu braced himself against the door, feeling dizzy.

He stared wide-eyed in disbelief, his stomach churning with nausea.

The other party was as indifferent as a high and mighty executioner, as if he really wanted to kill him and was waiting to deliver the fatal blow.

He was wrong; Lin Jiang was not gentle at all.

He harbored a coldness hundreds of times more ruthless than himself.

How could it have turned out like this...?

That shouldn't be the case.

He Hu suddenly realized he couldn't see clearly. He wanted to see more clearly, so he grabbed Lin Jiang's hand and tried to pull him to his side.

Lin Jiang reacted strongly, "What are you doing!"

If he hadn't fought back so desperately, he even thought Lin Jiang would have actually closed the door and broken his fingers.

Oh.

How did things get to this point?

The force in his hand became uncontrollable. He Gu exerted so much force that the veins on his arm bulged. He grabbed Lin Jiang, pushed open the door, and dragged him forcefully into the room.

Lin Jiang was a little angry. "Get out!"

He struggled to suppress the urge to kill him. He slammed the door shut, his eyes filled with a chilling coldness that could kill, and asked him one last time, "Did you really sleep with him?"

Lin Jiang forced himself to remain calm, "Why would I need to lie to you?"

He grabbed his face, and in that instant, the monster lurking inside him almost came out. He pressed Lin Jiang against the entrance, and every breath he took aggravated the pain in his chest.

"How long have you known him? I've known you for so long, I don't believe it, I don't believe you would sleep with him."

He released Lin Jiang and began to search for evidence throughout the room, deceiving himself as he did so.

The hickeys on his neck don't count. Shen Ju definitely wouldn't be able to withstand the test. He could understand if Shen Ju took a couple of bites, but Lin Jiang is a person with strong self-control. He wouldn't allow that kind of thing to happen.

Seeing the couple's mugs on the table, he also felt it didn't count.

This is just the same style; it doesn't mean that Shen Ju really lives here permanently.

The shoes at the door don't count either; he knew that Lao Mao and his friends would come to his house to play, including himself.

However, he didn't like the presence of other people in Lin Jiang's house, and felt uncomfortable there, so he left after sitting for a short while.

Why did you leave back then?

He knew perfectly well that Lin Jiang wanted him to stay and talk, but because of his slight germaphobia, he left without hesitation.

He Gu's eyes began to redden. He had actually understood something, but he tried his best not to admit it.

It's as if nothing happened as long as you don't admit it.

It wasn't until He Gu found the empty box and the pile of random ointments that he had no choice but to believe it.

During the time he was trying to get closer to Lin Jiang, he stayed with Shen Ju, and they even took the final step...

My head started spinning again, and my vision went dark for a moment.

Lin Jiang looked at him calmly, "Don't bother looking anymore. Shen Ju just left this morning. He stayed here for many days."

This was the first time He Gu had ever seen Lin Jiang be so ruthless.

He slumped onto the sofa in a disheveled state, unable to control himself any longer, his whole body trembling.

My emotions collapsed instantly.

"you……"

"You and him..."

He couldn't even utter a complete sentence. His former rationality and upbringing had completely collapsed. Large tears streamed down his face as he tried his best to control them, and he could only gasp for breath to relieve the pain.

His Lin Jiang actually left him and got together with someone he had only known for a few months.

He covered his face tightly, trembling all over, and his voice, which he had managed to suppress, was shaky and barely audible: "How long have you known him? You're not this kind of person. Did he force you?"

Lin Jiang turned his face away, "It was my own choice."

He Hu suddenly picked up a cup from the table and smashed it hard at Lin Jiang's feet. The broken cup cut Lin Jiang's foot. He wasn't wearing shoes and stood among the shards, too afraid to move.

"You've only known him for a few days? How long have you been dating him?"

He Gu, devoid of his usual composure, vented his anger like a madman: "Lin Jiang, you've known me for four years. You got drunk at my house, and I didn't even touch you. Who is Shen Ju? How dare he touch you! You've given yourself to such a frivolous person? Are you crazy?"

Looking at the shards at his feet, Lin Jiang suddenly realized that in He Gu's heart, he might always be the one in the lower position.

I should be there for him whenever he needs me.

I should wait for him as long as he turns around.

Lin Jiang was frighteningly calm. He knew exactly what he wanted. "What's so crazy about adults? It's all about mutual consent."

He Gu really couldn't accept it; it was the kind of thing that would make him physically repulsed.

The mere thought of Lin Jiang letting others touch him made his head explode.

He would rather he had never come today, rather that Lin Jiang had happened than be told this, and rather he would rather know nothing and be kept in the dark.

He strained until the tip of his tongue bled, but it still didn't relieve even a fraction of the pain.

In this tug-of-war, He Gu always wanted to be the winner, but in the end, he lost everything.

Where exactly did things go wrong...?

He Gu didn't know, he really didn't know. For a moment, he really wanted to kill Shen Ju, to kill the person who dared to touch Lin Jiang.

He picked up the cup and smashed the second one hard.

After venting his anger, what's frightening is that he still wants Lin Jiang back by his side.

Tears fell in large drops to the ground. He felt as if his heart had been pierced through a sieve. He finally admitted defeat: "Lin Jiang, you are really ruthless."

The ground was littered with debris, a scene of utter devastation.

Just like the predicament He Gu presented him with, it seemed like only a few steps away, but in reality, every step was like stepping on a knife's edge, stained with blood.

Lin Jiang looked at the wound on his foot and said nothing. He knew that He Gu might never understand what it was like to love someone normally.

He picked up the pieces from the ground, trying to minimize the damage.

He didn't know how much time had passed when he heard He Gu's almost self-destructive voice: "Lin Jiang, break up with him."

He paused for a moment, then saw He Gu stand up, his former high spirits gone, replaced only by dishevelment and numbness. "He's childish. How many years can he keep this kind of passion?"

Lin Jiang remained silent.

He Gu suppressed his anger, "How long have you been dating? He's already so eager to take you to bed. Do you think he's someone you can entrust your life to? Do you think he's thought about your future? Can he take responsibility for you? You haven't even met each other's parents. How can you be so sure you'll be with him in the future?"

Lin Jiang had considered all of these things he mentioned. "This is my business, it has nothing to do with you."

Upon hearing this, He Gu finally couldn't hold back and smiled through his tears.

Yes, it has nothing to do with him. Lin Jiang made it very clear to him from the beginning, but why does he feel like he's going to die of sadness?

This was not the result he wanted, nor was it the ending he envisioned.

At first, he just wanted to test Lin Jiang's feelings; he just wanted to see how Lin Jiang couldn't let go of this relationship.

But there was nothing, absolutely nothing!

He was the only one who was deeply involved from beginning to end.

The more he tried to distance himself and pretend not to care, the more his suppressed emotions surged and consumed him.

I thought I would gain more, but I never expected that I would lose even what I had.

He even began to doubt whether Lin Jiang had ever truly loved him.

He Gu finally admitted that he had lost completely. He stood up and his mind went blank for a moment. He slowly walked over the fragments and came to Lin Jiang's side in a slump, and hugged him tightly.

He lowered his head like a loser, trying to go back to the way things were, and murmured softly, "Let's stop testing each other, okay? I was wrong, I know I was wrong, let's start over."

Warm tears soaked his clothes, and He Gu had a kind of self-deceiving madness.

Lin Jiang gripped He Gu's hand tightly. "Let go."

He Gu shook his head and hugged him even tighter.

The ground was covered with hard-to-clean shards of porcelain; every step was an adventure.

It was as if he had built a manor of thorns and roses for Lin Jiang, because he liked him and wanted to drag him into the same predicament as him, hoping that he would be trapped here just like himself.

He Gu kept whispering in his ear, "Lin Jiang, let's go back to the way things were? I don't want anything else, I just want you..."

"I haven't liked you for a long time, can you please wake up?"

Lin Jiang's voice was cold and cruel: "I'm Shen Ju's boyfriend now. Aren't you disgusted by holding me like this?"

He hugged him tighter, seemingly trying to restore him, but when he realized that he could not be restored no matter what, it was also the critical point when his rationality collapsed.

He gently stroked Lin Jiang's neck, breathing in the clean scent emanating from him. "Not dirty, not dirty."

He seemed to be convincing himself, constantly emphasizing, "You're just playing around with him, you don't really like him, and things won't last between you two."

He Gu released his hand and, as if handling a doll in a shop window, began to tidy his face. "I know what kind of person you like. It's okay. You're young and like to have fun. There's nothing wrong with having fun. I won't stop you from making friends with whoever you want in the future. Also, Shen Ju isn't right for you. You'll understand soon enough. I'll wait for you to come back to me."

Lin Jiang thought he was crazy and pushed him away forcefully.

He was a little unsteady from being drunk. He took a few steps back before he noticed that Lin Jiang's foot was cut.

Without saying a word, he picked Lin Jiang up from the ground.

"What are you doing! Let go!"

Lin Jiang struggled desperately, but He Gu, fearing the shards would hurt him, used terrifying force in his hands.

He carried him all the way to the sofa before letting go, and as soon as he did, Lin Jiang slapped him across the face.

He Gu didn't care that his face was red from being slapped.

He seemed to have regained his composure and sat quietly on the sofa.

Humans are calm, but their consciousness is dulled.

It took him a while to react. He touched his cheek and said, "Ouch, Lin Jiang, you really hit me."

Lin Jiang really didn't know how to face this person, but as a friend, he felt sorry for him.

But when he thought about everything he had been through, he felt that he had no right to sympathize with anyone.

He sat wearily on the sofa. "He Gu, I beg you, please leave. The door is over there."

He lowered his gaze, his fingers clenching tightly, his calm face concealing a turbulent undercurrent of emotion.

He suddenly laughed. "Do you also think I'm a madman? Lin Jiang, if even you think so, then I really am a madman."

Lin Jiang couldn't bear to turn his face away. "I never thought that way. I just think you're drunk and not calm. It's not the right time to talk about these things."

"When should we talk?" He Gu asked him. "I'm very calm right now."

"You've lost your temper." Lin Jiang's voice was angry. "First of all, this is my home. I didn't welcome you in; you came in on your own. Secondly, I'm already with Shen Ju. What do you expect me to do? Keep you in my heart while sleeping with him? You know I'm not that kind of person. If I accept him, it means I've completely cut ties with you."

"Why won't you admit that I stopped loving you a long time ago?"

Lin Jiang couldn't tell him that he had foreseen the future, that it wasn't what he wanted, and that's why he desperately tried to escape from there; he could never go back.

After he finished speaking, he saw that He Gu's fingers were turning blue from the force, and he didn't continue. "Go back and calm down first."

He Gu seemed to be really slow to react; it took him quite a while to nod.

Then he stood up, looked around blankly, wiped the glasses on the table, and put them back on.

He remembered that he should take something with him, but couldn't think of anything. In the end, he just took the roses from the table and carefully tidied up his disheveled clothes.

Lin Jiang reminded him, "Take the watch."

He Gu nodded, his eyes searching for a while before finding it. He picked up the box and put it to his chest, then carried the bouquet to the door and stopped at the entrance.

Lin Jiang thought he had something to say, but He Gu simply put down the flowers in his hand, picked up the trash can, squatted down in his elegant suit, and knelt on the ground to pick up the broken pieces for him.

He picked them up very carefully, afraid of leaving any crumbs; he even knelt on the ground and touched them with his hands.

Tiny shards of porcelain pierced his flesh, but he felt nothing. His optic nerves seemed to be paralyzed, and he couldn't even see the bleeding.

Lin Jiang kept his head down, refusing to look at him.

But in the end, the torment of his conscience became unbearable. He got up, ran over, and flung the door open, saying, "You can just leave now."

"Don't……"

He Gu looked like he was about to cry.

He knelt on the ground, his back hunched, and looked up at him with his hands covered in wounds. "Don't step on me."