Chapter 56 The absence of gloom truly means I no longer like it…

Yu Kui's tone was very calm, as if she just wanted to express all the questions in her heart, and there was no longer any disappointment or sorrow.

However, Qin You was speechless; he didn't know how to respond.

No matter what you say, you can't erase what has happened.

"I've never understood why you would treat me like this after all these years of relationship," Yu Kui thought. If Qin You hadn't come looking for her, this would have remained a question buried deep in her heart forever, but now she wanted to find out.

"Did I do something wrong? Or did I do something to hurt you?"

Why are you treating me like this, bullying me like a clown?

"No..." Qin You's fingers curled up, instinctively defending herself, "I didn't mean to, I don't know what came over me, if I had known, I definitely wouldn't have done that..."

Yu Kui was amused by this statement. She looked at Qin You with a smile and said, "When did you become so irresponsible? Or is this just your true nature, and I have never really understood you?"

Qin You dared not look her in the eye and kept repeating, "I'm sorry, Yu Kui, I have let you down."

"Thank you for telling me now that it wasn't me who was wrong, but you who let me down," Yu Kui said calmly. "Otherwise, I would have kept this question in mind forever."

“I’m not here with you today to catch up,” Yu Kui said, lowering her eyelashes. “I don’t want to hear your negative energy either. I just want to tell you that I’m not stupid. I know perfectly well what you and Tao Jiang did. You don’t need to pretend to be a victim in front of me, let alone want to go back to the way things were.”

"I once liked you very much and cherished our friendship. I gave you a chance to choose. If you bravely admit your feelings for Tao Jiang, I will not bother you and will sincerely send you my blessings."

"But you still chose to lie to me even though you knew I liked you. You and Tao Jiang treated me like a complete fool. You were like high and mighty judges, watching me being played around by you, and you were even smug and wished I would suffer more."

"You say you're my friend, is this what a friend should do?"

Yu Kui looked at him and said softly, "Even if we weren't lovers, we could have said goodbye properly, but you didn't even leave me with any dignity at the end."

Yu Kui was once troubled by his sudden change of heart for a long time. Filled with obsession, she couldn't understand why he suddenly became so bad, and she tried her best to win him back. But in the end, she realized that he hadn't suddenly become bad. It was just that she couldn't see his bad side before and firmly believed that he was her only destiny in this life.

But her dream had already been shattered.

"On the night my mother and I were preparing dinner and couldn't get through to you on the phone, in the autumn when I was running errands for Tao Jiang and couldn't see you, on the snowy night when you questioned me about Tao Jiang, in every minute and second you secretly exchanged messages on your phones behind my back, in the countless moments when you abandoned me... I should have politely left."

“No, Yu Kui,” Qin You raised her head, her voice trembling slightly, “I’ve already regretted it. As long as you give me a chance, I can make up for what happened in the past. We can start over…”

“Qin You, I sometimes think about our childhood. You didn’t have any friends at school, but I had a lot. I used to like following you around, trying to make you happy. Do you remember what you said to me back then?”

Things from too long ago, Qin You couldn't remember anymore.

Yu Kui said, "Back then, you told me that I could only have one best friend. If I played with you while also playing with other people, you would never talk to me again. You gave me a choice: whether to be best friends with you or to play with other people."

"I didn't understand what you were saying back then, but I wanted to make you happy, so I chose you to be my only friend."

"You once said that you only have one best friend, and if you betray them, you will lose them forever. This is a lesson you learned in kindergarten."

"I kept the promise I made to you when I was a child."

Upon hearing this, Qin You's expression changed drastically, and an indescribable pain welled up in his eyes. He finally realized what he had done to Yu Kui.

Those wounds couldn't be healed with just a few words; the extreme pain filled his eyes with tears. "Yu Kui, I'm sorry for what I did to you before. Could you... give me one last chance? I promise I won't break my promise this time..."

"Qin You, you've never really considered me a friend. You just want to control me."

"When I was little, you restricted my social circle and wouldn't let me play with other people. Even after you grew up and got together with Tao Jiang, you still wanted to deny me from a superior position, just because you didn't want to be the one in the wrong. So you used the most vicious words to hurt me, making me fall into a vicious cycle of self-doubt... Now, knowing that I used to like you, you still want to be friends with me again, want to take control of my life again, and pretend that the past never happened. Don't you think that's ridiculous?"

"Do you think I'm a kite in your hand?" Yu Kui's smile vanished completely. "Do you think I have to come back to you just because you pull the string?"

"That's not what I meant..." Qin You couldn't help but speak up in defense, "We can stop being friends and become lovers. As long as you're willing, I'll come to you no matter how far away..."

"Really?" Yu Kui was amused by him again. "Then do you think I look like someone who collects trash?"

She spoke very harshly, "Do you expect me to personally pick up trash that's fallen into a stinking ditch and treat it like a treasure?"

Qin You's face turned pale, his expression a mixture of anger and something else.

“I’ve said pretty much what you said,” Yu Kui said, showing no mercy. “Please don’t come looking for me again. We’re not friends anymore, and I don’t care to develop any other relationship with you.”

"My world is vast now. I have made many new friends, and I will have a great job and an excellent partner in the future. Speaking of which, I also want to thank you. Thank you for your past deception and belittling. It made me more discerning when it comes to men. I will never be taken advantage of again, and I will never be surrounded by scheming and manipulative women. Every classmate and friend is very kind to me. I will continue to move forward."

"Go to higher, farther and better places, and see scenery that is completely different from before."

"You're not there, and there's no one in your way."

Yu Kui stood up and looked at the snowy day outside. "I will meet many wonderful people, but I am already the peak of your life. From now on, you will start to decline. Thinking about this, I feel a little relieved."

You'll never meet another Yu Kui like her again, someone who's there for you when you need companionship most, takes you home when your mother's busy with work, buys you your favorite sneakers and figurines, and watches you grow up little by little...

From now on, you will never receive unconditional love again. Everything in the world will have a price tag, including friendship and love. No one you meet will be as foolish as me, accompanying you everywhere and doing silly things that make people laugh.

The worse your life gets, the more you'll miss every moment from the past.

But I will never look back.

All I lost was a wisdom tooth that had been causing me pain; it began to heal the moment it was completely extracted.

Seeing that she was about to leave, Qin You stood up and hurriedly said, "I still have something to tell you!"

Instinctively, she didn't want him to let go, so she blurted out, "I can explain everything you've said. I don't like Tao Jiang anymore. She's materialistic and vain. I should have seen through her true colors sooner..."

Yu Kui never expected him to push all the blame onto Tao Jiang, which made her see Qin You's true colors even more clearly. He was not someone she could entrust her life to; he was clearly more selfish than anyone else.

"What you and Tao Jiang do is none of my business, let's leave it at that."

She ignored Qin You and walked outside.

"Yu Kui!" Watching her receding figure, Qin You strode after her. "I know you won't believe anything I say now, but I won't give up. I will do everything I can to make it up to you."

"Qin You, do you want me to go to your mother myself?" Yu Kui stopped and said slowly, "Let me tell her personally not to let her son try to climb the social ladder. Our family doesn't even look at you."

"you......"

"What can you compensate me for?" Yu Kui said with a smile, "Your family is not well-off, so you can't compensate me financially. Your school is average, so your future development can't compare to mine. Your appearance isn't outstanding, so it won't make you look good when you're out with me. Anyone with eyes can see that we're not suitable for each other in any way. If you don't want things to get too ugly, then stop bothering me, or I'll definitely make you regret it."

Qin You's pupils contracted sharply. He never expected that the little girl who used to be so obedient to him would turn out like this.

"You!" He trembled with rage, about to question her about how she could humiliate him like this, when Yu Kui interrupted him, "Are you trying to say that I'm as shallow and vulgar as Tao Jiang?"

"And what about yourself?" Yu Kui asked, "What's the difference between you and Tao Jiang now? Continuing to pester me will only make me despise you more and more."

“I’m different from you. I don’t like wasting other people’s time or playing games with them. I like to move forward cleanly. Continuing to entangle me will only humiliate you. Don’t become the kind of person you used to hate the most.”

She looked into Qin You's eyes again, "Otherwise, you really won't be yourself anymore."

Qin You's throat tightened, but Yu Kui had already walked forward without looking back.

She had said what she needed to say, and from then on, there was no more gloom in her heart.

Qin You stood there, watching her retreating figure, so resolute and indifferent.

He finally realized that Yu Kui wasn't just saying things out of anger; she really didn't like him anymore.