Chapter 87 Chapter 087 "Nan Fei, I love...

The words "dissociative personality disorder" circled in front of Nan Fei and were deeply imprinted in his mind.

Looking at the report in the photo, which dates back more than a decade, Nan Fei quickly understood: "It's because his sister died, right?"

Xing Rui nodded: "I even told you this, but I didn't tell you about my illness..."

"However, Yan Nanxing's illness wasn't that severe. His mental strength was quite strong, and he was able to control himself most of the time. But in the early years, he couldn't accept the loss of Shannai, so he often allowed himself to become confused and distracted."

Xing Rui paused as he spoke. Some of the words were too harsh to be heard, and he wasn't sure whether to say them out loud. However, Nan Fei was too smart and was able to deduce the answer from just a few clues: "So the protective personality he created is actually his 'sister'?"

"More than one... He imagined Shannai growing up in his body, but after all, it wasn't her real self. Shannai's future was frozen. He imagined what she would like, what she would learn, and what path she would take."

Nan Fei suddenly remembered the question Yan Nanxing had asked earlier, so she asked again, "Shannai, do you have a favorite celebrity?"

"Ah, yes, yes, she's liked Teacher Lou Jing since she was a child..." Xing Rui immediately remembered, "Wait, is Ms. Lou your mother?"

Nan Fei nodded: "Yes."

The two faced each other in silence. Xing Rui felt that he had let the cat out of the bag. It was unlikely that Nan Fei would mistakenly think that Yan Nanxing had other intentions in approaching him because of this!

As he frantically considered his words, Nan Fei chuckled softly, "I understand."

No wonder Yan Nanxing was unwilling to tell him about this, and no wonder he was so unconfident when asking the question.

Yan Nanxing undoubtedly loved him, and her affection for him was beyond words. Moreover, the fact that Xing Rui had not had any illness in the past year or so as he testified made him even more convinced of this fact.

But the more I love him, the more I cannot face everything that I have added to him when I am not in my original state.

While Yan Nanxing loves him, she also loves her sister very much.

Regardless of whether he has the disease or not, he believes that some of his current characteristics and the attraction he attracts are inseparable from the influence of Shannai on him. He is very afraid that Nan Fei likes the characteristics he shows.

Shannai deserves the best of everything, but he doesn't. He is just a bad person who stole other people's lives. So when the fierce love comes, how can he dare to believe that this is what he can have?

Xing Rui asked hurriedly: "What do you understand? I think you two should have a frank chat and avoid any misunderstandings!"

"I've thought it through. Thank you for telling me this." Nan Fei held Yan Nanxing's hand in Xing Rui's horrified gaze. "There's no misunderstanding. Even if there is, I'll wait until he wakes up and tell him."

Seeing that Nan Fei didn't have any special reaction, Xing Rui felt a little relieved, and even wanted to reveal more: "In fact, he recovered very quickly from his first attack because he was discovered in time. When he showed up in a skirt, we took him directly to the hospital. Grandpa Yan hired the best doctors, and we also guided him to gradually find a way to keep Shannai alive, such as filming commemorative videos. He was fine for many years, until a few years ago..."

"I know he was being cyberbullied." Nan Fei said calmly, "The reason he got sick was because the target of the cyberbullying was Yan Shannai, right?"

"So you know everything." Xing Rui was surprised by Nan Fei's responsiveness, but this did make communication much easier. "Yes, Nan Xing has a very strong character. He doesn't care about the outside world's evaluation of him. If he wants to, he can handle it very well. His only weakness is probably the slander against Shan Nai."

"He...felt that if it weren't for him, Shannai wouldn't have received so much abuse."

This is also the reason why the account was completely stopped before and why we are now cutting ties with it.

Human nature is the most unpredictable. Yan Nanxing was once overconfident and thought he could control public opinion, but he was almost drowned because of a wrong move. So now he has restrained himself a little, and is cautious in every aspect and has various safeguards before he dares to start again.

"It could have been salvaged, but Nanxing was busy preparing for Yi'an's work, and there were obviously many jealous rivals getting involved. One person's power is still too limited, and he simply didn't have the energy to focus on dealing with it, so he lost control."

That was a low point that Yan Nanxing didn't want to mention. It was too embarrassing, too unbearable, even more devastating than the first time. During that time, whenever Yan Nanxing wanted to hide, Xing Rui couldn't knock on his door.

I don’t know what the reason was, but he was able to come out smoothly, open the door on his own initiative, and truly face the new life.

At that time, Xing Rui believed that it was a heavy burden that Yian could not let go.

But now, the long-lost loss of control seemed to have touched upon that secret reason. Xing Rui suddenly remembered that Yan Nanxing began to like listening to songs, and the playlist was filled with the same person's songs, as if it was two years ago.

From the car music to the automatic music player in the bedroom, it was the same voice every day. Xing Rui once asked who it was, but Yan Nanxing couldn't answer and just said that it was just playing casually.

Two years later, I participated in a variety show and got to know the singer whose name I couldn't remember.

Xing Rui suddenly understood, but he didn't intend to reveal the secret for the time being, leaving it to the young couple to resolve on their own.

But right now, there is still something very important that needs to be clarified: "So, what were you two doing just now?"

Nan Fei moved her lips, but found it difficult to speak out: "I confessed to him from the bottom of my heart, and then that's it. I don't think you want to hear the content."

"Okay, stop, that's it, I get it." Xing Rui already started to get goosebumps. As innocent as he was, he was not good at and didn't like to deal with private topics between lovers. He just found out that the facts were pretty much the same as he thought, so he felt relieved.

"Then I'll be leaving first. Thank you for taking care of him. It's nothing serious. He'll be fine after a good sleep once the medicine wears off." Xing Rui handed the medicine bottle to Nan Fei. "I only brought one bottle this time. I'll send you some new ones when I get back. I hope you don't have to use it again, but just in case."

Nan Fei took it and thanked him.

Well, it’s best if I never have to use it again.

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Yan Nanxing had a very deep sleep.

His consciousness was hazy and all his sensory functions were forcibly suppressed. The long-lost tearing feeling caused by regaining control made him gradually understand what had happened.

The frequency of the headache was very familiar. He counted his breaths while waiting for the pain to subside. When only heavy fatigue remained, Yan Nanxing opened his eyes.

He was lying on the bed in the hotel, and the sound of soft music came from somewhere, stimulating Yan Nanxing's nerves. He reached out his hand, but touched another person. He looked closely and saw Nan Fei lying on the other side of the bed with her hands covering her body. She must have been guarding him all night.

The sunlight outside the window was just right, and the melodious tune was particularly comfortable. Yan Nanxing moved slightly, but still woke up the person next to him. Nan Fei propped himself up reflexively, and when he looked up, he looked directly into the eyes of the awake Yan Nanxing.

He smiled happily: "You're awake."

"Well, good morning." Yan Nanxing gently put her arm around the back of his neck and kissed him, "Thank you for your hard work."

"It's nothing. It's my duty to take care of patients." Nan Fei stretched out his body as they moved further apart. "You can tell me anything. I promised you I wouldn't hide anything from you anymore. Shouldn't you show some sincerity as well?"

This was too obvious. What else could Yan Nanxing be hiding? He shifted his gaze slightly and immediately found the source of the music: Nan Fei's mobile phone music player.

After a closer look, it turned out to be a local music upload. The familiar voice and inflection habits, coupled with the unfamiliar yet beautiful melody, made Yan Nanxing pause and ask, "Is this your new song?"

"Yeah, that's right. I originally wanted to wait until the day of the concert to sing it for you, but then I think about it, since it was originally written for you, it doesn't matter whether I sing it before or after." Nan Fei got up and changed her clothes, then turned to look at him. "It can only serve as a lullaby."

"Xing Rui said you don't dream, but I thought, what if, if you can hear me, I hope you can dream of me."

These words really soothed people's mind and body, and since the person who spoke was Nan Fei, the effect was doubled.

Nan Fei did not mention much about what happened last night. This was a tacit understanding between the two of them. Since he didn't want to mention it, then he wouldn't say it. He was infinitely tolerant of Yan Nanxing, which was a reflection of his love for him.

Anyway, Yan Nanxing only needs to turn his head slightly to figure out how things will develop during the time he loses consciousness. Whether to speak or not is in his hands.

After taking the clothes handed to him by Nan Fei, he got out of bed and called out, "Nan Fei."

Nan Fei looked up.

It seems that he is planning to say it.

"I guess Xing Rui has told you everything. Any additions or explanations from me would be redundant. Besides, what they saw as bystanders should be clearer than my own confusing description." Yan Nanxing gave him a bright smile. "It's just that I owe you a precise answer to our conversation last night."

"Thank you for loving me so much."

Nan Fei blushed and suddenly began to stutter: "Thank you... Thank you for what..."

Yan Nanxing walked forward and suddenly held his face with both hands: "I said, thank you for loving me so much."

"I heard you. No need to repeat yourself..." The beauty surprise early in the morning, coupled with the serious and focused tone in her ear, made Nan Fei feel hot on her face and her heartbeat was unstoppable. She felt more and more certain of Yan Nanxing's presence. Suddenly, he continued, "Rather than thank you, I want to hear you say something else."

What to say? I've been saying words like "like" so often that I've lost my sensitivity, so the remaining choice is obvious.

Yan Nanxing chuckled, and as she lowered her head, her long hair slipped from her shoulders. Because the distance was too close, it directly fell on Nan Fei's face, making her feel a little itchy.

"Okay, let's talk about something else. Let me guess, what do you want to hear?"

Really...are you trying to tease me on purpose at a time like this?

However, the teasing did not last more than three seconds. The laughter stopped, and when Yan Nanxing raised his eyes again, he was so focused that he could see Nan Fei's appearance reflected in his pupils.

"Nan Fei, I love you."

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The author has something to say: Another major plot point has been completed [keep it up] The end is just around the corner!

If we push forward their careers a little bit, the story will end smoothly.