Chapter 51 Healing

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"My mother is a very gentle Omega. She and Tan'an are in a free love relationship, but their pheromone compatibility is not high, only 49%.

Their marriage was not favored by the older generation, but their peers thought they would grow old together.

However, it turns out that the older generation has more experience and sees more situations.

Tan'an's pheromones weren't highly compatible with my mother's, which affected the soothing effect during their susceptible and estrus periods. For example, while a highly compatible person might need three hours, they needed six or more, and the soothing effect wasn't necessarily very good.

Seventy years ago, a coup d'état took place. The Russell family was one of the five great families, while the Holochim family was the royal family at the time. However, for unknown reasons, the five great families united to dethrone the Holochim family. Afterward, the Russell family traded military power for the supreme position within the royal family.

Luo Wusheng, who was telling the story along the timeline, did not shy away from talking about what his family had done, and also made some guesses along the way.

"Tan An now deeply regrets his decision to win over the Ninth Army. His original intention was unwise. However, although I dislike him, I personally believe he is not someone who is short-sighted and only cares about royal glory while ignoring real power.

Therefore, I suspect that the reason he gave up military power and chose the royal family wasn't simply for the glory of the royal family, but rather because becoming a royal would bring him something powerful. As for his current decline, it's because he simply can't unlock that power.

That thing may very well represent the true imperial power, full of supreme power. Whoever possesses it can sit firmly on the throne and have absolute say.

Luo Wusheng would hide his ambition from others. Others knew that he was at odds with the emperor and his half-brother. Most of them thought that he was at odds with Luo Ningyou's death, which was indeed one of the reasons.

But another reason was the ambition that grew after his mother's death, and he had been paving the way for his ambition over the past decade.

He had only revealed his ambition in front of the Demon Lord, so naturally he would not hide it in front of Shi Hanqiao now.

One day he will find evidence that the Demon Lord and Shi Hanqiao are the same person. In this test, winning or losing is not important, it only depends on the length of time.

"Yeah, that makes sense."

"Hmm~ I have a habit of talking in my sleep, but after waking up, I won't remember what I said." Shi Hanqiao tilted his head and adjusted his head on the young man's shoulder to make it more comfortable.

The warm breath hit the gland, and the feeling was infinitely magnified. Luo Wusheng moved his shoulders uncomfortably, and couldn't help but curled up the corners of his mouth. His gloomy mood was also dispersed by Female A's "dream talk".

Back to the topic, Luo Wusheng was still in a heavy mood, but the haze gradually dissipated.

"Before and after the coup d'état seventy years ago, Tan'an was under considerable pressure. The low pheromone compatibility became his excuse for infidelity. At first, he tried to hide it, but when caught, he burst into tears and expressed his stress. But after so many times, it became an open secret, and his attitude began to change. He began to blame my mother, saying that their pheromone compatibility was too low, and her soothing effect was ineffective, which was why he ended up with Leia, who had a 98% pheromone compatibility with him."

"49% and 98%, can human love be calculated using data?"

Girl A's whispered doubt made Luo Wusheng pause for a moment, and the feeling he had after talking with Shi Qi emerged from the bottom of his heart again.

He chuckled mockingly, "Well, pheromone compatibility is what everyone considers love these days."

The huge mountain weighing on his heart, the fact that his pheromone compatibility with that of female A was zero, was easily pushed aside by her words. As proud as the Demon Lord was, not to mention that she had no concept of love now, even if she did, she would not be controlled by pheromones.

"That's quite ironic."

After Shi Hanqiao suppressed the war among the three realms, there were more exchanges between them, and many men and women got married. No one cared about their ordinary identities, but if the Demon King's child, or the child of a family in the Demon Realm, or a well-known disciple of Taoism got married, it would be known to all three realms.

The love-hate entanglements between the infatuated men and resentful women gave her a lot of good shows and helped her kill some boring days. Later, she realized that the marriages of those people could also be one of her means to balance the stability of the three realms. She intervened a few times, but later, the unfortunate people came to her for help. When she was in a good mood, she would take care of them, and when she was in a bad mood, she would drive them away.

Having seen so much, she naturally disdained the love that people of all races talked about. She thought she had seen enough absurd marriages, but she didn't expect the interstellar ones to be even more outrageous.

The Demon Lord listened with great interest, once again broadening his somewhat useless knowledge. But on second thought, she realized that this digitized pheromone matching was actually no different from the well-matched marriages she had witnessed in the world of cultivation.

"Yeah, it's really ironic."

Luo Wusheng had also fallen into a misunderstanding. Before he met Shi Hanqiao, he had already prepared for marriage. After all, with his status, even if he didn't want to get married, there would be countless people pushing him into marriage.

His marriage will be an exchange of interests, and he has made plans. He doesn't care who he will marry in the future because he has already prepared for an operation when he becomes an adult.

An operation that does not require any Alpha control.

However, he lowered his eyes to glance at the head resting on his shoulder, the lazy black hair falling on his chest.

He hesitated now.

"Then what?"

"What I found out about the following decades can be summarized in a few words. Leia became Tan'an's open lover. My mother tried to divorce but was unsuccessful. She was then trapped in the palace, focusing on her career until her death ten years ago."

These few simple words seemed to whitewash the pain the deceased had endured: betrayed by his lover, ridiculed by the world, and abandoned by his family.

Luo Ningyou's happiness ended after marriage. Free love ultimately lost to pheromone matching, and she was trapped in endless accusations and abuse, as if everything was her fault. When she finally pulled herself together and tried to escape, she was abandoned by her family and eventually trapped in the palace.

This kind of hardship does not refer to the restriction of personal freedom, but mental torture. It is precisely because she can go out at will, see the daily changes in the outside world like flowing water, and breathe the air of freedom that she will be more aware of how heavy the shackles on her are.

Afterwards, she didn't know how many years she was trapped in various kinds of pain, but she finally walked out. When a person loses hope, the long passage of time is torture, but when a person still holds on to hope, time becomes a slow but effective medicine.

With the help given by his family out of guilt, Luo Ningyou began to develop his own industry. His life went smoothly. It was only during the estrus period that he felt unbearable pain because he could not be comforted.

Tan An wanted to enjoy the best of both worlds and was willing to marry his wife, with whom he had once had some true feelings. However, the latter thought he was dirty and would rather endure the torture of estrus alone than be with him.

However, as the story spread, it became known that Luo Ningyou had a lover who she could not keep in the open, and for his sake she was unwilling to cooperate with Tan An even though they were in a state of disharmony.

It is not difficult to find out what happened before Luo Wusheng was born. The difficult part is to distinguish the truth from the false. Among the many groundless information, some are maliciously fabricated, while some are not groundless.

The only thing he could judge was that since he could remember, his mother had taken good care of him and nurtured and taught him.

When he was very young, Luo Ningyou's condition was very poor. She and Tan An's union was a permanent mark between them. The two had not been together for many years, and without the comfort of the permanent mark, their conditions had obviously deteriorated under the catalysis of time.

Therefore, Luo Wusheng knew from a very young age that he was not the fruit of love, but the product of his parents succumbing to physical constraints after being permanently marked by AO.

"What’s wrong with you?"

Luo Wusheng originally thought that he would find it difficult to say these words, but Shi Hanqiao created an environment for him to temporarily let down his guard. As these words came out, the scars on his heart were revealed, bringing with them heart-wrenching pain, but also the exhilaration of digging out rotten flesh.

Some of the things that bound him slowly dissipated, and fresh blood was flowing out of the wounds where the rotten flesh had been dug out. Only time would allow them to truly heal.

His mood improved, but he noticed the bad mood beneath Shi Hanqiao's silence, and the arm around his waist unconsciously tightened.

Isn't the existence of half-human, half-demon also a product of succumbing to biological desires?

Shi Hanqiao finally understood. No wonder she sometimes felt that the young man was similar to her past self, simply because their circumstances were similar.

The only difference is that she has become the Demon Lord that no one in the three realms dares to talk about, while Luo Wusheng is still working hard for his ambitions, and he doesn't know what monsters and demons he will encounter on the way.

"Thought of something."

Shi Hanqiao closed his eyes and adjusted the position of his head resting on the young man's shoulder. The Luo Wusheng brand human-shaped pillow was better than ordinary pillows.

The young man lowered his eyes, "What's the matter?"

"Now we're talking about you."

"Then..." the young man asked cautiously, "Can I have a chance to listen to your bedtime story next time?"

"Um."

The soft reply made Luo Wusheng's lips curl up slightly, and his eyes narrowed. He stretched out his hand to touch the long hair that fell on his left chest, but his white fingertips stopped in mid-air before they touched the black hair.

He has always been patient, and the self-control he once prided himself on always collapsed in front of Shi Hanqiao.

However, his cautious approach towards Woman A forced him to slowly lower his hand. The current closeness had already exceeded his expectations, so he had no choice but to suppress his desire.

"After I was born, my mother was in a very bad state. Sometimes she was gentle and patient, and sometimes she was manic and depressed. In the latter state, she would try her best to restrain herself and lock herself in the house so that I wouldn't see her."

Luo Wusheng had witnessed his mother's pain many times, and she was very clear-headed. Because of this, her pain was multiplied. All the pressure in the world seemed to rush towards his mother, enveloping her tightly.

He once thought that he was a burden to her, but it was not until his mother died that he realized that it was not that she did not love him, but that she was too tired, so tired that she could not even reconcile with herself.

"Ten years ago, it was my birthday, and also Ander and Liesen's birthday. A grand banquet was held in the palace in my honor, but anyone with a discerning eye could see that Tan'an was hosting it for his twin illegitimate sons."

Luo Wusheng's expectations for his father were completely eroded by the contrast between Tan'an's enthusiasm for the twins and his coldness towards him. In fact, he could just watch their family living in harmony and happiness without any reaction.

But the accident still happened, no, it should be said that the premeditated accident still happened.

That night, after the guests left, Luo Ningyou wanted to take the child on a starship back to the small building where he lived alone, but Tan An kept him behind because once they left, the wind direction would change again tomorrow.

Although it has become an open secret that he and Leia had an affair and gave birth to twins, he still wants to use Luo Ningyou to cover up their relationship.

This is not only a dispute between the three of them, but also involves the interests of the Russell, Blake and Luo families.

Due to various factors, Luo Ningyou temporarily stayed in the palace with her child for one night. Ironically, she lived next to her and Tan An's bridal chamber, while the emperor and his lover slept in the bridal chamber.

After the banquet, the entire palace fell silent. In the dead of night, the pheromones of Tan'an and Leia's intercourse drifted in from next door, permanently marking her Alpha as having an affair with another Omega next door. Even though Luo Ningyou had completely despised Tan'an psychologically and no longer felt any discomfort, her physical weakness tortured her with pain and embarrassment.

Although Tan'an's pheromones only made Luo Ningyou feel nauseous psychologically, she was still forced to go into estrus physically. The pain of estrus was not unbearable. After all, she had long been accustomed to it.

However, she had not expected that there would be an aphrodisiac fragrance accompanying it. The Omega, who was already forced into estrus, had his physical desires infinitely expanded under the catalysis of the aphrodisiac fragrance. Unable to express it, it exceeded the limit that the human body could endure, causing Luo Ningyou to die suddenly in torture.

During this time, Luo Wusheng had nowhere to turn for help. He first knocked on the door next door, but perhaps hearing his knock, the two people inside became even more violent and ignored him. Luo Wusheng, whose mental power surged due to his mother's crisis, sensed the fluctuations within the door, but for his mother's sake, he could only suppress the murderous intent growing in his heart and turn to his father, who was in the middle of making love with his lover, but was the only one who could quickly save his mother.

All the negative emotions were not as important as his mother's survival. Seven-year-old Luo Wusheng realized that his mother's condition this time was different from before. He was so anxious that he could only cry and beg Tan An to come out outside the next door.

But the emperor did not come out. He and his lover even continued a new round of lovemaking amid the cries of the child he and the queen had born.

The palace was eerily quiet. Luo Wusheng ran through the empty corridors, only able to hear his own cries. With no signal, he could only run outside the palace. Along the way, not a single servant or guard heard him. Or rather, they heard him but didn't dare to help.

He sent two specific messages for help in the weak signal, one to Shoudu Star Hospital and the other to the Luo family.

He really had no other choice. The medical building in the palace was closed. No matter how he cried and shouted, the people inside seemed to be unconscious and would not wake up.

The time of day and night is fixed, but Luo Wusheng felt that the night was endless. He had a sense of powerlessness and despair that the day would never come.

After sending the message for help, he rushed back to his mother. Seeing her tortured and constantly hurting herself, banging her head against the wall to fight the severe pain against the tide of emotions, the powerless feeling of drowning at sea came over him again. He could do nothing but use his small body to block her from banging against the wall, and kept comforting her with pale and powerless words.

"I'm sorry, I scared you again." The pain that broke through her limit was followed by numbness. Luo Ningyou was like a patient who had regained consciousness after a long illness. Her consciousness gradually regained consciousness. Her trembling hands slowly reached out to the young face, wanting to wipe away the mottled tears, but her strength was not enough to support her final wish. "I clearly decided that I would never let you see such a scene again."

She smiled helplessly, trying to offer the child a smile, but her pale face and frail eyes only accentuated her appearance. Seven-year-old Luo Wusheng sensed something, tears streaming uncontrollably. Her throat, aching from screaming for so long, was barely audible. The helpless wail muffled in her throat made her small body tremble.

He shook his head desperately, trying to tell his mother not to speak and to gather her strength to wait for the hospital and the Luo family to arrive.

But Luo Ningyou's eyes were both sad and penetrating, as if she understood what he wanted to say, and she just shook her head slightly.

"I... hope you can forgive me for not fulfilling my motherly responsibilities by bringing you into this world."

Luo Ningyou's gaze became distant. "Although it is really cruel to say this to you, I must tell you because I want to believe that you are a strong child who can withstand all this."

"The truth is just as the rumors say. I don't look forward to your arrival. I even hated you once. You are not hope, but the last piece of cloth covering hope."

Luo Wusheng couldn't stop crying. His sharp and intelligent heart had already noticed what was happening, but he pretended not to notice. After all, even though his mother didn't love him, she still raised him diligently.

Unlike the greatness of fatherly and motherly love that is known to everyone, a child’s love for his or her parents is hidden in the deepest part of his or her heart and only ferments and changes as he or she grows up.

He was now completely oblivious to his aching heart. He only knew that his mother's words, which sounded like a last will, made him uneasy and helpless. He shook his head desperately, wanting her to stop wasting her energy.

Luo Ningyou's eyes were filled with pity and love. "I have more to say than this, and my purpose is not to cast a shadow on your future because of these words."

"I failed to fulfill my responsibilities as a mother and made you suffer pain that you shouldn't have to endure too early. It's my fault that I couldn't give you a good childhood."

"I'm not asking you to forgive me, but I'm sharing my emotional journey with you."

"Your arrival was an accident. At that time, I couldn't even face my own situation. I couldn't even find the meaning of my existence. I had no way of shouldering the responsibility of being a mother."

"I really hate you, but I raised you out of my conscience and morality. I don't like you just because you're sensible and well-behaved."

"I know you're innocent, and that's why I suffer, because I have no one to blame but Tan'an. But the cause of my suffering must be something wrong, and I can't find that mistake, and there's no way to correct it."

"You are a really good child. I try to love you, but I can't, just like I don't love myself."

"But, just now, I understood the problem." Luo Ningyou's eyes were filled with tears. "I have reconciled with myself."

"I accept my mistakes in not judging people and understanding the world. I accept the fact that my family abandoned me, just as I accept myself now, suffering from physical torture and looking as ugly as an animal in heat."

"I was wrong. You weren't the one who blocked my last ray of light. You blocked the window, not the light. My light came in through the tightly closed window. I couldn't break the window at the time, so I wrongly blamed you."

"Now that I fully accept myself, I've regained my ability to love."

“But the person I want to love most is myself.”

Luo Ning closed her eyes and took a deep breath, as if gathering strength. She slowly opened her eyes and tried her best to steady her trembling hands as she stroked his face.

"I hope you... Never mind. I don't want to put any pressure on you. I just want to say, follow your heart and find yourself."

"I wish you a happy and fulfilling future, completely different from mine."

"You are the second love of my life."

"Third,..." Luo Ning's eyes flashed with longing, and his lips moved silently.

Her gaze slowly turned back to the child and she spoke the last words of her life.

"Shengsheng, Mommy loves you."

After saying this, Luo Ningyou closed his eyes and enjoyed the brief last moment that belonged entirely to him.

"mom!!!"

The huge grief overwhelmed the child, and the voice from the deepest part of his heart echoed in the room like a cry of blood. The little hand weakly raised the drooping big hand, trying to pretend that his mother was still stroking his face.

However, the gradually cooling palm made the seven-year-old Luo Wusheng realize death for the first time in an indifferent way.

The night that was so long that Luo Wusheng thought there would be no light anymore finally ushered in the dawn. Without time, everyone will pass away, and without everyone, the world will continue to turn.

The next day was a sunny day.

Seven-year-old Luo Wusheng looked coldly at the people walking towards the dawn light, his biological father and his lover, and then the people he could not call in the dark night. They all appeared during the day, diligently handling the corpses and cleaning the rooms, doing their jobs.

He didn't know how he left, he only knew that the day after Luo Ningyou's funeral, Leia moved into the palace openly.

Soon thereafter, he became the successor queen, and Ande and Liesen's status became legitimate.

"Later, when I thought back on it all, I realized it was all a premeditated action."

Luo Wusheng lowered his eyes. A clumsy, premeditated murder plan succeeded so easily.

Tanan believed Leia's explanation, and the world believed the royal family's explanation.

"Where's the Luo family?"

Luo Wusheng laughed at himself, Shi Hanqiao always grasped the key points keenly.

"I really didn't know at the time. Later, after I left the Luo family, I found out some things, but the old man protected me for a while, so I didn't want to think about many things."

Call him a coward or a coward, but he wouldn't touch the Luo family until he brought down Tan'an and Leia.

"Are you awake now?"

"Awake."

"Then..." Shi Hanqiao took a deep breath and opened his eyes, calming the waves in his heart that were surging from thinking about the past.

Just like Luo Wei comforted her before she died, she raised her head from the young man's left shoulder and stroked his slightly messy golden hair with her hand.

"Gone?"

The young man looked into her eyes intently and nodded seriously: "It's over."

Fresh blood will flow out of the wound where the dead flesh has been removed, and after time has passed and the scab has formed, the scar will turn into new flesh.

Luo Wusheng looked at the person in front of him. Unlike his mother who had suddenly repented, he was sinking into depravity with a clear mind.

But, I won’t lose myself.

Because it was she who made him firm in himself.

【Author’s words】

That night's talk was very important to their relationship. Mou Sheng is now certain that Qiao is the Demon Lord, but he has no evidence! He needs to find evidence to expose the truth.

Irresponsible Little Theater:

Mou Sheng: Aren’t you sleepy and talking in your sleep? Why are you still awake? →_→

A certain Qiao: emmm then I can barely dream about it←_←

Mou Sheng (implying): It’s late at night, and I’m awake…

Mou Qiao (sleepy): I’m really sleepy, let’s sleep together.

Mou Sheng was delighted, and then was pushed out of the door... They really went back to their own rooms to sleep!

One night after they were together, this matter was suddenly mentioned, and Mou Sheng remembered how angry she felt at that time.

Mou Qiao was silent, not saying a word... In TV dramas, a wife who brings up old matters will be kicked out of the room.

When Mou Sheng angrily lifted the quilt and sat next to him, Mou Qiao looked at him puzzledly.

Knowing what she was thinking just by looking at her eyes, Mou Sheng took the initiative to move closer, emitting pheromones to set the atmosphere before the midnight snack, and whispered in his Alpha's ear: I'm not stupid, what should I do if I kick you out?

Mou Qiao, who was emotionally slow but not stupid, darkened his eyes, turned over and pressed the seductive fairy under him.

Fighting while eating supper~

A happy life depends on sleep~

(Bushi, what am I writing...