Chapter 54 Chapter 54 Why did I come to this world? ...

Ji Qian’s short previous life was very happy.

With that kind of personality, he was indeed very easy to please. Half an hour before his death, he was happily preparing to have a barbecue with his friends. He was quite easily satisfied.

For him, there are too many things to be happy about. If he had to rank them first, second, or third, he really couldn't answer.

But what Chi Ke asked was "in this life".

That's easy.

Of course there is only one thing that is most worth being happy about in this life!

Ji Qian secretly rejoiced, and felt that he was a genius. The cheesy love words flowed out naturally like a spring, and he said: "Of course, the happiest thing in my life is meeting you, brother."

Chi Ke: “.”

This familiar line...

Chi Ke's smile deepened little by little: "Oh? Do you say this to everyone?"

At first he didn't take it seriously, thinking there must be some misunderstanding, but now, he was a little unhappy.

"How could that be? Of course not! I told you!" As his ears were being grabbed tighter and tighter, Ji Qian screamed "Ah hey hey" and doubted his life.

Isn't that right? Isn't that the right answer?

Is there a more perfect answer than this?!

"Brother, be gentle, be gentle!" He held Chi Ke's wrist in a flattering manner and rubbed it, racking his brains to think, "The happiest thing... um... I like you? Ouch! It hurts! This is not right? That is right at this moment... ah! It's still not right?"

Just when Ji Qian was puzzled, the hand that was grabbing his ear suddenly loosened.

Chi Ke let out a "tsk" sound, leaned back in his chair and looked up at the ceiling. After a while, he gently closed his eyes and pinched the bridge of his nose.

He thought: What am I doing?

If you have something to say, why not just say it directly or ask directly? Is it necessary to make such a fuss?

When did he become someone who likes to play charades on matters like this?

Chi Ke opened his eyes: "Are you sure you haven't told anyone else?"

"No——" Ji Qian suddenly realized something, and instantly felt extremely wronged and aggrieved for his ears.

No way…

The original owner wouldn't have said such a thing to Xu Lemian, right? !

Ji Qian got goosebumps all over his body and asked tentatively, "If I say I haven't told anyone else, will you believe me?"

Chi Ke naturally believed it, otherwise he wouldn't still be here feeding him fruit, but that didn't mean he was so magnanimous that he didn't even want an explanation: "Do you think you don't have to say anything?"

"That's what I want to say." Ji Qian sighed.

I just didn't expect it to come so suddenly and so quickly.

"But this is a bit complicated. There are so many people here. I don't know who will come to disturb us later. This is not a good place to talk about things." Ji Qian stood up and stretched out his hand to him. "Let's go back to your house to talk after we're done?"

This buffer time is within Chi Ke's acceptable range.

He did not extend his hand, but stood up on his own to straighten his clothes. However, after he stood firm, his breathing was irregular, and he felt very uncomfortable in his heart, and the temperature in his palms gradually disappeared.

Tsk.

Have you been staying up too late lately?

…It should be okay, right?

Chi Ke didn't want Ji Qian to be distracted and worry about him at this time, so he hardened his heart and didn't touch his hand. He said calmly: "You can put your claws down now."

Good at holding a grudge.

In Ji Qian's plan, if he stood up by himself, he would definitely pat his hand down indifferently, which could be considered as holding hands in the end.

He put his hand down in disappointment, but soon couldn't help laughing.

Chi Ke glanced at him; "What?"

"No, it looks good on you." Ji Qian took two steps forward, took off a white butterfly orchid-shaped decoration from his clothes, pinned it on his chest as a brooch, and said with satisfaction, "Just now I felt that this place was a little empty, and now it's just right."

The Phalaenopsis orchids on his clothes were originally a pair, but now they have been taken apart and placed on two people. Anyone who has seen the two of them should be able to tell at a glance that they know each other.

Chi Ke fiddled with the delicate petals twice, remembering that when they met for the second time in the amusement park last year, the ceramic brooch on Ji Qian's chest was also a Phalaenopsis orchid: "You like this kind of flower very much, what is the flower language?"

Ji Qian smiled and said, "I wish you happiness."

Chi Ke was amused by his straightforward and plain words: "Your Chinese level is comparable to Leng Baiyao."

"I didn't fail Chinese in high school." As someone who went abroad to study in middle school, Ji Qian said this without any lack of confidence, "It's OK as long as the meaning is right."

Just as he finished speaking, there were two knocks on the lounge door.

"Mr. Ji, Mr. Ji wants to see you."

"I'll be right there." Ji Qian replied, then asked Chi Ke for a strawberry before leaving happily.

Chi Ke looked at his back and searched the Internet for the flower language of Phalaenopsis. The two most well-known ones are:

【Happiness is coming. 】

as well as,

【I love you. 】

A carrier pigeon of good luck and happiness?

After Chi Ke liked the two answers, he turned the phone in one hand around, put it in his pocket, leaned on the edge of the table, and pressed down his heart which had been beating wildly since the beginning.

When Su Jinmian came in, she happened to see this scene.

She had just seen Ji Qian leave, and she teased, "What's wrong, Mr. Chi? Can't you suppress your excitement?"

Chi Ke: “.”

I've been thinking too much. This time I feel really uncomfortable.

He took a breath and said, "Why are you here? Is everything alright down there?"

"Leng Baiyao is dealing with it downstairs, I came up to take a break." Su Jinmian was so tired that she kept pounding her shoulders. "I'm so tired from being engaged, won't I faint from getting married? I haven't slept well these past few days, I'm really afraid that I'll die suddenly at such a young age."

Chi Ke had experience in this matter, so he sincerely suggested: "If you can't go to bed early and get up early, it's better to take a nap when you have free time, and drink less coffee and alcohol."

Su Jinmian put down the wine glass she had just picked up: "Did he get infected from being with the doctor for so long? I don't think Mr. Chi is the kind of person who would take care of his health."

"Maybe." Chi Ke relaxed for a while, but his heart was still uncomfortable. He returned to the single sofa with a little worry, said hello to several employees who were responsible, and planned to take a rest.

This lounge was well soundproofed and the air conditioning was not set to a very low temperature. Chi Ke didn't expect that he could fall asleep.

But it was an unfamiliar environment after all. Even if I squinted, I couldn't sleep well. Many bizarre dreams flashed through my mind. One moment I was pushed into the operating room because of a rapid heartbeat, and the next I woke up in the morgue. The next I stepped into another world to fight for resurrection...

When his heart was crushed by the big boss of the level, he suddenly woke up with a gasp.

"...Chairman?"

Su Jinmian was no longer here. Instead, the chairman was sitting in a corner of the lounge, leisurely making tea.

The light in the room was soft, and the scent of tea filled the air. Hearing his voice, Old Man Leng said without even raising his head, "Come and have a couple of cups to wake you up."

Chi Ke calmed himself down, walked slowly forward and took the teapot from his hand.

The old man knew that the tea he brewed was more fragrant than his own, so he didn't argue with him and chatted about family matters leisurely: "The matter between Bai Yao and Jin Mian has been settled today, and I feel more than half relieved. Jin Mian is a good girl, and I hope that boy will know how to cherish her. The two of them can cultivate a tacit understanding, and when they are officially married, I can also take a rest."

That's right...

Chi Ke was a little surprised. How could the chairman decide on the successor so quickly?

As if noticing his surprise, the old man sighed and said, "Yun Ting disappoints me."

After what Xu Lemian did tonight, Leng Yunting not only made things more difficult to resolve, but also failed to show any ability to consider the overall situation.

Leng Chengye could promise him a life of luxury, but he did not dare to hand over his huge family business to him.

"I wanted to give them more time, but unfortunately my own schedule doesn't allow it." The old man smiled bitterly, "I am old after all, and my health is not good anymore."

"How could that be?" Chi Ke frowned. "I've seen your previous medical examination report. You're very healthy."

"How could I let you see anything with problems?" The old man snorted, "I have already hidden the physical examination report from the beginning of the year."

"You..." Chi Ke took the green tea away, replaced it with health tea for him, and frowned, "Why did you hide it from me?"

"I didn't think it was a big problem at first, but I started to feel uncomfortable because I had more work in the past two months." The old man smiled bitterly, patted his heart, and sighed, "Coronary heart disease."

Chi Ke's brain buzzed and his wrist shook, causing the scalding hot tea to overflow from the cup and pour onto his palm.

He quickly took a tissue to wipe it, but the burned area became redder the more he rubbed it. The dense stinging pain could not be wiped away, which was more irritating than a lingering nightmare.

The old man didn't notice his abnormality and continued, "This disease won't kill you right away, but it's tormenting, and you don't know when it will suddenly go away. That's why I didn't call you when you fell asleep just now. In the past, I would advise young people to work harder, but now that I'm old, I feel that health is the most important thing. You're still young, don't let yourself get sick in the future."

Chi Ke pulled the corner of his lips stiffly: "Don't talk nonsense, Chairman, you are a lucky person, and living a long life is not a problem. All the gods are blessing you."

The old man laughed out loud: "It's hard for an atheist like you to comfort me like this!"

Atheist?

Chi Ke pushed the frame of his glasses to block the mockery in his eyes.

He was a true atheist in his previous life.

Even so, during those years lying in bed, he prayed to God countless times to give him more time.

In fact, he was never afraid of death.

Once he stood at the highest point of the pyramid, he could face death calmly, but he could not accept that he would lose everything like a waste and could do nothing but lie on the hospital bed and witness the passing of life.

Perhaps because he was not a devout believer and did not receive favor from God, his condition gradually worsened, and for a period of time he even needed a ventilator.

After that, he gave up struggling, accepted the fact that his life could end at any time, and finally stopped clinging to his ideals from earlier years.

As his entrepreneurial partners and friends said, let it go.

It's time to forget it.

That's all I can do.

Chi Ke understood Leng Chengye's feelings at the moment better than anyone else.

Coronary heart disease.

What a scary thing.

If I were to experience this again one day...

Chi Ke resisted the birth of this idea.

He found that he was now very reluctant to die.

So when the old man told him to take good care of himself and put his career aside, he nodded without objecting.

I worked so hard before because of my subconscious habits. Although I had decided not to be a fanatic for money and power, I still couldn't control my habits.

In his previous life, when he knew he would not live long, he wanted to fight for his ideals with all his might. He was unwilling to die in mediocrity, so he didn't care about his body. However, the human instinct for survival made him stay alive with the help of drugs and medical technology, so much so that he once hated his own contradictions and incompetence.

The more you can't get something, the more you want it. Your ambition gradually expands, but your ability is not enough to reach what you desire. This is really a painful thing.

But now he has a healthy body, plenty of time and a bright future, and cannot repeat the same mistakes.

He didn't want to die so early.

Mr. Leng said: "I have discovered your problem before. To be honest, as your boss, I am very happy that you can devote so much to your work, but secretly, I am still a little worried about you."

Chi Ke suits Grandpa Leng's preferences more than his two biological grandsons. He has sighed many times that he wishes this boy was a descendant of the Leng family.

Chi Ke smiled and said, "Thank you for your concern, Chairman. I will try to balance my work and life in the future."

The old man nodded with satisfaction: "Play more with the kid from the Ji family. He is simple-minded and easy to deceive. Carrying him with you is like carrying medical insurance with you. It is convenient."

Chi Ke: “.”

It’s true, from this perspective, it’s really a good idea to find a doctor to date.

"I'm going to the United States next week, so I'd like to trouble you to keep an eye on this place." The chairman didn't chat with him for too long. "I'm not worried about Leng Baiyao, but I'd like to trouble you to keep an eye on Yun Ting and make sure he doesn't embarrass himself again."

"Okay." Chi Ke nodded, "Tonight..."

"You should go home early after tonight. I have a driver to take me home. You don't have to follow me." The old man said, "You look so pale that you could almost work in the underworld."

Chi Ke: “.”

The old man has a sharp tongue.

He watched the old man take off his reading glasses, take out a small bag of medicine from his pocket, pour it into his palm and swallow it one pill at a time.

Leng Chengye's situation doesn't look very good.

I will probably never be able to get rid of drugs for the rest of my life.

Just like myself in the past.

Chi Ke didn't say much at this time. He said goodbye quietly and went to finish the banquet.

The two protagonists were so busy in the second half of the trip that they were hardly seen. After seeing off the guests, they went straight to the hotel to get a room to rest.

Chi Ke has a day off tomorrow and doesn't plan to stay here to rest, so he stands at the entrance of the parking lot waiting for Ji Qian.

The first time Ji Qian saw him, he frowned and stuffed a lemon candy into his mouth: "Why do you look so bad? Didn't you get enough rest?"

Chi Ke wanted to say "Nothing", but when the words came to his lips, the man's lost expression last time appeared in his mind, so the words took a detour in his throat and turned into: "Well, my heart was a little uncomfortable just now."

"You felt uncomfortable just now? Are you feeling better now?" Ji Qian quickly took him into the car, asked the driver to drive steadily, and pulled up the partition between the front and rear seats. "You don't look well. Come with me to the hospital for a test tomorrow morning. I'll sleep on your sofa today, and you can go to bed immediately after you get back."

Chi Ke shook his head: "The bad complexion now is not because of discomfort."

It was because Leng Chengye made him uncontrollably think of some unforgettable memories, which made him feel... very uneasy.

I can't say where the uneasiness comes from, but I just feel like I'm floating in mid-air. Although I can move forward, every step I take does not make solid ground. It feels empty and unreal.

Ji Qian looked at him and suddenly asked, "Do you want a hug?"

The question was asked very suddenly. Chi Ke was slightly stunned. After thinking about it, he nodded slightly.

Ji Qian didn't let him come over, but took the initiative to move over, hugged him tightly and patted his back, then let him go, put his hand on his shoulders and gently held him in his arms.

Chi Ke leaned on his shoulder and yawned comfortably: "You are so hot."

"I'll warm you up." Ji Qian pinched his neck, "Are you feeling better?"

Chi Ke said, “Yes.”

More than a little better.

People really like warm environments, not the scorching sun in midsummer, but the body temperature they can feel while snuggling in a quilt in an air-conditioned room in the hot summer.

Perhaps because he was too comfortable, Chi Ke suddenly asked without any context: "Ji Qian, if one day I get a terminal illness and can't move in bed, what will you do?"

"Hey, what nonsense are you talking about?" Ji Qian frowned and stuffed the Buddhist beads on his wrist into his palm, "Puh, puh, puh."

Chi Ke said “Pooh” three times helplessly.

Just when he thought that there would be no answer to this question, Ji Qian lowered his voice and whispered in his ear: "It doesn't matter. As long as you don't drive me away, I will stay with you forever, whether it's a hundred years for you or ten years for me, it's a lifetime anyway."

No matter whose life is, no matter how long or short it is, it’s good as long as you can finish it.

Chi Ke opened his eyes and raised his hand to touch his eyelashes: "If I die first, my last wish is..."

"I don't want you to have a last wish." Ji Qian grabbed his hand and restrainedly placed the back of his hand on his cheek. "Ten years of life have ten ways of living, and a hundred years of life have a hundred ways of living. Chi Ke, your desires should be controlled by you, and you are free."

Chi Ke couldn't help but curl up his fingertips.

He had always been reluctant to admit it, but the fact was that he had set a life trajectory for himself too early in his previous life, and had been obsessively demanding that he must achieve it, so for a while he was completely unable to accept the unexpected deviation.

But if we really talk about that future, I may not really like it that much.

His original intentions for working hard were, first, to enjoy the pleasure brought by money and power, and second, to have the ability to experience all the things that interested him.

Even though he fell ill, he still had a very remarkable position in the industry and achieved a certain degree of financial freedom, but it was slightly different from what he had initially expected.

But Chi Ke is not someone who can't afford to lose.

Later, he had already let it go and allowed everything that might happen to happen to him, such as death.

It is impossible to have no regrets in life, but he accepted the existence of regrets, and it was like there were no regrets.

Acceptance and letting go are difficult, but he did it.

The occasional memories are more like a sigh for the past than reluctance.

After his rebirth, he often thought about death, but even in the early days of trying to escape it, he had never felt as uneasy as he did today.

When talking with Mr. Leng, he thought that he was afraid of a relapse because he was afraid that he would not be able to get it in time.

After calming down and thinking again, he realized that he was actually afraid of death itself.

The emergence of this thought was not because of the past that had already been let go, but because there was a new future worth looking forward to, a future that was forcing its way into his side.

I don’t want to go down the short path of my previous life because I can’t bear to do so.

The uneasiness comes from the reluctance to part with someone.

Don't be satisfied with one year or ten years.

He wanted decades, a hundred years... or even endless and illusory lives.

This idea had quietly taken root in his heart a long time ago, and had grown wildly and recklessly. Later, it was beyond his control, so that by the time he realized it, his desire was already insatiable.

Of course he is free, and this does not conflict with his desire to break through rationality.

It's just that he was too greedy and wanted both, so he allowed himself to demand the other person's unreserved love without leaving any way out.

Chi Ke moved his fingers, and his cold knuckles rubbed Ji Qian's cheek, gradually turning it into a warm pink.

He leaned on Ji Qian's neck, half squinted his eyes, and whispered: "Promise me that you will never have any secrets from me."

Ji Qian cast a glance over and saw the skin of his collarbone that was reddened by his breath. He said in a low and hoarse voice: "I have a secret now. Do you want to hear it? I will promise you after you hear it."

Is it the very important thing I mentioned before?

"Out of courtesy, I should actually suggest that you reconsider it." Chi Ke said frankly, "But I'm not a gentleman, so I won't be polite with you."

"Hey, how can you be so shameless as to be so openly like that?" Ji Qian laughed, turned his head, kissed the pulse point of that wrist, and murmured, "It sounds like you might be a little crazy..."

He encouraged himself in his heart: "Chi Ke, I don't belong to this world."

“…”

The car suddenly fell into a very subtle silence.

Ji Qian waited for a long time but got no response. He thought to himself, could he really be considered a psychopath?

He mustered up the courage to lower his head, but opened his thin lips in astonishment.

Chi Ke looked at him quietly, with a barely detectable light red tint around his eyes.

If you don't look closely, it looks no different than usual.

But it is unbelievable that this situation happened to Chi Ke!

Ji Qian quickly hugged him tighter: "Why are you——"

"Why did you travel through a book?" Chi Ke's eyes, which had always been indifferent and lazy, trembled a little. "Why did you come to this world?"

His voice was so dry that even he didn't realize how wrong it was.

Ji Qian was speechless for a moment.

Then he took a deep breath.

He wanted to use this breath to suppress the emotions that were surging like a flood, but he forgot that the heater in the car was turned on very high. The heat poured into his chest, burning his internal organs.

Almost instantly, his vision blurred.

"What about you?" Ji Qian didn't know if he was choking, he just knew that it was difficult to breathe, "Why?"