Chapter 329 I had a miscarriage, didn't I?

Thinking about this, she suddenly found it somewhat amusing.

Yuwen Ye was indeed always honest and straightforward. He might conceal things, but he would never deceive; he might overlook things, but he would never give up. He always remained true to himself, from their first meeting, through their marriage, to the "transaction" on their wedding night. He was always like this, so clear-headed that he seemed unreal.

And I, I'm as stupid as a mannequin.

She found it all even more ridiculous when she thought about how she had foolishly believed he had raised an army with the Duke of Sheng, abandoning her and causing her to painfully give up everything, even willing to die.

Fortunately, when I confronted him, I kept saying that I was glad I hadn't fallen for him. If I had really been that clear-headed, how could I have been in so much pain when I thought he didn't care about my life or death?

Actually, I still feel the same way about him—

Thinking about this, she actually smiled.

It's time to wake up, it's time to wake up...

His gentleness and thoughtfulness, even his willingness to risk everything to save someone, are part of his personality, not something special about him.

The truly special person is in your heart, not necessarily by your side.

It's time to wake up...

For some reason, even though everything had been explained, Yuwen Ye felt a sudden chill when he saw Shang Ruyi's smile.

He frowned and said in a deep voice, "Shang Ruyi!"

Only then did Shang Ruyi raise her eyes again, glance at him, and say, "I understand."

"..."

"Thank you for coming to save me."

"..."

"Thank you for not giving up on me."

Yuwen Ye's face slowly darkened. He gritted his teeth and said, "After all I've said, you still want to be 'fair' with me? You want us to be even?"

"..."

Do you even understand—?

Before he could finish speaking, Shang Ruyi closed her eyes listlessly and whispered in a weak voice, "Yuwen Ye, things are fair between us."

"What?"

Yuwen Ye frowned, his heart skipping a beat.

The small space inside the carriage seemed to quiet down again. After a while, Shang Ruyi opened her eyes again, looked at him calmly, and said, "You said you didn't lie to me, and I admit it. You never seem to care about lying. You just—know how to hide things."

"..."

Yuwen Ye's breathing immediately became erratic.

At this moment, Shang Ruyi's eyes flickered with confusion, but she wore a pale smile and said, "I am clearly not injured or sick, so why am I so weak along the way? You didn't even let me feel a breeze."

A crack finally appeared on Yuwen Ye's cold and stern face.

When he looked down at Shang Ruyi, his expression seemed to show signs of pain.

He said, "As you wish..."

"besides,"

Shang Ruyi continued, "You've been giving me medicine all this way. I've tried calming and tranquilizing medicine before, but it doesn't taste the same."

"..."

"Why did you send Tushe'er and the others over beforehand to see the doctor? Were they there to make arrangements, or to tell the doctor not to discuss my condition in front of me?"

The more Shang Ruyi spoke, the more erratic her breathing became.

The hands that were holding her tightly grew even heavier at this moment, as if they wanted to melt her whole body into their chests, wishing that the two of them would never be separated again.

However, the body pressed against mine was still cold.

Just like now, Shang Ruyi's eyes were cold and sharp.

She looked at Yuwen Ye and said, "I've been guessing and thinking about it, until just now, when that doctor gave me the prescription, I finally understood."

"..."

"Hemp, Astragalus, Cuscuta, Rehmannia..."

She slowly recited the names of the few herbs she had only glanced at and barely recognized from the prescription, then said, "These are not medicines for treating seasickness or for resting."

"..."

"These are medicines for women to replenish blood and restore uterus after a miscarriage."

Yuwen Ye said, "You—"

Shang Ruyi smiled faintly and said, "You seem to have forgotten that I told you on the second day of our marriage that I once accompanied my father on a mission to the Turks and studied medicine with the shamans there."

"..."

"Although I have never taken this medicine, I can tell its name and effects just by looking at it."

At this point, Shang Ruyi's face turned even paler than before, but a chilling red tinge appeared at the corner of her eye.

She took a deep breath and said, "I miscarried, didn't I?"

Whether the wheels suddenly hit something bumpy or not, the carriage began to shake violently, just as the world of the two people was on the verge of shattering in this violent shaking.

At this moment, Yuwen Ye's eyes also turned red.

However, he held Shang Ruyi even tighter, as if afraid that she might leave him even slightly, and that he would never be able to touch her again.

He said, "As you wish..."

The sound was so painful, as if the person was about to break apart.

Shang Ruyi simply nodded.

Actually, she didn't need his answer.

The moment she saw the prescription, she understood everything. The reason she only asked now was because she was unwilling to admit that she was still lingering on his tenderness. She probably wanted to gather some strength so that she could calmly face this moment.

She miscarried.

When she was kidnapped by Wo Xue and taken to Chu Yang's side, she was pregnant with a child throughout all that happened.

Their children.

However, the child left before she even realized he was there.

No wonder she was so cold and in so much pain that night, and it seemed like the blood in her body would never stop flowing. She was in so much pain that she lost her mind and vaguely thought that she was just like the person who was falling in the sea of ​​blood in front of her, about to die and about to be swallowed up by the endless sea of ​​blood in front of her.

So, carrying her sword, she wandered aimlessly out of the Hall of Light, for at that moment, she had forgotten that she was still alive.

But it turns out that wasn't the case.

It wasn't her who left, but the child between them who shouldn't have existed.

He's gone.

He left silently, bringing her only a moment of pain, just as he had come into her life with joy.

But regardless of pain or pleasure, at this moment, it's time to wake up.

Shang Ruyi smiled, this time, she smiled genuinely. But unexpectedly, a hot tear fell from the corner of her eye, landing with a soft thud on Yuwen Ye's hand that was holding her tightly, turning into a crystal tear that disappeared instantly.

The same applies to the pain between two people.

It may have existed, but let it end where it should.

Shang Ruyi looked up at him. His face was still handsome. Even though such a handsome man had once been infatuated with her, Shang Ruyi knew that even if time could turn back, she would still be attracted to this face.

But I've given up.

She took a deep breath and calmly said to him, "Yuwen Ye, even the heavens are arguing that we owe each other nothing."