Chapter 153 Chapter 153 The Child Back Then

Just now, they were a little distance apart, so Xiao Hengzhi couldn't see it very clearly. Later, in the court, this guy's heart and eyes were full of the calm and composed young man. He could only see the other person's profile.

The shocking moment before had shaken Xiao Hengzhi deeply. Now that they were gazing into each other's eyes at a close distance, the familiar features and the physique that was taller and stronger than his brother's made Xiao Hengzhi look complicated.

If this body had been numb from the poisoning before, then at this moment, Xiao Hengzhi was shaking uncontrollably from the pain.

A long-lost, suppressed dull pain came over him, and Xiao Hengzhi stumbled back a step, unable to bear it.

"You..." Qin Run noticed Xiao Hengzhi's discomfort and was about to ask something when an urgent voice interrupted him.

"Second uncle, why did you come out? You scared me to death." Xiao Lin woke up and found that Xiao Hengzhi was not in Qingzhu Courtyard. He was frightened and hurriedly asked the secret guard and ran out.

When he ran closer and spotted Qin Run, the anxiety on his face was quickly replaced by disgust. "Second Uncle, what are you doing here? It's time to take the medicine. Let's go back. The scenery outside is not good. Be careful not to hurt your eyes."

here we go again.

Xiao Hengzhi sighed, "Xiao Lin, be mindful of the occasion."

Xiao Lin pursed his lips and glanced at Qin Run, completely ignoring Xu Yunfan's presence. "Second uncle is right. It's my nephew's fault. Second uncle, let's go back."

Qin Run not only saw but also heard that this man hated him.

But he had clearly never seen this man before, let alone offended him.

Being inexplicably disliked by others, Qin Run habitually wanted to find the problem in himself.

He lowered his head a little embarrassedly and looked at his body. Just when he was at a loss as to what to do, he felt warmth in his palm, and that warmth went straight to his heart.

Xu Yunfan was grateful to Xiao Hengzhi, but this did not mean that anyone around him could be sarcastic and target him in front of him, even if that person was Xiao Hengzhi's nephew.

Being sarcastic in front of him?

Oh!

Who doesn’t know that?

"Brother Run, we've thanked you, but why don't we just go back? There's someone here spewing shit out of his mouth, it stinks so bad I'm about to vomit. Let's go quickly."

Xu Yunfan originally wanted to say that there was a dog spewing feces from its mouth, but didn’t this indirectly include scolding the big brother as well?

"Who are you scolding? Who are you calling a jerk?"

Xiao Lin was not a fool, so how could he not hear that Xu Yunfan was making indirect accusations?

Seeing Xiao Lin jumping up and down, Xu Yunfan smiled and shrugged his shoulders in a scoundrel-like manner: "Did I mention your name? I don't even know you, why would I scold you? I was just saying it. If you have nothing to hide, why do you take it so personally?"

Xiao Hengzhi understood what Xu Yunfan meant by this sentence.

What he meant was simply that he didn't know Xiao Lin and never intended to scold anyone, but Xiao Lin inexplicably targeted him, so he was just retaliating.

That's fair.

This tone was so infuriating that if Xu Yunfan didn't look different from his second uncle, Xiao Lin would have thought that his second uncle had turned back into a child.

Xiao Lin was so angry that he wanted to speak, but Xiao Hengzhi waved his hand and said, "Xiao Lin, have you had enough of making trouble? Go wait outside for me..."

Xiao Hengzhi didn't say this loudly, and there was nothing special about his tone. It was just an ordinary sentence, but people who were familiar with Xiao Hengzhi's temper knew that he was unhappy.

Xiao Hengzhi's health was not good, so his temper had calmed down a bit, but that didn't mean he had lost his temper and became gentle.

"Sorry, second uncle, I was impulsive. I'll go out now." Xiao Lin didn't want to displease Xiao Heng. He was afraid that his fragile second uncle would vomit blood and faint in anger, which would be troublesome.

Xiao Hengzhi said to Qin Runqian: "My nephew, I'm sorry. My nephew offended me with his words just now. As an elder, I failed to discipline him properly and made him embarrassed."

He knew the name of the boy in front of him. After all, he had introduced himself when they asked the county magistrate to make the decision.

"It's okay. I'm used to hearing it anyway." Qin Run smiled indifferently. This person had just helped him and had already apologized. There was no need for him to dwell on such a small matter.

Another thing is that when Qin Run saw the person in front of him, for some reason, he felt an inexplicable sense of intimacy with the other person.

The phrase "I'm used to it" actually made Xiao Hengzhi feel very uncomfortable.

Xiao Hengzhi looked at Qin Run and Qin Feiyu, who looked somewhat similar, and couldn't help but say a few more words, "Don't take what outsiders say to heart. A brother is a brother, a man is a man, and a woman is a woman. What they think a brother should be like is not right. Don't take other people's spitting shit to heart. Otherwise, your heart will be dirty. In the future, if someone says something about you and you are unhappy, you can just say it back."

These words really sound like Xiao Hengzhi's.

"I think you're very good. Don't you know that the general of our Great Yan Dynasty is also a man? He looks stronger than a man. That's what a real man is, a hero with a strong character."

Xu Yunfan didn't know whether Qin Rungao was happy or not that his husband was praised, but he was happy anyway. He gave Xiao Hengzhi a thumbs up and said, "Oh, you have good taste. I also think my husband is good. What does it have to do with my husband's height, weight, and body shape? They don't eat their rice. They are just jealous. My husband not only has a good figure, but also a good personality. The most important thing is that he treats me very well. Oh, there are too many good things about him. I won't tell you in detail. After all, you are also a foreign man. It's not appropriate to tell you too much."

Xiao Hengzhi: "..."

It seemed like he never asked a single question. It was just this kid chattering non-stop from beginning to end.

When Xiao Hengzhi left, he subconsciously looked back at Qin Run and found that he was also looking at him. When their eyes met, he embarrassedly looked away. Seeing this, Xiao Hengzhi couldn't describe what he felt. Disappointment, reluctance and too many inexplicable emotions made him unable to look away.

I don’t know what Xu Yunfan, who is a little less good-looking than him, said to Qin Run. The guy who had his head down and seemed a little sad was coaxed by a few words until the corners of his mouth were almost grinning to the back of his ears.

The way and situation in which the two of them get along are really similar to how he and Qin Feiyu did back then.

It’s just a pity that he and Qin Feiyu couldn’t be together until the end.

Xiao Hengzhi lowered his eyes, hiding the disappointment in his eyes.

On the way back to Qingzhuyuan.

"Second uncle, why did you stop me just now?" Xiao Lin, who was following behind Xiao Hengzhi, asked gloomily.

Xiao Hengzhi asked back, "Shouldn't I have stopped you? Tell me, why bother?"

"I'm just angry and I don't accept it. If it weren't for him, my cousin would be like this now... Second uncle, you wouldn't have become like this." Xiao Lin was unwilling, but had to hold it in.

"I know you're feeling unfair for me, Xiaolin. You only see that I haven't been able to let go of what happened back then over the years, but when it comes to the child, does he have to feel any better than I do? He's not heartless, and his heart isn't made of iron. If it weren't for... he wouldn't give up that child. Do you think that if he gave up the child, he wouldn't feel any worse than I do? He's my brother, and like millions of other mothers in the world, for a mother, their child is their life, an existence they can sacrifice their own lives for. He's not necessarily better off than me, and the suffering he endures isn't necessarily less than mine, but he has no choice. On one side are the expectations of the family and the people, and on the other side is the child. Standing at that height, he has already ignored his children's personal feelings, and his duties made it even more impossible for him to make a choice. He simply chose to give up the child. This is not an unforgivable crime. It's my unilateral resentment towards the choice he made, so it's not his fault. Second Uncle doesn't want you to inexplicably target an innocent and poor person because of these things."

Qin Run doesn't owe them anything, nor has he done anything wrong. Why should he have to endure these unprovoked disasters?

Is it that Xiao Lin will target me just because I look like Qin Feiyu?

This is not fair.

It is undeniable that Xiao Hengzhi was displeased when he heard Xiao Lin say those words. When he saw Qin Run's hurt expression because of those words, he couldn't help but feel distressed.

For some reason, whenever he saw Qin Run, Xiao Hengzhi couldn't help but think that if the child had been born into this world well, maybe he would have grown up to be tall and strong like Qin Run and his father, or he might have grown up to be handsome and dignified like himself. No matter who he looked like, he would not be much different. After all, Qin Feiyu was good-looking, otherwise he would not have caught the eye of him, the face of the Great Yan Dynasty.

For a boy, those gossips are enough to hurt him completely.

Not to mention being spoken of like that in front of two handsome men, if it were any other guy, he would probably be so ashamed and angry that he would run away crying.

This shows that Qin Run is still very strong mentally.

But if this kind of strength is not innate, what kind of experiences did Qin Run go through in the past to become so invulnerable to swords and guns?

Xiao Hengzhi had no control over how outsiders treated Qin Run, but he didn't want his family to treat others the same way.

So, he got angry.

Listening to what Xiao Hengzhi said, Xiao Lin knew that he was right. "But Second Uncle, have you really let it go after all these years? Do you really not blame him? It was obvious that he didn't have to go back then."

Xiao Hengzhi was stunned by these questions.

He wanted to tell Xiao Lin that he had let it go and no longer blamed Qin Feiyu, but these words were too against his will.

Intellectually, Xiao Hengzhi could not find anything wrong with Qin Feiyu's choice, but emotionally, whenever he thought of the choice Qin Feiyu made, Xiao Hengzhi would feel a chill all over his body and a dull pain in his heart.

Back then, facing his pleading, Qin Feiyu finally chose the Qin family and chose to be the hero of the entire Dayan Dynasty, but cruelly rejected his plea.

This is how life is. No matter what choices you make, there will always be regrets.

Throughout history, if one could go to the battlefield three times out of ten, it would be considered a good thing, let alone a pregnant boy.

Xiao Hengzhi could guess without any hesitation what would happen to the child in Qin Feiyu's belly.

It's nothing more than a bowl of abortion pills.

It was six years later when Qin Feiyu returned victorious.

He became a hero that everyone admired, a great general appointed by the emperor to protect the country, and a rising bright star. Xiao Hengzhi should be happy for him, but unfortunately, he couldn't be happy.

They have already separated, and between them is the child he has been waiting for for a long time but has never been born. He cannot get over that hurdle.

Whenever he thought of the past, it was like a heavy burden weighing on him, making it hard for Xiao Hengzhi to breathe and on the verge of suffocation several times.

He didn't want to recall the past, but he couldn't help torturing himself over and over again when he had nothing to do and was asleep in the dead of night, recalling the past.

Qin Feiyu returned to Beijing, and the topic about him has remained hot in the capital.

Even if he didn't ask specifically, Xiao Hengzhi could hear from outsiders that Qin Feiyu adopted the child of a deceased deputy general. It was said that after the deputy general died, his wife couldn't bear the blow and died after premature birth. Qin Feiyu felt sorry for the child and adopted it.

People who had the good fortune to see the child said that the child was in poor health when he was born, so Qin Feiyu ordered people to feed the child cow's milk and goat's milk every day. Perhaps it was too much supplementation, for a boy who was only six years old looked stronger than a little man.

Xiao Hengzhi had never seen it and was not interested in it. They had broken up six years ago when Qin Run chose to leave Beijing. Now he was his bad guy and Qin Feiyu was his general. They kept to themselves. Isn't that good?

There are many things that seem to have been well thought out and have seemed to have been let go on the surface, but Xiao Hengzhi still finds it difficult to let go and is upset.

His relationship with Qin Feiyu has never been made public, and Qin Feiyu didn't even inform him in advance about Qin Feiyu's request for troops to fight.

The war cannot be delayed.

Today, Qin Feiyu obtained the emperor's consent in the court and would leave Beijing the next day and return to the Qin Mansion. Qin Feiyu was very busy. Xiao Hengzhi sent people to pass on messages again and again, but each time, Qin Feiyu did not send anyone to reply to him.

It was not until midnight that Xiao Hengzhi could no longer wait. He thought it would be easier to get things done in the dark and windy night, so he dared to climb over the wall and enter the Qin Mansion to avoid being seen.

They parted on bad terms that night, and Xiao Hengzhi was ambushed on his way home in despair and sadness.

Xiao Hengzhi was so angry at Qin Feiyu, and was sad about his unborn child. He was upset and disheartened, so how could he remember to stay vigilant?

In January, the entire capital city was filled with freezing cold at night.

Xiao Hengzhi, who was ambushed and fell into the icy lake, knew he was no match for the assassin and could only pretend to be dead. After the assassin thought he was dead for sure, Xiao Hengzhi waited until the assassin left and then he climbed out of the lake.

That night, the entire Xiao Mansion almost exploded.

It’s nothing, it’s just that Xiao Hengzhi almost died.

Xiao Hengzhi clearly remembered that when he was in a daze, he still begged his elder brother to ask Qin Feiyu to see him for the last time.

At that moment, he thought he would not be able to survive. At that time, he did not think of his parents who raised him, nor of other relatives. In his last look, all he wanted to see was Qin Feiyu and the unborn child. Even if he could not see the child, it would always be good to be closer to him.

But Qin Feiyu didn't come.

Qin Feiyu did not come. When Xiao Heng heard the news, the despair he felt was so deep in his heart that he still remembers it to this day.

Perhaps he was unwilling to give up, or perhaps he wanted to ask Qin Feiyu why he didn't come, he held his breath and survived tenaciously.

Although Xiao Heng's men survived, they were poisoned and had been soaking in the icy lake water for too long, allowing the cold air to enter their bodies and damage their foundation, leaving them unable to survive.

So, not only was he unable to keep his only child, he had now become a "eunuch".

This was undoubtedly a fatal blow to Xiao Hengzhi, who was only in his early twenties.

A talented and romantic man in the capital, such a proud man, became a eunuch overnight, and even his body was ruined. With such a gap, Xiao Hengzhi had thought about ending it all, but in the end, he miraculously calmed down.

Over the years, Xiao Hengzhi dragged his broken body and drank bowl after bowl of pitch-black, hard-to-swallow medicine. If it were anyone else, they would have collapsed and given up on living.

But he didn't.

Xiao Hengzhi didn't know what he was holding on to. Whenever he couldn't fall asleep due to pain in the dead of night, he would sit by the window, looking at the stars, thinking hard, but he couldn't figure it out.

It’s hard to say who was right or wrong, or who let whom down, in what happened back then.

Qin Feiyu has his mission. He may not understand it, but he cannot blame him for it.

Love will disappear, vows will become invalid, and when you cling to something for a long time, you will find in the end that it was all just an obsession.

Perhaps, what he was waiting for was just an explanation from Qin Feiyu.

But that bastard Qin Feiyu has been back in Beijing for several years, and I don't know what he is busy with. He has never come to see him once. He is so cruel. Qin Feiyu said that he liked me and loved me so much that he even said he would put his life in my hands. I thought that men would get bored with the old and love the new, but I didn't expect that Qin Feiyu is no different. He doesn't know how to cherish what he gets.

Xiao Heng gnashed his teeth in anger, secretly hating himself for being blind and being deceived by Qin Feiyu's sweet words. Not only did his tender white cabbage get taken away by this pig, but he didn't even know how to cherish it?

If I were not blind, I would have everything I wanted just for my face, so why would I hang myself on this tree?

It is not easy to find a man who is as good-looking as her and who is in love with her. Qin Feiyu did not know how to cherish her, and he will regret it in the future.