Chapter 47. Backtracking

If you become a believer in causality, you will never be able to achieve happiness due to the constraints of the past.

Ruan Tang called Xu Wei to ask her what she was going to do about Fu Bei. She wanted to advise her to stay away from that kind of person, but Xu Wei said what she wanted to say first, asking her not to get involved in this mess again.

She seemed to have just finished exercising, and spoke with a slight wheeze as she warned: "You were bitten by a vicious dog, so you can't bite him back, right? Listen to me, leave it to me."

But a few days later, Ruan Tang received a call from the hospital.

The nurse said the patient had a mild overdose of sleeping pills and that Xu Wei had saved her number as an emergency contact, so she asked her to come over quickly.

Overdose of sleeping pills? Ruan Tang, who had just woken up, woke up instantly. She imagined countless scenarios unfolding in her mind. Her legs were so scared that they went limp. She didn't even have time to change into her pajamas or slippers. She threw down her toothbrush, called Feng Xue, and ran out.

When she rushed to the emergency room, Xu Wei was lying on the bed with her eyes closed, receiving an IV drip. The nurse said she was asleep and not to disturb the patient's rest, but Ruan Tang saw that she was as pale as a piece of light paper, so she insisted on going up to her, holding her hand, and testing the temperature of her palm before she felt relieved.

After being held by her, Xu Wei slowly opened her eyes. She stared at the ceiling and took a long breath. She turned her head to see Ruan Tang's bitter face with a red nose. She suddenly smiled and joked: If I had slept a little longer and opened my eyes to see your expression, I would definitely think that I was having a last breath and was about to die.

However, she didn't liven up the atmosphere. Ruan Tang still had a sad face and slapped her on the back of her hand: "I'm scared to death. What are you doing? Are you taking sleeping pills randomly?"

"Hiss..." Xu Wei frowned and took a breath.

Ruan Tang then noticed the needle hole on the back of her hand. Perhaps the nurse had pricked her hand several times but couldn't find a vein. So she hurriedly grabbed her hand and rubbed it, her expression still looking like she was there to collect a debt.

"I was... busy. I took a pill before going to bed, but forgot about it when I went to the bathroom and answered a phone call, so I took it again. I guess I didn't eat much all day, so I had a big reaction." Xu Wei blinked innocently, revealing one of her rare moments of submission.

Ruan Tang just fell for it. Unable to hold back her expression, she glared at her with a helpless smile, then got up and went to the hospital cafeteria to buy her breakfast.

Xu Wei said that she didn't eat foods that were full of carbohydrates and quickly raised her blood sugar, but her hands honestly stuffed two leek and egg dumplings into her mouth and drank a big mouthful of millet porridge.

She ate something and looked much better. Seeing Ruan Tang looking at her while she was eating with a look of satisfaction on her face, she suddenly asked: You have never told me about you and Fu Bei.

Ruan Tang hesitated for a moment, pulled a chair closer to her, and whispered: Actually, I didn’t want to mention this anymore.

Before she could finish, Xu Wei put down the millet porridge in her hand and swore: I will never use it as content material for public accounts or any social platforms again, please rest assured.

Ruan Tang was not afraid that she would write it down, but it took courage to recall those memories again.

"I had just arrived in Beijing when I met him, and my understanding of society was still very limited at the time, so I always feel that he guided me from a little girl to a real woman. Before him, I never knew that a man with no relationship with me would spend so much money on me. He told me that I deserved it. He even asked a master to read my horoscope and said that my fate was destined to rely on men for wealth and status. I know that when you first met me, you must have thought I was materialistic and money-worshiping. Over the years, I didn't think there was anything wrong with that, and there were also some other influences. Now, looking back, it feels like he cast a spell on my brain."

"Now I really don't know how to handle the material aspect of a normal relationship."

"Weiwei, is it like in the TV show? Fu Bei is my heart knot. Only when I untie this knot can I live a normal life?"

Xu Wei looked at Ruan Tang, lovingly tidied up the loose hair on her temples, and said: I read Adele's psychology book before and it said that any experience itself is not the reason for success or failure. We are not suffering because of the so-called psychological trauma. What determines ourselves is not the past experience, but the meaning we give to this experience.

Ruan Tang lowered his eyes and pondered for a moment, then looked into her eyes and asked seriously: Are you saying that it was not him who shaped me, but that I used him as an excuse to cover up the fact that I am a materialistic and money-worshiping person?

"Of course not," Xu Wei shook her head. "Everyone has desires, and there's nothing wrong with facing them. It's just that he magnified your desires and might have given you the wrong guidance."

It would be a lie to say that she wasn't sad. She originally thought that this reunion was a chance given to her by God. As long as she slapped that man, she could completely break away from this past of constantly scheming against him and start a new life. But Xu Wei said that he was just making up an excuse.

"So you really plan to pretend nothing happened and work with him to finish this show?"

Xu Wei shook her head while biting the steamed bun, swallowed hard, and said in a firm and loud voice: Of course it can't be forgotten.

"I heard your voice in the corridor. Fortunately, it's nothing serious." Feng Xue came in carrying a big bag, nodded and greeted Xu Wei, handed it to Ruan Tang, patted her on the back of the head gently, and said: Hearing you speak so anxiously, I guessed that you must have run here without even changing your clothes and shoes, so I went back and brought it to you.

Ruan Tang turned around and saw his hand still behind her head. She rubbed her cheek against his palm and was about to speak when she suddenly saw Jia Yingjun walking in right behind her.

She turned her head and looked at Xu Wei, only to see that she had suddenly closed her eyes and started pretending to sleep again. She smiled helplessly, stood up, took Feng Xue's hand and said, "Come with me to change clothes."

When the two came back, Jia Yingjun was sitting upright beside them, while Xu Wei was still lying straight on the bed. The two seemed to be fighting, and neither of them was willing to move first.

Ruan Tang walked up to Xu Wei and tugged at her sleeve, saying, "Stop pretending. I just asked the doctor, and he said you don't need to stay in the hospital for observation. Go home and pay attention to your diet, and don't take any more medicine in the near future."

Xu Wei hadn't reacted yet, but Jia Yingjun protested, "Why don't you need to observe her? An overdose of sleeping pills can be fatal. She's still unconscious. I'll have my secretary arrange for her to be admitted to the intensive care unit."

As he took out his cell phone and was about to make a call, Xu Wei suddenly sat up, smiled at Jia Yingjun with a rosy face and refused: Thank you for your concern, Mr. Jia. If you have the resources in the hospital, you can consider enrolling yourself in the psychiatric department.

Jia Yingjun pinched his eyebrows and said: Teacher Xu gives me surprises every day, and my mood fluctuates greatly. I really need some counseling from a psychologist.

Xu Wei smiled and retorted while biting her back teeth: Then you can choose to block my related messages and stop hanging around like a stalker of mine.

When talking about illegitimate fans, Jia Yingjun's expression became obviously a little unnatural. Ruan Tang looked at Feng Xue in confusion, only to see him shrug at her in confusion.

He then smiled and shook his head: That won’t work. Teacher Xu is our company’s KOL and is now a guest on our brand-sponsored variety show. Of course I have to give him my meticulous care and attention.

Ruan Tang:?

Xu Wei:?

Ruan Tang looked at Xu Wei and found that the expression on her face was 90% the same as her own.

Jia Yingjun adjusted his tie, smiled faintly and said: Yes, that's right, I now have double the sponsorship, and in the near future you will be reading our brand's announcement on the show.